Missing

I have been missing from the blogging world this week.  I am trying to get back into the swing of things but work has been crazy to say the least. I am probably not going to get caught up reading blogs this time but I am going to start fresh.  I have a lot of fun things to post in the days to come but I am just not feeling like blogging today so hopefully tomorrow!

Green With Envy

Jealousy is not a pretty emotion.  

But I think it's fair to say that we all succumb 

to its power every now-and-then.  

We're only human, right?

Are you ... jealous much?

What makes you green with envy?

What makes your green-eyed monster break free 

and bare its teeth for all to see?

Make it a list or a story.

Include photos or don't.

It's All About ME YOU!

We want to get to know YOU :)
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I am going to make a list of things that make me jealous for everyone to ready and enjoy!

• Skinny people
• People that love to work out!
• People that are really outgoing because I am super shy and scared of people
• People who have found their soul mate
• People that live on their own 
• People who are happy and content being single.

That is my list!  I now realize that I am a really jealous person.  I guess that needs to be something that I work on right now.

A Phone Call

Saturday 9: I Want to Hold Your Hand

1. What do you notice about other people's hands?
I really only notice the nails of other people.  I am not really a big hand person so I don't pay much attention to them.
2. If someone was nosing around your house, what would you hope they wouldn't see?
I wouldn't care if you are being nosy then oh well.  If you don't like what you find then don't go being nosy.
3. Do you think that the more stuff you own enhances your life or adds to your burden?
Depends on what the stuff is.  The stuff in my life that I am making payments on is becoming more of a burden to me because I am not making the money I need to pay for it all but the things that I am not paying for are enhancing my life.
4. What was the last movie you saw in the theatre?
Probably "The Blindside" and it is a great movie!
5. What do you have under your bed?
A lot of things.  If you look under my bed it is at your own risk. 
6. What do you think your s/o or best friend would say about what makes you unique?
I would be scared to find out lol-I will ask them and then let everyone know what they say.
7. What's your current favorite TV commercial?
I don't watch much TV so I don't have a favorite commercial
8. Who do you owe a phone call to?
No one that I can think of
9. Do you know about my friend's new meme Wednesday Wickedness? Will you give it a try this week just for me? Please? :)
I don't know about it but I will check it out and see what I think.

The prompts that i am choosing to do this this week are:

(all prompts inspired by this months copy of Oprah Magazine.)
1.) “I’m mad at myself. I’m embarassed. I can’t believe after all these years, I’m still talking about my weight.” Poor Ope. What are you mad at yourself about?
I am mad that I let others get to me and I am so hot headed most of the time.  If I would just take the time to think before I speak and take the time to calm down I wouldn't have half the problems that I have now.  I have tried and tried to stop speaking before I speak and to stop flying off the handle but no matter how hard I try I just can't seem to get the hang of it.  I have decided that maybe it is just how I will be forever.  If anyone has any ideas on how I can change this about myself let me know.
I wish that I had a thicker skin as well.  Every time someone says something mean to me I get super depressed and feel like  my life is crap.  I guess it has to do with the fact that I have super low self esteem and I hate people to be mad at me or dislike me.  People that know me know that I put up a strong front but it really does hurt me inside.  I also need to know how I can maybe change this about myself as well!

2.) Divorce Dreams…a tempting alternative? A disaster to be avoided? Ever an option? Advice? What’s your take?
I am currently going through a divorce and I wish I could say it was a disaster that I was avoiding.  There is nothing fun about having to deal with what I deal with on a daily basis.  At times it is a huge joke and I wish that it could just be nice and we could be civil.  I guess I will never understand how someone can say that they love you but still act and treat me like he is treating me right now.  I know I could never treat him like he is treating me that is for sure.  I guess the only advice I could give to people is if you are having doubts before the wedding then don't marry that person because things will only get worse and divorces are not fun at all.  They also bring out the worst in people.

I Wanna Talk About Me!

1. Ever had any run-ins with the "library police?"
No I haven't I always behaved when I was at the library!
2. Do you have a special organizational plan and place for wrapping paper, gift bags, etc., or do you just purchase whatever you need as you give gifts?
My grandma has stuff that she buys ahead of time but I just buy it as I need it.
3. Have you ever been in (first-hand witness) a natural disaster?
No but that would be so cool if I was!!!
4. What's your favorite Barry Manilow song?
I don't know any of them!
5. What's the best costume you've ever worn?
I don't like to dress up but I think my most favorite one was when I dressed as an army man in middle school.
6. Which do you use more often, the dictionary or the thesaurus?
Dictionary
7. What's your favorite breakfast food?
Nothing- I don't eat breakfast because it makes me sick to my stomach
8. Have you ever purchased anything from an infomercial?
No but I do buy the as seen on tv stuff all the time lol
9. Have you ever crawled through a window?
Ya-One time when we got locked out of the house and I was the smallest one so I had to go through a window and let everyone else in the house.
10. Do you believe in love at first sight?
Yes I do
11. How man pairs of jeans do you own?
To many but only 3 pairs fit me right now
12. If someone were going to bake a cake to honor/represent you, what would it be? (Think creatively, like Duff and Crew on "Ace of Cakes.")
Either the Playboy Bunny or the Baby Phat cat logo!

Finally Caught Up

I am finally caught up with my blog reading!!!!  I may not have left a comment but I am all caught up and that is a great feeling.  I hated knowing that I was days behind.  I have to stay up on the blogs that I read loyally or I feel out of control.  It amazes me how much time I spend reading blogs and writing them but it is my form of stress relief so I don't plan on giving it up anytime soon!  Now on to the Post It Notes!!!

New Poll

The poll for this week is what you all think I should do with the credit card that Josh ran up.  The minimum payment on the card is 231 dollars and I don't know if I am going to pay it or if it is even worth paying it.  I know it will hurt my credit score but at this point I really don't care!  Feel free to vote and let me know what you think!

I Know You Can't Get Enough Of Me!

Sunday Stealing: The Meme Time Meme 

01. Real First Name:
Margaret
02. Birthday:
November 26 1984
03. Where do you live:
In a house in Utah
04: What are you studying/What are you working as:
I am a receptionist currently but I do a little bit of everything at work.
05. What makes you happy:
Misti, Tim, Elinore, Sylvia, Grandma, My new Blackberry!
06. What are you listening to now/have listened to last:
The last thing I heard was when my little brother was playing Papa Roach. 07. What is particularly good/bad about your blog:
I don't know . . . How about everyone reading let me know what you think!
08. An interesting fact about you:
I placed my daughter for adoption when I was 20
09. Are you in love/have a crush at the moment:
I may I may not. . .
10. Favorite place to be:
Home or on a vacation.
11. Favorite lyric:
Welcome to my life.
12. Best time of the year:
Spring or Fall
13. Weirdest food you like:
Pomegranate
RECOMMEND

01. A film:
Blind Side
02. A book:
Please Stop Laughing At Me.
03. A song:
Welcome to my life
04: A band:
Nickelback
PLUS

01. One thing you like about a blogger that you have not met:
How caring and uplifting them are.  They are always willing to listen and give advice when you need it.
02. Two things you like about yourself:
I can't think of two...that is really sad.
03. Name three things that you need in a lover:
Honesty
Respect
Loyal

Great Stress Relief

Those are my notes for this week!  I hope everyone is having a great Tuesday.

Bite Me . . .

I make up words all the time but the phrase that I use all the time is "Bite Me".  I have used that for ever and lately everyone has started to pick it up and use it as well.  I am always making words up.  I will take regular words and switch them around.  My family is so used to it that I forget to not do it when I am around other people because they think I am totally crazy.

I always use Bite Me.  I will use it in every way that you can possible use it.  While I was typing this up I remembered another one that we always use.  We always use the phrase "It was Julie!" when no one will say if they did something.  It is from the movie Rocketman.  We started using it right after we watched the movie for the first time and now we still use it all the time.

Those are the only phrases or words that I can think of that I use all the time.  I hope everyone is having a great Monday!

Poll

So I posted a poll on the left side bar and because I want to know what people who read my blog think I should do with my signature.  So if you would be so kind please vote and let me know what you think!!!

Drama Queen. . .

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I was informed at work that I am a drama queen and guess what?  I love it!  If she doesn't like it then don't talk or be around me!

Utah Cancer Specialists In SLC. . . Totally Suck!!!!!

I am completely amazed at the lack of customer service that doctors offices now have.  I was totally amazed how I was treated at the place I had to go for my infusion today.  I have never been treated so badly before in my life.  This post may be long but I have to go into detail so you will all get the full effect.

I was already mad that I had to go and see one of their doctors but I got over it but because of how good the MRI was I knew I had to jump through the hoops they wanted me to do in order to get the infusions.  So after I sat in the waiting room for like 20 mins or so with everyone staring at me they took me back to a room.  On the way back they wanted to weigh me and get my height.  I am not going to give out the weight but lets just say that since I was lasted measured I have shrunk from 5'4" to 5'3"!!!  What in the hell is up with that!!!!!!!  I thought you didn't shrink until you where like 70 or so.  Guess by the time I am 70 I will be 1' lol.  Anyways lets get back on track.  So they take me back to see one of their dumb doctors and lets just say she is a major bitch!  Her and I argued over what my car entailed.  Like I haven't been doing this for months as it is. 

After I got done with her I went and waited for them to call me back into the infusion room which took another 20 mins or so.  Let me remind everyone that I still had to go back to work after this was all done at it was almost 11:30 at this point.  I was supposed to be back to work at around one and the infusion takes about 2 and a half hours.  Anyway when they took me back they put in the IV and then drew the labs they needed to do.  Usually at this point the hook up and medication right away and I don't have to sit there are wait for the labs to come back.  Well even after telling the doctor I don't have to wait they still made me sit there even long while they ran my labs! 

The nurse I had was a idiot that didn't brush her teeth.  I love when nurses don't listen to me when I say I don't want something done.  The infusion in and of itself went really well which was good but the reaction I usually have during the infusion just happened later that night.  After I left there I called Tysabri and told them I won't go back there and they need to find me a new place to go in order to get my infusion every month.

I guess what made me the maddest was the fact that they didn't listen to me about my care and what I wanted done.  I hate when people in the medical field think I am a total idiot.  Hell if she didn't believe me then she should have called my doctor and found out I was right!  The nurse was also not a nice person to me.  They all acted put out that I was there.  Like I really wanted to be there with a bunch of cancer patients.

Sick & Tired Of People . . .

I am super tired of people saying something and then not doing it!  This is happening a lot with a certain person and let me tell you I am so done with it.  If they don't get it soon they will be cut out of my life for good because saying something and not doing it is the one thing that truly gets on my nerves.  I am the type of person that always does what I say I am going to do.  I just don't get how people can say things that they have no intention of doing.  This was always a problem in my marriage as well.  He would always say he was going to do something or even call me and he never would.  He never seemed to get why I would get mad at him.  If you are going to waste your breath saying it then you should follow through with it that is for sure.  If you have no intention of doing something then don't waste your breath saying it!

Ok that is enough of that rant.  I hope everyone had a great Easter.  Mine was lonely because my grandparents decided they were going to go on a cruise right now.  I made my own boiled eggs and my grandma did put a few things in our baskets and hid them from us until today when she called and said where they were.  It was really nice of her to do something like that.  My brother got a pair of North Carolina shorts and grandpa made her give me money back that I had been paying my brother for the laptop that Josh now has.  He made told her to give it to me because he knows how much I am struggling with playing all the bills and that credit card that Josh has run up to over $10,000 but that is a whole other post.

I hope everyone has a great Monday!!!!!

Happy Easter

All I need to know I learned from the Easter Bunny!

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Don't put all your eggs in one basket.

Everyone needs a friend who is all ears.

There's no such thing as too much candy.

All work and no play can make you a basket case.

A cute tail attracts a lot of attention.

Everyone is entitled to a bad hare day.

Let happy thoughts multiply like rabbits.

Some body parts should be floppy.

Keep your paws off of other people's jelly beans.

Good things come in small, sugar coated packages.

The grass is always greener in someone else's basket.

To show your true colors, you have to come out of the shell.

The best things in life are still sweet and gooey.

May the joy of the season fill your heart.

Happy Easter!

Hoppy Easter...

Sunday Stealing: The 35 Questions X 2 Meme: Part Two

36. If you suddenly became single or are single, do you think you could last in a relationship for 12 months or more?
I  know I  could last but I doubt that there are any good guys out there and I refuse to waste time on losers.
37. Do you forgive or forget?
Neither lol  I try to do both but I am not good at either of them.
38. Do you trust people?
Only a few select people
39. What are you not looking forward to?
Work on Monday- After this last week I don't think I can stand another week like it.
40. Do you get mad easily?
I sure do-I am trying to change that about me but I am not doing too well with it. 41. Tell us about the last time you were told you that you have pretty eyes.
I don't know that I have ever heard that lol
42. Do you have strange dreams?
When I dream I have really strange dreams
43. Ever licked someone's cheek or forehead?
Not that I can remember- I guess I could have  but I don't remember doing it.
44. Tell us about the last time you fell asleep in someones arms.
I never have done that either
45. When did you last play a game?
I play my facebook games several times daily.
46. What do you have on you at all times?
Cell phone for the most part
47. Do you go out in public without getting all dressed up?
Sure do!
48. Do you like fruity or minty gum?
Depends-Lately I have liked more minty gums
49. Favourite musician or group?
Too many to name!
50. Do you like anyone?
Yes I do
51. Favourite computer game?
The Sims 3 52. First album you ever went and bought with your own money?
Nsync 53. Think back five months ago, were you single?
Nope 54. Do you believe in celebrating anniversaries?
Yes I do
55. Do you think someone is thinking about you right now?
I doubt it
56. Last thing you bought?
Pizza
57. Are you a jealous person?
Sometimes I am but it depends on what the situation is
58. Does it take a lot to make you cry?
Most of the times yes it does 59. Do you have a friend of the opposite sex you can talk to?
I sure do!!!!
60. Have you ever had your heart-broken?
Yes I have
61. Have you ever done something while drunk that you still cannot believe you did?
Nope
62. Is there anyone you secretly wish you could be spending your time with right now?
Yes there is
63. Do you text?
I text more than I talk on the phone 64. Do you wish someone would call or text you right now?
Yes because I am super lonely
65. Is your life anything like it was a year ago?
It is super close to the same as it was a year ago.
66. Go back one year on your blog. Leave us a link to your favorite post.
http://margarettidwell.blogspot.com/2009/04/yeast-infection.html
67. You can only drink ONE liquid for the rest of your life, what is it?
Dr. Pepper
68. Tell us about someone that you have lost contact with someone you wish you didn't.
My husband
69. What is the last thing you said out loud?
Be Quiet!
70. Will this year be better than last?
I sure hope so.