Multiple Sclerosis Tuesdays-Vitamin D

I have decided that I am going to discuss MS on Tuesdays now because I have had interested in telling more and educating people.  Please tell me what you would like to know more about and things like that.  This week I am going to do a post about Vitamin D because it seems to be the big topic this week.

I follow a blog and he wrote a really good post about it.  I have heard this before but it seems like the drug companies don't want to hear about it so it get silenced pretty quickly.  They are starting to see that people with MS are usually low in the Vitamin D.  They are saying that we should take more than the recommended 200 IU that they recommend.  Now that scares me because I do know that if you take to much Vitamin D it can be toxic because it is stored in your fat.  They say that you can't get to much Vit. D if you are out in the sun.  One MS doctor told me that he thinks sitting in the sun for 20 minutes a day is better for you than taking the pills.  They say that taking 1000 IU a day of Vitamin D will also help protect you against cancers.

There is a higher occurrence of MS in states like Utah and other places where we have winters without much sunlight.  They are starting to see that people that live in places like that should be taking Vitamin D during the winter and even in the summer if you don't go outside very much.  I also read an article when I was reading things for this post that says smoking makes you have between a 30-80% chance of getting MS.  I can't help but wonder if my parents smoking when I was little didn't have something to do with me developing MS.

That is all I have this today.  Like I said in the beginning please let me know what you would like to know more about.  I will be trying to do this every Tuesday.  I hope this will be helpful and maybe I can help someone.  Have a great day.

I Won!!!!!!!!!!!!

I found out today that I won my first giveaway!  Now I am sure you are wondering what I won aren't ya...I won a copy of 31 Days to Build a Better Blog.  Beth gave it away when because she posted her 1000th post.  She has an amazing blog and everyone should check her out.  I am still in shock that I won because I never win anything.  I am super excited to start this.  I am probably not going to do it all in a row but work at it a little bit at a time.  I can't wait to see what I learn from this all!

A Blog & Twitter Hop

Guest Post Friday

 

Resentment or grudges do no harm to the person against whom you hold these feelings but every day and every night of your life, they are eating at you”

Norman Vincent Peale

Have you ever experienced hurt or pain because of the actions or words of another? If you have, you know that often these wounds leave us feeling angry, and bitter. If those wounds were inflicted when we were children, we often carry those feelings around with us for years and years. We end up paying a higher price than the person who hurt us, because the anger and bitterness invades every part of our lives. Instead of feeling optimistic and happy, we feel anger, are upset, and depressed. Instead of looking at the positive, wonderful things that surround us daily, we focus on how we were wronged. With so much focus on how badly we were treated, it becomes very difficult for us to find contentment and peace.

Wonderful changes can take place in your life if you can learn to let go of your grudges.

• Healthier relationships. You will be able to develop relationships that are not clouded by negativity. (I have a better relationship with my family than I ever had before.)
• You mind and soul will become healthier.
• Because of not being so angry all the time, you will feel less stress and anxiety.
• If you have to take blood pressure medicine, you may be able to stop, because your blood pressure will come down.
• You will have fewer symptoms of depression and anxiety, and in some cases less chronic pain. (I had serious problems with irritable bowel syndrome and gastroparisis. My symptoms have almost completely gone away since I have let go of my anger and bitterness.)
• With less mental pain, there will be less feelings of needing to self medicate. This will lower any chances of alcohol or drug abuse.

There are things we can do to let go of our feelings of anger and bitterness.

• Make a commitment to yourself to work on forgiving the person/s who harmed you.
• Recognize the value of forgiveness and how it can positively affect your life.
• Take some time to reflect on the facts of the situation, your reaction and how they have affected your life, your health and well being.
• When you believe you are ready, actively choose to forgive the person who wronged you.
• Move away from being the victim and release the control and power that the person who harmed you has had in your life

As you let go of your feelings of anger and bitterness you will find that you no longer define your life by how you have been harmed.

I know it is not easy to find forgiveness for people who have deeply hurt us. I know that some wrongs against us are harder to let go of than others. I know that sometimes we need help to let things go. In no way, do I want to make it appear that this process is easy, or make light of it in any way. The truth is we must let these things go, even if it takes years for us to accomplish this. I can tell you from my own experience, that once I was able to let go of my anger and bitterness my life changed drastically for the better.
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Writers Workshop

This week I picked topic number  3.) "It was as if an invisible thread hooked her to her boy. The thread could go taut or slack but it could never come undone, it could never reach the end of its spool because there was no end; it bound them forever." What does unconditional love mean to you?

I picked this one because it is easy for me to write about.  I placed my daughter for adoption when I was 20 so I think I definitely have a view on what unconditional love is. Unconditional love is doing something for someone else even if it is going to hurt you.  I think most parents have this for their children.  Even when children mess up and do something wrong.  They may be mad and disappointed but in the end they still love you.  I say most parents because I don't believe that my own mother loves me unconditionally but that is another post.

Anyway back to the subject at hand.  I love my daughter so much that I was willing to let her go and go to her family.  It hurts but to this day I still love her.  I can't wait for when she is older and wanted to get to know me.  It will feel so good to know that she can see that I made the best choice for her.  I love her unconditional and nothing she could do would change that.
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Random Dozen & Day 18- My Views On Gay Marriage

1. What is your favorite Mexican dish?
I love them all!!!
2. When you were a kid, did you get started on your homework right away after school, or did you procrastinate?
I always procrastinated because I didn't really care if it got done.  Most of the time it did get done but I always put it off and I still do this when it comes to my college work.
3. What is your favorite store for home furnishings?
Ikea
4. When you were young, did you like school lunches?
Yes I did.  In fact I would have rather had one from school than home.
5. Is religion a crutch?
For a lot of people yes.
6. In your region, what is the "big" (most popular in the community or state) high school sport?
Football or Basketball
7. Do you consider yourself rich?
Nope
8. Which of these would you have the best chance for success in administering:
A) CPR
B) Heimlich Maneuver
C) Changing a flat tire

9. Which dance would you prefer to learn & why:
A) Salsa
B) Hip Hop
C) Waltz
D) Swing
I looks like a lot of fun
10. What's the worst news you've ever delivered to someone?
I was a CNA so I had to tell people when their loved ones passed away.
11. Name something you learned in college that had nothing to do with classes or academics.
How to surf the web!
12. New variation on an old question: If there's a song in your head that just won't get out, what is your favorite (or most repeated) line in that song?
I don't like any song that gets stuck in my head.  They all drive me nuts!
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Today's topic is hard because I don't know where I really stand on the issue.  This is one issue where I go back and forth.  I don't think being Gay is right but I also don't judge people that are gay.  As long as I am not forced to watched or see it then I don't see a problem with it.  I am tired of hearing about all the debates going on with the whole issue.  It is getting old.  Either pass the bills or don't but stop arguing about it!
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Day 17-A Book That Changed My Views

I am a big reader and I don't know that I have read a book that has changed my views on anything.  I have read a lot of books that have opened my eyes to things but not changed my views.  Right now I am reading Dog The Bounty Hunters first book.  I am amazed by how much he has gone through and yet still has his faith.  So it has made me realize that I need to be strong in my own faith even when life totally sucks for me.
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Check This Contest Out

The girl that designed my blogs is having a launch party for her business!  Everyone should drop by and check it out!  She does a great job and she has tons of cool prizes!
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From Wacky Jacqui's Designs:
I am going to have a week long launch party event. I finally have a launch date for my website and I’m excited. There will be prizes given out by me and 25% off my 2 largest packages. This event will be from August 23rd to August 30th.

Now on to the prizes I will be giving to lucky winners.

3 winners- Custom Made Buttons
2 winners- Pre-made Design Package
1 Winner- Animated Header
2 Winners- I Heart Blogging Package
3 Winners- Custom Made Twitter Background

GRAND PRIZE-
A Blog make over that include everything I can do.
• 2 or 3 column design
• Custom background
• Custom header (basic or animated)
• Matching font color
• Sidebar titles (unlimited)
• Custom signature
• Custom post divider
• Social network icons (unlimited)
• Convert to a 3 column layout (if needed)
• Custom blog button (2 included)
• Matching profile picture
• Navigation bar with text or images
• Matching twitter background
• Favicon
• Deletion of Blogger navigation bar if desired
• Installation

Total of 12 prizes to giveaway.

Rules to enter:
Mandatory Entry- Follow this blog. You can only enter each prize only once AND you must write a post about the prize you want to win in order to enter. You must include the link back to the post you wrote about. Make sure you leave your E-mail so I can contact you.
-Sorry no multiple entries-

Please help spread the word for this event I am hoping this will bring me more traffic and more business. If you would like to donate any prizes to this event please let me know at [email protected]

Want learn more about Jacqui? Keep reading to hear what she has to say:

1.) What got you interested in Blog Design?
What got me interested is that I couldn't find any "pre-made" designs out there that I liked for my blogs so I started to create my own. I started to learn the HTML of it all and got to work on creating my own designs. soon after I started to do little designs for blogger friends and it just took off from there. One of the people I was creating for told that I should start my own business. From then on I have been working on it.

2.) What kinds of things will be happening during your launch party?
Prizes, 12 Prizes will be given away: Buttons, Animated Headers, some packages and i will be giving away as a grand prize "Every thing I Can Do" blog re-design package.
also if you would like to purchase any of my 2 largest packages within the week of my launch party they will be 25% off.

3.) What is the one thing that you would like your potential clients know?
As of right now I'm only doing blogger blogs. Wordpress will come soon but I want to learn everything about blogger designs before I start on Wordpress.
I make fresh and clean designs, I want to make your blog to look amazing. I don't mess with the template much so your page will not take forever to load like other designers layouts do. If you mess with the codes in the template a lot, or have a really complicated template installed your page will load really slow, and readers do not like that. they want to go on to your blog and read not have to wait 1-3 minutes for your whole page to load.
I DO NOT ask for your Blogger password at all during the design process. I don't not feel comfortable giving my password out to anyone so I would not ask you to do the same. I know that people contact me about this and when I tell them that I don't need the password to install the design they are shocked since all the other designers ask for it. From what I have seen with other designer sites are that I'm the only one that doesn't ask for your password. (and I'm the cheapest and I give you a whole lot for bang for your buck).
I will make your blog look the way you want, I will involve you into the process also. I will send you everything little thing i create for your approval, if you don't like the font i will change it. if you do like it at all I will create something that you are happy with. after I have installed your design and let say a month passes by and you want me to change the font or want it to say something else I will change it for you at no cost to you. I want to make you the buyer happy no matter what.

4.) What should potential clients know before contacting a blog designer? Before contacting a blog designer you should know what you want, and the feel you want for you blog. so you want it to reflex what you blog about (being a stay at home mom, giveaways, hobby's) ; do you want it to have a certain theme (stars, clouds, flowers); and what colors do you want it to have. If you don't know what you want or any ideas you have for your blog I will help you in any way I can, I'll try to get ideas from what you already have as a blog design or what you write about.
You should feel 100% comfortable with the designer before you purchase and ask questions if you have any before buying.

HOPE TO SEE YOU THERE!

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My Poor Knee's

I am going to be starting again where I left off when it comes to the 30 days of truth.  I haven't done it in a few days but I am getting back on the bandwagon but today I am going to post pictures of what happened yesterday when my legs decided to stop working and I fell.

Those are the best pictures but lets just say they are killing me and so sore.  I had a hard time sleeping because every time I would turn over or the blanket would rub up against it I would wake up.  The left one is super swollen and is the most painful.  The MS makes my legs just give out and stop working.  A lot of people with MS use wheel chairs because you never know when your legs are going to stopping working.  To top it all off I ruined my favorite pair of jeans!!!!!!!

Guest Post Friday

Editors Note:  Melissa is an amazing person.  I have gone through some of the things she has and her blog really helps out.   It helps me see that I am not the only one that goes through what I am going through.  This post today funny enough is something I need to hear and yet I just asked her to write about whatever she wanted to write about.  I invited her to post once a week if she feels up to it so this is her first post!  I hope you all enjoy her as much as I do!
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Since this is my first time guest posting over here, I thought I would introduce myself. My name is Melissa Mashburn and I blog over at Sugar Filled Emotions. I am very excited about Margaret giving me the opportunity to guest post on her site. I have gotten to know her on Twitter and my life is that much more blessed by having her in it.

"Be gentle with yourself, learn to love yourself, to forgive yourself, for only as we have the right attitude toward ourselves can we have the right attitude toward others."

Wilfred Peterson




The most important relationship you will ever have is with yourself. Most of us have heard something similar to this at some point in our lives. Yet, how seriously did we actually take it? I know I gave little to no thought to the notion of loving myself for most of my life.

What does it actually mean to love yourself? I believe that loving yourself is not really so much of a feeling as it is a decrease in self doubt, self loathing, and unforgiveness of yourself. Loving yourself means that you take your well being seriously. Doing the necessary and practical things that you need to do to take care of yourself.

It seems simple. Yet, so many of us find it so difficult. We are hard on ourselves. We dislike who we are. We do not think we are worthy of anything good, and we find it impossible to forgive ourselves, even when we have done nothing wrong. When we have a poor relationship with ourselves it taints our other relationships.

People who have a healthy amount of love for themselves usually have certain characteristics:

• They tend to focus on feeling good.
• They allow themselves to feel happy and enjoy sharing it with other people
• They treat themselves well.
• They do not allow others to mistreat them.
• They are caring and supportive of others, because it makes them feel good too.
• They put themselves first so they can better take care of family and friends.
• They find a quote, motto or thought that resonates with them and practice it. (I made my own personal motto)
• They allow themselves to succeed.

Developing love for yourself can start with something as simple as having the intention (desire) to love yourself more. However, at some point after you gain that desire, it will become necessary to follow it up with some action. It does not have to be anything big or drastic. In my opinion, baby steps work the best, especially if you are anything like me and have spent the better part of your life not loving yourself.

One of the first things I did when I was learning how to love myself was to take some pictures of myself to share with others. For the last few years, I have hated how I looked. I disliked having any pictures taken of me, and there was no way I would post an accurate picture of myself even on Facebook. I thought I was clever in the way I got around having to do it. I would just post old childhood pictures. The time came when I decided to take a chance and let everyone "see" the real me. I knew that it would be impossible for me to like any serious picture of me, so my daughter and I worked together to create the silliest pictures we could. Being silly with my daughter allowed me to be more comfortable with the whole picture taking process, and also put me more at ease when it came to choosing one to show the world. It made me feel good to accomplish that.

Some suggestions for you to try when learning how to love yourself are:

• Acknowledge when you accomplish something, even something small, and praise yourself for it.
• Write yourself "love notes". These can be notes to yourself, inspiration quotes, anything that makes you feel good. Put them in places where you will see them and read them throughout the day. My favorite places are my bathroom mirror and the front door.
• Take some time for you. Even if it is only 15 minutes, make clear that this is time for you. Read, take a bath, talk to yourself, thinking about nothing....
• Find ways to reward yourself daily.
• Nurture yourself.
• Focus on solutions rather than worrying about the problem. Being proactive in solving your own problems really does make you feel good about yourself.
• Replace any negative thoughts with positives ones. Or at the very least, when you have a negative thought, immediately follow it with a positive thought. I try and find at least three positive things about every situation.
• Allow yourself to succeed.

Who you are is more important than what you are. You are valuable and nothing can change that.

Day 16- Something or Someone I Could Live Without & Writers Workshop

This week I chose #1 which is Dear Mommy and/or Daddy...(write a letter to yourself from one of your children).  Since I don't have human kids I am going to write a letter to myself from my girls(cats).  Enjoy!  Let me know what you think of it!

Dear Mom,

Sylvia and I have a few demands that must be met or we are going to raise up and have a rebellion.  First we need more catnip!  We are not getting enough of it a day and it is a total joke that you expect us to share it!  You should know by now that cats DO NOT SHARE ANYTHING!!!!!!  Hell we can't even share the bed at night let alone our weed!  Secondly we need you to sleep somewhere else so that we can properly stretch out on the bed at night.  There is no need for you sleep in that bed.  So it would be greatly appreciated if you would relocate to a different spot at night.  Lastly we also need you to not wake us up when you get back from where ever you are all day.  We need our 20 hours of beauty rest and we don't get that if you wake us up when you get home!

We would like you fix these problems ASAP!

Love
Elinore & Sylvia
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This topic is easy!  I can sum it up with one name Josh my husband!!!!

Day 15-Something or Someone You couldn't live without & Random Dozen

There are a few things I couldn't live without.

First off I have to say my girls Elinore and Sylvia.  Even though they can be the biggest pain in my ass most days.

There is Misti because she is more like family than my own family.  We have are moments but all sisters do!

I also couldn't live with out my Macbook and my Blackberry!





1. What is your favorite fair/carnival food?
I love the Indian Fry Bread!  I shouldn't eat it but I could eat it all day long while I am at the fair.
2. Are you holding onto something you need to let go of?
People-I need to just forget about them and move on that is for sure but for me it is a hard thing to do.
3. What is your favorite gift to receive?
Something from the heart!  I don't care what it is as long as it is from the heart.
4. When was the last time you tried something new?
It has been awhile because I don't like change.
5. What is your favorite and least favorite book genre?
Right now I am really into mystery books.
6.Silver or Gold?
Silver
7. What makes you sigh?
Stupid people
8. If you didn't know how old you are, how old would you claim you are?
21!!!!
9. Would you break a law to save a loved one? To protect a loved one?
Nope If you did the crime you can do the time!  I couldn't bring myself to do something dumb and against the law just to save someone.
10. If you had to teach something, what would it be?
 Something about Facebook or Blogging!
11. You're having lunch with 3 people whom you respect and admire. They begin to criticize a close friend of yours, not knowing she is your friend. What do you do?
Stick up for the person!  I always stick up for my friends even if it makes me the odd man out.
12. Which of the 5 Love Languages is your prominent means of experiencing love?
Quality Time
Physical Touch
Acts of Service
Gifts
Words of Affirmation

Day 14- A Letter To A Hero That Let Me Down

Today's topic is easy in one sense and in another sense it is hard.  I could very easily write a letter to my mom who could have been my hero but why?  She wasn't around and now that she could be around she still doesn't want to be around.  Other than that there really isn't anyone who has let me down.  I don't have hero's because people are human and they can let you down.  Now I have people I care about and look up to so I guess you could maybe say they are hero's.  Then it goes back to the fact that all people will let you down and I don't like to set myself up to get hurts.  So in the end I am going with I don't have any hero's because I don't want to get hurt.

Day 13- A Letter To A Band

The first thing that comes to mind on this one is buy Simple Plan called Welcome To My Life.   Here is the video if you haven't seen or heard it before.

I can't really write a letter about it but I will tell you why to this day I love this song.  I first heard it when I was pregnant and I really did feel all alone.  I would put this song on repeat and listen to it over and over.  Now Every time I am having a rough time I turn it on and it makes me feel better.  I wish that some people in my life would listen to it and get what it is saying but that is a post for another day.  I hope you enjoy it as much as I do!

Saturday 9 & Day 12 Something I Never Get Compliments On

Saturday 9: Superstition


1. What are you superstitious about?
I hate Friday the 13 but other than that I am okay.  I used to work in the medical field and full moons and Friday the 13ths where the worst days to be working because the craziest stuff would always happen those days.  You could pretty much plan on having a weird shift those days.
2. What’s the story behind one of your scars?
Most of my scars happened when I feel off my bike and the other ones I have are from cats beating me up because I love to bug them!
3. What are three things that you would rather be doing right now?
Anything lol
4. What do you do when you're bored?
Read 
Watch Movies
Surf the Web
Read Blogs
Play The Sims 3
5. What's your favorite thing to do? Why?
I don't just have one thing that I love to do.  I love a lot of things and they are the same as the list above!
6. What do you do when you're lonely?
Read blogs or watch TV
7. How do you measure the passing of time in life?
I am not sure-I mostly go on ages
8. What would constitute "the perfectly lived day" for you?
No drama and not feeling sick or not being tired for the MS.
9. If you knew you were going to die in a year, what would you do in your final days?
I would do anything I could do.  I would want to try and experience as much as I could in the year that I had left.
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I can't really think of anything.  I have tried to fly below the radar and so that no one knows who I am.  I have done a good job of this so people haven't noticed me very much at all.  I know that the people do notice don't say much about my weight.

Day 11- Something People Compliment Me On The Most & FIve Question Friday

People only seem to notice the clothes I wear.  I am not sure if that is a good thing or not to be honest with everyone.  Some people when I was younger said they loved my hair because it was so thick and nice.  I have always hated my hair though.  Thick hair is a pain in the butt to take care of and it is super hot in the summer time  but people seemed to like it!

It is Friday the 13th and that totally sucks!  I hope I make it all day with out anything major going wrong.  I have my infusion so lets pray that  I get through that without and problems.  I always seem to have problems when I have to go alone.  Grandma might be able to come though if the prison is still locked down this afternoon.  So I am hoping they will be so that I don't have to go alone!

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 1. Have you ever visited another country?

Just Tijuana Mexico if that counts.  Oh wait I have been to Canada too after I graduated and was on a trip with grandma.  We drove through Canada on our way from Michigan to New York to see the Palmyra pageant.

2. Where is the strangest place you have ever been?

Probably Ontario Oregon.  I hate that city more than anything.  There is nothing there and it is such a waste of time.  The only time I have been there is when I was on the truck with my husband and I hope I never have to go back!

3. What is your favorite season?

I don't have one to be honest.  They all have there good and bad points to them. 

4. What one song will always cheer you up?

Pretty much anything will cheer me up.  I just love to listen to music.  It always makes my days better that is for sure.

5. What Disney character do you resemble most?

I have never thought about this.  Maybe Bell because she has brown hair like me?.?.

Writers Workshop & Day 10 - Someone I Need To Let Go, Or Wish I Didn’t Know

These are the prompts for this weeks Writers Workshop.
1.) Lou Holtz (don't ask me who that is) once said, "life is ten percent what happens to you and ninety percent how you respond to it."
Do you believe this? Describe a time when you feel like you could have responded a different way and produced a different outcome.
2.) I miss the friend you used to be. (The Myth Of You And Me)
3.) The most unbelievable blue eyes you've ever seen...
4.) The craziest reason I ever got in trouble as a child.
5.) What would you ask forgiveness for?

I am going to write about #1.

I totally believe this.  How you react to situations is much more of life then what happens.  Like when I had my daughter it is more about what I did when I was pregnant and what I did after I had her then the act of getting pregnant.  Life is all about how you react to situations.  There are many ways I could have reacted when I found out I was pregnant and each way would have lead to a different outcome in the end.  I chose the path that I thought would be easiest for me in the long run.  Everyone reacts differently to situations and they do what they believe is best for them at the time.

Another example would be what happened to a family member of one of the people I work with.  Not to get into the whole story the ended up shooting a guy and leaving him paralyzed from the waist down I believe.  Now if he had just called the cops he wouldn't be in jail waiting to get sentenced to go to prison.  Now a side note to that is I don't think the guy should be going to prison but that is a whole other issue.  It is always about how you react to situations and not the original situation.  You can make your life however you want it to be!
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Today's topic is easy.  The person I need to let go of is Pear!  Some of you are wondering who Pear is and I am not going to say because that is part of my life I don't post on this blog.  If you are really interested leave a comment and I will explain in an e-mail.  As for the husband well I wish I didn't know him at all.  He has really made me go back to the whole not trusting men and thinking they are all a waste of skin and a big waste of my time!

Great Song

I try not to post twice in one day but I could resist posting this song because it is so me and how I am right now!  Enjoy!

Day 9- Some One You Didn't Want To Let Go But You Drifted & Random Dozen

Today's topic is ironic because I wrote Misti a letter telling how we had drifted apart these past few months.  It has been my fault because I am going through so much right now I have just been doing me and not really taking time for other people or things.  I am in my hermit stage right now because I am tired of some people and how they treat others.
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1. When was the last time you laughed until you cried?
A couple of weeks ago when I was watching TV in my grandparents room while they were getting ready to go to the prison for a program.  Grandma was having a super hard time finding something she wanted to wear and just all three of us going back and forth left me laughing so hard I was crying.  My grandma and I always end up crying though when we start to go back and forth with each other.
2. If you found $10 today, what would you do with it?
Use it at Wal-Mart tomorrow to buy chips or other junk food.
3. Do you volunteer anywhere?
No but I really want to start volunteering and the VA Hospital. I would love to work with soldiers.
4. What is your favorite summertime veggie or fruit, and how do you eat it?
Tomatoes-  I will eat them almost anyway.  I am not a huge fan of fried green tomatoes though but other than that I will eat them anyway.  My favorite was is when they are red and I can just put a little salt on them and eat they straight out of the garden.
5. Is your social sphere (circle of friends) small, medium or large?
Super small and that is okay with me!  I don't let a lot of people in because I hate getting hurt.
6. When was the last time you attended a family or school reunion? How did that go?
 July 31-It was the typical Tidwell reunion.
7. When you're feeling blue, what is the best way someone can cheer you up?
Just let me be with my computer and my kids.  My cubs can always make me smile!
8. Have you taken a vacation this summer?
I don't even remember the last time I went on vacation-it was probably the year I graduated from high school.
9. What is the most unnecessary item you carry with you all the time?
My cell phone
10. What is the best summer flick you have seen so far?
I haven't seen any new movies this summer so I have no idea what is even good out there anymore.
11. Describe a perfect summer day.
At home with my computer and cold Dr Pepper.  It doesn't get much better than that oh and maybe a good book or two to read!
12. Please a share a favorite photo from the summer so far!
I couldn't just pick one so I went with both of them! 

Day 8-Someone Who Made Your Life Hell, or Treated You Like Shit.

So far this is the easiest topic we have had.  The one person I can think of that fits this is my husband.  I will regret the fact that I married him forever!  It is the worst thing I ever could have done but I had to do it hard way.  If I would have listened to my family I never would have had to go through it.  I have learned a lot from everything though so in the end it will be okay.  Just getting to the okay part is hard right now.  I would post a picture of the idiot but it would just piss me off so it is better that I don't post one.

Day 7-Someone Who Has Made My Life Worth Living For

I would have to say the daughter I placed for adoption  and my cubs ( I know they aren't people but I truly live for them). I also live for myself.  I decided a few years ago that I wasn't going to let the world win.  I am going to win so I always try and get the best of the world and live to the fullest.
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Saturday Nine & Day 6- Something I Hope I Never Have To Do

Saturday 9: Friends

1. How many of your friendships have lasted more than ten years? Which of your current friends do you feel will still be important to you ten years from now?
None of them.  I don't like to put the work into them that needs to be done so I tend to not keep friends forever.  I would hope that Misti is still around.
2. When you look at yourself in the mirror, what’s the first thing you look at?
My hair
3. Who was the most recent person on your missed call list on your cell phone? What’s your relationship with the person?
Josh (not the husband)-Just friends
4. What did your last text message you received on your cell phone say?
Okay cool thanks no sense in having them in the storage room to have to go and get them you know.  It was from Misti when I told her we got in the plates and forks at work and that I put them under the sink in the conference room.
5. How would you “label” yourself?
Shy, Fat, Scared Of People
6. What was your favorite age that you’ve been?
I don't know. . .Probably 25 because I am finally becoming me!
7. What is your current desk top picture? What’s it significant?
A background from Leelou-Blogs.  I love the ones they make.  They change it every month and until I start making my own I will use theirs.
8. What was the last thing you said to someone that you‘d like to take back?
Nothing-I usually don't take back things I say.  If I say it then I meant it when I said it.
9. If you had to choose between a million bucks or to be able to go back in time and fix all your mistakes which would you choose?
A million dollars.  All my mistakes have made me who I am today so I wouldn't change it.
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I hope that I never have to bury a child.  I couldn't handle it and I don't know how parents have to go through it manage it.  I also hope that I never have to be in a wheel chair.  The fear of a wheel chair is the only thing that is keeping on my current medication.  I would be so depressed if I ever have to be in a wheel chair.  I will lose everything that I enjoy about life if I have to be in a wheel chair not to mention my independence.

Day 5- Something I Hope To Do In My Life & Five Question Friday

1. Are you a neat sleeper or a messy sleeper?

I am a neat sleeper!

2. Fill in the blank. I wish I was more ________________.

Outgoing-I am super shy and I wish that I was more outgoing when I was in social settings.

3. What is something that you wish you had been warned about?

That all men are total idiots and a waste of time.

4. What was the best thing you ever found at a garage sale/flea market?

I only went to garage sales when I was younger so I can't remember.  I have always wanted to go to a flea market but there aren't any around here.

5. If you could have any meal brought to you right now, what would it be?
Pizza!!!!  I would eat pizza all the time if I could.
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Today's topic isn't that hard for me.  I would hope that I would get the weight off and keep it off.  I know some of you are thinking that it isn't that hard but because of the MS and some of the medications I am on it is super hard for me to do.  I am not trying as hard as I could be but maybe one day when I am not as tired and sick all the time I will get the weight off and keep it off. 


I hope everyone has a great Friday!

Day 4- Something I Need To Forgive Someone For & Writers Work Shop

Today's topic is easy for me.  I need to forgive my parents for leaving me at my parents when I was 8 years old.  I know I was better off where I was at but there at still days that it hurts and sucks.  I feel like I missed out on a lot of moments that children usually have with their parents.  I think what makes it harder for me to forgive my mom is that fact that she doesn't even seem to care.  Hell I took the time to find and contact her and now she acts like she could careless.  At least my dad is trying.  I am not totally comfortable with it yet but I am working on it and he understands that and is willing to let things go at my pace.  So I am working on forgiving him but I truly think I am just going to write my mom off and try to forget about her because she doesn't seem to care at all about me so why should I let it hurt me anymore. 

Now for the writers workshop.  This week I chose # 1 which is : If I could do it over again...  If I could do anything over again I wouldn't get married.  It has been nothing but a waste of time and huge waste of my money.  I can honestly say that it is the worst mistake I have made thus far in my life.  I would be so much father with my goals if I had just stayed single and not wasted time on him.  He has done nothing but make my life hell the entire 4 years we have been together.  So that would have to be the thing I would do over again.

Here is a twitter party that I am going to take part in on Friday.  It for those of us that aren't attending BlogHer.  It is being thrown by One Cluttered Brain!  Everyone should come and join us!  It should be a great time and there will even be giveaways!

Day 3-Something I Have To Forgive Myself For

There are a lot of things that I need to forgive myself for.  I am super hard on myself and get mad when I mess up and/or let someone else down.  I have the hardest time saying no to people because I feel like that is letting them down. I really just need to realize that I am human people that really care about me will still be around even if I tell them no I can't do something because I am too sick or whatever the reason maybe.  I also need to forgive myself because I am not perfect and I do mess up.  Like for example when I got pregnant.  Everyone makes mistakes and I know that but I still beat myself up because of everyone I let down and how it totally changed where I was going in life.  I still haven't forgiven myself for that. Now don't get me wrong I don't regret that she is here and with her family but I regret letting everyone down because of it all.

That is all I can think of to write!  I hope everyone is having a great day!

Day 2-Something I Love About Myself

Day 2 of the 30 days of truth isn't any easier than day 1 was.  Finding something that I love about myself is even harder than yesterdays topic.  I am really having a hard time thinking of anything but if I had to pick something it would be how I have learned to deal with everything in my life.  I have been forced to learn to let things go and realize that when I am having a good day I need to live it to the fullest because good days aren't coming very often anymore.  I was told that people are amazed at my out look on my life.  I always tell people when they say that I have had no option but to be strong because the only other option was to roll over and die.

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This is my favorite quote because it so true.  My whole life I haven't had a choice but to be strong and not let the situations make me crumble.  I have been through a lot in my life but I also know that I can get through it all again if I had to.  So I think that is one thing I love about myself.  I haven't let my life get the best of me.  Now that isn't saying that I don't have hard days but I know when I have them that I can get through them.

Day 1- Something I Hate About Myself

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Today is the first day of the 30 days of truth and lets just say I am not excited about today's topic.  I could go on for days and days about things I hate about myself.  I guess the main things that I hate about myself are my weight and being sick all the time.  I know I can change the whole weight issue but I am trying and it doesn't seem to get any better.  I know I am not the most dedicated person when it comes to trying to lose the weight but the MS also plays a huge role in me not losing it.  Which is why I hate being sick.  I wish I could make the MS go away and be a normal 25 year old that isn't worried about what tomorrow is going to be like.