Bad Day

Saturday 9: Bad Day

1. Is there anything that you tend to do to cheer up when you are having a bad day?
Listen to music or watch movies.  It also depends on what caused the day to be bad.
2.What’s the last card game you played, and with whom did you play?
Probably Phase 10 with Misti and it was probably over a year ago that we played it.
3.What’s the last board game you played, and with whom did you play?
I can't even remember because I don't play board games.  I am too competitive and get mad if I lose so it is better if I just don't even try and play one.
4.What’s the last computer game you played, and with whom did you play?
The last multi-player game I played was probably WOW( World Of Warcraft) and I played it with my brother.
5.Is there somewhere you’d like to visit but have not, and where is it?
There are tons of places I want to visit. I want to see the world and go anywhere and everywhere before I die.
6.Think of your favorite movie (or a movie you really like, if you can’t think of a favorite). Some people say that the reasons you love your favorite movie are related to what you value in romantic relationships. How is this true or untrue in your case?
My favorite movie is Liar Liar and that isn't the most romantic movie out there but I am so not like them because I am never going to get back with my ex!
7.What physical attributes do you find the most attractive?
I don't think I have a type of guy but grandma says that I like guys that have the Charlie Brown head.  Other than that I can't really think of things that I am super attracted too.
8.How many people live in your house? Tell us about them.
There are 4 people and 3 cats.  There is my grandpa, grandma and my little brother.  I am only home at night and on the weekends but even when I am home I am almost always reading, messing around on the internet and/or watching TV.
9. Ever punch someone in the face?
No I haven't but there have been time that I really want to punch people in the face.

Five Question Friday & My Name

1. Did you have a favorite blanket or toy as a kid? If so, do you still have it?

I had a blanket that I guess my grandma still has for me.  I don't have much left from my childhood because my parents moved around a lot and when they would move they would leave everything behind when they did move so I don't have much before I moved in with my grandparents full time and even some of that stuff has gotten thrown away.

2. Do you dream in color?

Yes- Doesn't everyone????

3. How tall are you? Do you wish you were shorter or taller?

I was 5'4" but the last time I went to the doctors I found out that I am now 5'3" :(- Guess I am already getting shorter

4. If you could have anyone's (celeb or other) voice as the guide on your GPS, who would it be?

My own voice!

5. Do you return your shopping cart to the corral or leave it wherever in the parking lot?
I try and return it because it bugs me sometime when people don't return them and I can't find a parking spot because there are carts in the parking spots.

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Since I have been out of ideas on what to blog about I went to NaBloPoMo where they have a whole list of prompts you can write about.  I went through the list and chose this prompt: Do you like the name you were given? Is there a name that you think would suit you better?  It was the only one that seemed like fun  to write about.

I went to a few websites to get some information behind my name and this is what I found

Margaret Female a pearl Latin-America Margaret Female Pearl. Greek           MARGARET Gender: Feminine Usage: English Pronounced: MAHR-grit, MAHR-gə-rit  [key] Derived from Latin Margarita, which was from Greek μαργαριτης (margarites) meaning "pearl", probably ultimately a borrowing from Sanskrit. Saint Margaret, the patron of expectant mothers, was martyred at Antioch in the 4th century. Later legends told of her escape from a dragon, with which she was often depicted in medieval art. The saint was popular during the Middle Ages, and her name has been widely used in the Christian world. Other saints by this name include a queen of Scotland and a princess of Hungary. It was also borne by Queen Margaret I of Denmark, who united Denmark, Sweden, and Norway in the 14th century. Famous literary bearers include American writer Margaret Mitchell (1900-1949), the author of 'Gone with the Wind', and Canadian writer Margaret Atwood (1939-).

I love my name.  I have always liked it because there was only one other girl with my name so I never had to worry about tons of people having my name.  The only thing I don't like about my name is the spelling of it.  It is too long and spelled very few people ever spell it right the first time and some even after years can't seem to get it right.  They always spell it Margret.  I was named after my mom's mom so one of my grandma's.  I don't really know the lady that I was named after because I had only seen her when I was little and I don't remember her at all from then.

30 Days Of Truth

So I was reading Angel Believes and she is doing 30 days of truth.  I thought it would be something good for me to follow along with so I am going to start and see how far I make it!  Here are the questions we have to answer.  I am going to start with day one tomorrow!

Day 01 → Something you hate about yourself.
Day 02 → Something you love about yourself.
Day 03 → Something you have to forgive yourself for.
Day 04 → Something you have to forgive someone for.
Day 05 → Something you hope to do in your life.
Day 06 → Something you hope you never have to do.
Day 07 → Someone who has made your life worth living for.
Day 08 → Someone who made your life hell, or treated you like shit.
Day 09 → Someone you didn’t want to let go, but just drifted.
Day 10 → Someone you need to let go, or wish you didn’t know.
Day 11 → Something people seem to compliment you the most on.
Day 12 → Something you never get compliments on.
Day 13 → A band or artist that has gotten you through some tough ass days. (write a letter.)
Day 14 → A hero that has let you down. (letter)
Day 15 → Something or someone you couldn’t live without, because you’ve tried living without it.
Day 16 → Someone or something you definitely could live without.
Day 17 → A book you’ve read that changed your views on something.
Day 18 → Your views on gay marriage.
Day 19 → What do you think of religion? Or what do you think of politics?
Day 20 → Your views on drugs and alcohol.
Day 21 → (scenario) Your best friend is in a car accident and you two got into a fight an hour before. What do you do?
Day 22 → Something you wish you hadn’t done in your life.
Day 23 → Something you wish you had done in your life.
Day 24 → Make a playlist to someone, and explain why you chose all the songs. (Just post the titles and artists and letter)
Day 25 → The reason you believe you’re still alive today.
Day 26 → Have you ever thought about giving up on life? If so, when and why?
Day 27 → What’s the best thing going for you right now?
Day 28 → What if you were pregnant or got someone pregnant, what would you do?
Day 29 → Something you hope to change about yourself. And why.
Day 30 → A letter to yourself, tell yourself EVERYTHING you love about yourself

Sunburn

Today for the Writers Workshop I chose to do #1 which is: It was a bad burn. Tell about the worst sunburn you ever received. How did that happen!?!

The worst sunburn I ever had was when I went to Georgia to visit my mom's dad and step mom in the summer of 2001 with my little brother.  We drove with my grandparents up to South Carolina to meet a couple of her siblings that we had never met because we were raised by my dad's parents.  So one day my Aunt took my little brother and me to a Six Flags park where we spent the whole day on the rides and what not.  Me being the idiot I am decided that since I had never burned before that I would be okay and I didn't need to wear sun screen.  Well I was super wrong on that part.  I have only been burnt like that once and I will never do it again.  It was super painful and I was super sick for the next few days.

I looked last night for a picture of it but I couldn't find one to scan in so hopefully I will have one in a few days for everyone to see!

A Lot Of Random Things

I am going to us bullets in this post because I have a few things I want to write about and I haven't used them in awhile.

• First I want to thank all of my followers and welcome all of my new followers.  I can't believe that I have 130 right now.  I remember when I was just getting into the whole blogging scene and starting to learn about followers and people reading my blog that I had never met IRL.  At that time it was weird to me but I decided why not lets see what is out there and here I am with 130 people reading my blog!  I still don't understand why but I am thankful for each and everyone of you!
• I got a new layout and I totally love it!  Jacqui does my makeovers and I totally adore the girl!  She does a great job and made it look so grown up!  Let me know what you think of it.
• My kids are totally crazy and Sylvia has decided she is top cat even though she is the youngest out of them all.  Go figure.  Last night she was guarding the bathroom and nothing could go in.  It was quite funny to watch her try and beat up anything that tried to enter "her" bathroom.
• I got the funniest anonymous comment the other day so I figured I would post all of it but the links.  It was so funny I could help but laugh at it.  Here it is:  HELP! I’m currently being held prisoner by the Russian mafia  and being forced to post spam comments on blogs and forum! If you don’t approve this they will kill me. 

Well there is the randomness for now!  Have a great day! 

Making Friends

This is a new MeMe made by the girl that just redid my blog!  I thought it is a great idea so I decided that I would start following along with this one on Mondays!

A Review

This is my first review and let me just tell you I am so glad that I get to write this.  If you haven't noticed I got a blog makeover and  I am in love with everything that has to do with it!  This is who did it:



Let me just tell you that this girl is great at what she does.  She sends you e-mails with what she is working on.  She was super patient with me even though I have a super hard time make up my mind and change it all the time.  Here is the list of things she did for me: 
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changed your favicon (the little icon on your web page URL)

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Her prices are super affordable and she is now excepting orders!  You all need to drop by her page and check her out.  If you know of anyone who is looking to get a makeover you need to send them her way for sure!

Saturday 9

Saturday 9: The Sun Rising

1. When was the last time that you watched a sunrise? Who were you with?
I don't know that I have ever watched one.  That is really sad know that I think about it.
2. If President Obama promised he'd do one thing you asked, what would you ask him to do?
To disappear and leave our country alone!  He has ruined enough know it is time for him to go away!
3. What is one experience that has strengthened your character the most so far?
Placing my daughter for adoption.
4. What is the first thing that you usually do after completing Saturday 9?
Schedule it to post in the morning.
5. Tell us about someone either in your life or in the blogosphere that you think is extremely funny.
There are lots of funny people and I refuse to pick just one so I won't pick anybody!
6. Where was the last bed that you slept in that was not your own?
Probably a hotel bed while I was with my husband(soon to be ex) last year sometime
7. Have you ever been too drunk to remember anything?
Nope I never have and I hope that I am never that drunk either.
8. Have you ever licked something to clean it?
Ya when I like what I am eating and then I put whatever it is in the dishwasher!
9. Who, outside of family or a S/O, has influenced your life the most?
There isn't just one person.  There are several people who have made me what I am today!

Five Question Friday

Questions for Friday, July 23rd: (Special thanks to Christy [for inspiration], Kelly, Brittany Ciara, Emily, and Sami [for inspiration] for their question suggestions! Wanna be linked in a future 5QF? Just c'mon over here, to my community, and offer up your best question suggestions!)

1. What were your school colors?

My school colors were purple silver and black.  When we graduated the boys had to wear purple!  It was great.

2. What's the best compliment you ever received?

I can't really remember any one compliment that was super great.

3. Do you buy cheap or expensive toilet paper?

I buy whatever is on sale but I tend to stick with the soft stuff rather than the cheap stuff that is super rough.

4. Have you ever had a surprise party thrown for you? Or have you had one for someone else?

I did when I was younger but I had it figured out lol.  Like I have always said to people it is super hard to surprise me.  In fact there is only one person who has pulled it off and since then I would rather not have people do it because it makes me go crazy because it throws off my plans and I don't deal well with that.

5. What is one material possession that you "can't live without"?
Probably my computer.  I would be lost with out my Mac Book!

Chronic Pain

I found this letter on a blog of a lady that has Lyme's Disease.  I really liked it because I too have chronic pain and it had really good points.  She didn't write it and we aren't sure who did but it is still a great letter!

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Having chronic pain means many changes and a lot of them are invisible. Unlike having
cancer or being hurt in an accident, most people do not understand even a little about

chronic pain and its effects, and of those that think they know, many are actually misinformed.


In the spirit of informing those who wish to understand ...

... These are the things that I would like you to understand about me before you judge me...

Please understand that being sick doesnt mean Im not still a human being. I have to

spend most of my day in considerable pain and exhaustion, and if you visit, sometimes

I probably dont seem like much fun to be with, but Im still me stuck inside this body.

I still worry about school, my family, my friends, and most of the time - Id still like

to hear you talk about yours, too.

Please understand the difference between happy and healthy. When youve got the flu, you

probably feel miserable with it, but Ive been sick for years. I cant be miserable all the

time. In fact, I work hard at not being miserable. So, if youre talking to me and I sound

happy, it means Im happy. Thats all. It doesnt mean that Im not in a lot of pain,

or extremely tired, or that Im getting better, or any of those things. Please dont say,

oh, youre sounding better! Or "But you look so healthy! ¨ I am merely coping. I am sounding

happy and trying to look normal. If you want to comment on that, youre welcome.

Please understand that being able to stand up for ten minutes doesnt necessarily mean that

I can stand up for twenty minutes, or an hour. Just because I managed to stand up for thirty

minutes yesterday doesnt mean that I can do the same today. With a lot of diseases youre

either paralyzed, or you can move. With this one, it gets more confusing everyday. It can be

like a yo-yo. I never know from day to day, how I am going to feel when I wake up. In most

cases, I never know from minute to minute. That is one of the hardest and most frustrating

components of chronic pain.

(Please repeat the above paragraph substituting, sitting, walking, thinking, concentrating,

being sociable and so on ... it applies to everything. Thats what chronic pain does to you.)

Please understand that chronic pain is variable. Its quite possible (for many, its common)

that one day I am able to walk to the park and back, while the next day Ill have trouble

getting to the next room. Please dont attack me when Im ill by saying, but you did it before!

Or Oh, come on, I know you can do this! ¨ if you want me to do something, then ask if I can.

In a similar vein, I may need to cancel a previous commitment at the last minute. If this

happens, please do not take it personally. If you are able, please try to always remember

how very lucky you are to be physically able to do all of the things that you can do.

Please understand that getting out and doing things does not make me feel better, and

can often make me seriously worse.

You dont know what I go through or how I suffer in my own private time.

Telling me that I need to exercise, or do some things to get my mind off of it¨ may

frustrate me to tears, and is not correct if I was capable of doing some things any or

all of the time, dont you know that I would?

I am working with my doctor and I am doing what I am supposed to do. Another statement

that hurts is, You just need to push yourself more, try harder... Obviously, chronic pain

can deal with the whole body, or be localized to specific areas. Sometimes participating

in a single activity for a short or a long period of time can cause more damage and physical

pain than you could ever imagine. Not to mention the recovery time, which can be intense. You

cant always read it on my face or in my body language. Also, chronic pain may cause

secondary depression (wouldnt you get depressed and down if you were hurting constantly

for months or years?), but it is not created by depression.

Please understand that if I say I have to sit down/lie down/stay in bed/or take these

pills now, that probably means that I do have to do it right now - it cant be put off

or forgotten just because Im somewhere, or am right in the middle of doing something.

Chronic pain does not forgive, nor does it wait for anyone.

If you want to suggest a cure to me, please dont. Its not because I dont appreciate

the thought, and its not because I dont want to get well. Lord knows that isnt true.

In all likelihood, if you've heard of it or tried it, so have I. In some cases, I have been

made sicker, not better. This can involve side effects or allergic reactions. It also

includes failure, which in and of itself can make me feel even lower. If there were something

that cured, or even helped people with my form of chronic pain, then wed know about it.

There is worldwide networking (both on and off the Internet) between people with chronic

pain. If something worked, we would KNOW. Its definitely not for lack of trying. If, after

reading this, you still feel the need to suggest a cure, then so be it. I may take what you

said and discuss it with my doctor.


If I seem touchy, it is probably because I am. Its not how I try to be. As a matter

of fact, I try very hard to be normal. I hope you will try to understand. I have been,

and am still, going through a lot. Chronic pain is hard for you to understand unless you

have had it. It wreaks havoc on the body and the mind. It is exhausting and exasperating.

Almost all the time, I know that I am doing my best to cope with this, and live my life to

the best of my ability. I ask you to bear with me, and accept me as I am. I know that you

cannot literally understand my situation unless you have been in my shoes, but as much as

is possible, I am asking you to try to be understanding in general.


In many ways I depend on you - people who are not sick. I need you to visit me when I

am too sick to go out... Sometimes I need you help me with the shopping, cooking or cleaning.

I may need you to take me to the doctor, or to the store. You are my link to the normalcy

of life. You can help me to keep in touch with the parts of life that I miss and fully

intend to undertake again, just as soon as I am able.


I know that I asked a lot from you, and I do thank you for listening. It really does

mean a lot.


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Starting A Business With Jacqui

 It is Tuesday and that means it is time for Jacqui.  This week she wrote about her new blog business she is starting.  She is the one that did this layout and the layout on my other blog.  I would highly recommend her to anyone and she does really great work.  She is also super easy to work with!!!!

Starting a new business…

It’s really hard to start your own business. Especially out in the blog/internet world since there is SO much many out there. In the end of august I will be launching my blog design business called Wacky Jacqui’s Designs. I am both excited and nervous since I don’t know if people will actually want to pay me to design there blogs. I am scared that all this work will have been for nothing and a waste of time. I really want to succeed in this; I have put my heart and soul into it. So I have been trying to find ways to get my work out in the blog world. It is really hard. So lately I have been doing a lot of free designs so I can get reviews and also get a little more practice under my belt before my launch date. Yesterday I completed my first design for review and I am pretty impressed with the work I did. I didn’t know I had it in me at all. This girls blog was a total eye sore (well to me at least) all she wanted was sidebar titles made up and kept bedding her to let me re-do the whole thing and finally she gave in. I learned a lot of things during this design that I will keep with me forever. I really hope she enjoys her new look.

This is what she had before (this is not her blog but you get the idea)

And this is what it is now.

Click picture to go to her blog.

I just love the way it looks, I can't keep my eyes off of it.

Sylvia

I took these few pictures of Sylvia and I wanted to post them because I don't post many pictures of her because I tend to spend more time with Elinore.  So here a few of her and a couple of both of them.

Award!!!!

Kerri gave me this award!!!  She is a great blogger and I truly love reading her blog because she has a chronic illness like I do.  We may have different illnesses but I totally relate to what she posts.  Here are the rules that go along with the award.
1. Thank and link back to the person who gave you this award.

2. Share seven things about yourself.

3. Pass this award along to bloggers who you have recently discovered and who you think are fantastic for whatever reason.

Now on to the 7 things about me:

1. I had a daughter that I place for adoption when I was 20
2. I was diagnosed with MS when I was 15.
3. I am going through a divorce because my husband always wanted to control me and refused to help pay the bills
4. I have to cats that I refer to as "the cubs" or "the girls".  I treat them like they are my kids.
5. I live at home because my soon to be ex didn't care if I had a place to live and now I am stuck!
6. I was raised by my grandparents who adopted me and my brother when I was 16.
7. I can't eat gluten because it makes me sick and makes the MS worse for me!

Now for people I want to pass this on too!  I am kind of lazy so I am just going to pick everyone that wants to except this award!!!!

Had To Post This-Everyone Needs A Smile

The following questions were set in last year's GED examination
These are genuine answers (from 16 year olds)............and they WILL breed.
Q. Name the four seasonsA. Salt, pepper, mustard and vinegar
Q. Explain one of the processes by which water can be made safe to drinkA. Flirtation makes water safe to drink because it removes large  pollutants like grit, sand, dead sheep and canoeists 
Q. How is dew formedA. The sun shines down on the leaves and makes them perspire
Q. What causes the tides in the oceansA. The tides are a fight between the earth and the moon. All water tends to flow towards the moon, because there is no water on the moon, and nature abhors a vacuum. I forget where the sun joins the fight
Q. What guarantees may a mortgage company insist onA. If you are buying a house they will insist that you are well endowed
Q. In a democratic society, how important are electionsA. Very important. Sex can only happen when a male gets an election
Q. What are steroids
A. Things for keeping carpets still on the stairs              (Shoot yourself now , there is little hope)
Q.. What happens to your body as you ageA. When you get old, so do your bowels and you get intercontinental
Q. What happens to a boy when he reaches pubertyA. He says goodbye to his boyhood and looks forward to his adultery               (So true)
Q. Name a major disease associated with cigarettesA. Premature death
Q. What is artificial inseminationA. When the farmer does it to the bull instead of the cow 
Q. How can you delay milk turning sourA. Keep it in the cow                                               (Simple, but brilliant)
Q. How are the main 20 parts of the body categorised (e.g. The abdomen)A. The body is consisted into 3 parts - the brainium, the borax and the abdominal cavity. The brainium contains the brain, the borax contains the heart and lungs and the abdominal cavity contains the five bowels: A, E, I,O,U..                 
Q. What is the fibula?A. A small lie
Q. What does 'varicose' mean?A. Nearby
Q. What is the most common form of birth control A. Most people prevent contraception by wearing a condominium            (That would work)
Q. Give the meaning of the term 'Caesarean section'A. The caesarean section is a district in Rome
Q. What is a seizure?A. A Roman Emperor.                              (Julius Seizure, I came, I saw, I had a fit)
Q. What is a terminal illness
A. When you are sick at the airport.                  (Irrefutable)
Q. Give an example of a fungus. What is a characteristic feature?A. Mushrooms. They always grow in damp places and they look like umbrellas
Q. Use the word 'judicious' in a sentence to show you understand its meaningA. Hands that judicious can be soft as your face.                      (OMG)
Q. What does the word 'benign' mean?A. Benign is what you will be after you be eight   (brilliant)

 Q. What is a turbine?A. Something an Arab or Shreik wears on his head
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This proves that people are total idiots!!!!

5 Years

I was going to write something for the writers work shop this week but non of the prompts really jumped out at me so I went to NaBloPoMo and they have prompts you can use to write about so I am going to pick on of them and write about that.  The one that I chose is: What do you want your life to be like in five years?  

Lets see in five years from today I will 30 about to turn 31.  This is hard because I have a hard time lately knowing what I want my life to be like right now.  I guess in 5 years I would like to be at a job that pays my bills and maybe even allows me to move out of my grandparents house.  I also want to have the MS be stable.   It would be so great for people not to know that I am sick unless I tell them that I am sick.  I am lucky right now because unless I tell you that I am sick you can't tell I am.  It is nice for people not to know I am sick.  If people know they tend to treat me differently than before they knew that I was sick.  I hate when people are jerks to me until they find out I am sick then they try and be my best friend.  I also don't care if I am with someone or not.  As long as I am happy where I am at the rest of it doesn't really matter.   I just want to be happy with what is going on and where I am at is all.


Well that is what I hope my life will be like in 5 years.  I hope everyone has a great Thursday!

A Whole New Low

So I am going to be brave and post this on this blog.  I will find out if the ex reads it or not after this post but I have to let the world in on what the idiot did this time.  I was talking to Tim who I met through my husband and I still talk to him from time to time.  He had called me because he had talked to a mutual friend of my husbands and his and had gotten a great story on my husband. 

So I guess my husband was training a student named Brad.  I guess at some point my husband got the number to his students wife and started text messaging her.  We are sure what they talked about but lets just say my "lovely" husband told his students wife not to tell her husband.  Which she turned around and did.  Now if it were me and someone was talking to my husband and told them not to tell me I would kick their ass!!!  His student wouldn't do it.  I always knew my husband was a total jerk but I didn't know he would really go this low.  Every time I think about it I am amazed that he really is that big of a douce-bag.  It takes a special person to think that doing that is right!!!!!

Oh at the best part of the whole thing is I guess the same mutual friend was sticking up for me when my husbands student was calling me a bitch.  First off I am proud to say I am a bitch but find is sweet that someone who has never met me knows that I am not one thanks to Tim.  After the friend told the student what my husband did to me he changed his tune!!!!!!  I was shocked that a total stranger would do  that for me but I am okay being the bitch!  Now I need to meet this person and thank them for standing up for me but tell them I am okay being the bitch because I know the truth about what happened in my marriage!

I found it funny and gross that I found all this out.  I am shocked he really is that kind of person but at the same time it doesn't really surprise me to much.  I hope you all enjoyed the newest development with my idiot husband!!!!!!

Tuesday's With Jacqui-Ghost Stories

It is Tuesday so that means it is time for a post by Jacqui.  This week she has written about her ghost stories.  She is also the designer of my blog layout!  She blogs at The In & Outs.  Everyone needs to clink on the link and go check out her blog!!!!!

So here are my ghost stories.

I really think that I have something attached to me. Every placed I’ve lived there has been something going on. When I lived at my moms the box fan (remember when everyone had those) in my room would turn on and off for no reason. One time I had it unplugged and was going to put it away during the winter and it starts to spin. I didn’t have the window open or anything to cause a breeze. My TV/radio would change channels for no reason or turn on. When I moved to my grandmas same thing would happen with the fan so I bought a new one (one of those mini fans from Wal-Mart that was like 12 bucks) and the same thing would happen. Same thing with the TV and radio and this time I had a different TV and radio. I don’t care if I have a ghost attached to me, maybe it’s my dad, a girl could dream right. If you don’t know that story my dad passed away when I was almost 9.

Okay so I move to Las Vegas soon after my 18th birthday and the same things happen there too. Fans start, TVs turn on (even hubs TV would), and radios (both hubs and my radio would do this at the same time) would play this classical music when not even plugged in. This one time I was sitting on my bed and I herd a squeaking noise from the living room so I go and look. When I enter the room my computer chair was spinning around it stopped and then it spun the other way.

Ok so since then we have live in 2 other apartments and the TV and radio stuff happens from time to time, lights turn on and off, the fan spins but everything else seems really quite.

Now we move into this house and things start up again. I will start with Benjamin’s TV; it always turns on every night and it’s always on the black and white fuzzy screen. It’s always showing this same image, and it’s just weird. I know ghost can communicate those that black and white screen, it’s called whit noise. Yes I am a big believer of ghost and I watch everything related to ghost. Now everytime that black and white screen is on and Benjamin sees it he freaks out, he starts to cry and shake. So now I have to make sure the TV is unplugged that is in his room. Even when I am right there and I am switching channels on his TV to go from the Direct TV to the channel I have it set up for the DVD it goes through one of those black and white screen, Benjamin just starts to freak out. I don’t know if he sees something that I can’t see because they say kids can see ghost.

Last week hub’s wakes me up asking where I put the controller for the TV downstairs. I told him where I put it normally and he says it not there. So I go downstairs half asleep and I ask did you look in the couch and he says yes but ill look again maybe I missed a place. So he removes all the cushions and pillows from the couch and its not there. So he puts it all back and I am looking behind the couch thinking maybe it fell behind the couch; so while I am looking I pick up a pillow that’s on the couch and the controller is there. Once I pick it up the TV turns on and it’s on that black and white fuzzy screen.

Now we go to what happened this Wednesday. I was on the computer doing some designs and I hear something fall. I go to the kitchen and look and something that I had on top on my kitchen cabinets was on the ground. I didn’t have the air on so it couldn’t be the draft from that and it was too heavy for anything to knock it down. I know it wasn’t the cat because she been sleeping in her bed next to me the whole time I was on the computer. So I pick up the thing that fell, it was plastic so it didn’t break and put it back up on top of the cabinet to see if it happens again. About 2-5minutes pass by and both TVs upstairs turn on really loud and they are on that black and white screen with the same image showing on both TVs. So I turn them off and try to talk to them, I said “you don’t need to play these games and that I can try to help you.” Then I go back to my designs.

Hub’s thinks that I am crazy for trying to communicate with it. Since then I haven’t had any activity. Its funny, I was texting my friend JD telling him about this and he’s like its not wanting to communicate with you any more because you’re getting entertained with it! Whatever it is wants to scare you not entertain you. HAHA

So that’s my ghost story!
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I hope you all enjoyed her post!  I am always looking for guest posters and things like that so if anyone is interested please let me know!

Blog Bash

I saw this on a few blogs that I read and I decided it looked like a lot of fun so I am going to link up and join in with the fun.  They want us to write a post introducing ourselves and then answer 5 questions.  I am going to start by answering the 5 questions and then I will introduce myself.

1.) Why do you blog?
I blog because it is the way that I relieve stress and I find it fun.  I am at the point where I don't care if people read my blog or not it is my therapy and that is all that matters to me.  Now it is a bonus if I get comments!

2.) What do you blog about?
I blog about my life and what is going on in it.  I don't have a real theme to my blog just post what I want to post when I want to post it.

3.) What do you find to be the biggest reward you get from blogging?
I get to get rid of stress and get my feelings out in the open.

4.) How long have you been blogging?
I have had this blog since 9/23/2008 and I had one before that so for a few years now.

5.) Let's hear the story behind your blog title! :)
It is basically just what I blog about the world and how I see things.  

I think I pretty much explained myself while I answered the questions so I am going to leave it as it is!  I hope everyone is having a great Monday!

An Update On Me

It has been awhile since I posted an update on the MS and my life on this blog.  Now I won't post everything that is going on in my life right now because of the ex but I do post what I won't post here on my private blog so if anyone wants to read it let me know and I will send you an invite to read it.

Anyway, now on to the update.  The MS is being crazy again and I don't think I am stable anymore.  I have an MRI in August but this won't be a true indicator of how I am doing because I was off of the medication for a few months while the drug company got there shit together and then again when the drug company didn't send my drug on time so I was two weeks late.  That is the one thing with the medication that I am on you have to take the same time every month or you risk flair ups and relapses.  I have started to wish that people could live in my body for a week they would truly get what it was like to be me.

Brita's birthday wasn't as bad as I thought it would be because I had something to get excited about!  The day after her birthday was my SITS day and I knew I would get tons of comment love and that the ladies would say things I needed to hear and not even realize it.  So once again I want to thank everyone that stopped by and all my new followers for saying such nice things and saying things I needed to hear at that moment.

There really isn't much left to say so I hope everyone is had a great weekend and has a great week!!!!!

Final Day-Day 30-A Dream For The Future~ Saturday 9

This is a harder one to write for me because I try not to have dreams because I hate to be let down.  Now this doesn't mean that I don't dream but it does mean that saying them out loud to other makes them real and then I can't help but be hurt if they don't come true.  I am going to list a few of them and hope that they will come true at some point!

• To be happy with me.  I don't know that I have ever been truly happy with myself but I want to start being happy with me and not let everything bad in the world get to me and bring me down.  I need to realize that I will never be the super skinny girl and I will always have a little gut but that it is ok because if I am healthy then the number on the scale shouldn't matter.
• I would love to be able to find a man that will take care of me and isn't scared of the MS and everything that goes along with it.

I guess the what I am saying is I want to be happy and healthy!!!!
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Saturday 9: Go Your Own way

1. When was the last time you were told to go your own way?
This actually happened this week but it was more me deciding to go my own way because it was better for me this way.
2. What one experience has strengthened your character the most so far?
Placing my daughter for adoption or being diagnosed with MS.  Both of them have made me the person I am today.
3. What's your favorite thing to do on a rainy day?
Read a book or if the rain is warm I love to play in it.
4. How long can you go without your cell phone?
I went without a day without it and I totally loved it.  It is so relieving not having to worry about it and what not.
5. Do you wish you were somewhere else right now?
I wish I was anywhere but where I am.  I don't know where I want to be right now but I know that I don't want be here.
6. Of all the people you've ever known, who have you most feared?
A lot of people actually.  I get scared of people easily so it isn't an easy question to answer.
7. Do people tell you that you look your age?
No they think I look younger than what I am hell I get ID'ed to buy rated R movies lol
8. Your ex shows up randomly at your house, what do you say?
I don't answer and pretend like I am not home.  I have nothing to say to him and he has no reason to just drop by.  As far as I am concerned he is as good as dead to me.
9. Do you believe everyone deserves a second chance?
No-  Some people do things that are so bad that they don't deserve a second chance but I usually give everyone lots of chances.  In fact the only person I have ever written off is my birth mom because she doesn't seem to care at all about me.

Thank You

I want to thank everyone who stopped by yesterday and I want to welcome all my new followers!!!!!  It really made my day to get all those comments and to get new followers.  I want everyone to know that I am working on responding to all the comments left and returning the follows.  I am hoping to get it all done this weekend sometime.  So if  I haven't gotten back to you yet I will soon I promise!!!!

This week was a hard week and it just kept getting worse as the week went on.  At least I had one good day and that was yesterday when everyone left me comment love!!!!!  I am hoping for a good weekend that I can relax get over everything that happened this weekend and start fresh and new this weekend!

Once again thank you everyone!  It really did need it!  I was scared that people would be mean but it was all sweet things and things that I really did need to hear yesterday.  I hope everyone has a great weekend!

Day 29- Plans For The Next 365 Days

My plans for the next year are pretty simple.

• Lose weight
• Be happy
• Keep my job
• Get a raise
• Pay bills off
• Get in better shape
• Be a better friend to people

That is basically it.  I would say find a great guy but I don't know that I need to because I may already have!!!!!

Welcome Sista's!!!!

I want to welcome everyone that is coming by today!!!!!  I am super excited to be the featured blogger by SITS today!  If anyone doesn't know who they are you need to check them out because they are totally awesome!  They pick a blogger a day and feature that blogger.  Today is my day and I am super happy and excited that everyone is coming by today!!!!!

Let me tell you about me.  I am a 25 year old that is going through a divorce to a total idiot.  Here is a story from when I was learning to drive that I think you will find funny.  I also have written two post about Bullying which you can find here & here.  Bullying is something that I feel strongly about because I was bullied when I was in school.

I placed a baby for adoption when I was 20 and funny enough the 7th was her 5th birthday so this made that day easier on me! Here and here are where I wrote about the experience.

I have to cats that I call either the girls or the cubs and I treat them like they are children!  Here and here is a post that they posted on my blog awhile back.

 I also have Multiple Sclerosis.  I post updates about that all the time but here are two posts about M.S.
Me & The MS
FYI About MS

I am so glad that everyone  stopped by!  I will return visits and emails as soon as I can!!!!!!  Have a great day and I hope that you stick around!!!!!!

Day 28- Whats In My Handbag/Purse

Well I did a post on it before so I am just going to link that post to this one that way I don't have to take more pictures and things like that.
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I am going to take part in the Writers Workshop this week. Here are the prompts for this week:

1.) What would you change about your life if you could? 2.) I wish I would have...describe a time when you didn't take action, but later wished you would have.
3.) A collector you know.
4.) Photographs can turn a house into a home. Share a photograph that is not on your wall, but should be...if you weren't so lazy about actually putting it there.
5.) Write a list of 100 things you want to do before you turn 100. Otherwise known as a "bucket list".
(inspired by my feelings and the conference that hurt them when it rejected my admission after applying and spending at least 15 minutes on a bucket list for what now seems no good reason. I'm fine with it. Really.).

I have chosen to write on #1 even though I like a lot of them this week.  I think I am going to use them through out the week so that I can post about the ones that I like!

If I could change something about me it would be all the negative thoughts that go through me head all the time.  Even though I am trying to be positive a lot of the time I just can't seem to see the good in things.    I will keep trying and I hope one day I will be good at it.  I always have wished I could be the kind of person who sees the good in things and doesn't worry about what is going to wrong.  I think part of the problem is that I am so convinced that something is going to go wrong that make it go wrong.  I am convinced that because my brain is always negative I am only going to see the bad in things and people.  So if I had to pick one thing I would change that would be it!

Day 27- My Worst Habit

This is a hard one.  I don't think anyone really wants to talk about their worst habit.  I don't know that any of my bad habits are any worse than the others but I am sure if you ask different people they will say some are worse than others.  If I had to pick one that was the worst I would have to pick the fact that I am cluttered.  I don't see it as a bad thing but people in my life seem to get mad because I have my "stuff" all over the place.  Now don't get me wrong I am in no way dirty I just like to have my things all around me!
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Happy Birthday Brita!  It is hard to believe that 5 years ago I gave birth to you and placed with your family.  It seems like just yesterday so days and other days it seems like it happened 20 years ago.  I sit and wonder if I did the right thing and if you are happy and yet even as I wonder I know in my heart that I did the right thing.  It might be hard for me to deal with but it wasn't about me it was all about you!!!!!!!!!

Day 26- My Week In Great Detail

For this one I am going to make today be the last day of the week and go from there.  So this last week was crazy!  Work is a crazy most of the time anyone and it isn't helping that the MS is getting so bad that I am getting super sick all the time anymore.  People just don't get MS and what it is liking living with a disease that you can never predict but that is a different post.   All I did this past week was work go to fireworks on Saturday with grandma and relax!  I had yesterday off of work because of the 4th and I did a whole lotta nothing!  If you can tell I enjoy my time with my computer and my books.

I did finish a book on saturday and lets just say I was glad to be done with it because it really sucked major ass!

Day-25 My Day In Great Detail

I am going to post about what I did yesterday so that I can set it to publish automatically. So yesterday (today) was the 4th.  Since in Utah we had fireworks on saturday and we got home kind of late I didn't up till ten.  After that I just read blogs watched the Deadliest Catch.  On Sundays I don't usually do much.  Hell I am lucky if I even get out of my pajama's and put on real clothes.  Sundays are the one day of the week that I don't want to do anything so I just relax and do as little as possible!  I also went to my storage unit and got rid of more stuff!  I am hoping to sell it all off soon enough and not have to pay $112 a month for it anymore.

I hope everyone had a great 4th!!!!

Day 24-Where I Live

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Today's topic is where I live.  I live in a small town in Utah.  I basically grew up here.  At least it is the only place I can really remember.  I grew up with my grandparents but before that when I was with my parents I only vaguely remember places because I don't really remember much of my childhood.  The city I live in is getting bigger and I don't like it much anymore.  I used to love all the open fields and things like that and now there isn't any of that.  It has been sad in some ways to watch the city grow up around us.  I don't know that I really want to leave though.  I hate change so where I am at I am hoping with be were I stay at least until I figure out rest of my life!

Day 23- A You Tube Video & Saturday 9

There are so many videos posted on You Tube that I don't know I could pick just one.  I love all the ones that are made by soldiers while they are deployed!  I am going to post one of those because they either make me laugh or cry!

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Saturday 9: Make Me Say It Again, Girl

1. Do you feel that you need to keep repeating yourself when talking to a particular person?
I had to do that with the ex and it drove me totally crazy!!!!  I hate repeating myself.  I started to tell him at the end that if he didn't hear me the first time then it was his loss and I wasn't going to repeat myself!  I know that because of the MS I may not say things clearly so I do repeat myself but if it always the same person asking it drives me totally crazy!
2. It's July. Do you have anything special planned?
Hiding til after the 8th and then going on with life.
3. Who is your big celebrity crush?
I don't really have one to be honest with everyone.  I am not big into having crushes on people.  Hell right now I am done with men!
4. Tell us about a local restaurant you are sure we'd love.
I love Village Inn.  It is like Denny's or IHOP but so much better!  I could go there everyday of my life and be okay with it.
5. Tell us about the shyest person that you deal with regularly.
Myself-I am super shy and I think I am the only shy person in my life right now.  I tend to keep the outgoing people around me so that I don't have to do anything but stick to myself.
6. What is your vision of heaven and hell?
Heaven will be a great place to live.  You won't have any worries or wants.  Where as hell will be miserable and you will want to get out of there.
7. What is your neighborhood like?
It is starting to get old and run down looking.  You have people that take great care of their house's and yards and then you have the people who could careless about taking care of things in their yards.  All in all it is starting to get run down.
8. What's your favorite cook-out food?
Hot Dogs!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
9. When was the last time that you saw fireworks?
I didn't go last year so the year before that was probably the last time I watched them.

Day 22- A Website 5 Question Friday

Today's topic is just a website.  There are lots of websites out there that I like.  I go to Facebook all the time and I also use Blogger all the time.  I read over 200 blogs so there again are a lot of websites.  I am always looking for new blogs to read and new sites that have DIY tips on blogging!  This is short but I couldn't think of anymore and I didn't wanna list any because I don't have favorites!
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1. What is one thing you miss the most about childhood?

Not having to worry about bills and going to work everyday.  I also would love a summer vacation where I didn't have to worry about anything!

2. Are you still friends with your friends from high school?

Nope-I don't even talk to hardly anyone from high school

3. Is there a catch phrase, cliche, or word that just drives you bonkers every time you hear it?

Not really oh wait UMMMM or Like drives me nuts

4. What is one thing that you think symbolizes America...besides "Old Glory"?

The military

5. What are your 4th of July weekend plans?
A whole lotta nothing!  Just reading and blogging!

New Post

New post up on the private blog!  I vented about a lot of things that I had to get off my chest!