Why Some Men Have Dogs And Not Wives:
1. The later you are, the more excited your dogs are to see you.
2. Dogs don't notice if you call them by another dog's name.
3. Dogs like it if you leave a lot of things on the floor.
4. A dog's parents never visit.
5. Dogs agree that you have to raise your voice to get your point across.
6. You never have to wait for a dog; they're ready to go 24 hours a day.
7. Dogs find you amusing when you're drunk.
8. Dogs like to go hunting and fishing.

9. A dog will not wake you up at night to ask, "If I died, would you get another dog?"
10. If a dog has babies, you can put an ad in the paper and give them away.

11. A dog will let you put a studded collar on it without calling you a pervert.
12. If a dog smells another dog on you, they don't get mad. They just think it's interesting.
13. Dogs like to ride in the back of a pickup truck.
14. If a dog leaves, it won't take half of your stuff.
And last, but not least:
15. Lock your wife and your dog in the trunk of your car for an hour. Then open the trunk and see who's happy to see you.....

GETTING BETTER

WELL IT IS THURSDAY AND I AM FINALLY STARTING TO FEEL BETTER. THANK GOD! NOW I WON'T DRINK THIS WEEKEND SO THAT I CAN GET OVER THIS COLD THAT I HAVE. I AM ACTUALLY THE DD THIS WEEKEND. I AM TAKING MISTI AND RON OUT TO WENDOVER SATURDAY NIGHT AND PICKING THEM UP SUNDAY AFTER THE SUPER BOWL. SO THIS WILL BE A SOBER WEEKEND FOR ME. I JUST WOULD RATHER BE SOBER AND NOT HAVE ANY OF MY FRIEND OR PEOPLE I CARE ABOUT GET HURT OR IN TROUBLE, AND SINCE I DON'T LIKE DRINKING BEING SOBER IS EASIEST FOR ME. I COULD CARE LESS IF I DRINK. ALCOHOL IS NOT MY DRUG OF CHOICE THAT IS FOR SURE. I AM SO SCARED THAT I WILL BECOME A MEAN DRUNK THAT I NEVER REALLY DRINK.MY GRANDMA SCRAPED MY WINDOWS THIS MORNING. I HAD TO CALL HER WHEN I GOT TO WORK AND THANK HER FOR DOING THAT FOR ME. IT WAS SO NICE OF HER. I GUESS SHE DID IT WHILE SHE WAS WAITING TO LACHELLE TO GET READY. I FELT BAD THAT MY GRANDMA HAD TO TAKE HER TO TRAX BUT MY GRANDMA WOULDN'T LET ME DO IT THIS MORNING. I WAS GOING TO TAKE LACHELLE AND THEN COME HOME AND GET READY. OH WELL I WILL BE DOING IT WHILE THEY ARE GONE I AM SURE.I AM THINKING I AM GOING TO HAVE TO PUT ELINORE DOWN BECAUSE SHE IS LOSING WEIGHT AND I CAN'T AFFORD TO TAKE HER TO THE VET. OH WELL SHE HAS HAD A TOUGH LIFE AND MAYBE IT IS HER TIME TO GO. I WILL SURVIVE IT. IT WILL SUCK BUT I ALSO DON'T WANT HER TO SUFFER. SO I WILL DO THE RIGHT THING AND PUT HER DOWN IF SHE GETS MUCH SICKER.

YESTERDAY WAS MY GRANDMAS BIRTHDAY AND I FORGOT ALL ABOUT IT! SO YESTERDAY AT WORK I HAD TO GO AND BUY HER A CARD AND A GIFT GOOD THING I KNEW WHAT I WAS GETTING HER. I CAN'T BELIEVE I FORGOT IT THAT JUST ISN'T ME. I ALWAYS REMEMBER BIRTHDAYS. OH WELL GUESS I AM GETTING OLD AND THE MS IS GETTING WORSE. OVER ALL I THINK SHE HAD A GOOD BIRTHDAY AND THAT IS ALL THAT MATTERS!

WHAT IS A GRANDPARENT

(Taken from papers written by a class of 8-year-olds)
Grandparents are a lady and a man who have no little children of their own. They like other people's.
A grandfather is a man, & a grandmother is a lady!
Grandparents don't have to do anything except be there when we come to see them. They are so old they shouldn't play hard or run. It is good if they drive us to the shops and give us money.
When they take us for walks, they slow down past things like pretty leaves and caterpillars.
They show us and talk to us about the colors of the flowers and also why we shouldn't step on 'cracks.'
They don't say, 'Hurry up.'
Usually grandmothers are fat but not too fat to tie your shoes.
They wear glasses and funny underwear.
They can take their teeth and gums out.
Grandparents don't have to be smart.
They have to answer questions like 'Why isn't God married?' and 'How come dogs chase cats?'
When they read to us, they don't skip. They don't mind if we ask for the same story over again.
Everybody should try to have a grandmother, especially if you don't have television because they are the only grownups who like to spend time with us.
They know we should have snack time before bed time, and they say prayers with us and kiss us even when we've acted bad.
A 6-YEAR-OLD WAS ASKED WHERE HIS GRANDMA LIVED.
''OH,'' HE SAID, ''SHE LIVES AT THE AIRPORT, AND WHEN WE WANT HER, WE JUST GO GET HER. THEN WHEN WE'RE DONE HAVING HER VISIT, WE TAKE HER BACK TO THE AIRPORT.''
GRANDPA IS THE SMARTEST MAN ON EARTH! HE TEACHES ME GOOD THINGS, BUT I DON'T GET TO SEE HIM ENOUGH TO GET AS SMART AS HIM!
It's funny when they bend over; you hear gas leaks, and they blame their dog.

NONE OF THAT "SISSY STUFF"

Are you tired of those
sissy 'friendship' poems
that always sound good,
but never actually come close
to reality?
Well, here is a series of promises that actually speak of
True Friendship.
You WON'T see
cutesy little smiley faces
on this card-
Just the stone cold truth
of our great friendship.
1. When you are sad,
I will jump on the person
who made you sad
" like a spider monkey
jacked up on Mountain Dew!!! "
2. When you are blue,
I will try to dislodge
whatever is choking you.
3. When you smile,
I will know you are
plotting something
that I must be involved in.
4. When you're scared,
we will high tail it out of here.
5. When you are worried,
I will tell you horrible stories about how much worse
it could be until you
quit whining, ya big baby!!!!
6. When you are confused,
I will use little words..
7. When you are sick,
Stay away from me
until you are well again.
I don't want whatever you have..
8. When you fall,
I'll pick you up
and dust you off--
After I laugh my butt off!!
9. This is my oath...
I pledge it to the end.
'Why?' you may ask;
-- because you are my FRIEND!
Friendship is like peeing your pants,
everyone can see it,
but only YOU
can feel the
true warmth.

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Can you cry under water?

How important does a person have to be before they are considered assassinated instead of just murdered?Why do you have to "put your two cents in"... but it's only a "penny for your thoughts"?

Where's that extra penny going to?

Once you're in heaven, do you get stuck wearing the clothes you were buried in for eternity?

Why does a round pizza come in a square box?

What disease did cured ham actually have?How is it that we put man on the moon before we figured out it would be a good idea to put wheels on luggage?

Why is it that people say they "slept like a baby" when babies wake up like every two hours?

Why are you IN a movie, but you're ON TV?

Why do people pay to go up tall buildings and then put money in binoculars to look at things on the ground?Why do doctors leave the room while you change? They're going to see you naked anyway.

Why is "bra" singular and "panties" plural?

Why do toasters always have a setting that burns the toast to a horrible crisp, which no decent human being would eat?

If Jimmy cracks corn and no one cares, why is there a stupid song about him?

Can a hearse carrying a corpse drive in the carpool lane?

If the professor on Gilligan's Island can make a radio out of a coconut, why can't he fix a hole in a boat?

Why does Goofy stand erect while Pluto remains on all fours?

They're both dogs!If Wile E. Coyote had enough money to buy all that ACME crap, why didn't he just buy dinner?If corn oil is made from corn, and vegetable oil is made from vegetables, what is baby oil made from?

If electricity comes from electrons, does morality come from morons?

Do the Alphabet song and Twinkle, Twinkle Little Star have the same tune?

Why did you just try singing the two songs above?

Why do they call it an asteroid when it's outside the hemisphere, but call it a hemorrhoid when it's in your butt?

Did you ever notice that when you blow in a dog's face, he gets mad at you, but when you take him for a car ride, he sticks his head out the window?

SICK AGAIN

WELL IT IS TUESDAY AND I AM SICK. I AM SO TIRED OF ALWAYS BEING SICK. IT ALWAYS SEEMS LIKE WHEN I AM SICK I AM SICK FOR A LONG TIME. I AM SO SICK OF BEING SICK. LOOKS LIKE I WILL BE SICK FOR THE SUPER BOWL! OH WELL GUESS I CAN JUST SLEEP ALL DAY. SINCE I DON'T REALLY CARE WHO WINS OR WHAT NOT. I MIGHT AS WELL REST. NO DRINKING FOR MY UNTIL I AM BETTER SO LETS HOPE THIS PASSES SOON. BUT THEN AGAIN YOU NEVER DO KNOW WITH THINGS LIKE THIS.

JOSH TOLD ME YESTEDAY THAT HE WANTS ME BACK! I TOLD HIM THERE IS NO WAY I WOULD BECAUSE I CAN'T DEAL WITH HIS JOB ANYMORE AND I COULD NEVER TRUST HIM AGAIN. IT BUGS ME IT TAKES MEN SO LONG TO FIGURE OUT WHAT THEY WANT AND BY THE TIME THEY DO IT IS TO LATE. IT IS WAY TO LATE FOR HIM TO WANT ME BACK NOW. I AM MOVING ON AND GETTING PAST THE PAIN HE HAS CAUSED ME. HE WANTS ME TO BE SOMEONE THAT I WILL NEVER BE ABLE TO BE. I WANT AND WILL FIND SOMEONE THAT LIKES ME FOR ME. I AM IN NO RUSH THOUGH TO FIND SOMEONE I DON'T MIND BEING SINGLE.

IF ANYONE KNOWS SOMEONE WHO WOULD LIKE TO CATS LET ME KNOW. I AM TRYING TO FIND MY GIRLS GOOD HOMES WITH PEOPLE THAT WILL LOVE THEM LIKE I DO. I WANT THEM TO GO TOGETHER SO THEY WON'T BE AS SAD. I AM IN NO RUSH BUT I THINK IT I TIME THAT I FIND THEM A NEW HOME.

WOMEN

Facts On Figures

There are 3 billion women who don't look like super models ?

And only eight who do.

Did you know Marilyn Monroe wore a size 14?

If Barbie was a real woman, she'd have to walk on all FOURS due to her proportions!

The average woman weighs 144 pounds, and wears between a size 12-14. ?

One out of every 4 college-aged women has an eating disorder.

The Models in the magazines are AIRBRUSHED!!! - NOT Perfect!!

A psychological study in 1995 found that 3 minutes spent looking at a Fashion Magazine caused 70% of women to feel depressed , guilty and SHAMEFUL!

Models 20 years ago weighed 8% Less than the average Woman.

Today they weigh 23% less......

~~ Beauty of a Woman ~~

The beauty of a woman is not in the clothes she wears, The figure she carries, or the way she combs her hair.The beauty of a woman must be seen from her eyes,Because that is the doorway to her heart,The place where love resides.The beauty of a woman is not in a facial mole, But true beauty in a woman is reflected in her soul.It is the caring that she lovingly gives,The passion that she shows.The beauty of a womanWith time, only grows..

The Images of A Mom

4 YEARS OF AGE - My Mommy can do anything!

8 YEARS OF AGE- YMy Mom knows a lot! A whole lot!

12 YEARS OF AGE - My Mother doesn't really know quite everything.

14 YEARS OF AGE - Naturally, Mother doesn't know that, either!

16 YEARS OF AGE- Mother? She's hopelessly old-fashioned.

18 YEARS OF AGE- That old woman? She's way out of date!

25 YEARS OF AGE - Well, she might know a little bit about it.

35 YEARS OF AGE - Before we decide, let's get Mom's opinion.

45 YEARS OF AGE - Wonder what Mom would have thought about it?

65 YEARS OF AGE- Wish I could talk it over with Mom. .

IN MEMORY OF MY LAST JOB

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DRAMA WEEKEND

THIS WEEKEND WAS FULL OF DRAMA. IF IT WASN'T ONE THING IT WAS ANOTHER. I GUESS SOME WEEKENDS ARE LIKE THAT AND THERE IS NOTHING WE CAN DO ABOUT IT. I DEALT WITH IT AND AS I LOOK BACK TODAY I HAD A LOT OF FUN. IT WAS A MUCH NEEDED BREAK.

I DID FILE FOR DIVORCE ON SATURDAY BUT THAT WAS NEEDED AND IT IS A RELIEF. I AM SAD IT IS OVER BUT GLAD ALL AT THE SAME TIME. I AM READY TO BE DONE WITH HIM AND I KNOW THAT THIS IS THE RIGHT DECISION. THE PAIN GETS A LITTLE LESS EACH DAY AND I THINK I AM OVER THE HARDEST PART OF IT ALL.

I HUNG OUT A LOT THIS WEEKEND WITH A GUY NAMED TODD. HE IS REALLY NICE AND I AM REALLY STARTING TO LIKE HIM. I THINK HE LIKES ME TOO BUT YOU CAN NEVER BE SURE WITH MEN. THEY ARE SO HARD TO READ AT TIMES.

THE DRAMA STARTED SATURDAY MORNING AT 6 WHEN SOMEONE TOOK MY CELL PHONE AND HID IT. I AM NOT SURE WHO DID IT BUT THE FACT THAT IT HAPPENED WAS ENOUGH TO PISS ME OFF. THEY ALSO GOT MAD CAUSE I AM SEEING TODD AND THEY DON'T LIKE THAT. I GUESS TO THEM I AM STILL MARRIED SO I SHOULDN'T BE DATING. THIS IS WHY I FILED FOR DIVORCE SO THAT THEY WOULD GET OFF OF MY BACK. I AM SCARED THEY WILL THROW ME OUT AND I DON'T KNOW WHAT I WOULD DO. I MEAN I HAVE PLACES I COULD STAY BUT I DON'T HAVE A PLACE FOR MY KITTY'S AND THAT IS WHAT WORRIES ME. SO I AM TRYING TO STAY BELOW THE RADAR AND HOPE IT GETS BETTER WITH TIME. I THINK IT WILL BUT LIKE I SAY YOU NEVER KNOW WITH MY FAMILY HOW THEY WILL ACT FROM DAY TO DAY. IT SURE GETS OLD THOUGH THAT IS FOR SURE. OH WELL IT IS FREE AND I HOPE THEY DON'T THROW ME OUT.

AMAZING

AMAZING IS ALL THAT CAN DESCRIBE THE NIGHT. IT WAS SO MUCH FUN AND I HAD A GREAT TIME ON MY DATE. SO I WILL START WITH THE CONCERT. IT WAS GREAT A LOT OF HIS STUFF WAS OFF OF THE DVDS BUT WHAT WAS NEW WAS FUNNY. I COULDN'T STOP LAUGHING! I WILL TRY AND GET THE PICTURES MY LITTLE BROTHER TOOK AND POST THEM. I DIDN'T HAVE A CAMERA SO I COULDN'T TAKE ANY. PEANUT WAS MY FAVORITE OF THE NIGHT. HE WAS EVEN FUNNIER THAN WALTER WAS. I LEFT BEFORE BUBBA J CAME OUT CAUSE I CAN'T STAND BUBBA J. OVER ALL I LOVED IT AND IF HE COME AGAIN I WILL TRY MY BEST TO GO. I WISH ALL OF YOU COULD HAVE SEEN THE SHOW!

NOW FOR THE DATE PART. HE MADE ME FEEL THINGS I HAVEN'T FELT IN FOREVER. I REALLY LIKE HIM BUT I AM CAUTIOUS BECAUSE I GET SCARED THAT HE IS LYING LIKE SO MANY GUYS HAVE DONE. I AM STAYING POSITIVE AND HOPEFULLY THIS WILL GO SOMEWHERE AND LAST FOR AWHILE. I KNOW HE IS SCARED THOUGH CAUSE I AM MARRIED AND I UNDERSTAND THAT. I KNOW THOUGH THAT I AM NOT GOING BACK TO JOSH. I AM TIRED OF HOW HE TREATS ME AND HOW HE NEVER GAVE ME A CHANCE TO PROVE THAT I HAVE CHANGED. I DON'T NEED SOMEONE LIKE THAT AND I WANT TO HAVE SOMEONE THAT IS HERE WITH ME AND NOT GONE ALL THE TIME! SO I THINK I AM HEADED IN THE RIGHT DIRECTION AS FAR AS GUYS GO. I GET THE VIBE HE IS A REALLY GOOD GUY AND MISTI GOT THE SAME VIBE WHEN SHE SAW HIM AT THE CLUB. SO LETS ALL HOPE SOMETHING COMES OF THIS!

MISTI SMILE IT WILL ALL BE OK! WE WILL FIGURE IT ALL OUT FOR YOU! I AM ALWAYS HERE FOR YOU.

IT IS JEFF DUNHAM TONIGHT. I AM EXCITED TO SEE HIM BUT I AM NERVOUS CAUSE I AM GOING ON A DATE TONIGHT! I DON'T LIKE DATING IT MAKES ME NERVOUS AND I FEEL LIKE I AM NO GOOD AT IT ANYWAYS, BUT I HAVE TO GIVE IT A SHOT AT TIMES. I THINK IT WILL GO WELL TONIGHT. IT SHOULD BE OK I AM NOT TO WORRIED ABOUT IT MORE WORRIED ABOUT MY BROTHER BEING THERE WITH HIS GIRLFRIEND LOL. I THINK WE WILL ALL GET ALONG THOUGH. I WILL FOR SURE POST AN UPDATE TOMORROW ON THE CONCERT AND HOW THE DATE WENT!

CARS. . .

CARS SUCK. I HAD TO BE DRIVEN TO WORK TODAY BECAUSE MY TIRE WAS REALLY REALLY LOW. THIS SUCKS I ALWAYS HATE BEING AT WORK WITH OUT A CAR EVEN THOUGH I KNOW IF I HAVE TO GO SOMEWHERE MISTI WILL TAKE ME.

UPDATE:

WELL GRANDPA TOOK THE CAR IN AND THERE WAS A SCREW IN THE TIRE. THEY PATCHED IT BUT THEY AREN'T SURE IT WILL HOLD. SO I HAVE TO WATCH IT AND SEE. LETS ALL HOPE THAT I DON'T HAVE TO PUT A NEW TIRE ON BECAUSE I CAN'T AFFORD THAT RIGHT NOW.

SICK!

I THINK I AM SICK AND THAT SUCKS ROYALLY! I AM SO TIRED AND YUCKY I DON'T WANNA DO ANY WORK BUT I KNOW I HAVE TO WORK BECAUSE I HAVE THINGS I NEED TO DO. I FEEL SO YUCKY I HATE FEELING LIKE THIS. IF THIS DOESN'T GO AWAY I DON'T THINK I AM GOING TO COME TO WORK TOMORROW. I HATE CALLING IN BUT I REALLY DON'T FEEL GOOD AT ALL. I WOULD RATHER STAY HOME THEN GET OTHER PEOPLE SICK BECAUSE I CAME IN. SO WE WILL SEE HOW I FEEL BUT IT ISN'T LOOKING GOOD AT ALL.

FOR MISTI

I AM POSTING THIS POST BECAUSE I NEED TO SAY SOME THINGS TO MISTI AND I FEEL THIS IS THE BEST WAY. I AM NOT GOOD AT TALKING ABOUT THINGS. I FEEL I CAN GET THE MESSAGE ACROSS BETTER IF I JUST WRITE IT DOWN. I MAY RAMBLE BUT BEAR WITH ME.

MISTI:

FIRST OFF I WANT TO TELL YOU THAT YOU WILL NEVER KNOW HOW MUCH YOU HAVE HELPED ME OR HOW MUCH YOU HAVE DONE FOR ME. YOU HAVE TAUGHT ME MORE ABOUT MYSELF AND OTHER PEOPLE THAN ANYONE ELSE HAS. YOU ALWAYS GIVE A PERSPECTIVE ON THINGS THAT I NEVER HAVE SEEN. YOU MAKE ME TAKE A STEP BACK AND LOOK AT THINGS AGAIN. I DON'T KNOW HOW I WOULD HAVE GOTTEN THROUGH THE LAST FEW WEEKS IF YOU HADN'T BEEN AROUND. I KNOW WE FIGHT AND ARGUE BUT WE BOTH ALWAYS CALM DOWN AND GET IT FIGURED OUT. I WANT YOU TO KNOW HOW GOOD OF A PERSON YOU ARE AND HOW LOST I WOULD BE WITHOUT YOU!!! YOU ALWAYS CAN MAKE ME LAUGH WHEN I NEED TO LAUGH. YOU ALWAYS SEEM TO KNOW WHAT TO SAY AT THE RIGHT TIME. I KNOW AT TIMES THAT I GET MAD WHEN YOU SAY THINGS BUT THAT IS ONLY BECAUSE I KNOW YOU ARE RIGHT AND I DON'T LIKE BEING WRONG. I AM WORKING ON IT AND ONE DAY MAYBE I WILL BE ABLE TO NOT DO THAT TO YOU! I FEEL AT TIMES I AM MEAN TO YOU AND I APOLOGIZE FOR THAT. I REALLY AM TRYING TO CHANGE AND I KNOW ONE DAY I WILL BE BETTER. I JUST HOPE YOU HAVE THE PATIENCE TO WAIT FOR THAT TIME TO COME. IF NOT I UNDERSTAND BECAUSE I KNOW I AM NOT THE EASIEST PERSON TO GET ALONG WITH. LIKE WHEN YOU TOLD ME YESTERDAY YOU DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO WITH ME SOMETIMES. I KNOW I NEED TO CHANGE SOMETHINGS AND I AM TRYING. ONE DAY MAYBE I WON'T BE AS HARD TO DEAL WITH AT TIMES. I ALSO DON'T WANT YOU TO FEEL LIKE YOU EVER HAVE TO DO THINGS WITH ME. I WANT YOU TO SAY NO I DON'T WANT TO DO ANYTHING. I DON'T WANT YOU TO FEEL LIKE YOU HAVE TO DO THINGS LIKE YOU TEND TO DO WITH OTHER PEOPLE. SO PLEASE JUST SAY NO I AM NOT FEELING IT.

I WANT TO TELL YOU HOW MUCH GOOD I SEE IN YOU AND HOW MUCH I THINK YOU ARE SHORTING YOURSELF BY STAYING WITH SOME OF THE GUYS YOU DO. IT KILLED ME TO HEAR WHAT HAPPENED ON FRIDAY NIGHT. I JUST WANT YOU TO BE HAPPY AND HAVE SOMEONE LOVE YOU LIKE YOU DESERVE. I KNOW YOU WANT TO BADLY TO BE LOVED AND HAVE A FAMILY OF YOUR OWN. I FEEL ONE DAY YOU WILL HAVE IT. I HAVE ALSO DECIDED THAT I WILL GIVE RON A CHANCE IF YOU WANT, BUT I WANT YOU TO KNOW THAT IF HE DOES IT AGAIN THAT WILL BE THE LAST THING HE DOES. I WILL NOT STAND FOR SOMEONE TO DO WHAT FREDDIE DID TO YOU. I WILL BE AROUND YOU AND I AM NEVER LEAVING UNLESS YOU TELL ME TOO! I WILL GET ALONG WITH HIM SO THAT IT ISN'T HARDER ON YOU BUT I WILL PUT HIM IN HIS PLACE IF I DON'T LIKE WHAT HE IS DOING OR SAYING. I WILL DO THIS WITH ANY GUY THOUGH. SO JUST KNOW I WILL DO EVERYTHING IN MY POWER TO KEEP YOU FROM GETTING HURT AGAIN BECAUSE I DON'T WANNA LOSE YOU AND I DON'T KNOW IF YOU WOULD SURVIVE ANOTHER HEART BREAK LIKE FREDDIE.

YOU ARE A SPECIAL PERSON! YOU ARE SO DIFFERENT THAN OTHER PEOPLE ARE. YOU ARE THE FIRST PERSON I HAVE EVER MEET THAT IS AS NICE AND CARING AS YOU ARE. I HOPE ONE DAY YOU WILL SEE THIS AND SEE HOW BEAUTIFUL OF A PERSON YOU ARE. I KNOW YOU LOOK IN THE MIRROR AND DON'T SEE THE BEAUTY BUT I HOPE ONE DAY YOU WILL SEE JUST HOW PRETTY YOU ARE. MAYBE IF I SAY IT ENOUGH YOU WILL REALIZE IT. I ALSO WANT YOU TO KNOW HOW MUCH I HAVE LEARNED FROM YOU. I HAVE LEARNED MORE IN THE SHORT TIME I HAVE KNOW YOU THEN I THINK I EVER HAVE BEFORE. EVERYDAY I LEARN SOMETHING NEW AND YOU MAKE ME FIND THAT INNER STRENGTH THAT I HAVE. I WANT YOU TO KNOW THAT IS SEE THE SAME STRENGTH IN YOU. YOU MAY NOT THINK SO BUT YOU ARE AND ONE DAY YOU WILL REALIZE IT. YOU HAVE GONE THROUGH SO MUCH AND I LOOK UP TO YOU FOR IT. YOU HAVE TAUGHT ME I DESERVE BETTER THAN WHAT I GOT FROM JOSH AND I HOPE ONE DAY YOU WILL SEE THAT YOU DESERVE BETTER THAN WHAT YOU HAVE BEEN GETTING.

IN CLOSING I JUST WANT YOU TO KNOW I LOVE YOU AND I HOPE WE ARE ALWAYS FRIENDS! I KNOW HOW GOOD YOU ARE FOR ME AND HOW YOU ARE USUALLY THE ONE TO KEEP ME IN CHECK. DON'T EVER LET ANYONE MAKE YOU FEEL UGLY OR FEEL LIKE YOU AREN'T WORTH ANYTHING!!! KNOW ONE DAY THINGS WILL GET BETTER AND YOU WILL FIND WHAT YOU ARE LOOKING FOR.

LOVE

MARGARET

THE LAST FEW DAYS

THIS PICTURE WAS TAKEN ON FRIDAY NIGHT BEFORE WE WENT OUT. I WISH THINGS WOULD HAVE STAYED HAPPY BUT THEY DIDN'T. I WILL JUST LEAVE IT AT THAT NIGHT WAS THE ONE OF THE WORST ONES. THIS OUTFIT WAS MY FAVORITE THOUGH. THIS WAS THE NIGHT THAT I GOT TOMMY'S NUMBER!!!!!! I WAS SO EXCITED AND I DID IT ALL ON MY OWN I WAS SO PROUD OF MYSELF!
THIS WAS TAKEN SATURDAY NIGHT THIS NIGHT WAS A LITTLE BIT BETTER BUT NOT MUCH. I JUST FEEL LIKE I WANT TO HELP PEOPLE AND THEY DON'T WANT MY HELP. I HATE TO SEE MY FRIENDS HURT AND I HOPE MISTI WILL FIND HAPPINESS. I THINK SHE WILL BUT I DON'T THINK IT WILL BE WITH THE GUYS SHE HAS AROUND HER NOW.
(YOU KNOW I LOVE YOU BUT I AM HONEST!!!!)
THIS WEEKEND WAS INTERESTING TO SAY THE LEAST BUT I DID WHAT I WANTED TO DO AND I GOT A COUPLE OF NUMBERS AND I AM SLOWLY GETTING MORE SOCIAL. I DON'T KNOW IF I WILL GO BACK TO CLUBS FOR AWHILE. I JUST FEEL LIKE YA OK I TRIED IT BUT AND I DID END UP LIKING IT, BUT I KNOW MISTI REALLY LIKES THIS GUY AND IT ISN'T RIGHT TO HAVE HER GO OUT IF SHE LIKES HIM. NOW SAYING THAT DOESN'T MEAN I LIKE HIM CAUSE I DON'T BUT I WILL RESPECT HER AND HOPE FOR THE BEST. MAYBE HE WILL BE THE GUY TO PROVE ME WRONG. ALL I CAN SAY IF HE PULLS A REPEAT OF FRIDAY I WILL MAKE SURE HE PAYS FOR WHAT HE DID. I AM AND WILL GIVE HIM A CHANCE FOR HER SAKE BUT UNTIL HE PROVES THAT HE ISN'T LIKE HE WAS THIS WEEKEND I WON'T TRUST AND OR LIKE HIM. ON SECOND THOUGHT I THINK I WILL NEVER COMPLETELY TRUST HIM AGAIN.
(SQUIRREL YOU KNOW I LOVE AND AM ONLY SAYING THIS BECAUSE I LOVE YOU AND NEEDED TO GET IT OFF OF MY CHEST! I WILL ALWAYS SUPPORT YOU SO DON'T FORGET THAT! MAYBE HE WILL PROVE ME WRONG!)
ELINORE IS GETTING A LITTLE BIT BETTER EVERYDAY!!! THIS IS SO GOOD FOR ME BECAUSE I COULDN'T HANDLE HAVING TO PUT HER DOWN RIGHT NOW. THERE IS JUST TOO MUCH GOING ON FOR ME TO BE ABLE TO HANDLE THAT RIGHT NOW. I MEAN IF I HAD TO DO IT I WOULD FOR HER BUT I WOULD MAKE ME REALLY REALLY DEPRESSED!
I AM STILL TRYING TO STAY POSITIVE BUT I THINK I HAVE COME A LONG WAY AND THAT SLOWLY I AM BECOMING A MORE LIKE ABLE PERSON. I KNOW I WILL ALWAYS HAVE MY NEGATIVE TENDENCY'S AND BE BITCHY AT TIMES. I ALSO NOW KNOW THAT I AM A BETTER PERSON AND THAT IS JOSH HADN'T OF LEFT I NEVER WOULD HAVE BEEN MAKING THE CHANGES I AM. SO BECAUSE OF HIM LEAVING ME I AM BECOMING A STRONGER PERSON!!! SO I NEVER THOUGHT I WOULD SAY THIS BUT THANK YOU JOSH FOR MAKING ME BECOME THE PERSON I AM BECOMING. I HAD FORGOTTEN JUST HOW STRONG I AM AND I KNOW AM GETTING BACK TO ME AND TO WHO I NEED TO BE.

FRIDAY...LETS PARTY!

IT IS FRIDAY AGAIN. I AM SO GLAD THIS WEEK IS OVER. IT HAS BEEN A REALLY LONG WEEK. IT SEEMS LIKE IT LASTED FOR TEN YEARS. IT HAS JUST BEEN ONE OF THOSE WEEKS THAT I COULDN'T WAIT TO BE OVER. I AM GOING OUT AGAIN THIS WEEKEND. WE ARE GOING TO DIFFERENT CLUBS THIS WEEKEND BUT WE ARE RUNNING INTO CLUB ALLURE SO THAT I CAN GET A NUMBER THEN WE ARE LEAVING AND GOING ON OUR WAY TO THE OTHER ONE. MAYBE TONIGHT I WILL HANG OUT AFTER THE CLUBS WITH THE CUTE BOYS LOL. I AM THINKING THAT I WON'T BE DRINKING THIS WEEKEND. WE WILL SEE THOUGH I ALWAYS SEEM TO CHANGE MY MIND BUT I AM NOT PLANNING ON DRINKING. LETS ALL WISH MARGARET THE COURAGE TO TALK TO PEOPLE THIS WEEKEND. I AM TRYING TO GET OUT OF MY SHELL BUT I AM A SHY PERSON. SO WE WILL KEEP TRYING AND MAYBE ONE DAY I WILL BE GOOD AT IT.

SAGITTARIUS

The Promiscuous One

Spontaneous. High appeal. Rare to find. Great when found. Loves being in long relationships. So much love to give. A loner most of the time. Loses patience easily and will not take crap. If in a bad mood stay FAR away. Gets offended easily and remembers the offense forever. Loves deeply but at times will not show it, feels it is a sign of weakness. Has many fears but will not show it. VERY private person. Defends loved ones will all their abilities. Can be childish often. Not one to mess with. Very pretty. Very romantic. Nice to everyone they meet. Their Love is one of a kind. Silly, fun and sweet. Have own unique appeal. Most caring person you will ever meet! Amazing in bed..!!! Not the kind of person you want to mess with- you might end up crying

THIS IS SO ME!!! CAN'T BELIEVE HOW RIGHT ON THIS IS!

IT IS THURSDAY AND I AM STRUGGLING A LOT TODAY. I AM ON EDGE AND I AM NOT SURE WHY. I FEEL LIKE I AM GOING TO FREAK OUT AND JUST RUN AWAY. I AM NOT DEALING WELL WITH ANYTHING RIGHT NOW. I AM TRYING BUT I CAN'T SEEM TO CALM DOWN. MAYBE IT IS BECAUSE IT IS THAT TIME OF OF THE MONTH OR MAYBE IT IS STRESS. WHO KNOWS ANYMORE.

I HAVE BEEN EMAILING MY STEP SISTER APRIL. IT IS SO CUTE I HAVE NEVER HAD ANYONE YOUNGER THAN ME TO TALK TO. MY BROTHER IS YOUNGER AND SO IS ARI BUT NOT BY MUCH. I WISH AT TIMES I COULD GO BACK TO THOSE YEARS OF NOT CARING AND JUST GOING TO SCHOOL AND NOT HAVING ALL OF THE RESPONSIBILITY'S THAT COME WITH GETTING OLDER. I ALSO WISH I COULD GO BACK TO A TIME WHEN I WASN'T SICK ALL THE TIME. BUT THAT CAN'T HAPPEN ALL I CAN DO IS LIVE IN TODAY AND HOPE IT GETS BETTER THAN WHAT IT HAS BEEN.

ELINORE IS GETTING A LITTLE BIT BETTER BUT NOT MUCH. IT IS ALWAYS UP AND DOWN WITH CATS THOUGH. ALL I CAN DO IS WAIT THOUGH BECAUSE I CAN'T AFFORD TO TAKE HER TO THE VET. SO I HOPE SHE GETS BETTER, BUT IF NOT THEN IT MUST BE HER TIME TO GO. I KNOW LOSING HER RIGHT NOW WOULD PUT ME OVER THE EDGE THOUGH. I CAN DEAL WITH A LOT BUT I CAN'T DEAL WITH THAT RIGHT NOW. I WILL BE LIKE MY CHILD DYING.

I GUESS LACHELLE'S MOM THROUGH HER OUT SO SHE IS STAYING WITH US FOR A WEEK OR AT LEAST THAT IS WHAT GRANDPA SAID. HE DOESN'T WANT HER TO STAY ANY LONGER THAN THAT. SO WE WILL SEE WHAT ENDS UP HAPPENING YOU NEVER KNOW WITH MY CRAZY FAMILY. THINGS ALWAYS CHANGE IN A MOMENTS TIME.

JOSH WON'T SEEM TO MAKE UP HIS MIND AND THAT KEEPS ME ALWAYS WONDERING IF I AM DOING THE RIGHT THING. I DON'T KNOW THAT I COULD EVER FORGIVE HIM FOR TELLING ME ON CHRISTMAS DAY THAT HE WANTED A DIVORCE. HOW AFTER HIM DOING THAT COULD I EVER FORGIVE HIM. I KNOW I WILL NEVER FORGET THAT HE DID THAT ON CHRISTMAS. I DON'T KNOW IT WOULD EVER BE THE SAME. I THINK I WOULD GO BACK IF HE HADN'T DONE IT ON CHRISTMAS. THAT MAKES HIM LEAVING ME EVEN HARDER TO DEAL WITH BECAUSE I KNOW EVERY YEAR NOW I WILL REMEMBER WHAT HAPPENED ON CHRISTMAS DAY.

MAXINE

MISSING MY OLD PEOPLE!!!!

THIS WILL BE SHORT POST! ELINORE NEEDS TO GET BETTER AND MEN SUCK! OK THAT IS ALL I HAVE TO SAY FOR TODAY. HOPE EVERYONE HAS A GREAT DAY!

ELINORE

I HAD TO CALL JOSH LAST NIGHT! IT WAS SUCH A WASTE OF TIME. I CALLED TO TELL HIM HE HAS PAPER WORK HERE AND I NEED AN ADDRESS TO MAIL IT TO AND HE PROCEEDED TO TALK TO ME FOR OVER AN HOUR ABOUT NOTHING. I DIDN'T EVEN LISTEN HALF THE TIME. I WAS LIKE I DON'T WANNA TALK TO YOU BUT I COULDN'T BE MEAN TO HIM SO I JUST KEPT TALKING TO HIM UNTIL I COULDN'T STAND IT ANYMORE! THEN I TOLD HIM I HAD TO EAT AND THAT I WOULD TALK TO HIM LATER. I REALLY DON'T CARE IF I SEE OR TALK TO HIM. I AM AT THE POINT THAT HE BUGS ME. I WILL BE NICE TO HIM BECAUSE I AM A GOOD PERSON BUT I WON'T CALL OR TALK TO HIM UNLESS IT IS ABSOLUTELY NECESSARY. I AM JUST DONE WITH HIM. I NEVER THOUGHT I WOULD GET TO A POINT WHERE HE BUGS ME BUT I HAVE AND I AM GLAD FOR THAT.

MY LITTLE BROTHER ASKED HIM GIRLFRIEND TO MARRY HIM ON FRIDAY I GUESS! I WAS LIKE WTF?!?!?!? HE DOESN'T HAVE A JOB OR ANYWHERE TO LIVE BUT THEY ARE GOING TO GET MARRIED? OH WELL IT IS THERE STUPID MISTAKE NOT MINE. I THINK SHE WILL GET TIRED OF HIS SHIT AFTER AWHILE BUT THAT WILL BE HER PROBLEM NOT MINE. I TRIED TO WARN HER ABOUT HOW HE IS AND THAT HE IS LIKE MY HUSBAND IN A LOT OF WAYS. IF THEY DON'T WANNA LISTEN THAT IS THERE PROBLEM I GUESS. THEY CAN LEARN THE HARD WAY. MAYBE THEY WILL MAKE IT THOUGH. I WILL ALWAYS STAY POSITIVE ABOUT IT AND WISH THE BEST FOR THEM!

ELINORE DIDN'T THROW UP LAST NIGHT BUT SHE IS LOSING WEIGHT. I AM SCARED THAT I WILL HAVE TO PUT HER TO SLEEP. LAST NIGHT SHE FELT LIKE SHE HAD A FEVER AND THAT IS ALWAYS BAD. BUT ALL I CAN DO IS WAIT IT OUT AND HOPE SHE GETS BETTER. IF I HAVE TO PUT HER DOWN THAT WOULD DO ME IN. SHE IS LIKE MY CHILD AND THE THOUGHT OF PUTTING HER TO SLEEP UPSETS ME AND MAKES ME WANNA CRY. I HOPE SHE IS GETTING OVER IT ALL. WITH CATS IT IS A WAITING GAME YOU NEVER KNOW WHAT WILL HAPPEN.

MONDAY THOUGHTS

WELL IT IS MONDAY AND I REALLY DON'T WANNA BE AT WORK ANYMORE! I HAVE A HEADACHE AGAIN THE MEN HERE ARE IDIOTS AND I AM LONELY. I AM IN A BUILDING FULL OF PEOPLE AND I FEEL ALL ALONE. I GUESS IT WILL ALL PASS WITH TIME AND I WILL HAVE MY UPS AND DOWNS THAT IS FOR SURE. I WISH MY HEAD WOULD STOP HURTING AND THAT WAY I COULD BE OUT OF PAIN FOR AWHILE. I REALIZED THIS WEEKEND HOW MUCH JOSH DOESN'T CARE. I FIGURED BUT IT SUCKS KNOWING FOR SURE THAT HE DOESN'T CARE. I AM SO OVER HIM AND HIS CRAP. THAT DOESN'T MEAN IT STILL DOESN'T HURT IT JUST MEANS THAT I WILL NO LONGER DEAL WITH HIM. HE HAS MY NUMBER HE WANTS TO CALL COOL IF NOT THEN OH WELL HIS LOSS. IN FACT I WOULD RATHER HIM NOT CALL ME ANYMORE. THAT WAY I CAN HAVE A CLEAN BREAK FROM HIM.

NOW THERE IS ALSO TIM IN MY LIFE WHO IS ALSO HURTING ME WITH HIS WAYS. I REALLY LIKE TIM BUT HE WON'T MAKE UP HIS MIND. I MET HIM THROUGH JOSH SO THAT IS KIND OF WEIRD BUT IT DOESN'T BOTHER ME. HE JUST DOESN'T KNOW WHAT HE WANTS. I THINK IS SCARED OF COMMITMENT BUT WHAT HE DOESN'T GET IS I DON'T WANT OR NEED COMMITMENT RIGHT NOW. ALL I WANT IS A FRIEND AND MAYBE TO DATE HIM. HE JUST KEEPS PUSHING ME AWAY AND THEN WANTING ME TO COME AROUND AGAIN. I WISH MEN COULD FIGURE IT ALL OUT.

MY GRANDPAS BROTHER RUSSEL IS DOING THAT WELL AND I FEEL SO BAD FOR MY GRANDPA AND HIS FAMILY. JEFF CAME IN YESTERDAY TO SEE HIS UNCLE AND HE CALLED AND DIDN'T WANT MY GRANDPA TO PICK HIM UP FROM THE AIRPORT. I WAS LIKE WTF?!?!?! WHO SAYS THAT TO THERE OWN DAD! I WOULD NEVER DO THAT. I KNOW HE DID IT BECAUSE HE HATES MY GRANDMA AND LAST TIME HE WAS HERE MY GRANDPA GOT MAD AT HIM FOR BEING MEAN TO MY GRANDMA. I JUST WANT TO SAY TO HIM GROW UP! IT IS SUCH A JOKE HOW MY FAMILY ACTS WITH EACH OTHER.

I THINK ELINORE IS SICK. I WILL PROBABLY HAVE TO TAKE HER TO THE VETS THIS WEEK OR NEXT. I AM NOT SURE WHAT IS WRONG WITH HER BUT SHE ISN'T ACTING LIKE HERSELF AND SEE KEEPS THROWING UP ALL DAY LONG. I AM NOT SURE WHAT I WILL END UP DOING BUT I HAVE TO DO SOMETHING. SO I AM HOPING IT IS NOTHING BIG BUT IF IT IS I WILL HAVE TO PUT HER DOWN AND THAT WILL BREAK MY HEART. SHE IS THE ONE CAT THAT I REALLY REALLY LOVE. SO LETS ALL PRAY SHE IS OK!

CRAZY WEEKEND

THESE PICTURES ARE FROM FRIDAY AT THE COFFEE SHOP BEFORE I DECIDED THAT I WAS GOING TO GO TO A CLUB! MISTI DID MY HAIR AND IT IS ALSO HER HAT THAT I BORROWED!

THIS WEEKEND WAS THE WILDEST ONE YET AND IT WAS ALSO THE FUNNEST ONE I HAVE HAD YET! I AM LOOKING FORWARD TO MORE WEEKENDS LIKE THIS ONE. AFTER THIS WEEKEND I KNOW I AM DONE WITH JOSH AND THAT I WILL BE OK AND SURVIVE IT ALL!

WE WENT TO THE CLUB FRIDAY NIGHT. THIS WAS MY FIRST TIME EVER GOING AND AFTER THE SHOCK WORE OFF I WAS OK WITH IT. THERE ARE REALLY CUTE BOUNCERS THERE! I WAS THE SOBER ONE THAT NIGHT. I AM NOT A BIG DRINKER SO IT WAS OK TO BE SOBER. I REALLY REALLY LIKED IT. SO I WENT FROM NOT WANTING TO GO TO KNOW I WANT TO GO ALL THE TIME LOL.

WE WENT BACK SATURDAY NIGHT AS WELL! MISTI SAYS SHE HAS TURNED ME INTO A MONSTER. I JUST LIKE WATCHING DRUNK PEOPLE I GUESS LOL. SATURDAY I DRANK AND MISTI WAS SOBER AND IT WAS MORE FUN UNTIL A GUY WAS A JACK ASS. HE THREATENED ME BECAUSE I WOULDN'T GIVE HIM MY NUMBER. SO WE WENT AND TOLD DAVE ONE OF THE BOUNCERS THAT USED TO WORK WITH US AT WORK. THEY WENT AND TALKED TO HIM AND REST OF THE NIGHT HE JUST KEPT STARING AND MAKING WEIRD GESTURES TOWARDS US. SO HE KIND OF RUINED THE NIGHT FOR ME. I HAVE DECIDED THAT DESPITE THAT EXPERIENCE THAT I WILL GO BACK AND DO IT ALL AGAIN.

WE ALSO WENT TO COFFEE SHOPS BOTH NIGHTS AND THAT WAS FUN TOO. I REALLY ENJOYED THEM AND WE WILL GO BACK THERE TOO. I AM HOPING THAT I WILL BE ABLE TO GET THE COURAGE TO TALK TO GUYS SOON TOO. I FIND I AM REALLY SHY AND I GET NERVOUS AND CHICKEN OUT. IF THE GUY APPROACHES ME I AM COOL BUT IF I HAVE TO GO UP TO THE GUY FIRST I CAN'T DO IT.

OVER ALL I REALLY ENJOYED THIS WEEKEND AND HOPE TO HAVE LOTS MORE LIKE IT. I HAVE TO THANK MISTI FOR GOING WITH ME AND STICKING IT OUT EVEN WHEN I WAS HAVING ISSUES AND SCARED LOL.

FRIDAY THOUGHTS

WELL I HAVE TO START OFF SAYING CONGRATULATIONS TO THE FLORIDA GATORS. EVEN THOUGH WE KNOW WHO THE REAL NATIONAL CHAMPIONS ARE THIS YEAR! THEY WILL NEVER COME OUT AND SAY THAT THOUGH SO WE WILL SEE. MY GRANDPA'S BROTHER RUSSEL HAS CANCER THROUGH OUT HIS WHOLE BODY SO HE WON'T LIVE VERY LONG. I GUESS IT IS 42 YEARS TODAY THAT HIS FATHER DIED OF CANCER. SO IT IS EVEN HARDER ON MY GRANDPA. I THINK THIS MAKES HIM SEE THAT HE WON'T BE AROUND FOREVER. I WISH RUSSEL AND HIS FAMILY THE BEST BUT IT ISN'T LOOKING GOOD FOR HIM. MY UNCLE JEFF IS COMING IN ON SUNDAY AND I AM NOT LOOKING FORWARD TO THAT BUT I WILL SURVIVE IT. I THINK HE NEEDS TO COME AND SEE HIS DAD AND SPEND TIME WITH HIM BECAUSE HE WON'T BE AROUND FOR EVER.

MY GRANDPARENTS AREN'T HAPPY I AM TALKING TO MY DAD AGAIN. THEY WON'T COME OUT AND SAY IT BUT I CAN TELL BY HOW THEY ACT THAT THEY AREN'T HAPPY ABOUT IT. BUT THIS IS MY LIFE AND IF I AM OK WITH IT THEN THEY JUST HAVE TO ACCEPT IT AND STAY OUT OF IT. I WAS TOLD YESTERDAY THAT THEY ARE GLAD HE STAYED AWAY AS LONG AS HE DID. THEY DON'T GET HOW IT MADE ME FEEL THAT HE NEVER TRIED TO CONTACT ME WHEN I WAS YOUNGER. I DON'T KNOW THEY GET THE ABANDONMENT THAT I FEEL NOW. I DON'T KNOW THAT THEY WILL EVER GET THE LOSE I FEEL AND HOW THEM WALKING AWAY MADE ME FEEL. ALL I CAN DO IS TRY AND HEAL AND HOPE THE PAIN WILL EASE WITH TIME.

THE OTHER BLOG IS GONE. I KNOW I SAID THE 15TH BUT IT MADE ME SICK TO LOOK AT IT. SO I DELETED IT EARLIER! SO THIS IS THE ONLY ONE I HAVE NOW. NO MORE JOSH NO MORE DRAMA!

WELL IT IS ALMOST FRIDAY! I AM SO READY FOR THE WEEKEND THIS WEEK. IT HAS BEEN THE WEEK FROM HELL AT WORK THIS WEEK. IT WAS LIKE ANYTHING THAT COULD GO WRONG WENT WRONG. I ALSO DECIDED THAT I AM NOT GOING TO DO MY INFUSION TOMORROW BECAUSE I CAN'T AFFORD IT AND I CAN'T GET AN ANSWER OUT OF THE DRUG COMPANY. SO I AM AT THE POINT THAT I AM SAYING SCREW IT I DON'T HAVE TO TAKE THERE DRUG. I AM SURE I WILL START AGAIN BUT RIGHT NOW I CAN'T AFFORD IT. I ALSO DON'T KNOW IF THE RISK IS WORTH IT ANYMORE.

I AM STARTING TO THINK THAT I MIGHT WANT TO MEET WITH MY FATHER. THE CURIOSITY OF IT ALL IS GETTING THE BEST OF ME. I AM LIKE A CAT. I ALWAYS HAVE TO SEE FOR MYSELF AND DO IT MYSELF. BUT WE WILL SEE IF AND WHEN I DO. WHO KNOWS I AM JUST TAKING IT DAY BY DAY AND HOPING THAT ONE DAY IT WILL ALL BE OK.

JOSH WAS MEAN TO ME LAST NIGHT AND IT RUINED HOW I HAVE BEEN FEELING. I WAS DOING REALLY WELL AND FEELING GOOD ABOUT THINGS UNTIL HE HAD TO TELL ME THAT I AM HATEFUL AND MEAN. I KNOW I SHOULDN'T LET HIM GET TO ME BUT IT REALLY DID HURT ME. I WISH HE COULD SEE THE GOOD IN ME. I KNOW I CAN BE BITCHY BUT I KNOW IF HAD TAKEN THE TIME TO GET TO KNOW ME HE COULD HAVE SEEN THE GOOD IN ME. I GUESS HE HAS NEVER BEEN HAPPY WITH ME, BUT HE ALSO HAS NEVER HAD THE BALLS TO SAY ANYTHING TO ME ABOUT IT. HE HAS JUST SAID EVERYTHING WAS OK WHEN IT REALLY WASN'T OK. I FEEL VERY BETRAYED BY HIM AND WISH HE COULD JUST BE HONEST WITH ME. OH WELL GUESS THAT WILL NEVER HAPPEN WITH HIM. I DON'T KNOW THAT HE KNOWS HOW TO BE HONEST WITH ANYONE. ALL I HAVE KNOW HIM TO DO IS LIE TO GET WHAT HE WANTS. SO I KNOW I AM BETTER OFF WITHOUT HIM BUT IT STILL HURTS ME THAT HE TREATS ME THE WAY HE DOES.

MY DAD AND HIS FAMILY

I WANT TO PUT THESE PICTURES UP THAT MY DAD E-MAILED ME LAST NIGHT. I WANTED EVERYONE TO SEE HIM AND HIS FAMILY. HIS WIFES NAME IS HEATHER AND HIS STEP DAUGHTERS NAME IS APRIL.

100 THINGS!

Highlight the things you have done:
1. Started your own blog - Obviously :)
2. Slept under the stars
3. Played in a band
4. Visited Hawaii
5. Watched a meteor shower
6. Given more than you can afford to charity
7.Been to Disneyland
8. Climbed a mountain
9. Held a praying mantis
10. Sang a solo (does in the car count?)
11. Looked up an old boyfriend on Facebook
12. Visited Paris
13. Watched a lightning storm at sea
14. Taught yourself an art from scratch
15. Adopted a child
16. Had food poisoning
17. Walked to the top of the Statue of Liberty
18. Grown your own vegetables
19. Seen the Mona Lisa in France
20. Slept in an overnight train
21. Had a pillow fight
22. Hitchhiked
23. Taken a sick day when you're not ill
24. Built a snow fort
25. Held a lamb
26. Gone skinny dipping.
27. Run a marathon
28. Ridden in a gondola in Venice
29. Seen a total eclipse (solar)
30. Watched a sunrise or sunset
31. Hit a home run
32. Been on a cruise
33. Seen Niagara Falls in person
34. Visited the birthplace of your ancestors
35. Seen an Amish community
36. Taught yourself a new language
37. Had enough money to be truly satisfied
38. Seen the Leaning Tower of Pisa in person
39. Gone rock climbing
40. Seen Michelangelo's David
41. Sung Karaoke
42. Seen Old Faithful geyser erupt
43. Bought a stranger a meal at a restaurant
44. Visited Africa
45. Walked on a beach by moonlight
46. Been transported in an ambulance
47. Had your portrait painted
48. Gone deep sea fishing
49. Seen the Sistine Chapel in person
50. Been to the top of the Eiffel Tower in Paris
51. Gone scuba diving or snorkeling
52. Kissed in the rain
53. Played in the mud
54. Gotten out of a speeding ticket
55. Been in a movie
56. Visited the Great Wall of China
57. Started a business
58. Taken a martial arts class
59. Visited Russia
60. Served at a soup kitchen
61. Sold Girl Scout Cookies
62. Gone whale watching
63. Got flowers for no reason
64. Donated blood, platelets or plasma
65. Adopted a stray dog or cat
66. Visited a Nazi Concentration Camp
67. Bounced a check
68. Flown in a helicopter
69. Saved a favorite childhood toy
70. Visited the Lincoln Memorial
71. Eaten caviar
72. Pieced a quilt
73. Stood in Times Square
74. Toured the Everglades
75. Been fired from a job
76. Seen the Changing of the Guards in London
77. Broken a bone.
78. Been on a speeding motorcycle
79. Seen the Grand Canyon in person
80. Published a book
81. Visited the Vatican
82. Bought a brand new car
83. Walked in Jerusalem
84. Had your picture in the newspaper
85. Read the entire Bible
86. Visited the White House
87. Killed and prepared an animal for eating.
88. Had chicken pox
89. Saved someone's life
90. Sat on a jury
91. Met someone famous
92. Joined a book club
93. Lost a loved one
94. Had a baby
95. Seen the Alamo in person
96. Swam in the Great Salt Lake
97. Been involved in a lawsuit
98. Owned a cell phone
99. Been stung by a bee
100. Read an entire book in one day

DADS

WELL I HAVE BEEN TALKING TO MY DAD A LITTLE BIT. IT HAS BE OK. STRESSFUL AT TIME BUT THERE IS A LOT TO SAY AND A LOT OF TIME TO MAKE UP FOR. I KNOW IT WILL TAKE YEARS AND MAYBE ALL WE WILL BE IS FRIENDS IN THE END, BUT I HAVE TO TRY. IF I DIDN'T TRY I THINK I WOULD KICK MYSELF LATER IN LIFE. LIKE I HAVE ALWAYS SAID EVERYONE NEEDS FAMILY. SO I WILL GIVE IT A TRY AND SEE WHAT HAPPENS. I AM IN NO RUSH AND NEITHER IS HE. SO WE WILL TAKE IT SLOW AND SEE WHAT HAPPENS IN THE LONG RUN. I THINK WE WILL MAKE IT AS AT LEAST FRIENDS.

YESTERDAY WAS THE FIRST DAY I DIDN'T HEAR FROM JOSH AND I WAS SHOCKED HOW WELL I DID. I DIDN'T EVEN REALIZE THAT I HADN'T HEARD FROM HIM UNTIL LIKE 10 PM. I WAS SO PROUD AND IT AMAZES ME HOW TIME IS HEALING THE WOUNDS HE CAUSED. I KNOW I WILL HAVE STRUGGLES STILL BUT I WILL AND CAN SURVIVE IT. IT WILL TAKE TIME BUT EVERYDAY I GETS EASIER. I HAVE ALWAYS KNOWN THAT TIME IS THE BEST MEDICINE BUT I HAVE NEVER REALIZED HOW TRUE THAT IS UNTIL NOW. I KNOW THE MORE DAYS I GO WITH OUT TALKING TO HIM THE EASIER IT WILL GET AND THE LESS I WILL THINK OF HIM. I WILL ALWAYS CARE ABOUT HIM AND BE IS FRIEND IF HE WANTS BUT I AM READY TO MOVE ON WITH THE NEXT CHAPTER OF MY LIFE. I KNOW THE NEXT CHAPTER WILL BE BETTER THAN THIS LAST ONE WAS!

IMPORTANCE OF WALKING

Walking can add minutes to your life. This enables you at 85 years old to spend an additional 5 months in a nursing home at $7000 per month.
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My grandpa started walking five miles a day when he was 60.. Now he's 97 years old and we don't know where he is.
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I like long walks, especially when they are taken by people who annoy me. *******************************************
The only reason I would take up walking is so that I could hear heavy breathing again. ********************************************
I have to walk early in the morning, before my brain figures out what I'm doing.. ********************************************
I joined a health club last year, spent about 400 bucks. Haven't lost a pound. Apparently you have to go there.
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Every time I hear the dirty word 'exercise', I wash my mouth out with chocolate.
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I do have flabby thighs, but fortunately my stomach covers them. ******************************************
The advantage of exercising every day is so when you die, they'll say, 'Well, he looks good doesn't he.'
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If you are going to try cross-country skiing, start with a small country. ********************************************
I know I got a lot of exercise the last few years,...... just getting over the hill. ******************************************
We all get heavier as we get older, because there's a lot more information in our heads. That's my story and I'm sticking to it.
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RANDOM CAT PICTURES

THIS MAKES ME SICK!

I SHOULDN'T SAY ANYTHING CAUSE I WAS A TEEN PREGNANCY BUT IT STILL MAKES ME SICK. AT LEAST I WAS 19 ABOUT TO TURN 20.

Mississippi has highest teen birth rate, CDC says

By MIKE STOBBE, AP Medical Writer Mike Stobbe, Ap Medical Writer - 13 mins ago
AP - HOLD FOR RELEASE UNTIL 8:30 A.M.; graphic shows the teen birth rate for 15- to -19 year olds for 2006 …
ATLANTA - Mississippi now has the nation's highest teen pregnancy rate, displacing Texas and New Mexico for that lamentable title, according to a new federal report released Wednesday.
Mississippi's rate was more than 60 percent higher than the national average in 2006, the U.S. Centers for Disease Control and Prevention said. The teen pregnancy rate in Texas and New Mexico was more than 50 percent higher.
The three states have large proportions of black and Hispanic teenagers — groups that traditionally have higher birth rates, experts noted.
The lowest teen birth rates continue to be in New England, where three states have teen birth rates at just half the national average.
It's not clear why Mississippi surged into first place. The state's one-year increase of nearly 1,000 teen births could be a statistical blip, said Ron Cossman, a Mississippi State University researcher who focuses on children's health statistics.
More than a year ago, a preliminary report on the 2006 data revealed that the U.S. teen birth rate had risen for the first time in about 15 years. But the new numbers provide the first state-by-state information on the increase.
The new report is based on a review of all the birth certificates in 2006. Significant increases in teen birth rates were noted in 26 states.
"It's pretty much across the board" nationally, said Brady Hamilton, a CDC statistician who worked on the report.
About 435,000 of the nation's 4.3 million births in 2006 were to mothers ages 15 through 19. That was about 21,000 more teen births than in 2005.
Numerically, the largest increases were in the states with the largest populations. California, Texas and Florida together generated almost 30 percent of the nation's extra teen births in 2006.
Some experts have blamed the national increase on increased federal funding for abstinence-only health education that does not teach teens how to use condoms and other contraception. They said that would explain why teen birth rate increases have been detected across much of the country and not just in a few spots.
There is debate about that, however. Some conservative organizations have argued that contraceptive-focused sex education is still common, and that the new teen birth numbers reflect it is failing.
Other factors include the escalating cost of some types of birth control and their unavailability in some communities, said Stephanie Birch, who directs maternal and child health programs for the Alaska Department of Health and Social Services.
Glowing media portrayals of celebrity pregnancies don't help, either, she said. "They make it out to be very glamorous," said Birch, who cited a calculation by Alaska officials that teen pregnancies were up 6 percent in that state in 2006.
In Mississippi, there were about 68 births for every 1,000 women, ages 15 through 19 in 2006. The New Mexico rate was 64 per 1,000; Texas was 63.
The national birth rate for females in that age group was about 42 per 1,000. New Hampshire, with a rate of 19 per 1,000, was the nation's lowest.
A variety of factors influence teen pregnancy rates, including culture, poverty and racial demographics. For those and other reasons, kids in mostly white New England likely would delay child birth, said David Landry, a researcher at the Guttmacher Institute, a New York-based organization which supports abortion rights and gathers research on sexual and reproductive health.
"It's more costly for youth in the Northeast to have a teen birth than for youth in the South, in terms of opportunities they'll miss," he said.

RANDOM PICTURES

MY GRADUATION PICTURE! NOW THIS SEEMS LIKE IT WAS FOREVER AGO!

LOOK HOW YOUNG WE WERE!!!!

OH LOOK HOW CUTE WE ARE! LOL! THIS WAS CHRISTMAS OF 2005.

You can't read this and stay in a bad mood!

1. How Do You Catch a Unique Rabbit?

Unique Up On It.

2. How Do You Catch a Tame Rabbit?

Tame Way.

3. How Do Crazy People Go Through The Forest ?T

hey Take The Psycho Path

4. How Do You Get Holy Water?

You Boil The Hell Out Of It

5. What Do Fish Say When They Hit a Concrete Wall?

Dam!

6. What Do Eskimos Get From Sitting On The Ice too Long?

Polaroid's

7. What Do You Call a Boomerang That Doesn't work?

A Stick

8. What Do You Call Cheese That Isn't Yours?

Nacho Cheese.

9. What Do You Call Santa's Helpers?

Subordinate Clauses.

10. What Do You Call Four Bullfighters In Quicksand?

Quattro Sinko.

11. What Do You Get From a Pampered Cow?

Spoiled Milk.

12. What Do You Get When You Cross a Snowman With a Vampire?F

rostbite.

13. What Lies At The Bottom Of The Ocean And Twitches?

A Nervous Wreck..

14. What's The Difference Between Roast Beef And Pea Soup?

Anyone Can Roast Beef.

15. Where Do You Find a Dog With No Legs?

Right Where You Left Him.

16. Why Do Gorillas Have Big Nostrils?

Because They Have Big Fingers .

17. Why Don't Blind People Like To Sky Dive?

Because It Scares The Dog.

18. What Kind Of Coffee Was Served On The Titanic?

Sanka.

19. What Is The Difference Between a Harley And a Hoover ?!

The Location Of The Dirt Bag.

20. Why Did Pilgrims' Pants Always Fall Down?

Because They Wore Their Belt Buckle On Their Hat.

21. What's The Difference Between a Bad Golfer And a Bad Skydiver?

A Bad Golfer Goes, Whack , Dang!A Bad Skydiver Goes Dang! Whack .

22. How Are a Texas Tornado And a Tennessee Divorce The Same?

Somebody's Gonna Lose A Trailer

ANOTHER DAY HAS COME AND GONE AND NOT MUCH HAS CHANGED. I FIND MYSELF LOOKING AT THE WORLD AND NOT WANTING TO BE A PART OF IT ANYMORE. I FEEL RIGHT NOW THAT THE WORLD IS OUT TO GET ME AND I KNOW THAT IS IRRATIONAL BUT THAT IS HOW I FEEL. I AM TRYING SO HARD TO BE A BETTER PERSON BUT I FEEL THAT I AM NOT DOING ANY BETTER AT IT THEN I WAS A WHILE BACK. I WISH THERE WAS A QUICK FIX TO ALL OF MY PROBLEMS, BUT I GUESS THAT THERE ISN'T. IT WOULD HELP SO MUCH TO JUST HAVE A QUICK FIX TO IT ALL AND NOT HAVE TO WORRY ABOUT IT ANYMORE.

I STILL HAVEN'T DECIDED IF I AM GOING TO DO MY INFUSION ON FRIDAY I THINK I WILL I JUST HAVE TO CALL THE PEOPLE AND SET UP THE FREE DOSE. BUT THEN AGAIN I DON'T KNOW IT IS WORTH IT ANYMORE. SO I DON'T KNOW GUESS I SHOULD MAKE THAT DECISION ASAP. THAT IS THE NEXT THING ON MY LIST IS TO FIGURE OUT ALL OF THAT.

Written By Regina Brett, 90 years old, of The Plain Dealer, Cleveland , Ohio

To celebrate growing older, I once wrote the 45 lessons life taught me. It is the most-requested column I've ever written. My odometer rolled

Over to 90 in August, so here goes:

1. Life isn't fair, but it's still good

2. When in doubt, just take the next small step.

3. Life is too short to waste time hating anyone.

4. Don't take yourself so seriously. No one else does.

5. Pay off your credit cards every month.

6. You don't have to win every argument. Agree to disagree.

7. Cry with someone. It's more healing than crying alone.

8. It's OK to get angry with God. He can take it.

9. Save for retirement starting with your first paycheck.

10. When it comes to chocolate, resistance is futile.

11. Make peace with your past so it won't screw up the present.

12. It's OK to let your children see you cry

13. Don't compare your life to others'. You have no idea what their journey is all about.

14. If a relationship has to be a secret, you shouldn't be in it.

15. Everything can change in the blink of an eye. But don't worry; God never blinks.

16. Take a deep breath. It calms the mind.

17. Get rid of anything that isn't useful, beautiful or joyful.

18. Whatever doesn't kill you really does make you stronger.

19. It's never too late to have a happy childhood. But the second one is up to you and no one else.

20. When it comes to going after what you love in life, don't take no for an answer.

21. Burn the candles, use the nice sheets, wear the fancy lingerie. Don't save it for a special occasion. Today is special.

22. Over prepare, then go with the flow.

23. Be eccentric now. Don't wait for old age to wear purple.

24. The most important sex organ is the brain.

25. No one is in charge of your happiness but you.

26. Frame every so-called disaster with these words: 'In five years, will this matter?

27. Always choose life.

28. Forgive everyone everything.

29. What other people think of you is none of your business.

30. Time heals almost everything. Give time time.

31. However good or bad a situation is, it will change.

32. Your job won't take care of you when you are sick. Your friends and parents will. Stay in touch.

33. Believe in miracles.

34. God loves you because of who God is, not because of anything you did or didn't do.

35. Don't audit life. Show up and make the most of it now.

36. Growing old beats the alternative -- dying young.

37. Your children get only one childhood.

38. All that truly matters in the end is that you loved.

39. Get outside every day. Miracles are waiting everywhere.

40. If we all threw our problems in a pile and saw everyone else's, we'd grab ours back.

41. Envy is a waste of time. You already have all you need.

42. The best is yet to come.

43. No matter how you feel, get up, dress up and show up.

44. Yield.

45. Life isn't tied with a bow, but it's still a gift.

One of Maxine's best!!!!!!!!!
Minorities We need to show more sympathy for these people.

* They travel miles in the heat.

* They risk their lives crossing a border.

* They don't get paid enough wages.

* They do jobs that others won't do or are afraid to do.

* They live in crowded conditions among a people who speak a different language.

* They rarely see their families, and they face adversity all day ~ every day.

I'm not talking about illegal Mexicans ~ I'm talking about our troops! Doesn't it seem strange that many Democrats and Republicans are willing to lavish all kinds of social benefits on illegals, but don't support our troops, and are even threatening to defund them?

MONDAY THOUGHTS

WELL IT IS MONDAY AGAIN. I AM SO GLAD THAT IT IS MONDAY AGAIN SO THAT I CAN WORK AND KEEP BUSY. WORKING IS THE BEST WAY TO KEEP MY MIND OFF OF JOSH AND WHAT IS GOING ON. I LOVE TO STAY BUSY. I AM TRYING TO FIGURE OUT NEW HOBBIES AND THINGS TO DO TO KEEP ME BUSY. THAT COULD BE WHY I HAVE BEEN POSTING SO MUCH LATELY. POSTING KEEPS ME BUSY AND HELPS ME GET MY FEELING OUT WITH OUT HAVING TO TALK ABOUT THEM. I AM NOT COMFORTABLE TALKING ABOUT THINGS THAT I FEEL IT IS WEIRD TO ME. I AM WORKING ON IT BUT IT IS EASIER FOR ME TO WRITE DOWN HOW I FEEL OR EVEN TEXT IT. SO THIS IS HELPING ME GET MY FEELINGS OUT. SO THIS IS WHAT I WILL KEEP DOING AND HOPE THINGS GET BETTER.

YESTERDAY WAS ACTUALLY A GOOD DAY. I WAS SHOCKED I DIDN'T USE AT ALL AND I WAS A CLOSE TO HAPPY AS I HAVE BEEN SINCE HE TOLD ME. I AM GLAD IT IS GETTING EASIER. I KNOW IT WILL WITH TIME BUT I REALLY DID NEED YESTERDAY. IT IS SO HARD TO NEVER HAVE A GOOD DAY. I AM FINDING THAT EVERYONE NEEDS A GOOD DAY ONCE AND AWHILE. I KNOW THAT I WILL HAVE BAD DAY BUT I AM HOPING THAT I WILL START HAVING MORE GOOD DAYS THEN BAD DAYS. I AM GOING TO STAY POSITIVE ABOUT THINGS AND KNOW THAT I WILL HAVE MORE GOOD DAYS THEN BAD DAYS.

THE CUBS ARE SO CRAZY ANYMORE. I WOKE UP LAST NIGHT AND I HAD 3 CATS ON MY BED. IT WAS A JOKE THERE WAS NO ROOM LEFT FOR ME. THOSE OF YOU THAT HAVE CATS KNOW THAT ONE CAT IS TOO MANY ON A BED LET ALONE 3 CATS. OH WELL GUESS THEY ALL LOVE ME! I AM READY TO GET RID OF MY CUBS THOUGH. IF I DIDN'T HAVE THEM I COULD JUST PICK UP AND MOVE. THAT WOULD BE SO NICE TO JUST BE ABLE TO MOVE AND NOT HAVE TO WORRY. I WOULD LOVE TO GO SOMEWHERE WHERE PEOPLE DON'T KNOW ME AND I CAN HAVE A FRESH START.