Mencius-Quote Of The Week

Quote Of The Week

This week’s quote is by Mencius.

Mencius

I have always felt this way since I was young.  I have never been close to anyone that I was related to by blood, and I have always looked at friends as if they were my family.  I don’t have much else to say about this quote.

What do you think of this week’s quote by Mencius?

Digiprove sealCopyright secured by Digiprove © 2016 Margaret Margaret

Familly

Family

Just because someone is related to you by blood does that mean they are family or can family be the people who you surround yourself with that truly love you and want the best things for you?

Digiprove sealCopyright secured by Digiprove © 2014 Margaret Margaret

I Am Thankful

Thankful

This week for the writers workshop I am going to write about number 4 which is something you’re thankful for this week.  I chose this one because Thanksgiving is coming up in the United States.  I see on Facebook that people post one thing each day that they are thankful for so I figured that I would post a few things I am thankful for.

  • I am thankful that I have a job and through that job I am able to have health insurance.
  • I am thankful for my grandparents who are letting me stay with them because I don’t make enough to pay rent and I make too much to live in the low income apartments. (Even though some people think that I am staying there because I am lazy)
  • I am thankful that the Multiple Sclerosis isn’t as bad as it could be and that unless I tell you I have it you can’t tell because I don’t “look sick”.
  • I am thankful that I learned the the majority of my family is full of shit and I can ignore what they say because it doesn’t matter.
  • I am thankful that my grandparents took my brother and I in when we were younger and that they raised us.
  • I am thankful that I only had to work 3 days this week so I get a 4 day weekend.

Those are just a few things I am thankful for today.  What are you thankful for today?

If you want to be apart of the writers workshop you can click here and find out all about it!

Mama’s Losin’ It

Digiprove sealCopyright secured by Digiprove © 2013 Margaret Margaret

Respect

Respect

My brother had his gallbladder out on Sunday and I wanted to write about something here because I see a lack of it respect for choices that others make regarding their own bodies and/or lives.  I love people sharing information with me but I get tired of people trying to push their views on me and others.  Everyone makes different choices because everyone is different.

For example I know now my doctor doesn’t totally agree with some of my choices but she has left it up to me.  She tells me her opinions and what she would do if she was me.  I have seen a lot this going around and it upsets me because everyone makes choices based on their own lives and their own situations.

This doesn’t have to do with just health things but anything going on in people’s lives.  I have stopped sharing most things on Facebook because I get tired of people judging and/or trying to push their views on me and my other friends.  I came to realize while I was pregnant what it feels like to be judged and I try my hardest not to judge anyone.  I know that we all judge people on some level but I do my best to keep in check because I know how it felt to be judged and it is an horrible feeling.

I have friends in my life that I don’t agree with their choices but I do respect them and I also allow them to live their lives as they see fit.  There is no way that everyone in the world will agree with what you do or how you do it but people need respect their choices.

Digiprove sealCopyright secured by Digiprove © 2013 Margaret Margaret

Changes Over The Last Year

Wow this past year has changed me in so many ways. I can’t even imagine where I would be if my life hadn’t changed that much.  I am going to write about the changes over the last year for me and some of the people in my life. All the changes has been so good for me and also for the people that are in my life.

It was this time last year that they let Misti go at work. I still remember the day they let her go like it was yesterday even though I still wish that is was just a bad dream and that I could wake up for it. I don’t know that it will ever be the same here without her being here. It is even harder to wrap my head around the fact that she has had a baby and is now a mother.

Also anyone who has followed my blog from the start will know that my daughters birthday is coming up and that always makes it a tough time of year for me. I am finding that this year is going to be harder than some of the past years have been. It is always hard to gauge how a year will be for me but I think this is going to be hard for me.

Well that was quite the tangent so lets get back to the post. Other than those things I am still pretty much blogging about the same things. I really haven’t changed what I blog about because I have always just blogged about my life and for the most part my life doesn’t change that much.

How has the past year been for you?

Mama’s Losin’ It-Changes over the last year

Digiprove sealCopyright secured by Digiprove © 2012 Margaret Margaret

What Is Multiple Sclerosis


I am sure  most of you know that I have Multiple Sclerosis (MS).  I was diagnosed when I was 15 or 16.  I know that many people don’t know anything about MS so I am going to write a little bit about it in order to help raise awareness to the disease and to open peoples eyes to what this disease is.

  • Multiple Sclerosis is what they call an autoimmune disease.  This means that the persons immune system for some reason decides it is going to attack some part of the body instead of only attacking viruses and things like that.   In MS the immune system decides it is going to attack the nerves of the CNS (central nervous system).  The CNS includes the brain and spinal cord.  They are not sure what triggers the immune system to think that part of the body is a invader and needs to be attacked.
  • MS symptoms happen when the immune system attacks the myelin around the nerves.  If you think of your nerves like a wire the myelin would be the protective covering around the wire.  If the nerve underneath the myelin gets hurt that is what causes the symptoms and some times causes permanent disabilities.
  • The body tries to repair the damage that is done but it is never the same. Once the nerve is damaged it won’t ever function the same again.
  • There are a lot of different symptoms that go along with this disease.  I am going to list some of the most common ones: Fatigue, problems with walking, numbness, tingling, slurred speech, tremors, stiffness, problems with vision, cognition, speech, and elimination.  Every person with MS has different symptoms. Which makes some people wonder if everyone that has MS actually has the same disease or if it isn’t a few different diseases that just get grouped in with MS.
  • Anyone can get MS.  Women are more likely to get it than men and so are people with a lighter pigmentation to there skin.  So Montel Williams who has MS is a real rarity.
  • They think MS has a genetic link but they aren’t sure what it is.  In my case there is no one in my family history of it.
  • You usually get diagnosed between the ages of 20-50.  I was a rarity and was diagnosed at age 15 or 16.  Although younger patients are now getting diagnosed because doctors are starting to look for it at a younger ages.  I have noticed though that I have had lots of activity show up on scans but I haven’t had many flare ups that people could see.  In fact if I didn’t tell you I had MS and what symptoms I do have you can’t tell I have it all.
  • MS is rarely fatal.  Most of the time people with MS with get a common cold of the flu and that is what will end up taking their lives.
  • There are several treatments out there that each do things differently.  I am on one called Tysabri and it is the most expensive and most dangerous of the drugs.  All of the current MS treatments are expensive and it makes it hard for people who don’t have insurance or even with insurance to afford.
  • It has been shown that treating the disease helps  to stop the progression of the disease but since all the treatments are so expensive there are many people who simply can’t afford to treat the disease.
  • There is always new treatments in the works and exciting things happening in research that hold so much hope for future generations.  They came out last year with the first pill you can take once a day for treatment.  Up until the pill came out all the treatments were either shots or an infusion.
  • There is currently no cure for MS.

I think I  covered most of the major parts of the disease but if you have questions or want any more information please let a comment and I will answer your questions!

Digiprove sealCopyright secured by Digiprove © 2012 Margaret Margaret

Letter To Brita

This post was originally posted last year during National Adoption Month.  I have updated it and I feel that this can still help other birth mom’s out there.

I had another post scheduled for today but after reading some blogs by couples are looking to adopt and watching a music video I knew in my heart that I needed to post this.  As I am writing this I am crying but it is something that I hope will help heal me in time.

It is national adoption month and it has hit me hard.  I have found blogs of great couples looking to adopted and I can’t help but get sad when I read them.  I feel so bad for them and yet it brings my own pain of being a birth mom up again.  It is something I haven’t totally dealt with because it hurts and no one likes to hurt.  I can’t believe my daughter is 6.  Right now it seems like just yesterday and I placed her for adoption.

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Dear Brita,

I can’t believe you are already 6 years old.  I remember like it were yesterday being pregnant with you and you pushing your feet so hard in my side that I would push it back and you would push even harder.  I remember the months of being sick while I was pregnant and finding out who where true friends and who weren’t.  I can remember going into labor and not wanting to be because I wasn’t ready to say goodbye yet.  I knew once you were born I was going to have to say goodbye and I didn’t know  how I was going to make it through saying goodbye.  I can remember watching you with your parents and know I was making the right choice but that didn’t make it hurt any less.  I can remember handing you to your dad and them walking out with you in their arms.  I remember the pain but I also know that it was the right option for you.  If I could go through it all again I would because I know without a doubt that You are where you are supposed to be.  I hope you grow up happy.  I would say and loved but I know they love you with all their hearts.  I hope you never doubt the love I have for you.  I will always love you no matter what you do.  I placed you because I knew I couldn’t give you what you deserved in life.  You deserve so much more than I could ever give you!  I know you will do great things in life and that is why I placed you.  In closing know that I love you and miss you everyday!!!!

Love,
Margaret

Digiprove sealCopyright secured by Digiprove © 2011 Margaret Margaret

Crazy. . .

What a week I have had. It has been crazy and I have hardly had the time to breathe let alone post to my blog even though I have so much to update about. As you can see I never got Freaky Friday Follow up this week either. It will be up next Friday just ran out of time this week to get it all set up. Anyway, My grandpa’s brother died on Sunday night and that has left most of my family depressed. My grandpa also lost his oldest sister just over a month ago. It has been a rough month to say the least. To top off my crazy week I have also started talking to the birth father of my daughters as well. I have always wondered what could have been with him and I but I wasn’t in a place to talk to him again. My daughter turned 6 in July and it has taken me six years to get to a place where I was no longer mad about going through it all alone. It is crazy how things have changed over the years. I am also amazed that it took 6 years for me to realize that how it happened was the best way for it to happen.

I started this post  last week and I am just now getting around to finishing it. All I can say work is crazy right now and so is home life.  As far as talking to my daughters father again I am not sure what will become of that.  I am a firm believe that people are in your past for a reason but I truly wonder what would have been if things had been different.  I hate the not knowing.  I do wonder what can happen but at the same time I am scared to find out.  It doesn’t help matters that he is on the other side of the country either. 

Okay I give up this post  will just have to be ended here because I don’t have the time to finish it!  I hope everyone is having a good week and be on look out for my new design site and some great giveaways coming when I launch the site!  Also I have a great post about my idiot husband to write up as well.
PhotobucketMyFreeCopyright.com Registered & Protected

Sunburn

Today for the Writers Workshop I chose to do #1 which is: It was a bad burn. Tell about the worst sunburn you ever received. How did that happen!?!

The worst sunburn I ever had was when I went to Georgia to visit my mom’s dad and step mom in the summer of 2001 with my little brother.  We drove with my grandparents up to South Carolina to meet a couple of her siblings that we had never met because we were raised by my dad’s parents.  So one day my Aunt took my little brother and me to a Six Flags park where we spent the whole day on the rides and what not.  Me being the idiot I am decided that since I had never burned before that I would be okay and I didn’t need to wear sun screen.  Well I was super wrong on that part.  I have only been burnt like that once and I will never do it again.  It was super painful and I was super sick for the next few days.

I looked last night for a picture of it but I couldn’t find one to scan in so hopefully I will have one in a few days for everyone to see!

Sick & Tired Of People . . .

I am super tired of people saying something and then not doing it!  This is happening a lot with a certain person and let me tell you I am so done with it.  If they don’t get it soon they will be cut out of my life for good because saying something and not doing it is the one thing that truly gets on my nerves.  I am the type of person that always does what I say I am going to do.  I just don’t get how people can say things that they have no intention of doing.  This was always a problem in my marriage as well.  He would always say he was going to do something or even call me and he never would.  He never seemed to get why I would get mad at him.  If you are going to waste your breath saying it then you should follow through with it that is for sure.  If you have no intention of doing something then don’t waste your breath saying it!

Ok that is enough of that rant.  I hope everyone had a great Easter.  Mine was lonely because my grandparents decided they were going to go on a cruise right now.  I made my own boiled eggs and my grandma did put a few things in our baskets and hid them from us until today when she called and said where they were.  It was really nice of her to do something like that.  My brother got a pair of North Carolina shorts and grandpa made her give me money back that I had been paying my brother for the laptop that Josh now has.  He made told her to give it to me because he knows how much I am struggling with playing all the bills and that credit card that Josh has run up to over $10,000 but that is a whole other post.

I hope everyone has a great Monday!!!!!