SO LAST NIGHT AFTER ALL I DRAMA THAT HAPPENED I REALIZED THAT I AM MORE LIKE LACHELLE THEN I WOULD LIKE TO ADMIT. I KNOW THAT I A LOT LIKE HER. IT ALWAYS SUCKS TO REALIZE THAT PEOPLE AROUND YOU AREN'T WRONG ABOUT THE THINGS THEY SAY TO YOU. BUT I GUESS I AM THE BETTER PERSON BECAUSE I CAN SEE THAT I AM LIKE HER NOW AND I AM GOING TO TRY AND CHANGE HOW I AM WITH OTHER PEOPLE IN MY LIFE. I KNOW THOUGH THAT I WON'T EVER GIVE HER THE PASSWORD FOR THE COMPUTER. I HAVE DECIDED THOUGH THAT I AM GOING TO GET THE ADDRESS TO HER MOMS HOUSE AND TAKE HER SHIT AND DROP IT OFF ON THE FRONT LAWN. ONCE SHE SHIPS FOR BASIC TRAINING I WILL TAKE THE PASSWORD OFF THE COMPUTER AND GIVE IT TO CHRIS AND THEN HE CAN DO AS HE PLEASES WITH IT. I AM GOING TO PROVE A POINT TO LACHELLE AND MAYBE I WILL BE THE ONLY ONE TO STAND UP TO HER BUT I WILL DO IT AND SHE CAN HATE ME ALL SHE WANTS. I DID WARN HER IN THE BEGINNING NOT TO MESS WITH ME BECAUSE I WOULD BE HER WORST NIGHTMARE. NOW SHE GETS TO SEE THAT I WASN'T LYING TO HER WHEN I SAID THAT. I WON'T DEAL WITH HER SHIT AND I WON'T GIVE IN TO HER. EVEN IF IT MEANS I HAVE TO SLEEP IN MY CAR TO BE AWAY FROM MY LITTLE BROTHER.
I AM GOING TO CHANGE HOW I AM AT TIMES SO THAT I AM NOT LIKE HER AND I DON'T KEEP DOING STUPID SHIT LIKE SHE DOES. THE FIRST THING I HAVE TO DO IS REMEMBER THAT I SHOULDN'T BE PISSED OFF IF AND WHEN I DON'T GET MY OWN WAY. I HAVE TO REMEMBER THAT THE WORLD DOESN'T REVOLVE AROUND ME! I KNOW THIS WILL TAKE TIME TO DO BUT I AM GOING TO DO IT AND DO EVERYTHING IN MY POWER NOT TO BE LIKE HER ANYMORE!
Showing newest 69 of 70 posts from July 2009. Show older posts
Showing newest 69 of 70 posts from July 2009. Show older posts
July 30, 2009
HUNGER STRIKE: DAY 2
WELL YESTERDAY WAS DAY TWO OF THE HUNGER STRIKE. ELINORE DID WHAT I KNEW SHE WOULD DO YESTERDAY. SHE ATE UNTIL SHE MADE HERSELF THROW UP. I HATE IT WHEN SHE DOES THAT BUT SHE DOES IT WHEN SHE GETS MAD AT ME AND WANTS TO PROVE A POINT. I THINK THE HUNGER STRIKE WILL END TODAY. I CAN TELL ELINORE IS GOING TO GIVE IN AND SO IS SYLVIA. THEY USUALLY DON'T KEEP IT UP VERY LONG.
July 29, 2009
A TEENAGERS VIEW OF HEAVEN
|
DOCTORS APPOINTMENT
I HAD AN APPOINTMENT WITH DR. KLEIN YESTERDAY. IT WENT BETTER THAN I THOUGHT IT WOULD GO. I THOUGHT SHE WOULD BE MAD THAT I STOPPED A MEDICATION BUT SHE WASN'T. SHE UNDERSTOOD THAT I STOPPED IT BECAUSE OF THE WEIGHT GAIN. SO SHE PUT ME ON A NEW MEDICATION AND WE WILL SEE WHAT HAPPENS WITH IT. I KNOW IT WILL HELP MY BACK BUT I DON'T KNOW IF IT WILL HELP WITH SLEEP OR MY HEADACHES BUT HELL IT IS WORTH A TRY. AT THIS POINT I AM WILLING TO TRY ANYTHING.
A PARABLE (VERY TRUE)
A Parable it may be but,
it is now our daily life.
Welcome to the here and now.
Get used to it unless you are ready to do something about it.
Dinner with Obama, a parable
Once upon a time, I was invited to the White House for a private dinner with the President. I am a respected businessman, with a factory that produces memory chips for computers and portable electronics. There was some talk that my industry was being scrutinized by the administration, but I paid it no mind. I live in a free country. There's nothing that the government can do to me if I've broken no laws. My wealth was earned honestly, and an invitation to dinner with an American President is an honor.
I checked my coat, was greeted by the Chief of Staff, and joined the President in a yellow dining room. We sat across from each other at a table draped in white linen. The Great Seal was embossed on the china. Uniformed staff served our dinner.
The meal was served, and I was startled when my waiter suddenly reached out, plucked a dinner roll off my plate, and began nibbling it as he walked back to the kitchen.
"Sorry about that," said the President. "Andrew is very hungry."
"I don't appreciate..." I began, but as I looked into the calm brown eyes across from me, I felt immediately guilty and petty. It was just a dinner roll. "Of course," I concluded, and reached for my glass. Before I could, however, another waiter reached forward, took the glass away and swallowed the wine in a single gulp.
"And his brother Eric is very thirsty." said the President.
I didn't say anything. The President is testing my compassion, I thought. I will play along. I don't want to seem unkind.
My plate was whisked away before I had tasted a bite.
"Eric's children are also quite hungry."
With a lurch, I crashed to the floor. My chair had been pulled out from under me. I stood, brushing myself off angrily, and watched as it was carried from the room.
"And their grandmother can't stand for long."
I excused myself, smiling outwardly, but inside feeling like a fool. Obviously I had been invited to the White House to be sport for some game. I reached for my coat, to find that it had been taken. I turned back to the President.
"Their grandfather doesn't like the cold."
I wanted to shout- that was my coat! But again, I looked at the placid smiling face of my host and decided I was being a poor sport. I spread my hands helplessly and chuckled. Then I felt my hip pocket and realized my wallet was gone. I excused myself and walked to a phone on an elegant side table. I learned shortly that my credit cards had been maxed out, my bank accounts emptied, my retirement and equity portfolios had vanished, and my wife had been thrown out of our home. Apparently, the waiters and their families were moving in. The President hadn't moved or spoken as I learned all this, but finally I lowered the phone into its cradle and turned to face him.
"Andrew's whole family has made bad financial decisions. They haven't planned for retirement, and they need a house. They recently defaulted on a sub-prime mortgage. I told them they could have your home. They need it more than you do."
My hands were shaking. I felt faint. I stumbled back to the table and knelt on the floor. The President cheerfully cut his meat, ate his steak and drank his wine. I lowered my eyes and stared at the small gray circles on the tablecloth that were water drops.
"By the way," He added, "I have just signed an Executive Order nationalizing your factories. I'm firing you as head of your business. I'll be operating the firm now for the benefit of all mankind. There's a whole bunch of Eric' s and Andrews out there and they can't come to you for jobs groveling like beggars."
I looked up. The President dropped his spoon into the empty ramekin which had been his crème Brule. He drained the last drops of his wine. As the table was cleared, he lit a cigarette and leaned back in his chair. He stared at me. I clung to the edge of the table as if were a ledge and I were a man hanging over an abyss. I thought of the years behind me, of the life I had lived.. The life I had earned with a lifetime of work, risk and struggle. Why was I punished? How had I allowed it to be taken? What game had I played and lost? I looked across the table and noticed with some surprise that there was no game board between us.
What had I done wrong?
As if answering the unspoken thought, the President suddenly cocked his head, locked his empty eyes to mine, and bared a million teeth, chuckling wryly as he folded his hands.
"You should have stopped me at the dinner roll," he said.
Wake up America
it is now our daily life.
Welcome to the here and now.
Get used to it unless you are ready to do something about it.
Dinner with Obama, a parable
Once upon a time, I was invited to the White House for a private dinner with the President. I am a respected businessman, with a factory that produces memory chips for computers and portable electronics. There was some talk that my industry was being scrutinized by the administration, but I paid it no mind. I live in a free country. There's nothing that the government can do to me if I've broken no laws. My wealth was earned honestly, and an invitation to dinner with an American President is an honor.
I checked my coat, was greeted by the Chief of Staff, and joined the President in a yellow dining room. We sat across from each other at a table draped in white linen. The Great Seal was embossed on the china. Uniformed staff served our dinner.
The meal was served, and I was startled when my waiter suddenly reached out, plucked a dinner roll off my plate, and began nibbling it as he walked back to the kitchen.
"Sorry about that," said the President. "Andrew is very hungry."
"I don't appreciate..." I began, but as I looked into the calm brown eyes across from me, I felt immediately guilty and petty. It was just a dinner roll. "Of course," I concluded, and reached for my glass. Before I could, however, another waiter reached forward, took the glass away and swallowed the wine in a single gulp.
"And his brother Eric is very thirsty." said the President.
I didn't say anything. The President is testing my compassion, I thought. I will play along. I don't want to seem unkind.
My plate was whisked away before I had tasted a bite.
"Eric's children are also quite hungry."
With a lurch, I crashed to the floor. My chair had been pulled out from under me. I stood, brushing myself off angrily, and watched as it was carried from the room.
"And their grandmother can't stand for long."
I excused myself, smiling outwardly, but inside feeling like a fool. Obviously I had been invited to the White House to be sport for some game. I reached for my coat, to find that it had been taken. I turned back to the President.
"Their grandfather doesn't like the cold."
I wanted to shout- that was my coat! But again, I looked at the placid smiling face of my host and decided I was being a poor sport. I spread my hands helplessly and chuckled. Then I felt my hip pocket and realized my wallet was gone. I excused myself and walked to a phone on an elegant side table. I learned shortly that my credit cards had been maxed out, my bank accounts emptied, my retirement and equity portfolios had vanished, and my wife had been thrown out of our home. Apparently, the waiters and their families were moving in. The President hadn't moved or spoken as I learned all this, but finally I lowered the phone into its cradle and turned to face him.
"Andrew's whole family has made bad financial decisions. They haven't planned for retirement, and they need a house. They recently defaulted on a sub-prime mortgage. I told them they could have your home. They need it more than you do."
My hands were shaking. I felt faint. I stumbled back to the table and knelt on the floor. The President cheerfully cut his meat, ate his steak and drank his wine. I lowered my eyes and stared at the small gray circles on the tablecloth that were water drops.
"By the way," He added, "I have just signed an Executive Order nationalizing your factories. I'm firing you as head of your business. I'll be operating the firm now for the benefit of all mankind. There's a whole bunch of Eric' s and Andrews out there and they can't come to you for jobs groveling like beggars."
I looked up. The President dropped his spoon into the empty ramekin which had been his crème Brule. He drained the last drops of his wine. As the table was cleared, he lit a cigarette and leaned back in his chair. He stared at me. I clung to the edge of the table as if were a ledge and I were a man hanging over an abyss. I thought of the years behind me, of the life I had lived.. The life I had earned with a lifetime of work, risk and struggle. Why was I punished? How had I allowed it to be taken? What game had I played and lost? I looked across the table and noticed with some surprise that there was no game board between us.
What had I done wrong?
As if answering the unspoken thought, the President suddenly cocked his head, locked his empty eyes to mine, and bared a million teeth, chuckling wryly as he folded his hands.
"You should have stopped me at the dinner roll," he said.
Wake up America
HUNGER STRIKE: DAY 1
WELL YESTERDAY WAS DAY ONE OF THE HUNGER STRIKE. THE GIRLS ARE MAD BECAUSE I SWITCHED THERE FOOD SO THEY AREN'T EATING WHILE I AM AROUND OR PEOPLE ARE AROUND. THEY ARE HIDING IT. I KNOW THEY ARE EATING THEY ARE JUST DOING IT IN SECRET. IT AMAZES ME HOW WEIRD CATS CAN BE AND HOW WHEN THEY GET USED TO SOMETHING THEY HATE SWITCHING TO NEW THINGS. I SWITCHED THEIR FOOD AND IT PISSED THEM OFF. SO UNTIL THEY GET OVER IT THEY WILL ACT LIKE THEY AREN'T EATING. I KNOW THEY WILL BE FINE AND GET OVER IT AT SOME POINT.
July 27, 2009
GYM PASS
SO I FINALLY DID IT. I BOUGHT A GYM PASS. NOW I HAVE NO EXCUSE WHEN IT COMES TO WORKING OUT. SO I AM GOING TO START ON WENSDAY AND GO RIGHT AFTER WORK AND WALK FOR AT LEAST AN HOUR. I AM HOPING THAT I CAN START TO LOSE THE WEIGHT THAT I HAVE PUT ON.
GREAT IDEAS
1. There will be no special bilingual programs in the schools.
* * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * *
2. All ballots will be in this nation's language.
* * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * *
3.. All government business will be conducted in our language.
* * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * *
4. Non-residents will NOT have the right to vote no matter how long theyare here.
* * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * *
5. Non-citizens will NEVER be able to hold political office
* * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * *
6.. Foreigners will not be a burden to the taxpayers. No welfare, nofood stamps, no health care, or other government assistance programs.Any burden will be deported.
* * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * *
7. Foreigners can invest in this country, but it must be an amount atleast equal to 40,000 times the daily minimum wage.
* * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * *
8. If foreigners come here and buy land... options will be restricted..Certain parcels including waterfront property are reserved for citizensnaturally born into this country.
* * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * *
9. Foreigners may have no protests; no demonstrations, no waving of aforeign flag, no political organizing, no bad-mouthing our president orhis policies. These will lead to deportation.
* * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * *
10. If you do come to this country illegally, you will be activelyhunted &, when caught, sent to jail until your deportation can bearranged. All assets will be taken from you.
* * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * *
Harsh?......The above laws are current immigration laws of MEXICO
These sound fine to me, how about you????
I had to pass this one along.
WAKE UP AMERICA!
* * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * *
2. All ballots will be in this nation's language.
* * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * *
3.. All government business will be conducted in our language.
* * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * *
4. Non-residents will NOT have the right to vote no matter how long theyare here.
* * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * *
5. Non-citizens will NEVER be able to hold political office
* * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * *
6.. Foreigners will not be a burden to the taxpayers. No welfare, nofood stamps, no health care, or other government assistance programs.Any burden will be deported.
* * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * *
7. Foreigners can invest in this country, but it must be an amount atleast equal to 40,000 times the daily minimum wage.
* * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * *
8. If foreigners come here and buy land... options will be restricted..Certain parcels including waterfront property are reserved for citizensnaturally born into this country.
* * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * *
9. Foreigners may have no protests; no demonstrations, no waving of aforeign flag, no political organizing, no bad-mouthing our president orhis policies. These will lead to deportation.
* * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * *
10. If you do come to this country illegally, you will be activelyhunted &, when caught, sent to jail until your deportation can bearranged. All assets will be taken from you.
* * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * *
Harsh?......The above laws are current immigration laws of MEXICO
These sound fine to me, how about you????
I had to pass this one along.
WAKE UP AMERICA!
MATH TRICK
Here's a math trick so unbelievable that it will stump you.
1. grab a calculator
2.Key in the first three digits of your phone number (not the area code.)
3. multiply by 80
4. add 1
5. multiply by 250
6. Add the last 4 digits of your phone number
7. add the last 4 digit of your phone number AGAIN
8. subtract 250 9 divide number by 2
Do you recognize the answer?
1. grab a calculator
2.Key in the first three digits of your phone number (not the area code.)
3. multiply by 80
4. add 1
5. multiply by 250
6. Add the last 4 digits of your phone number
7. add the last 4 digit of your phone number AGAIN
8. subtract 250 9 divide number by 2
Do you recognize the answer?
VERY LONG WEEKEND
THIS LAST WEEKEND WAS ONE OF THE LONGEST ONES THAT I HAVE HAD IN AWHILE. IT WAS ONE THING AFTER ANOTHER AND A LOT OF IT WAS BROUGHT ON BY SOMEONE WHO SAYS THE "LOVE" MY BROTHER AND YET SHE STEALS FROM HIM?!?!?! I GUESS IT ISN'T ANY OF MY BUSINESS THOUGH. I DO KNOW THAT I WILL NEVER TRUST A WORD THAT COMES OUT OF HER MOUTH AGAIN. I ALSO HOLD ALL THE CARDS AND SHE WON'T GET A DAMN THING OUT OF ME UNTIL SHE EITHER PAYS US OR GIVES IT BACK TO US! I AM THE ONE PERSON IN THE FAMILY THAT WON'T CAVE INTO MY BROTHER OR HER. SO UNTIL I SEE EITHER OF THOSE THINGS THEY MIGHT AS WELL GIVE UP TRYING TO GET THE INFORMATION OUT OF ME. IT IS FUNNY HOW PEOPLE CAN DO DUMB ASS THINGS AND EXPECT OTHERS TO JUST DEAL WITH IT AND LET THEM DO IT. WELL I WON'T LET PEOPLE GET AWAY WITH THINGS WHEN THEY TREATED MY GRANDMA LIKE SHIT WHEN THEY WERE GETTING THERE THINGS. SHE BETTER BE GLAD I HAVEN'T THROWN HER SHIT AWAY CAUSE WELL THAT IS WHAT I THINK SHE DESERVES FOR ACTING LIKE SHE HAS BEEN ACTING.
ANYWAYS ENOUGH ABOUT THAT. JOSH WAS HERE THIS WEEKEND AND IT WAS NICE TO HAVE HIM AROUND. I AM JUST NOT USED TO HAVING HIM AROUND ANYMORE. IT WILL TAKE TIME FOR ME TO GET USED TO IT AGAIN AND I ALSO KNOW THAT I WILL BE BETTER WHEN I GET ON MEDICATION AGAIN. HE HAD A STUDENT WITH HIM AND THAT ALWAYS MAKES THINGS DIFFERENT AS WELL. HIS STUDENT IS A COOL GUY THOUGH SO IT WASN'T TOO BAD WITH HIM AROUND ALL THE TIME.
THE GIRLS DON'T LIKE JOSH. THEY HARDLY CAME OUT WHEN HE WAS AROUND THIS WEEKEND. THEY BOTH JUST STAYED UNDER MY BED AND HID ALL THE TIME. I HAD TO DRAG THEM OUT AND PUT THEM OUTSIDE SO THAT THEY DIDN'T HAVE AN ACCIDENT IN THE HOUSE. I TRIED TO BRUSH SYLVIA YESTERDAY AND LETS JUST SAY THAT DIDN'T GO WELL AT ALL. SHE HATES IT AND JOSH IS SCARED TO DEATH THAT HE MAY GET CLAWED OR BITE. SO I WAS BASICALLY DOING IT BY MYSELF AND THAT ALWAYS SUCKS. I CAN'T BELIEVE THAT HE IS THAT SCARED OF GETTING SCRATCHED OR BIT. WE HAD TO TAKE THE DOG TO GET GROOMED ON SATURDAY AND THAT IS ALWAYS FUN. I AM SO TIRED OF TAKING CARE OF THE DOG AND WHAT NOT WHEN JOSH IS HERE. I DON'T EXPECT HIM TO TAKE CARE OF THE CATS SO WHY DO I HAVE TO TAKE CARE OF HIS DOG? OH WELL GUESS IT WILL ALWAYS BE MY JOB TO TAKE CARE OF THE ANIMALS.
ANYWAYS ENOUGH ABOUT THAT. JOSH WAS HERE THIS WEEKEND AND IT WAS NICE TO HAVE HIM AROUND. I AM JUST NOT USED TO HAVING HIM AROUND ANYMORE. IT WILL TAKE TIME FOR ME TO GET USED TO IT AGAIN AND I ALSO KNOW THAT I WILL BE BETTER WHEN I GET ON MEDICATION AGAIN. HE HAD A STUDENT WITH HIM AND THAT ALWAYS MAKES THINGS DIFFERENT AS WELL. HIS STUDENT IS A COOL GUY THOUGH SO IT WASN'T TOO BAD WITH HIM AROUND ALL THE TIME.
THE GIRLS DON'T LIKE JOSH. THEY HARDLY CAME OUT WHEN HE WAS AROUND THIS WEEKEND. THEY BOTH JUST STAYED UNDER MY BED AND HID ALL THE TIME. I HAD TO DRAG THEM OUT AND PUT THEM OUTSIDE SO THAT THEY DIDN'T HAVE AN ACCIDENT IN THE HOUSE. I TRIED TO BRUSH SYLVIA YESTERDAY AND LETS JUST SAY THAT DIDN'T GO WELL AT ALL. SHE HATES IT AND JOSH IS SCARED TO DEATH THAT HE MAY GET CLAWED OR BITE. SO I WAS BASICALLY DOING IT BY MYSELF AND THAT ALWAYS SUCKS. I CAN'T BELIEVE THAT HE IS THAT SCARED OF GETTING SCRATCHED OR BIT. WE HAD TO TAKE THE DOG TO GET GROOMED ON SATURDAY AND THAT IS ALWAYS FUN. I AM SO TIRED OF TAKING CARE OF THE DOG AND WHAT NOT WHEN JOSH IS HERE. I DON'T EXPECT HIM TO TAKE CARE OF THE CATS SO WHY DO I HAVE TO TAKE CARE OF HIS DOG? OH WELL GUESS IT WILL ALWAYS BE MY JOB TO TAKE CARE OF THE ANIMALS.
WAL-MART
This should boggle your mind .
HOW BIG IS WALMART?
1. Americans spend $36,000,000 at Wal-Mart every hour of every day.
2. This works out to $20,928 profit every minute!
3. Wal-Mart will sell more from January 1 to St.Patrick's Day (March 17th) than Target sells all year.
4. Wal-Mart is bigger than Home Depot + Kroger + Target + Sears + Costco + K-Mart combined.
5. Wal-Mart employs 1.6 million people and is the largest private employer. And most can't speak English
6. Wal-Mart is the largest company in the history of the World.
7. Wal-Mart now sells more food than Kroger & Safeway combined, and keep in mind they did this in only 15 years.
8. During this same period, 31 Supermarket chains sought bankruptcy (including Winn-Dixie).
9. Wal-Mart now sells more food than any other store in the world.
10. Wal-Mart has approx 3,900 stores in the USA of which 1,906 are Super Centers; this is 1,000 more than it had 5 years ago.
11 This year 7.2 billion different purchasing experiences will occur at a Wal-Mart store. (Earth's population is approximately 6.5 billion.)
12. 90% of all Americans live within 15 miles of a Wal-MartLet Wal-Mart bail out Wall Street. Better yet ....
Let them run the damn Government.
Anything is better than OUR CONGRESS...
HOW BIG IS WALMART?
1. Americans spend $36,000,000 at Wal-Mart every hour of every day.
2. This works out to $20,928 profit every minute!
3. Wal-Mart will sell more from January 1 to St.Patrick's Day (March 17th) than Target sells all year.
4. Wal-Mart is bigger than Home Depot + Kroger + Target + Sears + Costco + K-Mart combined.
5. Wal-Mart employs 1.6 million people and is the largest private employer. And most can't speak English
6. Wal-Mart is the largest company in the history of the World.
7. Wal-Mart now sells more food than Kroger & Safeway combined, and keep in mind they did this in only 15 years.
8. During this same period, 31 Supermarket chains sought bankruptcy (including Winn-Dixie).
9. Wal-Mart now sells more food than any other store in the world.
10. Wal-Mart has approx 3,900 stores in the USA of which 1,906 are Super Centers; this is 1,000 more than it had 5 years ago.
11 This year 7.2 billion different purchasing experiences will occur at a Wal-Mart store. (Earth's population is approximately 6.5 billion.)
12. 90% of all Americans live within 15 miles of a Wal-MartLet Wal-Mart bail out Wall Street. Better yet ....
Let them run the damn Government.
Anything is better than OUR CONGRESS...
July 24, 2009
FEELING BAD
I FEEL BAD TODAY. I FEEL LIKE I RUINED JOSH'S WEEKEND AND I FEEL BAD FOR MY BROTHER AND LACHELLE. SO MUCH HAS GONE ON THE PAST TWO DAYS THAT I DON'T EVEN KNOW WHERE TO BEGIN. IT SEEMS LIKE JUST WHEN I WAS HOPING THAT JOSH AND I WOULD HAVE A GREAT WEEKEND THINGS GOT MESSED UP. I FEEL BAD THAT I RUINED HIS WEEKEND WITH ME BECAUSE I LET THINGS GET IN THE WAY THAT SHOULDN'T HAVE GOTTEN IN THE WAY. I KNOW BETTER BUT I ALSO KNOW THAT SINCE I AM NOT ON ANY PILLS THINGS GET TO ME EASIER AND GET ME WORKED UP MORE THAT WHEN I AM ON SOMETHING. I AM HOPING THAT I WILL GET BACK ON SOMETHING ON TUESDAY WHEN I GO AND SEE THE DOCTOR. I KNOW ME BEING ON SOMETHING WILL HELP CALM MY NERVES AND HELP ME NOT GET WORKED UP OVER LITTLE THINGS. I KNOW THAT I CAN GET BALANCED OUT AND I CAN'T WAIT FOR THAT DAY TO COME.
CHRIS AND LACHELLE ARE OVER AND THAT HAS BEEN A LOT OF THE DRAMA THIS WEEKEND. I FEEL SO BAD FOR BOTH OF THEM. I WANTED THINGS TO WORK WITH THEM. I HATE TO SEE PEOPLE SAD AND HURTING. I KNOW THEY HAVE BOTH SAID AND DONE THINGS THEY SHOULDN'T HAVE BUT I KNOW THEY BOTH LOVE EACH OTHER. THEY JUST DON'T KNOW HOW TO SHOW IT. I KNOW THEY BOTH HAVE ISSUES THAT NEED TO BE ADDRESSED BUT I ALSO KNOW THAT THEY MAY NEVER ADDRESS THEM AND THEN AGAIN MAYBE IN TIME THINGS WILL CHANGE AND IT WILL WORK FOR THEM. HOW THINGS HAVE BEEN THE LAST FEW MONTHS HASN'T BEEN HEALTHY FOR EITHER OF THEM. I KNOW THEY ARE YOUNG AND THEY WILL LEARN FROM THIS EXPERIENCE AND MAKES CHANGES THAT THEY NEED TO MAKE.
I AM A STRONG BELIEVE IN FATE AND KARMA. I KNOW THAT IF YOU ARE MEANT TO BE TOGETHER FOR EVER IT WILL WORK AND IF NOT IT WON'T WORK OUT. I ALSO KNOW THAT KARMA WORKS AND PEOPLE WILL ALWAYS GET WHAT IS COMING TO THEM. IT MAY TAKE YEARS FOR IT HAPPEN BUT THEY ALWAYS GET WHAT THE DESERVE IN TIME. I ALSO THINK TIME SUCKS MORE AND MORE EACH DAY. IT ALWAYS DRAGS DURING THE WEEK AND FLIES BY ON THE WEEKENDS!
CHRIS AND LACHELLE ARE OVER AND THAT HAS BEEN A LOT OF THE DRAMA THIS WEEKEND. I FEEL SO BAD FOR BOTH OF THEM. I WANTED THINGS TO WORK WITH THEM. I HATE TO SEE PEOPLE SAD AND HURTING. I KNOW THEY HAVE BOTH SAID AND DONE THINGS THEY SHOULDN'T HAVE BUT I KNOW THEY BOTH LOVE EACH OTHER. THEY JUST DON'T KNOW HOW TO SHOW IT. I KNOW THEY BOTH HAVE ISSUES THAT NEED TO BE ADDRESSED BUT I ALSO KNOW THAT THEY MAY NEVER ADDRESS THEM AND THEN AGAIN MAYBE IN TIME THINGS WILL CHANGE AND IT WILL WORK FOR THEM. HOW THINGS HAVE BEEN THE LAST FEW MONTHS HASN'T BEEN HEALTHY FOR EITHER OF THEM. I KNOW THEY ARE YOUNG AND THEY WILL LEARN FROM THIS EXPERIENCE AND MAKES CHANGES THAT THEY NEED TO MAKE.
I AM A STRONG BELIEVE IN FATE AND KARMA. I KNOW THAT IF YOU ARE MEANT TO BE TOGETHER FOR EVER IT WILL WORK AND IF NOT IT WON'T WORK OUT. I ALSO KNOW THAT KARMA WORKS AND PEOPLE WILL ALWAYS GET WHAT IS COMING TO THEM. IT MAY TAKE YEARS FOR IT HAPPEN BUT THEY ALWAYS GET WHAT THE DESERVE IN TIME. I ALSO THINK TIME SUCKS MORE AND MORE EACH DAY. IT ALWAYS DRAGS DURING THE WEEK AND FLIES BY ON THE WEEKENDS!
July 23, 2009
DOCTORS
1. A man comes into the ER and yells 'My wife's going to have her baby in the cab.' I grabbed my stuff, rushed out to the cab, lifted the lady's dress and began to take off her underwear.Suddenly I noticed that there were several cabs - - - and I was in the wrong one.Submitted by Dr. Mark MacDonald,San Francisco
2. At the beginning of my shift I placed a stethoscope on an elderly and slightly deaf female patient's anterior chest wall.'Big breaths,'. .. ... I instructed. 'Yes, they used to be,'. . . replied the patient.
Submitted by Dr. Richard Byrnes, Seattle , WA
3. One day I had to be the bearer of bad news when I told a wife that her husband had died of a massive myocardial infarct.Not more than five minutes later, I heard her reporting to the rest of the family that he had died of a 'massive internal fart.'
Submitted by Dr. Susan Steinberg
4. During a patient's two week follow-up appointment with his cardiologist, he informed me, his doctor, that he was having trouble with one of his medications.'Which one ?'. .I asked.'The patch ....... ''The Nurse told me to put on a new one every six hours and now I'm running out of places to put it!'I had him quickly undress and discovered what I hoped I wouldn't see. Yes, the man had over fifty patches on his body!Now, the instructions include removal of the old patch before applying a new one.
Submitted by Dr Rebecca St. Clair, Norfolk , VA
5. While acquainting myself with a new elderly patient, I asked, 'How long have you been bedridden?'After a look of complete confusion she answered . . . 'Why, not for about twenty years - when my husband was alive.'
Submitted by Dr. Steven Swanson, Corvallis , OR
6. I was performing rounds at the hospital one morning and while checking up on a man I asked .. . . 'So how's your breakfast this morning?''It's very good except for the Kentucky Jelly. I can't seem to get used to the taste' . . Bob replied.I then asked to see the jelly and Bob produced a foil packet labeled 'KY Jelly.'
Submitted by Dr.. Leonard Kransdorf, Detroit
7. A nurse was on duty in the Emergency Room when a young woman with purple hair styled into a punk rocker Mohawk, sporting a variety of tattoos, and wearing strange clothing, entered . . ..It was quickly determined that the patient had acute appendicitis, so she was scheduled for immediate surgery.. When she was completely disrobed on the operating table, the staff noticed that her pubic hair had been dyed green and above it there was a tattoo that read . . . 'Keep off the grass.'Once the surgery was completed, the surgeon wrote a short note on the patient's dressing, which said 'Sorry . . . had to mow the lawn...'
Submitted by RN no name
AND FINALLY!! ! ... . . . ... . . . . ... . . . ...
8 As a new, young MD doing his residency in OB. I was quite embarrassed when performing female pelvic exams... To cover my embarrassment I had unconsciously formed a habit of whistling softly.The middle-aged lady upon whom I was performing this exam suddenly burst out laughing and further embarrassing me.I looked up from my work and sheepishly said 'I'm sorry. Was I tickling you?'She replied with tears running down her cheeks from laughing so hard . ... ... 'No doctor, but the song you were whistling was . . .'I wish I was an Oscar Meyer Wiener..'
Dr. wouldn't submit his name . . .
2. At the beginning of my shift I placed a stethoscope on an elderly and slightly deaf female patient's anterior chest wall.'Big breaths,'. .. ... I instructed. 'Yes, they used to be,'. . . replied the patient.
Submitted by Dr. Richard Byrnes, Seattle , WA
3. One day I had to be the bearer of bad news when I told a wife that her husband had died of a massive myocardial infarct.Not more than five minutes later, I heard her reporting to the rest of the family that he had died of a 'massive internal fart.'
Submitted by Dr. Susan Steinberg
4. During a patient's two week follow-up appointment with his cardiologist, he informed me, his doctor, that he was having trouble with one of his medications.'Which one ?'. .I asked.'The patch ....... ''The Nurse told me to put on a new one every six hours and now I'm running out of places to put it!'I had him quickly undress and discovered what I hoped I wouldn't see. Yes, the man had over fifty patches on his body!Now, the instructions include removal of the old patch before applying a new one.
Submitted by Dr Rebecca St. Clair, Norfolk , VA
5. While acquainting myself with a new elderly patient, I asked, 'How long have you been bedridden?'After a look of complete confusion she answered . . . 'Why, not for about twenty years - when my husband was alive.'
Submitted by Dr. Steven Swanson, Corvallis , OR
6. I was performing rounds at the hospital one morning and while checking up on a man I asked .. . . 'So how's your breakfast this morning?''It's very good except for the Kentucky Jelly. I can't seem to get used to the taste' . . Bob replied.I then asked to see the jelly and Bob produced a foil packet labeled 'KY Jelly.'
Submitted by Dr.. Leonard Kransdorf, Detroit
7. A nurse was on duty in the Emergency Room when a young woman with purple hair styled into a punk rocker Mohawk, sporting a variety of tattoos, and wearing strange clothing, entered . . ..It was quickly determined that the patient had acute appendicitis, so she was scheduled for immediate surgery.. When she was completely disrobed on the operating table, the staff noticed that her pubic hair had been dyed green and above it there was a tattoo that read . . . 'Keep off the grass.'Once the surgery was completed, the surgeon wrote a short note on the patient's dressing, which said 'Sorry . . . had to mow the lawn...'
Submitted by RN no name
AND FINALLY!! ! ... . . . ... . . . . ... . . . ...
8 As a new, young MD doing his residency in OB. I was quite embarrassed when performing female pelvic exams... To cover my embarrassment I had unconsciously formed a habit of whistling softly.The middle-aged lady upon whom I was performing this exam suddenly burst out laughing and further embarrassing me.I looked up from my work and sheepishly said 'I'm sorry. Was I tickling you?'She replied with tears running down her cheeks from laughing so hard . ... ... 'No doctor, but the song you were whistling was . . .'I wish I was an Oscar Meyer Wiener..'
Dr. wouldn't submit his name . . .
July 21, 2009
PICTURE AND POST FOR THE DAY
TODAY'S PICTURE IS WHAT MY BRUISE LOOKS LIKE. EVERYDAY IT GETS DARKER AND WHAT NOT. IT IS SURE TURNING OUT TO BE REALLY UGLY.
SO IT IS TUESDAY AND I AM SUPER EXCITED FOR IT TO BE THURSDAY SO THAT I CAN BE OFF AND NOT HAVE TO WORRY ABOUT WORK. I AM GETTING SO TIRED OF WORK AND IT BEING SO SLOW. DON'T GET ME WRONG I AM GLAD I HAVE A JOB BUT I AM TIRED OF HOW SLOW IT IS AND ME ALWAYS JUST SITTING AROUND DOING NOTHING. THERE IS ONLY SO MUCH OF DOING NOTHING THAT I CAN STAND AND I HAVE REACHED MY LIMIT. OH WELL I GUESS IT COULD ALWAYS BE WORSE AND I COULD HAVE NO JOB. SO I WILL STOP COMPLAINING ABOUT IT OR I WILL TRY AND STOP COMPLAINING ABOUT IT.
JOSH SHOULD BE HOME SOMETIME THIS WEEK GOD ONLY KNOWS WHEN THOUGH WITH HIS JOB. YOU NEVER KNOW WITH HIM AND YOU NEVER CAN PLAN BECAUSE YOU JUST NEVER KNOW WHEN AND IF HE WILL BE HERE. I AM SURE HE WILL MAKE IT SOMETIME THIS WEEKEND BUT GOD ONLY KNOWS WHEN HE WILL SHOW UP. HE IS EITHER EARLY OR LATE NEVER ON THE DAY HE IS SUPPOSED TO BE HERE. OH WELL AT LEAST HE TRIES TO GET WHERE HE NEEDS TO BE. I AM USED TO IT THOUGH SO I NEVER REALLY MAKE PLANS THAT CAN'T BE CHANGED.
CHRIS AND LACHELLE ARE FIGHTING AGAIN AND I AM GETTING TIRED OF HEARING IT. I MEAN COME ON BOTH OF THEM NEED TO GROW UP AND IF THEY AREN'T HAPPY THEY NEED TO LEAVE. THIS FIGHTING IS DRIVING ALL OF US IN THE HOUSE CRAZY. THE FIRST THING I HEARD WHEN I GOT UP WAS FIGHTING THIS MORNING. I MEAN GOOD HELL IF YOU WANNA YELL AND SCREAM GO OUTSIDE IN THE CAR. I CAN ONLY SPEAK FOR ME BUT I AM TIRED OF HEARING IT. I EITHER HAVE TO LEAVE OR THEY HAVE TO STOP FIGHTING. I MEAN IF THEY CAN'T GET ALONG THEN WHY DRAG IT OUT. I GUESS IT ISN'T UP TO ME. I JUST SEE THEM DOING A LOT OF THINGS THAT I DID IN THE BEGINNING BUT THEY WON'T LISTEN TO ME. SO I HAVE STOPPED TRYING TO HELP. THEY WILL FIGURE IT OUT ON THEIR OWN I GUESS AND IN THE PROCESS I AM SURE ME AND GRANDPA WILL GO CRAZY!
THE GIRLS ARE BEING THEIR USUAL MONSTER SELVES. THEY LOVE GOING OUT SIDE AND GETTING INTO TROUBLE. I LOVE MESSING WITH THEM THOUGH SO PART OF IT I AM SURE IS MY FAULT. THIS WEEKEND THOUGH I WAS READY TO KILL THEM. THEY ARE JUST GETTING REALLY OUT OF CONTROL AT TIMES.
SO I HAVE FIGURED OUT WHAT IS SCRATCHING MY CAR UP. IT IS THE NEIGHBOR KIDS RUNNING INTO IT WITH THEIR BIKES. GRANDPA TOLD ME THAT AND I WAS LIKE WTF???? IF I SEE THEM DO IT THERE ARE GOING TO SERIOUS PROBLEMS. JUST CAUSE THEY DON'T HAVE NICE THINGS DOESN'T MEAN THEY HAVE TO COME AND WRECK MY THINGS. I WORK HARD FOR MY CAR AND I HATE TO SEE IT GET RUINED BECAUSE KIDS TODAY JUST DON'T CARE ABOUT OTHER PEOPLES THINGS. WHEN I WAS A KID I WOULD HAVE NEVER DREAMED ABOUT HITTING INTO SOMEONES CAR WHEN I WAS RIDING MY BIKE. GUESS THAT IS THE DIFFERENT BETWEEN MY GENERATION AND THEIR GENERATION.
SO IT IS TUESDAY AND I AM SUPER EXCITED FOR IT TO BE THURSDAY SO THAT I CAN BE OFF AND NOT HAVE TO WORRY ABOUT WORK. I AM GETTING SO TIRED OF WORK AND IT BEING SO SLOW. DON'T GET ME WRONG I AM GLAD I HAVE A JOB BUT I AM TIRED OF HOW SLOW IT IS AND ME ALWAYS JUST SITTING AROUND DOING NOTHING. THERE IS ONLY SO MUCH OF DOING NOTHING THAT I CAN STAND AND I HAVE REACHED MY LIMIT. OH WELL I GUESS IT COULD ALWAYS BE WORSE AND I COULD HAVE NO JOB. SO I WILL STOP COMPLAINING ABOUT IT OR I WILL TRY AND STOP COMPLAINING ABOUT IT.
JOSH SHOULD BE HOME SOMETIME THIS WEEK GOD ONLY KNOWS WHEN THOUGH WITH HIS JOB. YOU NEVER KNOW WITH HIM AND YOU NEVER CAN PLAN BECAUSE YOU JUST NEVER KNOW WHEN AND IF HE WILL BE HERE. I AM SURE HE WILL MAKE IT SOMETIME THIS WEEKEND BUT GOD ONLY KNOWS WHEN HE WILL SHOW UP. HE IS EITHER EARLY OR LATE NEVER ON THE DAY HE IS SUPPOSED TO BE HERE. OH WELL AT LEAST HE TRIES TO GET WHERE HE NEEDS TO BE. I AM USED TO IT THOUGH SO I NEVER REALLY MAKE PLANS THAT CAN'T BE CHANGED.
CHRIS AND LACHELLE ARE FIGHTING AGAIN AND I AM GETTING TIRED OF HEARING IT. I MEAN COME ON BOTH OF THEM NEED TO GROW UP AND IF THEY AREN'T HAPPY THEY NEED TO LEAVE. THIS FIGHTING IS DRIVING ALL OF US IN THE HOUSE CRAZY. THE FIRST THING I HEARD WHEN I GOT UP WAS FIGHTING THIS MORNING. I MEAN GOOD HELL IF YOU WANNA YELL AND SCREAM GO OUTSIDE IN THE CAR. I CAN ONLY SPEAK FOR ME BUT I AM TIRED OF HEARING IT. I EITHER HAVE TO LEAVE OR THEY HAVE TO STOP FIGHTING. I MEAN IF THEY CAN'T GET ALONG THEN WHY DRAG IT OUT. I GUESS IT ISN'T UP TO ME. I JUST SEE THEM DOING A LOT OF THINGS THAT I DID IN THE BEGINNING BUT THEY WON'T LISTEN TO ME. SO I HAVE STOPPED TRYING TO HELP. THEY WILL FIGURE IT OUT ON THEIR OWN I GUESS AND IN THE PROCESS I AM SURE ME AND GRANDPA WILL GO CRAZY!
THE GIRLS ARE BEING THEIR USUAL MONSTER SELVES. THEY LOVE GOING OUT SIDE AND GETTING INTO TROUBLE. I LOVE MESSING WITH THEM THOUGH SO PART OF IT I AM SURE IS MY FAULT. THIS WEEKEND THOUGH I WAS READY TO KILL THEM. THEY ARE JUST GETTING REALLY OUT OF CONTROL AT TIMES.
SO I HAVE FIGURED OUT WHAT IS SCRATCHING MY CAR UP. IT IS THE NEIGHBOR KIDS RUNNING INTO IT WITH THEIR BIKES. GRANDPA TOLD ME THAT AND I WAS LIKE WTF???? IF I SEE THEM DO IT THERE ARE GOING TO SERIOUS PROBLEMS. JUST CAUSE THEY DON'T HAVE NICE THINGS DOESN'T MEAN THEY HAVE TO COME AND WRECK MY THINGS. I WORK HARD FOR MY CAR AND I HATE TO SEE IT GET RUINED BECAUSE KIDS TODAY JUST DON'T CARE ABOUT OTHER PEOPLES THINGS. WHEN I WAS A KID I WOULD HAVE NEVER DREAMED ABOUT HITTING INTO SOMEONES CAR WHEN I WAS RIDING MY BIKE. GUESS THAT IS THE DIFFERENT BETWEEN MY GENERATION AND THEIR GENERATION.
July 20, 2009
MISTI
WELL MISTI AND I WENT TO DINNER TONIGHT AND LIKE I SAID EARLIER WE FIGURED IT ALL OUT LIKE WE ALWAYS DO. I THINK WHEN SHE GOT HOME AND READ THE LETTER THAT I WROTE SHE GOT ALOT OF THINGS ABOUT ME AND COULD TELL I WAS SORRY FOR EVERYTHING BUT THIS IS HOW I AM AND I WON'T CHANGE ME! I KNOW PARTS OF ME HAVE TO CHANGE AND I AM WILLING TO CHANGE THOSE PARTS BUT THERE ARE OTHER PARTS THAT ARE JUST ME AND I CAN'T AND WON'T CHANGE. WE JUST NEEDS A FEW DAYS TO CALM DOWN AND THINK ABOUT THINGS AND WE BOTH ALWAYS COME TO OUR SENSE AND SEE WHAT WE DID WRONG. I KNOW SHE IS REALLY STRUGGLING NOW AND I WANT HER TO KNOW THAT THE DAYS SHE NEEDS A SHOULDER TO CRY ON OR SOMEONE TO VENT TOO ALL SHE HAS TO DO IS SAY SO. I WILL BE THERE. RIGHT NOW I AM IN A SPOT WHERE I KNOW THAT I HELP HER. FOR ONCE WE AREN'T GOING THROUGH THE SAME THING. OR AT LEAST WE AREN'T RIGHT NOW. I KNOW THIS WEEKEND WILL BE HARD FOR HER AND I WANT HER TO KNOW THAT IF SHE WANTS TO HANG WITH ME JOSH AND HIS STUDENT SHE IS MORE THAN WELCOME TOO.
REMEMBER MISTI TIME WILL HEAL IT AND I AM HERE FOR YOU NO MATTER THE TIME OR PLACE! WE WILL ALWAYS FIGHT CAUSE WE ARE SO CLOSE BUT IN THE END WE ALWAYS COME BACK TO EACH OTHER AND NOTHING WILL CHANGE ABOUT THAT!
REMEMBER MISTI TIME WILL HEAL IT AND I AM HERE FOR YOU NO MATTER THE TIME OR PLACE! WE WILL ALWAYS FIGHT CAUSE WE ARE SO CLOSE BUT IN THE END WE ALWAYS COME BACK TO EACH OTHER AND NOTHING WILL CHANGE ABOUT THAT!
HOROSCOPE
Today you may be dealing with a particular duty you thought would be finished by now. Whatever this responsibility is, it is taking time and energy away from things you'd rather be doing Sagittarius. There may even be some harsh words with someone you care deeply about because of your frustration with this situation, and you may feel somewhat trapped by your work situation. But it will not be long before the way out of this stuck position will be clear to you, and that may even come as a gift.
LOVE HOROSCOPE
You are going through a period of introspection, Sagittarius, and this will affect your love life today. While you are reflecting inward however, remember how to present yourself, as someone in the world is watching you today. If you are attached, you are still just wanting some quiet time with your favorite person, as your energies for intensity and passion just aren't there today. Meeting your emotional needs will be most important for your partner today. Single? You are not likely to make any permanent changes to your status today, so spend some time engaging in activities with the people who make you feel best about yourself.
FORTUNE COOKIE
Much more grows in the garden than that which is planted there.
DAILY LIFE READING
Love:
You will enjoy moderate satisfaction in your relationships today.
Career:
Work will require your full attention today, watch out for other taking credit for your work!
Health:
You must be achieving your health goals, you're doing great!
Wealth:
You've been doing great keeping up with your financial obligations!
THIS TOTALLY FITS FOR ME TODAY!
LOVE HOROSCOPE
You are going through a period of introspection, Sagittarius, and this will affect your love life today. While you are reflecting inward however, remember how to present yourself, as someone in the world is watching you today. If you are attached, you are still just wanting some quiet time with your favorite person, as your energies for intensity and passion just aren't there today. Meeting your emotional needs will be most important for your partner today. Single? You are not likely to make any permanent changes to your status today, so spend some time engaging in activities with the people who make you feel best about yourself.
FORTUNE COOKIE
Much more grows in the garden than that which is planted there.
DAILY LIFE READING
Love:
You will enjoy moderate satisfaction in your relationships today.
Career:
Work will require your full attention today, watch out for other taking credit for your work!
Health:
You must be achieving your health goals, you're doing great!
Wealth:
You've been doing great keeping up with your financial obligations!
THIS TOTALLY FITS FOR ME TODAY!
MANIC MONDAY
WELL IT IS MONDAY MORNING AND I WISH THAT IT WAS THE WEEKEND AGAIN. SO I RENTED THE MOVIE THE "KNOWING" AND I AM STILL NOT SURE HOW I FEEL ABOUT IT. IT WAS DEFINITELY A VERY WEIRD MOVIE. ANYWAYS OTHER THAN THAT MY WEEKEND SUCKED. AS YOU CAN SEE FROM THE PICTURES MY INFUSION THAT I HAD ON FRIDAY LEFT ME WITH A BIG BRUISE. I USUALLY LOVE BRUISE'S THAT I GET BUT THIS ONE IS SO BIG AND NOTICEABLE THAT IT IS STARTING TO SUCK, BUT IT COMES WITH THE TERRITORY I GUESS. THIS ONE MAKES IT LOOK LIKE I SHOOT UP DRUGS AND WHAT NOT. GUESS IF PEOPLE ASK I SHOULD TELL THEM IT IS BECAUSE OF DRUGS LOL. THEIR REACTIONS WOULD BE PRICELESS. ANYWAYS OTHER THAN MISTI AND I FIGHTING NOTHING ELSE HAS REALLY HAPPENED. IT HAS BEEN A PRETTY LAID BACK WEEKEND.
MISTI AND I FOUGHT BUT I AM SURE IN TIME THINGS WILL GET BETTER FOR US. WE JUST SEEM TO HAVE A CYCLE . WE DO GOOD FOR A WHILE AND THEN SOMETHING HAPPENS AND ONE OF US BLOWS IT OUT OUT OF PROPORTION AND WE SAY THINGS WE WILL REGRET AND THEN A FEW DAYS LATER WE TALK IT OUT AND ARE OK AGAIN. WELL I HOPE THAT IS HOW IT WORKS THIS TIME. I AM GOING TO DINNER WITH HER TONIGHT AND WE ARE GOING TO TALK ABOUT THINGS. I KNOW THAT SHE KNOWS I WILL ALWAYS CARE ABOUT HER AND BE THERE IF SHE NEEDS ME.
MY LITTLE BROTHER AND LACHELLE ARE UP AND DOWN LIKE USUAL. THEY DO WELL FOR A FEW DAYS AND THEN SHIT HITS THE FAN AGAIN. OH WELL MAYBE ONE DAY WILL GET IT FIGURED OUT AND MAYBE NOT BUT I CAN'T WORRY ABOUT IT. I HAVE TO FIGURE OUT MY LIFE AND MY RELASIONSHIP WITH JOSH.
JOSH WILL BE HOME THIS WEEKEND AND THAT IS ALWAYS EXCITING. HE WILL BE HERE FOR THE FAMILY REUNION SO THAT SHOULD BE INTERESTING. I AM SURE HE WILL BE ALL SORTS OF CONFUSED AT IT. HELL I DON'T EVEN KNOW WHO PEOPLE ARE IN MY FAMILY. I HAVE NO WAY OF TELLING HIM WHO THEY ARE. OH WELL I WILL JUST WING IT OR ASK GRANDMA WHO THEY ARE.
MISTI AND I FOUGHT BUT I AM SURE IN TIME THINGS WILL GET BETTER FOR US. WE JUST SEEM TO HAVE A CYCLE . WE DO GOOD FOR A WHILE AND THEN SOMETHING HAPPENS AND ONE OF US BLOWS IT OUT OUT OF PROPORTION AND WE SAY THINGS WE WILL REGRET AND THEN A FEW DAYS LATER WE TALK IT OUT AND ARE OK AGAIN. WELL I HOPE THAT IS HOW IT WORKS THIS TIME. I AM GOING TO DINNER WITH HER TONIGHT AND WE ARE GOING TO TALK ABOUT THINGS. I KNOW THAT SHE KNOWS I WILL ALWAYS CARE ABOUT HER AND BE THERE IF SHE NEEDS ME.
MY LITTLE BROTHER AND LACHELLE ARE UP AND DOWN LIKE USUAL. THEY DO WELL FOR A FEW DAYS AND THEN SHIT HITS THE FAN AGAIN. OH WELL MAYBE ONE DAY WILL GET IT FIGURED OUT AND MAYBE NOT BUT I CAN'T WORRY ABOUT IT. I HAVE TO FIGURE OUT MY LIFE AND MY RELASIONSHIP WITH JOSH.
JOSH WILL BE HOME THIS WEEKEND AND THAT IS ALWAYS EXCITING. HE WILL BE HERE FOR THE FAMILY REUNION SO THAT SHOULD BE INTERESTING. I AM SURE HE WILL BE ALL SORTS OF CONFUSED AT IT. HELL I DON'T EVEN KNOW WHO PEOPLE ARE IN MY FAMILY. I HAVE NO WAY OF TELLING HIM WHO THEY ARE. OH WELL I WILL JUST WING IT OR ASK GRANDMA WHO THEY ARE.
PICTURE OF THE DAY
PICTURE OF THE DAY
July 19, 2009
LEARNING
I LEARNED ABOUT MYSELF THIS WEEKEND AND I AM NOT SURE IF SHE WAS RIGHT OR WRONG BUT MAYBE SHE IS RIGHT. MAYBE FOR THE FIRST TIME SOMEONE TOLD ME THE TRUTH AND MAYBE SHE DIDN'T BUT I AM CHOOSING TO TAKE IT AS TRUTH. MAYBE ONE DAY I WILL BE A BETTER PERSON BUT I NOW KNOW THAT I AM GOING TO BE BETTER OFF ALONE WITH OUT PEOPLE IN MY LIFE THAT LIKE TO BRING ME DOWN AND TURN THINGS ON ME. I AM GOING TO BACK TO HOW I WAS WHEN I DIDN'T LET PEOPLE INTO MY WORLD!
July 18, 2009
INFUSION FRIDAY
WELL I HAD MY INFUSION ON FRIDAY AND IT SUCKED TO SAY THE LEAST. THIS WAS A BAD ONE AND IT TOOK FOR FOREVER AND A DAY FOR IT TO BE OVER WITH. I AM GETTING TIRED OF SPENDING ALL DAY AT THE HOSPITAL AND I FEEL BAD THAT MY GRANDMA HAS TO SPEND ALL DAY THERE WITH ME AS WELL. YOU RUN OUT OF THINGS TO DO AND WHAT NOT WHEN YOU SPEND ALL DAY THERE. I GOT HOME ABOUT 2 AND THE INFUSION STARTED AT 8:30. IT IS SUPPOSED TO TAKE ABOUT 2 HOURS NOT THE WHOLE DAY. I AM GOING TO TALK TO MY DOCTOR ABOUT IT AND SEE IF WE CAN'T GO BACK TO THE REGULAR PACE. THE BRUISE IS GETTING COOLER EVERYDAY!
July 16, 2009
MY HOROSCOPE FOR TODAY
HOROSCOPE
If you are not laid up with some type of complaint, expect work to be pretty boring today, Sagittarius, in fact, it will be difficult to do anything other than daydream. If you can, you should relax and use the day to catch up on reading or cinema, or otherwise attend to something that you enjoy instead of the tedium of money matters. If you are looking for work currently, take a day off from the job search and enjoy yourself. It's time to recharge your batteries to get ready for busier days ahead.
LOVE HOROSCOPE
Affection may as well be your middle name today, Sagittarius, as you are feeling the love in abundance. If you are attached, you will be having one of those days where you can't keep your hands off of your partner, and they will be pleasantly surprised by this sudden spark. Single? It is a good day for you to get out and socialize, as the loving energy you are feeling will be felt by all of those around you. Harmony and love are the only things you are critically concerned with today, so do your best to cross paths by those you want to recognize this most.
FORTUNE COOKIE
Your heart will always make itself known through your words.
DAILY LIFE READINGS
Love:
If you are with someone; today will be a harmonious day with them. If you've been waiting to say something to that special someone, today is the day. Love is in the air!
Career:
Trust your first instinct, it's usually the right thing to do, and people will praise you for your decision.
Health:
You must be achieving your health goals, you're doing great!
Wealth:
You may receive a bonus at work soon, use it to splurge on something you've wanted for a while!
If you are not laid up with some type of complaint, expect work to be pretty boring today, Sagittarius, in fact, it will be difficult to do anything other than daydream. If you can, you should relax and use the day to catch up on reading or cinema, or otherwise attend to something that you enjoy instead of the tedium of money matters. If you are looking for work currently, take a day off from the job search and enjoy yourself. It's time to recharge your batteries to get ready for busier days ahead.
LOVE HOROSCOPE
Affection may as well be your middle name today, Sagittarius, as you are feeling the love in abundance. If you are attached, you will be having one of those days where you can't keep your hands off of your partner, and they will be pleasantly surprised by this sudden spark. Single? It is a good day for you to get out and socialize, as the loving energy you are feeling will be felt by all of those around you. Harmony and love are the only things you are critically concerned with today, so do your best to cross paths by those you want to recognize this most.
FORTUNE COOKIE
Your heart will always make itself known through your words.
DAILY LIFE READINGS
Love:
If you are with someone; today will be a harmonious day with them. If you've been waiting to say something to that special someone, today is the day. Love is in the air!
Career:
Trust your first instinct, it's usually the right thing to do, and people will praise you for your decision.
Health:
You must be achieving your health goals, you're doing great!
Wealth:
You may receive a bonus at work soon, use it to splurge on something you've wanted for a while!
THRILLING THURSDAY
WELL TODAY IS MY FRIDAY!!!! THANK GOD FOR THAT! I AM SO READY FOR THIS WEEK TO BE OVER! IT HAS BEEN A REALLY LONG WEEK AND TOMORROW IS MY INFUSION SO I AM GLAD FOR THAT AS WELL. IT IS ABOUT TIME FOR MY INFUSION. I ALWAYS HATE THE WEEK LEADING UP TO IT. IT IS A HARD WEEK TO GET THROUGH. OH WELL IT IS ALMOST TIME FOR INFUSION AND LIFE WILL BE BETTER NEXT WEEK. NO MORE BEING TIRED AND IN PAIN. I HAVE BEEN WONDERING WHY GOD MAKES SOME PEOPLE DEAL WITH SO MUCH IN LIFE? I HAVE BEEN WONDERING WHY THINGS IN MY LIFE HAS ALWAYS BEEN A STRUGGLE I AM GETTING TIRED OF FIGHTING FOR THING. I JUST ONCE WANT THINGS TO BE NOT SO HARD. I KNOW THIS IS JUST A WISH BUT MAYBE ONE DAY IT WILL COME TRUE FOR ME. I GUESS LIFE BEING HARD HAS MADE WHO I AM TODAY. I HAVE STARTED TO SEE THAT I CAN'T TAKE LIFE FOR GRANTED CAUSE YOU NEVER KNOW WHEN YOU WON'T BE AROUND ANYMORE.
MY FAMILY REUNION IS COMING UP AND IT SHOULD BE INTERESTING TO SAY THE LEAST. IT WILL BE THE FIRST REUNION SINCE RUSSELL HAS PASSED AWAY. I AM SURE THAT THEY WILL ALL SIT AROUND AND TELL STORIES ABOUT HIM. I KNOW IT WILL BE WEIRD NOT TO HAVE HIM THERE WITH THE FAMILY. YOU CAN'T HELP BUT WONDER WHO WILL BE THE NEXT TO GO IN THE FAMILY. I HAVE MY THOUGHTS BUT YOU NEVER KNOW WHO WILL BE THE NEXT ONE TO GO.
MY FAMILY REUNION IS COMING UP AND IT SHOULD BE INTERESTING TO SAY THE LEAST. IT WILL BE THE FIRST REUNION SINCE RUSSELL HAS PASSED AWAY. I AM SURE THAT THEY WILL ALL SIT AROUND AND TELL STORIES ABOUT HIM. I KNOW IT WILL BE WEIRD NOT TO HAVE HIM THERE WITH THE FAMILY. YOU CAN'T HELP BUT WONDER WHO WILL BE THE NEXT TO GO IN THE FAMILY. I HAVE MY THOUGHTS BUT YOU NEVER KNOW WHO WILL BE THE NEXT ONE TO GO.
July 15, 2009
WACKY WENSDAY
WELL IT IS WENSDAY AND THAT MEANS THAT I AM ONE DAY CLOSER TO MY WEEKEND! I AM OFF ON FRIDAY OR AT LEAST THE MORNING FOR MY INFUSION SO! I AM SO READY FOR IT THIS MONTH TOO. I AM TIRED OF BEING TIRED ALL THE TIME. IT IS GETTING OLD REALLY QUICK! I HOPE THAT I NEVER HAVE TO STOP TAKING THE TYSABRI CAUSE IF SO LIFE WILL TOTALLY SUCK ASS!!! I NEVER WANT TO GO BACK TO HOW IT WAS BEFORE THE TYSABRI. I DIDN'T HAVE A LIFE BEFORE I WAS ON IT AND IT SUCKED. IT WOULD BE EVEN WORSE NOW BECAUSE I KNOW WHAT IT IS LIKE TO BE A NORMAL PERSON THAT ISN'T TIRED ALL THE TIME. SO I AM GOING TO DO EVERYTHING IN MY POWER TO STAY ON THE MEDICATION.
WORK IS STILL SLOW THAT IS ALWAYS SCARY! I ALSO HATE BEING SLOW AT WORK CAUSE IT MEANS THAT I JUST SIT HERE MORE THAN I WORK AND THAT MAKES FOR EXTRA SLOW DAYS! I HATE SLOW DAYS AT WORK. IT IS SO BAD THAT THE PHONES ARE HARDLY RINGING ANYMORE AND SINCE THAT IS MY MAIN JOB IT GETS BORING REALLY REALLY QUICK! OH WELL AT LEAST I HAVE JOB AND I CAN STILL PAY MY BILLS! SO I CAN'T COMPLAIN ABOUT THINGS RIGHT NOW.
I AM GOING TO TEACH SYLVIA TO FIGHT! LOL SHE NEEDS TO LEARN HOW TO FIGHT SO THAT SHE CAN PROTECT THE YARD AND VINNIE WON'T HAVE TO DO IT AS MUCH. HELL SYLVIA IS THE ONLY CAT THAT WE HAVE THAT ISN'T CHALLENGED IN ANYWAY. SO IT IS HER TURN TO PROTECT THE YARD. SO IF ANYONE HAS ANY IDEAS ON HOW TO TRAIN AND CAT TO FIGHT LET ME KNOW. I DOUBT SYLVIA WILL EVER FIGHT THOUGH BECAUSE SHE IS TOO MUCH OF A PRINCESS! SHE MIGHT MESS UP HER FUR OR HER TAIL MIGHT GET HURT. FOR THOSE OF YOU WHO HAVE MET SYLVIA YOU KNOW THAT YOU DON'T EVER TOUCH HER TAIL!
JOSH DROVE THROUGH HERE LAST NIGHT BUT DIDN'T HAVE THE TIME TO STOP. SO HE WAS SO CLOSE AND WE STILL DIDN'T GET TO SEE EACH OTHER BUT HE WILL BE BACK NEXT WEEKEND SO WE WILL GET TO SEE EACH OTHER THEN! THIS IS HOW HIS JOB IS THOUGH AND IT IS SOMETHING THAT I HAVE GOTTEN USED TOO. IT IS STILL SAD BUT IT IS SOMETHING THAT I HAVE EXCEPTED AND DON'T COMPLAIN TO MUCH ABOUT ANYMORE. IN THE BEGINING IT SUCKED AND I BITCHED ABOUT IT BUT NOW I HAVE LEARNED THAT ME COMPLAINING JUST UPSETS AND HURTS JOSH. HE ISN'T DOING IT BECAUSE HE DIDN'T WANT TO STOP HE DID IT BECAUSE HE HAS TO GET THE LOAD THERE ON TIME. WE BOTH KNOW THAT WE CAN USE THE MONEY FOR BILLS SO IT HAD TO BE DONE. I CAN WAIT FOR ANOTHERWEEK TO SEE HIM. HELL I HAVE WAITED FOR MONTHS TO SEE HIM SO A FEW MORE DAYS WON'T HURT ME!!!!
I HAVE DECIDED THAT I AM TOO NEGATIVE AT TIMES SO I AM GOING TO TRY AND BE MORE POSITIVE!!! IT IS GOING TO BE A UPHILL BATTLE AT TIMES BUT I AM GOING TO TRY. I AM ALSO GOING TO TRY AND LEARN "PEOPLE SKILLS". PEOPLE THAT KNOW ME KNOW THAT I TEND TO LACK IN THAT AREA. SO THAT IS WHAT I AM GOING TO WORK ON FOR THE REST OF YEAR!
WORK IS STILL SLOW THAT IS ALWAYS SCARY! I ALSO HATE BEING SLOW AT WORK CAUSE IT MEANS THAT I JUST SIT HERE MORE THAN I WORK AND THAT MAKES FOR EXTRA SLOW DAYS! I HATE SLOW DAYS AT WORK. IT IS SO BAD THAT THE PHONES ARE HARDLY RINGING ANYMORE AND SINCE THAT IS MY MAIN JOB IT GETS BORING REALLY REALLY QUICK! OH WELL AT LEAST I HAVE JOB AND I CAN STILL PAY MY BILLS! SO I CAN'T COMPLAIN ABOUT THINGS RIGHT NOW.
I AM GOING TO TEACH SYLVIA TO FIGHT! LOL SHE NEEDS TO LEARN HOW TO FIGHT SO THAT SHE CAN PROTECT THE YARD AND VINNIE WON'T HAVE TO DO IT AS MUCH. HELL SYLVIA IS THE ONLY CAT THAT WE HAVE THAT ISN'T CHALLENGED IN ANYWAY. SO IT IS HER TURN TO PROTECT THE YARD. SO IF ANYONE HAS ANY IDEAS ON HOW TO TRAIN AND CAT TO FIGHT LET ME KNOW. I DOUBT SYLVIA WILL EVER FIGHT THOUGH BECAUSE SHE IS TOO MUCH OF A PRINCESS! SHE MIGHT MESS UP HER FUR OR HER TAIL MIGHT GET HURT. FOR THOSE OF YOU WHO HAVE MET SYLVIA YOU KNOW THAT YOU DON'T EVER TOUCH HER TAIL!
JOSH DROVE THROUGH HERE LAST NIGHT BUT DIDN'T HAVE THE TIME TO STOP. SO HE WAS SO CLOSE AND WE STILL DIDN'T GET TO SEE EACH OTHER BUT HE WILL BE BACK NEXT WEEKEND SO WE WILL GET TO SEE EACH OTHER THEN! THIS IS HOW HIS JOB IS THOUGH AND IT IS SOMETHING THAT I HAVE GOTTEN USED TOO. IT IS STILL SAD BUT IT IS SOMETHING THAT I HAVE EXCEPTED AND DON'T COMPLAIN TO MUCH ABOUT ANYMORE. IN THE BEGINING IT SUCKED AND I BITCHED ABOUT IT BUT NOW I HAVE LEARNED THAT ME COMPLAINING JUST UPSETS AND HURTS JOSH. HE ISN'T DOING IT BECAUSE HE DIDN'T WANT TO STOP HE DID IT BECAUSE HE HAS TO GET THE LOAD THERE ON TIME. WE BOTH KNOW THAT WE CAN USE THE MONEY FOR BILLS SO IT HAD TO BE DONE. I CAN WAIT FOR ANOTHERWEEK TO SEE HIM. HELL I HAVE WAITED FOR MONTHS TO SEE HIM SO A FEW MORE DAYS WON'T HURT ME!!!!
I HAVE DECIDED THAT I AM TOO NEGATIVE AT TIMES SO I AM GOING TO TRY AND BE MORE POSITIVE!!! IT IS GOING TO BE A UPHILL BATTLE AT TIMES BUT I AM GOING TO TRY. I AM ALSO GOING TO TRY AND LEARN "PEOPLE SKILLS". PEOPLE THAT KNOW ME KNOW THAT I TEND TO LACK IN THAT AREA. SO THAT IS WHAT I AM GOING TO WORK ON FOR THE REST OF YEAR!
THE 10 BEST CADDY COMMENTS
No. 10
Golfer: "I think I'm going to drown myself in the lake."
Caddy: "Think you can keep your head down that long?"
No. 9
Golfer: "I'd move heaven and earth to break 100 on this course."
Caddy: "Try heaven, you've already moved most of the earth."
No. 8
Golfer: "Do you think my game is improving?"
Caddy: "Yes sir, you miss the ball much closer now."
No. 7
Golfer: "Do you think I can get there with a 5 iron?"
Caddy: "Eventually."
No. 6
Golfer: "You've got to be the worst caddy in the world."
Caddy: "I don't think so sir. That would be too much of a coincidence."
No. 5
Golfer: "Please stop checking your watch all the time. It's too much of a distraction."
Caddy: "It's not a watch. it's a compass."
No. 4
Golfer: "How do you like my game?"
Caddy: "Very good, sir, but personally, I prefer golf."
No. 3
Golfer: "Do you think it's a sin to play on Sunday?"
Caddy: "The way you play, sir, it's a sin to play on any day."
No. 2
Golfer: "This is the worst course I've ever played on."
Caddy: "This isn't the golf course. We left that an hour ago."
And the No. 1 best caddy comment:
Golfer: "That can't be my ball, it's too old."
Caddy: "It's been a long time since we teed off, sir."
Golfer: "I think I'm going to drown myself in the lake."
Caddy: "Think you can keep your head down that long?"
No. 9
Golfer: "I'd move heaven and earth to break 100 on this course."
Caddy: "Try heaven, you've already moved most of the earth."
No. 8
Golfer: "Do you think my game is improving?"
Caddy: "Yes sir, you miss the ball much closer now."
No. 7
Golfer: "Do you think I can get there with a 5 iron?"
Caddy: "Eventually."
No. 6
Golfer: "You've got to be the worst caddy in the world."
Caddy: "I don't think so sir. That would be too much of a coincidence."
No. 5
Golfer: "Please stop checking your watch all the time. It's too much of a distraction."
Caddy: "It's not a watch. it's a compass."
No. 4
Golfer: "How do you like my game?"
Caddy: "Very good, sir, but personally, I prefer golf."
No. 3
Golfer: "Do you think it's a sin to play on Sunday?"
Caddy: "The way you play, sir, it's a sin to play on any day."
No. 2
Golfer: "This is the worst course I've ever played on."
Caddy: "This isn't the golf course. We left that an hour ago."
And the No. 1 best caddy comment:
Golfer: "That can't be my ball, it's too old."
Caddy: "It's been a long time since we teed off, sir."
HARRY POTTER
July 14, 2009
THRILLING TUESDAY!
WELL IT IS TUESDAY MORNING AND I AM READY FOR THIS DAY TO BE OVER SO I CAN TO BED. I AM SUPER TIRED TODAY. I AM SURE THIS AFTERNOON WILL DRAG BECAUSE I AM SO TIRED AND I DON'T HAVE MUCH WORK TO DO THIS AFTERNOON. IT IS TIME TO FIND WORK TO DO THIS AFTERNOON SO THAT I DON'T FALL ASLEEP IN MY CHAIR! I SHOULDN'T HAVE BOUGHT SUCH A COMFORTABLE CHAIR FOR WORK. NOW ALL I WANT TO DO IS SLEEP AND RELAX IN IT. OH WELL GUESS I JUST HAVE TO SIT UP AND TRY TO STAY AWAKE. SLEEPING ON THE JOB JUST WON'T WORK SINCE I ANSWER THE PHONES. I AM SURE SLEEPING WOULD GET ME YELLED AT AND GETTING YELLED AT WHEN WE ARE THIS SLOW ISN'T GOOD BECAUSE I CAN'T AFFORD TO LOSE MY JOB RIGHT NOW OR EVER FOR THAT MATTER.
LAST NIGHT ELINORE WAS OUTSIDE AND A CAT CAME INTO THE YARD THAT LOOKED SO MUCH LIKE MUSHIE THAT I HAD TO DO A DOUBLE TAKE. ANYWAYS ELINORE GOT AS BIG AS SHE COULD GET AND WENT TO ATTACK THE CAT BUT HE IS A MEAN TOM CAT AND SHE ALMOST GOT HURT! I WAS SO MAD AT THE OTHER CAT AND IT SHOWS THAT I CAN'T GET ANYMORE CATS CAUSE ELINORE WON'T ALLOW THEM TO COME IN HER WORLDS. I CAN'T BELIEVE HOW TERRITORIAL SHE HAS GOTTEN OVER THE LAST YEAR. I THINK SHE ONLY LET SYLVIA IN BECAUSE ELINORE WAS STILL YOUNG BUT NOW SHE WANTS NOTHING TO DO WITH OTHER CATS. SHE WILL GET IN A FIGHT WITH JUST ABOUT EVERY OTHER CAT THAT COMES IN THE YARD. THIS IS ONLY GOING TO TURN OUT BAD BECAUSE SHE IS GOING TO END UP HURT AND THAT IS GOING TO COST ME MONEY TO TAKE HER TO THE VET AND GET HER PATCHED UP. I HAVE DECIDED THAT AFTER THESE CATS ARE GONE I DONE WITH HAVING ANIMALS. THEY ARE TO EXPENSIVE.
JOSH MIGHT BE HERE TONIGHT BUT I AM NOT SURE YET. IT IS ALWAYS ONE OF THOSE THINGS THAT I WON'T PLAN ON CAUSE HALF THE TIME HE DOESN'T HAVE TIME TO STOP AND SEE ME. HE IS GOING TO TAKE TIME OFF THE WEEKEND OF THE 24TH WHICH WILL BE NICE BECAUSE HE WILL BE HERE FOR MY FAMILY REUNION AND I HAVE THE 24TH OFF. SO IF HE IS HERE ON FRIDAY IT IS ONE MORE DAY I WILL GET TO SPEND WITH HIM. WE WILL SEE WHEN IT MAKES INTO TOWN THOUGH. YOU NEVER KNOW WHEN HE WILL BE HERE. IT ISN'T HIM THOUGH IT IS HIS JOBS FAULT MOST OF THE TIME. HE TRIES TO GET HERE WHEN HE SAYS HE WILL BE BUT AT TIMES HIS JOB DOESN'T MAKE THAT POSSIBLE.
MISTI IS STRUGGLING AGAIN AND I WISH THAT I COULD HELP HER THROUGH THE PAIN BUT I CAN'T. IF I COULD TAKE IT FROM HER I WOULD. I HAVE STARTED TO WONDER WHY GOOD PEOPLE HAVE TO SUFFER SO MUCH AND PEOPLE THAT AREN'T GOOD NEVER SEEM TO SUFFER. I AM SURE THEY DO SUFFER FROM TIME TO TIME BUT MORE THAN NOT YOU ONLY SEE GOOD PEOPLE HURTING AND SUFFERING. I HAVE ALSO WONDER WHAT MAKES MEN SAY AND DO SOME OF THE THINGS THAT THEY DO TO HURT US. I KNOW WOMEN AREN'T PERFECT BUT WHY DO MEN HAVE TO MAKE US HURT SO MUCH AT TIMES. I ALSO HATE HOW THEY TURN THINGS ON US WHEN THEY ARE THE ONES THAT HAVE SCREWED UP. I GUESS MEN WILL ALWAYS KEEP US WONDERING ON WHAT GOES ON IN THEIR HEADS. ANYWAYS I JUST HOPE MISTI SEES THAT SHE IS BETTER OFF WITHOUT HIM ALWAYS PUTTING HER DOWN AND TREATING HER LIKE HE DID. I KNOW THAT IT DOESN'T MAKE THE PAIN GO AWAY OR EVEN LESSEN IT BUT IN TIME THE PAIN WILL GO AWAY AND YOU WILL WONDER WHY YOU STUCK AROUND AS LONG AS YOU DID. JUST KNOW I AM ALWAYS AROUND IF YOU NEED ME! DON'T BE AFRAID TO CALL OR TEXT ME!
LAST NIGHT ELINORE WAS OUTSIDE AND A CAT CAME INTO THE YARD THAT LOOKED SO MUCH LIKE MUSHIE THAT I HAD TO DO A DOUBLE TAKE. ANYWAYS ELINORE GOT AS BIG AS SHE COULD GET AND WENT TO ATTACK THE CAT BUT HE IS A MEAN TOM CAT AND SHE ALMOST GOT HURT! I WAS SO MAD AT THE OTHER CAT AND IT SHOWS THAT I CAN'T GET ANYMORE CATS CAUSE ELINORE WON'T ALLOW THEM TO COME IN HER WORLDS. I CAN'T BELIEVE HOW TERRITORIAL SHE HAS GOTTEN OVER THE LAST YEAR. I THINK SHE ONLY LET SYLVIA IN BECAUSE ELINORE WAS STILL YOUNG BUT NOW SHE WANTS NOTHING TO DO WITH OTHER CATS. SHE WILL GET IN A FIGHT WITH JUST ABOUT EVERY OTHER CAT THAT COMES IN THE YARD. THIS IS ONLY GOING TO TURN OUT BAD BECAUSE SHE IS GOING TO END UP HURT AND THAT IS GOING TO COST ME MONEY TO TAKE HER TO THE VET AND GET HER PATCHED UP. I HAVE DECIDED THAT AFTER THESE CATS ARE GONE I DONE WITH HAVING ANIMALS. THEY ARE TO EXPENSIVE.
JOSH MIGHT BE HERE TONIGHT BUT I AM NOT SURE YET. IT IS ALWAYS ONE OF THOSE THINGS THAT I WON'T PLAN ON CAUSE HALF THE TIME HE DOESN'T HAVE TIME TO STOP AND SEE ME. HE IS GOING TO TAKE TIME OFF THE WEEKEND OF THE 24TH WHICH WILL BE NICE BECAUSE HE WILL BE HERE FOR MY FAMILY REUNION AND I HAVE THE 24TH OFF. SO IF HE IS HERE ON FRIDAY IT IS ONE MORE DAY I WILL GET TO SPEND WITH HIM. WE WILL SEE WHEN IT MAKES INTO TOWN THOUGH. YOU NEVER KNOW WHEN HE WILL BE HERE. IT ISN'T HIM THOUGH IT IS HIS JOBS FAULT MOST OF THE TIME. HE TRIES TO GET HERE WHEN HE SAYS HE WILL BE BUT AT TIMES HIS JOB DOESN'T MAKE THAT POSSIBLE.
MISTI IS STRUGGLING AGAIN AND I WISH THAT I COULD HELP HER THROUGH THE PAIN BUT I CAN'T. IF I COULD TAKE IT FROM HER I WOULD. I HAVE STARTED TO WONDER WHY GOOD PEOPLE HAVE TO SUFFER SO MUCH AND PEOPLE THAT AREN'T GOOD NEVER SEEM TO SUFFER. I AM SURE THEY DO SUFFER FROM TIME TO TIME BUT MORE THAN NOT YOU ONLY SEE GOOD PEOPLE HURTING AND SUFFERING. I HAVE ALSO WONDER WHAT MAKES MEN SAY AND DO SOME OF THE THINGS THAT THEY DO TO HURT US. I KNOW WOMEN AREN'T PERFECT BUT WHY DO MEN HAVE TO MAKE US HURT SO MUCH AT TIMES. I ALSO HATE HOW THEY TURN THINGS ON US WHEN THEY ARE THE ONES THAT HAVE SCREWED UP. I GUESS MEN WILL ALWAYS KEEP US WONDERING ON WHAT GOES ON IN THEIR HEADS. ANYWAYS I JUST HOPE MISTI SEES THAT SHE IS BETTER OFF WITHOUT HIM ALWAYS PUTTING HER DOWN AND TREATING HER LIKE HE DID. I KNOW THAT IT DOESN'T MAKE THE PAIN GO AWAY OR EVEN LESSEN IT BUT IN TIME THE PAIN WILL GO AWAY AND YOU WILL WONDER WHY YOU STUCK AROUND AS LONG AS YOU DID. JUST KNOW I AM ALWAYS AROUND IF YOU NEED ME! DON'T BE AFRAID TO CALL OR TEXT ME!
July 13, 2009
MONDAY MADNESS
I AM JUST BARELY POSTING TODAY WHICH MEANS THAT TODAY HAS BEEN SUPER BUSY! I MEAN I AM ALWAYS POSTING AT LEAST BEFORE I GO TO LUNCH AND I AM JUST BARELY GETTING AROUND TO IT. SO LETS SEE WHAT HAVE I DONE TODAY: MAIL X2, BID LIST, ENTER IN PO'S X2, FOLDERS X2, INVENTORY, HAROLD'S FILING, MAILED INVOICES, GOT MAIL READY FOR TOMORROW, ROGERS O&M'S. THAT IS ALL I CAN THINK OF GUESS IT IS A LOT JUST DOESN'T SEEM LIKE THAT MUCH TO ME. GUESS I AM JUST MOVING SLOW TODAY. I CAN'T SEEM TO STAY MOTIVATED TO WORK TODAY. I AM SURE MOST OF IT IS BECAUSE THE TYSABRI IS ALL OUT OF MY SYSTEM. I CAN'T WAIT FOR FRIDAY SO THAT I CAN HAVE MY NEXT INFUSION AND BE GOOD TO GO FOR ANOTHER MONTH.
ELINORE HAS BEEN THROWING UP SO MUCH THIS WEEKEND. I AM NOT SURE WHAT IS GOING ON WITH HER ANYMORE. I KNOW THAT WHEN WE SCARE HER SHE THROWS UP BUT OTHER THAN THAT I AM NOT SURE WHY SHE IS DOING IT NOW. IT IS SURE GETTING OLD THOUGH. ALL I DID LAST NIGHT WAS CLEAN UP THROW UP FROM HER. SYLVIA IS STILL GROWING I SWEAR SHE GETS BIGGER EVERYDAY. I KNOW SHE CAN'T STILL BE GROWING BUT SHE SEEMS TO GET BIGGER AND MEANER ON A REGULAR BASIS. SHE IS THE PRETTIEST CAT I HAVE EVER HAD BUT SHE IS ALSO THE MEANEST ONE I HAVE EVER HAD. OH WELL CAN'T SEND HER BACK NOW. NOW I JUST HAVE TO DEAL WITH HER AND THE CHAOS THAT FOLLOWS HER.
ELINORE HAS BEEN THROWING UP SO MUCH THIS WEEKEND. I AM NOT SURE WHAT IS GOING ON WITH HER ANYMORE. I KNOW THAT WHEN WE SCARE HER SHE THROWS UP BUT OTHER THAN THAT I AM NOT SURE WHY SHE IS DOING IT NOW. IT IS SURE GETTING OLD THOUGH. ALL I DID LAST NIGHT WAS CLEAN UP THROW UP FROM HER. SYLVIA IS STILL GROWING I SWEAR SHE GETS BIGGER EVERYDAY. I KNOW SHE CAN'T STILL BE GROWING BUT SHE SEEMS TO GET BIGGER AND MEANER ON A REGULAR BASIS. SHE IS THE PRETTIEST CAT I HAVE EVER HAD BUT SHE IS ALSO THE MEANEST ONE I HAVE EVER HAD. OH WELL CAN'T SEND HER BACK NOW. NOW I JUST HAVE TO DEAL WITH HER AND THE CHAOS THAT FOLLOWS HER.
July 12, 2009
FACE BOOK QUIZ
Harry Potter
You are the leading character. Okay, not really, but it turns out that you and Harry match up personality wise. You are bold and fearless and probably put your friends before yourself. You are loyal and would do anything to protect them from harm. Like any person though, you get your mood swings and bad days. People count on you and sometimes you want a break.
GOTTA LOVE THAT I AM THE MAIN CHARACTER!!!!
You are the leading character. Okay, not really, but it turns out that you and Harry match up personality wise. You are bold and fearless and probably put your friends before yourself. You are loyal and would do anything to protect them from harm. Like any person though, you get your mood swings and bad days. People count on you and sometimes you want a break.
GOTTA LOVE THAT I AM THE MAIN CHARACTER!!!!
WEEKEND FUN
THIS WEEKEND WAS LAID BACK FOR ME BECAUSE I WAS IN TONS OF PAIN. I AM NOT SURE WHY I HURT BUT IT SEEMED LIKE IT WAS ALL I COULD DO TO WALK AROUND. I MEAN YES I DID GO SHOPPING ON SATURDAY LIKE I ALWAYS DO BUT IT WASN'T FUN FOR ME AT ALL. IT IS EVEN WORSE BECAUSE I DON'T HAVE ANYTHING TO TAKE FOR THE PAIN. OH WELL GUESS IN TIME IT WILL BE OK.
FRIDAY IS MY NEXT INFUSION. I AM SO NOT LOOKING FORWARD TO HAVING THIS ONE. THE LAST ONE SUCKED AND I AM SURE THIS ONE WILL SUCK AS WELL. I AM MAKING GRANDMA TAKE ME TO THIS ONE SO THAT I CAN TAKE THE MEDICATIONS THAT I NEED TO AND I WON'T HAVE TO WORRY ABOUT DRIVING AFTER IT.
NOT MUCH TO SAY THIS TIME. I WILL TYPE MORE TOMORROW AT WORK! EVEN THOUGH I SHOULD WORK WHEN I AM AT WORK. I WOULD RATHER TYPE MY BLOG AND PLAY ON FACEBOOK!
HAVE A GREAT NIGHT!
FRIDAY IS MY NEXT INFUSION. I AM SO NOT LOOKING FORWARD TO HAVING THIS ONE. THE LAST ONE SUCKED AND I AM SURE THIS ONE WILL SUCK AS WELL. I AM MAKING GRANDMA TAKE ME TO THIS ONE SO THAT I CAN TAKE THE MEDICATIONS THAT I NEED TO AND I WON'T HAVE TO WORRY ABOUT DRIVING AFTER IT.
NOT MUCH TO SAY THIS TIME. I WILL TYPE MORE TOMORROW AT WORK! EVEN THOUGH I SHOULD WORK WHEN I AM AT WORK. I WOULD RATHER TYPE MY BLOG AND PLAY ON FACEBOOK!
HAVE A GREAT NIGHT!
.jpg)
July 10, 2009
PICTURE OF THE DAY
July 9, 2009
LETTER TO MY HUSBAND
DEAR JOSH,
I WANTED TO WRITE YOU A LITTLE LETTER AND LET YOU KNOW HOW I FEEL AND WHERE I WOULD LIKE THIS MARRIAGE TO GO. FIRST AND FOR MOST I WANT YOU TO KNOW THAT I DO LOVE YOU AND HAVE MISSED YOU THE LAST 7 MONTHS THAT WE HAVE BEEN APART. I WISH YOU COULD HAVE SEEN ME WHEN I WAS ON BOTH THE MEDICATIONS. I WAS A COMPLETELY DIFFERENT PERSON AND TEN TIMES EASIER TO GET ALONG WITH. I AM HOPING WHEN I SEE THE DOCTOR AGAIN THAT I CAN BE THE PERSON THAT I WAS WHEN I WAS ON THEM. I KNOW HOW HARD IT IS TO GET ALONG WITH ME AND I AM WORKING ON THAT! I HOPE THAT WE CAN MAKE THIS MARRIAGE WORK. I KNOW WE WILL BE FIGHTING AN UP HILL BATTLE BUT IF YOU WANT THIS TO WORK LIKE I DO IT WILL WORK. I AM NOT SAYING THAT THINGS WILL EVER BE EASY BUT WITH TIME AND PATIENCE FROM BOTH OF US THERE IS NO REASON THAT IT CAN'T WORK! I ALSO HOPE THAT YOU CAN AND WILL BE HONEST WITH ME ABOUT LITTLE THINGS LIKE SMOKING. I AM GOING TO GIVE YOU THE TRUST AND I JUST HOPE FROM NOW ON EVEN SOMETHING WILL MAKE ME MAD OR UPSET THAT YOU WILL STILL TELL ME. IF YOU CAN'T BE HONEST WITH ME THEN WE BOTH ARE WASTING OUR TIME TRYING TO MAKE THIS WORK. I AM BEING HONEST WITH YOU LIKE I ALWAYS HAVE BEEN AND I HOPE THAT I CAN GET IT IN RETURN!
I JUST HOPE THAT YOU CAN BARE WITH ME FOR AWHILE TIL THINGS GET LEVELED OUT AGAIN AND IF YOU CAN DO THAT WE WON'T HAVE AS MANY PROBLEMS.
LOVE YOU TONS
MARGARET
I WANTED TO WRITE YOU A LITTLE LETTER AND LET YOU KNOW HOW I FEEL AND WHERE I WOULD LIKE THIS MARRIAGE TO GO. FIRST AND FOR MOST I WANT YOU TO KNOW THAT I DO LOVE YOU AND HAVE MISSED YOU THE LAST 7 MONTHS THAT WE HAVE BEEN APART. I WISH YOU COULD HAVE SEEN ME WHEN I WAS ON BOTH THE MEDICATIONS. I WAS A COMPLETELY DIFFERENT PERSON AND TEN TIMES EASIER TO GET ALONG WITH. I AM HOPING WHEN I SEE THE DOCTOR AGAIN THAT I CAN BE THE PERSON THAT I WAS WHEN I WAS ON THEM. I KNOW HOW HARD IT IS TO GET ALONG WITH ME AND I AM WORKING ON THAT! I HOPE THAT WE CAN MAKE THIS MARRIAGE WORK. I KNOW WE WILL BE FIGHTING AN UP HILL BATTLE BUT IF YOU WANT THIS TO WORK LIKE I DO IT WILL WORK. I AM NOT SAYING THAT THINGS WILL EVER BE EASY BUT WITH TIME AND PATIENCE FROM BOTH OF US THERE IS NO REASON THAT IT CAN'T WORK! I ALSO HOPE THAT YOU CAN AND WILL BE HONEST WITH ME ABOUT LITTLE THINGS LIKE SMOKING. I AM GOING TO GIVE YOU THE TRUST AND I JUST HOPE FROM NOW ON EVEN SOMETHING WILL MAKE ME MAD OR UPSET THAT YOU WILL STILL TELL ME. IF YOU CAN'T BE HONEST WITH ME THEN WE BOTH ARE WASTING OUR TIME TRYING TO MAKE THIS WORK. I AM BEING HONEST WITH YOU LIKE I ALWAYS HAVE BEEN AND I HOPE THAT I CAN GET IT IN RETURN!
I JUST HOPE THAT YOU CAN BARE WITH ME FOR AWHILE TIL THINGS GET LEVELED OUT AGAIN AND IF YOU CAN DO THAT WE WON'T HAVE AS MANY PROBLEMS.
LOVE YOU TONS
MARGARET
PICTURE OF THE DAY
July 8, 2009
ANOTHER YEAR DOWN
WELL I AM SO SUPER GLAD THAT YESTERDAY IS OVER. I AM SO GLAD THAT I HAVE ANOTHER WHOLE YEAR UNTIL I HAVE TO GO THROUGH IT ALL AGAIN. THANK GOD PEOPLE ONLY HAVE BIRTHDAYS ONCE A YEAR! I COULDN'T TAKE IT IF SHE HAD A BIRTHDAY MORE THAN ONCE A YEAR. IT WOULD JUST BE TO MUCH TO HANDLE FOR ME! A LOT OF THINGS THOUGH COULD BE TOO MUCH FOR ME TO HANDLE AND AT TIMES SOME THINGS ARE TOO MUCH FOR ME TO HANDLE. IT SEEMS LIKE I AM BACK TO THE OLD ME SINCE I AM NOT ON ANY MEDICATION TO HELP CONTROL MY CRAZY BRAIN. I HOPE WHEN I GO BACK TO THE DOCTOR ON THE 28TH OF THIS MONTH THAT SHE WILL BE ABLE TO PUT ME ON SOMETHING THAT WON'T MAKE ME GAIN WEIGHT LIKE THE OTHER ONES DID. ALL I CAN DO IS AT THIS POINT IS TRY MY BEST TO KEEP THINGS UNDER CONTROL BUT WHEN I DO THAT I AM QUIET AND THAT UPSETS PEOPLE AS WELL. AT TIMES I AM LIKE WHAT IN HELL DO YOU WANT FROM ME. I GET YELLED AT NO MATTER WHAT I DO IT SEEMS. I AM ALWAYS MAKING PEOPLE MAD OR HURTING THEM IT SEEMS. OH WELL I GUESS IF PEOPLE DON'T LIKE HOW I AM THEY KNOW WHERE THE DOOR IS AT!
I AM CONSIDERING GETTING RID OF ONE OF THE CUBS :( . IT MAKES ME SAD TO THINK ABOUT IT BUT I AM HAVING A HARD TIME BUYING FOOD FOR THEM AND WHAT NOT. SO I HAVE TO DO THE ADULT THING AND TRY AND FIND A GOOD HOME FOR ONE OF THEM OR MAYBE EVEN BOTH OF THEM IF SOMEONE WANTS TWO CATS. IT WOULD BE BETTER FOR THEM TO GO TOGETHER BUT I KNOW MOST PEOPLE DON'T WANT TO CATS. HELL ONE OF MINE IS ENOUGH WORK LET ALONE BOTH OF THEM. SO I WILL HAVE TO WAIT AND SEE WHAT HAPPENS IN THE NEXT COUPLE OF WEEKS AND/OR MONTHS. I HOPE I CAN FIGURE OUT A WAY TO KEEP THEM BUT YOU NEVER KNOW WITH THE ECONOMY AND WHAT NOT. THE MORE DOCTOR BILLS THAT I GET MEANS LESS MONEY THAT I HAVE TO BUY THEM FOOD. I HAVEN'T EVEN GROOMED THEM IN OVER 6 MONTHS WHICH IS NOT LIKE ME AT ALL. THEY USED TO GO EVER TWO MONTHS LIKE CLOCK WORK BUT THAT WAS ONE OF THE FIRST THINGS TO GO WHEN MONEY GOT TIGHT.
I KNOW THAT I COULD ASK JOSH FOR HELP BUT I FEEL BAD BECAUSE HE NEVER WANTED ME TO GET THE CATS IN THE FIRST PLACE. SO WHY SHOULD HE HAVE TO HELP WHEN HE NEVER EVEN WANTED THEM. JOSH AND I ARE GETTING ALONG PRETTY WELL BUT I AM ALMOST WAITING FOR THE BALL TO DROP AND FOR HIM TO GO BACK TO HOW HE USED TO BE AND WHAT NOT. I GUESS ALL HE CAN DO IS PROVE TO ME THAT THINGS WILL BE DIFFERENT THIS TIME. LIKE I TOLD HIM THIS IS HIS LAST CHANCE IF THINGS DON'T CHANGE THEN I AM DONE AND I WON'T LOOK BACK THIS TIME. I WON'T STAY IN A RELATIONSHIP WHERE I AM THE ONLY ONE WORKING FOR IT. IF HE WANTS IT TO WORK HE HAS TO PUT AS MUCH EFFORT INTO AS I AM PUTTING INTO IT.
WORK IS GETTING REALLY SLOW AND THAT IS EXTRA SCARY FOR ME! MY JOB WILL BE THE FIRST TO GO IS THINGS DON'T PICK UP. I DON'T KNOW WHAT I WOULD DO IF I LOST MY JOB. I WOULD BE SCREWED THAT IS FOR SURE. ALL I CAN DO IS HOPE THAT IT DOESN'T HAPPEN AND THAT PAUL WILL KEEP ME AROUND EVEN THOUGH IT IS SO SLOW. BUT I ALSO KNOW IF HE DOES DOWN SIZE THAT MY JOB WILL BE THE FIRST TO GO. I GUESS IF THAT HAPPENS THEN JOSH WILL HAVE TO STEP UP AND HELP ME OUT. I KNOW HE WOULD KNOW IF I ASKED I JUST DON'T LIKE TO ASK FOR HELP. PEOPLE THAT KNOW ME KNOW THAT I HATE ASKING FOR HELP. I WOULD RATHER SIT AROUND BROKE THEN ASK FOR MONEY. THAT IS ONE THING I AM TOO STUBBORN ABOUT AT TIMES. I HAVE ALWAYS BEEN THAT WAY THOUGH BUT I HAVE ALSO NEVER BEEN BROKE. I KNOW JOSH FEELS BAD BECAUSE WHEN I MET HIM I HAD A LOT OF SAVINGS AND NOW I DON'T HAVE ANY, BUT I WANT HIM TO KNOW THAT HE DIDN'T MAKE ME USE IT. I USED IT BECAUSE I DIDN'T WANNA MOVE HOME AGAIN SO I WAS DOING EVERYTHING I COULD TO KEEP FROM HAVING TO MOVE. I THINK JOSH AND I ARE GOING TO LOOK INTO LOW INCOME HOUSING BECAUSE I AM SURE WE QUALIFY FOR IT. I WOULD LOVE TO GET OUT OF THE HOUSE AND NOT HAVE TO DEAL WITH THE DRAMA THAT IS THERE. I KNOW THIS MAY NOT HAPPEN FOR AWHILE BUT I HOPE IT HAPPENS SOONER THAN LATER.
I WANT MISTI TO KNOW THAT I WISH HER ALL BEST AND I HOPE RON CAN AND WILL CHANGE! I KNOW IT IS HARD RIGHT NOW BUT IF HE DOES CHANGE I KNOW HOW HAPPY SHE WILL BE. I JUST HOPE THAT YOU DON'T STAY WITH HIM BECAUSE HE KEEPS SAYING HE WILL CHANGE. IF HE IS CHANGING SLOW THEN YES I WOULD STAY WITH HIM BUT YOU KNOW THAT HE MAY NEVER CHANGE AND TREAT YOU HOW YOU DESERVE TO BE TREATED. LIKE YOU DO WITH ME I WILL ALWAYS SUPPORT YOU AND WHATEVER YOU DO! I DO MISS TALKING TO YOU BUT I KNOW YOU ARE BUSY WITH YOUR LIFE AND I AM OK SITTING ON THE BACK BURNER BECAUSE YOU NEED TO TRY AND FIX THINGS WITH RON! SO NO WORRIES JUST KNOW I AM ALWAYS HERE IF YOU NEED ME NO MATTER THE TIME OR WHERE YOU ARE AT! (I MEAN I STILL MAYBE BE BITCHY IF I HAVE TO DRIVE TO WENDOVER TO COME AND GET YOU BUT I WILL COME AND GET YOU IF YOU NEED ME TOO!) KEEP YOUR HEAD AND KNOW THAT I ALWAYS THINK ABOUT YOU AND WISH YOU THE BEST IN LIFE!!!!
WELL THIS IS ANOTHER RAMBLING POST! SO I BETTER STOP OR I WILL TYPE ALL DAY LONG!
I AM CONSIDERING GETTING RID OF ONE OF THE CUBS :( . IT MAKES ME SAD TO THINK ABOUT IT BUT I AM HAVING A HARD TIME BUYING FOOD FOR THEM AND WHAT NOT. SO I HAVE TO DO THE ADULT THING AND TRY AND FIND A GOOD HOME FOR ONE OF THEM OR MAYBE EVEN BOTH OF THEM IF SOMEONE WANTS TWO CATS. IT WOULD BE BETTER FOR THEM TO GO TOGETHER BUT I KNOW MOST PEOPLE DON'T WANT TO CATS. HELL ONE OF MINE IS ENOUGH WORK LET ALONE BOTH OF THEM. SO I WILL HAVE TO WAIT AND SEE WHAT HAPPENS IN THE NEXT COUPLE OF WEEKS AND/OR MONTHS. I HOPE I CAN FIGURE OUT A WAY TO KEEP THEM BUT YOU NEVER KNOW WITH THE ECONOMY AND WHAT NOT. THE MORE DOCTOR BILLS THAT I GET MEANS LESS MONEY THAT I HAVE TO BUY THEM FOOD. I HAVEN'T EVEN GROOMED THEM IN OVER 6 MONTHS WHICH IS NOT LIKE ME AT ALL. THEY USED TO GO EVER TWO MONTHS LIKE CLOCK WORK BUT THAT WAS ONE OF THE FIRST THINGS TO GO WHEN MONEY GOT TIGHT.
I KNOW THAT I COULD ASK JOSH FOR HELP BUT I FEEL BAD BECAUSE HE NEVER WANTED ME TO GET THE CATS IN THE FIRST PLACE. SO WHY SHOULD HE HAVE TO HELP WHEN HE NEVER EVEN WANTED THEM. JOSH AND I ARE GETTING ALONG PRETTY WELL BUT I AM ALMOST WAITING FOR THE BALL TO DROP AND FOR HIM TO GO BACK TO HOW HE USED TO BE AND WHAT NOT. I GUESS ALL HE CAN DO IS PROVE TO ME THAT THINGS WILL BE DIFFERENT THIS TIME. LIKE I TOLD HIM THIS IS HIS LAST CHANCE IF THINGS DON'T CHANGE THEN I AM DONE AND I WON'T LOOK BACK THIS TIME. I WON'T STAY IN A RELATIONSHIP WHERE I AM THE ONLY ONE WORKING FOR IT. IF HE WANTS IT TO WORK HE HAS TO PUT AS MUCH EFFORT INTO AS I AM PUTTING INTO IT.
WORK IS GETTING REALLY SLOW AND THAT IS EXTRA SCARY FOR ME! MY JOB WILL BE THE FIRST TO GO IS THINGS DON'T PICK UP. I DON'T KNOW WHAT I WOULD DO IF I LOST MY JOB. I WOULD BE SCREWED THAT IS FOR SURE. ALL I CAN DO IS HOPE THAT IT DOESN'T HAPPEN AND THAT PAUL WILL KEEP ME AROUND EVEN THOUGH IT IS SO SLOW. BUT I ALSO KNOW IF HE DOES DOWN SIZE THAT MY JOB WILL BE THE FIRST TO GO. I GUESS IF THAT HAPPENS THEN JOSH WILL HAVE TO STEP UP AND HELP ME OUT. I KNOW HE WOULD KNOW IF I ASKED I JUST DON'T LIKE TO ASK FOR HELP. PEOPLE THAT KNOW ME KNOW THAT I HATE ASKING FOR HELP. I WOULD RATHER SIT AROUND BROKE THEN ASK FOR MONEY. THAT IS ONE THING I AM TOO STUBBORN ABOUT AT TIMES. I HAVE ALWAYS BEEN THAT WAY THOUGH BUT I HAVE ALSO NEVER BEEN BROKE. I KNOW JOSH FEELS BAD BECAUSE WHEN I MET HIM I HAD A LOT OF SAVINGS AND NOW I DON'T HAVE ANY, BUT I WANT HIM TO KNOW THAT HE DIDN'T MAKE ME USE IT. I USED IT BECAUSE I DIDN'T WANNA MOVE HOME AGAIN SO I WAS DOING EVERYTHING I COULD TO KEEP FROM HAVING TO MOVE. I THINK JOSH AND I ARE GOING TO LOOK INTO LOW INCOME HOUSING BECAUSE I AM SURE WE QUALIFY FOR IT. I WOULD LOVE TO GET OUT OF THE HOUSE AND NOT HAVE TO DEAL WITH THE DRAMA THAT IS THERE. I KNOW THIS MAY NOT HAPPEN FOR AWHILE BUT I HOPE IT HAPPENS SOONER THAN LATER.
I WANT MISTI TO KNOW THAT I WISH HER ALL BEST AND I HOPE RON CAN AND WILL CHANGE! I KNOW IT IS HARD RIGHT NOW BUT IF HE DOES CHANGE I KNOW HOW HAPPY SHE WILL BE. I JUST HOPE THAT YOU DON'T STAY WITH HIM BECAUSE HE KEEPS SAYING HE WILL CHANGE. IF HE IS CHANGING SLOW THEN YES I WOULD STAY WITH HIM BUT YOU KNOW THAT HE MAY NEVER CHANGE AND TREAT YOU HOW YOU DESERVE TO BE TREATED. LIKE YOU DO WITH ME I WILL ALWAYS SUPPORT YOU AND WHATEVER YOU DO! I DO MISS TALKING TO YOU BUT I KNOW YOU ARE BUSY WITH YOUR LIFE AND I AM OK SITTING ON THE BACK BURNER BECAUSE YOU NEED TO TRY AND FIX THINGS WITH RON! SO NO WORRIES JUST KNOW I AM ALWAYS HERE IF YOU NEED ME NO MATTER THE TIME OR WHERE YOU ARE AT! (I MEAN I STILL MAYBE BE BITCHY IF I HAVE TO DRIVE TO WENDOVER TO COME AND GET YOU BUT I WILL COME AND GET YOU IF YOU NEED ME TOO!) KEEP YOUR HEAD AND KNOW THAT I ALWAYS THINK ABOUT YOU AND WISH YOU THE BEST IN LIFE!!!!
WELL THIS IS ANOTHER RAMBLING POST! SO I BETTER STOP OR I WILL TYPE ALL DAY LONG!
STUPID PEOPLE!!!
Animal lover steps up to rescue 6 ducklings
Ogden woman had sought help everywhere she could think of — to no avail
By Michael R. McFall
Deseret News
Published: Wednesday, July 8, 2009 1:10 a.m. MDT
OGDEN — When no one official would step in to rescue six stranded ducklings, Monica Robinson answered the call herself.
The Ogden resident noticed a mother duck and one offspring circling the street outside her house. She walked outside to see why the bird was so distressed and found six ducklings trapped in a storm drain outside her home Sunday morning. And if it weren't for the determined animal lover, the babies wouldn't have been reunited with their mother.
"I called the city, but everyone said they weren't going to drop everything for some ducks," Robinson said.
Her property manager told her the storm drain grate was welded shut and that she was not about to foot the bill to remove it for a few little ducks. But she did recommend Robinson contact a Utah wildlife management employee who lived around the corner.
So she sought out his help, but she said he told her the chances of the baby ducks surviving to adulthood were slim anyway and to just let them go.
"But I gave him that look that said, 'No, that is not going to happen,' " Robinson said.
She then called Critter Control for professional intervention. The company wanted to charge $95 for a residential visit, even though the animals weren't her pets. She said, "No, thanks."
The Ogden City Animal Shelter gets calls about ducks in storm drains all of the time, especially during the freak rainstorms this summer, said spokeswoman Casy Beesly. But she acknowledged that there are policy differences between domestic animals and wildlife. Puppies and kittens are a higher priority.
"We're short-staffed," Beesly said.
The Utah Division of Wildlife also said ducks in storm drains are lower on their to-do list, said Phil Douglas, the division's northern region wildlife outreach coordinator.
"I'm just frustrated that no one wanted to help," Robinson said.
With no one left to turn to, Robinson straightened out a wire hanger, hung a net of fabric on the end and tried to scoop out the ducklings. It didn't work. So in a last-ditch effort, she called her mother, Jana Petersen, who also lives in Ogden. The two of them decided to try to lift the storm drain's grate. It turns out it wasn't welded shut after all.
Robinson crawled into the drain, scooped up the ducklings and kept them in a cardboard box in her backyard until the mother duck returned to fetch her wayward brood.
Ogden woman had sought help everywhere she could think of — to no avail
By Michael R. McFall
Deseret News
Published: Wednesday, July 8, 2009 1:10 a.m. MDT
OGDEN — When no one official would step in to rescue six stranded ducklings, Monica Robinson answered the call herself.
The Ogden resident noticed a mother duck and one offspring circling the street outside her house. She walked outside to see why the bird was so distressed and found six ducklings trapped in a storm drain outside her home Sunday morning. And if it weren't for the determined animal lover, the babies wouldn't have been reunited with their mother.
"I called the city, but everyone said they weren't going to drop everything for some ducks," Robinson said.
Her property manager told her the storm drain grate was welded shut and that she was not about to foot the bill to remove it for a few little ducks. But she did recommend Robinson contact a Utah wildlife management employee who lived around the corner.
So she sought out his help, but she said he told her the chances of the baby ducks surviving to adulthood were slim anyway and to just let them go.
"But I gave him that look that said, 'No, that is not going to happen,' " Robinson said.
She then called Critter Control for professional intervention. The company wanted to charge $95 for a residential visit, even though the animals weren't her pets. She said, "No, thanks."
The Ogden City Animal Shelter gets calls about ducks in storm drains all of the time, especially during the freak rainstorms this summer, said spokeswoman Casy Beesly. But she acknowledged that there are policy differences between domestic animals and wildlife. Puppies and kittens are a higher priority.
"We're short-staffed," Beesly said.
The Utah Division of Wildlife also said ducks in storm drains are lower on their to-do list, said Phil Douglas, the division's northern region wildlife outreach coordinator.
"I'm just frustrated that no one wanted to help," Robinson said.
With no one left to turn to, Robinson straightened out a wire hanger, hung a net of fabric on the end and tried to scoop out the ducklings. It didn't work. So in a last-ditch effort, she called her mother, Jana Petersen, who also lives in Ogden. The two of them decided to try to lift the storm drain's grate. It turns out it wasn't welded shut after all.
Robinson crawled into the drain, scooped up the ducklings and kept them in a cardboard box in her backyard until the mother duck returned to fetch her wayward brood.
PICTURE OF THE DAY
THIS PICTURE MAKES ME SAD. IT MAKES YOU WONDER WHY PEOPLE DON'T SHOW MORE RESPECT FOR THE GUYS THAT ARE OVER THERE. YOU MAY NOT AGREE WITH THE WAR BUT YOU CAN STILL SUPPORT THE TROOPS! THEY ARE THERE BECAUSE THEY ARE TOLD TO BE AND MOST OF THEM DON'T SUPPORT THE WAR EITHER BUT IT IS THERE JOB. SO THEY DO IT WITHOUT COMPLAINING!
YOU NEED TO READ THIS
Why are We Bankrupt?
Maybe it is time to start a war on the IDIOTS IN WASHINGTON. If they want their votes, then I think we should have some designation at the polls for every incumbent that is running for office so we can vote them out.
WHY ARE WE BANKRUPT?
You think the war in Iraq is costing us too much? Read this: Boy, was I confused. I have been hammered with the propaganda that it is the Iraq war and the war on terror that is bankrupting us. I now find that to be RIDICULOUS. I hope the following 14 reasons are forwarded over and over again until they are read so many times that the reader gets sick of reading them. I also have included the URL's for verification of all the following facts.
1. $11 to $22 billion is spent on welfare to illegal aliens each year by state governments. Verify at: http://tinyurl.com/zob77
2. $2.2 Billion dollars a year is spent on food assistance programs such as food stamps, WIC, and free school lunches for illegal aliens. Verify at: http://www.cis.org/articles/2004/fiscalexec.HTML
3. $2.5 Billion dollars a year is spent on Medicaid for illegal aliens. Verify at: http://www.cis.org/articles/2004/fiscalexec.HTML
4. $12 Billion dollars a year is spent on primary and secondary school education for children here illegally and they cannot speak a word of English! Verify at: http://transcripts.CNN.com/TRANSCRIPTS/0604/01/ldt.0.HTML
5. $17 Billion dollars a year is spent for education for the American-born children of illegal aliens, known as anchor babies. Verify at http://transcripts.CNN.com/TRANSCRIPTS/0604/01/ldt.01.HTML
6. $3 Million Dollars a DAY is spent to incarcerate illegal aliens. Verify at: http://transcripts.cnn.com/%20T RANSCRIPTS/0604/01/ldt.01..HTML
7. 30% percent of all Federal Prison inmates are illegal aliens. Verify at: http://transcripts.CNN.com/TRANSCRIPTS/0604/01/ldt.01.HTML
8. $90 Billion Dollars a year is spent on illegal aliens for Welfare & social services by the American taxpayers. Verify at: http://premium.CNN.com/TRANSCIPTS/0610/29/ldt..01.HTML
9. $200 Billion dollars a year in suppressed American wages are caused by the illegal aliens. Verify at: http://transcripts.cnn.com/TRANSC%20RI%20PTS/0604/01/ldt.01.HTML
10. The illegal aliens in the United States have a crime rate that's two and a half times that of non-illegal aliens. In particular, their children, are going to make a huge additional crime problem in the US . Verify at: http://transcripts.CNN.com/TRANSCRIPTS/0606/12/ldt.01.HTML
11. During the year of 2005 there were 4 to 10 MILLION illegal aliens that crossed our Southern Border also, as many as 19,500 illegal aliens from Terrorist Countries. Millions of pounds of drugs, cocaine, meth, heroin and marijuana, crossed into the U.S. from the Southern border. Verify at: Homeland Security Report: http://tinyurl..com/t9sht
12. The National policy Institute, estimated that the total cost of mass deportation would be between $206 - $230 billion or an average cost of between $41 - $46 billion annually over a five year period.' Verify at: http://www.nationalpolicyinstitute.org/PDF/deportation.PDF
13. In 2006 illegal aliens sent home $45 BILLION in remittances to their countries of origin. Verify at: http://www.rense.com/general75/niht.htm
14. 'The Dark Side of Illegal Immigration: Nearly 1 million sex crimes Committed by Illegal aliens In The United States .' Verify at: http: // www.drdsk.com/articleshtml <http://ww w.drdsk.c/articleshtml>
The total cost is a whopping $ 338.3 BILLION DOLLARS A YEAR.....
AND IF YOU'RE LIKE ME HAVING TROUBLE UNDERSTANDING THIS AMOUNT OF MONEY; IT IS $338,300,000,000.00 WHICH WOULD BE ENOUGH TO FULLY STIMULATE THE ECONOMY OF ALL THE CITIZENS OF THIS COUNTRY. Are we THAT stupid? YES WE ARE.....FOR LETTING THOSE IN THE U.S. CONGRESS GET AWAY WITH LETTING THIS HAPPEN YEAR AFTER YEAR!!!!!
If this doesn't bother you then just delete the message. If, on the other hand, it does raise the hair on the back of your neck, I hope you forward it to every legal resident in the country including every elected representative in Washington, D.C. - five times a week for as long as it takes to restore some semblance of intelligence in our policies and enforcement thereof.
Maybe it is time to start a war on the IDIOTS IN WASHINGTON. If they want their votes, then I think we should have some designation at the polls for every incumbent that is running for office so we can vote them out.
WHY ARE WE BANKRUPT?
You think the war in Iraq is costing us too much? Read this: Boy, was I confused. I have been hammered with the propaganda that it is the Iraq war and the war on terror that is bankrupting us. I now find that to be RIDICULOUS. I hope the following 14 reasons are forwarded over and over again until they are read so many times that the reader gets sick of reading them. I also have included the URL's for verification of all the following facts.
1. $11 to $22 billion is spent on welfare to illegal aliens each year by state governments. Verify at: http://tinyurl.com/zob77
2. $2.2 Billion dollars a year is spent on food assistance programs such as food stamps, WIC, and free school lunches for illegal aliens. Verify at: http://www.cis.org/articles/2004/fiscalexec.HTML
3. $2.5 Billion dollars a year is spent on Medicaid for illegal aliens. Verify at: http://www.cis.org/articles/2004/fiscalexec.HTML
4. $12 Billion dollars a year is spent on primary and secondary school education for children here illegally and they cannot speak a word of English! Verify at: http://transcripts.CNN.com/TRANSCRIPTS/0604/01/ldt.0.HTML
5. $17 Billion dollars a year is spent for education for the American-born children of illegal aliens, known as anchor babies. Verify at http://transcripts.CNN.com/TRANSCRIPTS/0604/01/ldt.01.HTML
6. $3 Million Dollars a DAY is spent to incarcerate illegal aliens. Verify at: http://transcripts.cnn.com/%20T RANSCRIPTS/0604/01/ldt.01..HTML
7. 30% percent of all Federal Prison inmates are illegal aliens. Verify at: http://transcripts.CNN.com/TRANSCRIPTS/0604/01/ldt.01.HTML
8. $90 Billion Dollars a year is spent on illegal aliens for Welfare & social services by the American taxpayers. Verify at: http://premium.CNN.com/TRANSCIPTS/0610/29/ldt..01.HTML
9. $200 Billion dollars a year in suppressed American wages are caused by the illegal aliens. Verify at: http://transcripts.cnn.com/TRANSC%20RI%20PTS/0604/01/ldt.01.HTML
10. The illegal aliens in the United States have a crime rate that's two and a half times that of non-illegal aliens. In particular, their children, are going to make a huge additional crime problem in the US . Verify at: http://transcripts.CNN.com/TRANSCRIPTS/0606/12/ldt.01.HTML
11. During the year of 2005 there were 4 to 10 MILLION illegal aliens that crossed our Southern Border also, as many as 19,500 illegal aliens from Terrorist Countries. Millions of pounds of drugs, cocaine, meth, heroin and marijuana, crossed into the U.S. from the Southern border. Verify at: Homeland Security Report: http://tinyurl..com/t9sht
12. The National policy Institute, estimated that the total cost of mass deportation would be between $206 - $230 billion or an average cost of between $41 - $46 billion annually over a five year period.' Verify at: http://www.nationalpolicyinstitute.org/PDF/deportation.PDF
13. In 2006 illegal aliens sent home $45 BILLION in remittances to their countries of origin. Verify at: http://www.rense.com/general75/niht.htm
14. 'The Dark Side of Illegal Immigration: Nearly 1 million sex crimes Committed by Illegal aliens In The United States .' Verify at: http: // www.drdsk.com/articleshtml <http://ww w.drdsk.c/articleshtml>
The total cost is a whopping $ 338.3 BILLION DOLLARS A YEAR.....
AND IF YOU'RE LIKE ME HAVING TROUBLE UNDERSTANDING THIS AMOUNT OF MONEY; IT IS $338,300,000,000.00 WHICH WOULD BE ENOUGH TO FULLY STIMULATE THE ECONOMY OF ALL THE CITIZENS OF THIS COUNTRY. Are we THAT stupid? YES WE ARE.....FOR LETTING THOSE IN THE U.S. CONGRESS GET AWAY WITH LETTING THIS HAPPEN YEAR AFTER YEAR!!!!!
If this doesn't bother you then just delete the message. If, on the other hand, it does raise the hair on the back of your neck, I hope you forward it to every legal resident in the country including every elected representative in Washington, D.C. - five times a week for as long as it takes to restore some semblance of intelligence in our policies and enforcement thereof.
July 7, 2009
A REFLECTION ON THE LAST FOUR YEARS
IT IS HARD TO BELIEVE THAT IT HAS BEEN FOUR YEARS TODAY SINCE MY LIFE CHANGED! IT IS ALSO HARD TO BELIEVE THAT SUCH LITTLE DECISION HAVE SUCH A GREAT IMPACT ON LIFE. I NEVER THOUGHT THAT SUCH A LITTLE DECISION WOULD HAVE AFFECT MY LIFE SO GREATLY. IF YOU COULD ONLY SEE THE CONSEQUENCE'S BEFORE YOU MAKE THE DECISION. IF I HAD KNOW WHAT I KNOW TODAY I NEVER WOULD HAVE DONE WHAT I DID. BUT THEN AGAIN THERE ARE PARTS OF IT THAT I WOULD HAVE DONE AGAIN BECAUSE I KNOW BRITA HAD TO BROUGHT TO EARTH AND GIVEN TO HER FAMILY. IT IS ONE OF THOSE DOUBLE EDGE SWORDS KIND OF THING. THERE ARE A LOT OF THINGS I WOULD DO DIFFERENTLY AND THERE ARE SOMETHINGS THAT I WOULD KEEP THE SAME BECAUSE THEY NEEDED TO HAPPEN HOW THEY HAPPENED. I KNOW WITH OUT A DOUBT IF I HADN'T GOTTEN PREGNANT WITH BRITA THAT SHE NEVER WOULD HAVE GOTTEN TO HER ETERNAL FAMILY. THERE IS ALWAYS A REASON FOR EVERYTHING WE GO THROUGH I JUST WISH LIFE DIDN'T HAVE TO BE SO HARD AT TIMES. I SIT AT LOOK AT THE WORLD AND SEE ALL THE SUFFERING AND ALL THE HEARTACHE AND WONDER WHY GOD MAKES PEOPLE SUFFER SO MUCH. WHY CAN'T LIFE BE EASY? I KNOW EVERYONE SAYS "I NEVER SAID IT WOULD BE EASY BUT I SAID IT WOULD BE WORTH IT". WELL I NEED EASY FOR AWHILE. IT GETS HARD ALWAYS STRUGGLING FOR THE THINGS THAT I WANT AND NEED. I FEEL AT TIMES THAT GOD GAVE ME TO MUCH STUFF TO DEAL WITH. I HATE IT WHEN PEOPLE SAY "GOD DOESN'T GIVE YOU MORE THAN YOU CAN DEAL WITH". I FEEL AT TIMES THIS IS TRUE BUT IF IT WAS ALWAYS TRUE PEOPLE WOULDN'T COMMIT SUICIDE. I WONDER AT TIMES IF I WILL BE ABLE TO TAKING ALL THE BAD STUFF AND NOT JUST THROW THE TOWEL IN AND SAY TO HELL WITH IT ALL. I KNOW THERE ARE DAYS THAT I WANT TO JUST SAY TO HELL WITH IT ALL AND GIVE UP. THOSE ARE THE DAYS THAT I REALLY STRUGGLE WITH A LOT OF THINGS AND TODAY IS ONE OF THOSE DAYS. I HAVE STARTED TO FEEL SO ALONE BECAUSE PEOPLE JUST CAN'T UNDERSTAND THE PAIN I FEEL AT TIMES. THEY JUST DON'T GET IT! IT IS HARD AT TIMES FOR ME TO DEAL WITH IT ALL ALONE BUT I HAVE NO CHOICE. EVERYONE IN MY LIFE IS BUSY WITH THEIR OWN LIVES AND DON'T HAVE THE TIME OR I WON'T TAKE THEIR TIME BY ASKING THEM TO LISTEN TO ME. EVERYONE IS SO BUSY AND I DON'T THINK I SHOULD TAKE UP THERE TIME WITH MY PROBLEMS. I KNOW THAT PEOPLE WILL BE HURT WHEN THEY READ THAT BUT I JUST FEEL THEY HAVE ENOUGH TO DEAL WITH WITHOUT ME ADDING MY PROBLEMS TO THEIRS.
ALL I CAN HOPE IS THAT IN TIME EVERYONE WILL BE HAPPY AND NOT HAVE TO GO THROUGH WHAT I HAVE GONE THROUGH. I HOPE THAT NO ONE WILL HAVE TO GO THROUGH THE PAIN AND SUFFERING THAT I HAVE THROUGH BECAUSE OF THE DUMB CHOICES THAT I MADE WHEN I WAS 19. I KNOW THAT MORE PEOPLE WILL MAKE THE CHOICES THAT I DID AND HAVE TO GO THROUGH ALL THE PAIN AND EMOTIONS THAT I HAVE GONE THROUGH AND STILL GO THROUGH. I JUST HOPE THAT THEY CAN MAKE THE RIGHT CHOICE FOR THEM AND THAT THERE FAMILY WILL BE MORE UNDERSTANDING THAN MINE IS. I KNOW EVERYONE CAN GET THROUGH IT BUT I ALSO KNOW THAT IT GETS EASIER WITH TIME BUT IT WILL NEVER GO AWAY. THE PAIN IS ALWAYS THERE IT JUST ISN'T ALWAYS UP FRONT AND THERE REALLY ARE DAYS THAT YOU DON'T THINK ABOUT IT AND AT TIMES YOU FORGET BUT IT ALWAYS COMES BACK. I AM SURE WITH TIME SOME OF THE PAIN GOES AWAY BUT IT WILL NEVER TOTALLY GO AWAY THAT I KNOW FOR SURE! TO THIS DAY I STILL DON'T LIKE TO LOOK AT THE BABY PICTURES OF HER WHEN WE WERE STILL IN THE HOSPITAL BUT I DON'T GET SAD IF I LOOK AT THE ONES OF HER NOW. I STILL WANT THE BABY THAT I LEFT BEHIND AT THE HOSPITAL. I DON'T WANT THE FOUR YEAR OLD THAT SHE IS NOW. IT AMAZES ME HOW THE BRAIN HAS CREATED TWO DIFFERENT PEOPLE EVEN THOUGH LOGICALLY I KNOW THEY ARE THE SAME PERSON. I THINK IT IS THE BRAINS WAY OF DEALING WITH THE PAIN AND MAKING IT NOT HURT AS MUCH AS IT COULD.
ANYWAYS THIS A LONG RAMBLING POST! I BETTER STOP TYPING OR THIS WILL GO ON FOREVER!
ALL I CAN HOPE IS THAT IN TIME EVERYONE WILL BE HAPPY AND NOT HAVE TO GO THROUGH WHAT I HAVE GONE THROUGH. I HOPE THAT NO ONE WILL HAVE TO GO THROUGH THE PAIN AND SUFFERING THAT I HAVE THROUGH BECAUSE OF THE DUMB CHOICES THAT I MADE WHEN I WAS 19. I KNOW THAT MORE PEOPLE WILL MAKE THE CHOICES THAT I DID AND HAVE TO GO THROUGH ALL THE PAIN AND EMOTIONS THAT I HAVE GONE THROUGH AND STILL GO THROUGH. I JUST HOPE THAT THEY CAN MAKE THE RIGHT CHOICE FOR THEM AND THAT THERE FAMILY WILL BE MORE UNDERSTANDING THAN MINE IS. I KNOW EVERYONE CAN GET THROUGH IT BUT I ALSO KNOW THAT IT GETS EASIER WITH TIME BUT IT WILL NEVER GO AWAY. THE PAIN IS ALWAYS THERE IT JUST ISN'T ALWAYS UP FRONT AND THERE REALLY ARE DAYS THAT YOU DON'T THINK ABOUT IT AND AT TIMES YOU FORGET BUT IT ALWAYS COMES BACK. I AM SURE WITH TIME SOME OF THE PAIN GOES AWAY BUT IT WILL NEVER TOTALLY GO AWAY THAT I KNOW FOR SURE! TO THIS DAY I STILL DON'T LIKE TO LOOK AT THE BABY PICTURES OF HER WHEN WE WERE STILL IN THE HOSPITAL BUT I DON'T GET SAD IF I LOOK AT THE ONES OF HER NOW. I STILL WANT THE BABY THAT I LEFT BEHIND AT THE HOSPITAL. I DON'T WANT THE FOUR YEAR OLD THAT SHE IS NOW. IT AMAZES ME HOW THE BRAIN HAS CREATED TWO DIFFERENT PEOPLE EVEN THOUGH LOGICALLY I KNOW THEY ARE THE SAME PERSON. I THINK IT IS THE BRAINS WAY OF DEALING WITH THE PAIN AND MAKING IT NOT HURT AS MUCH AS IT COULD.
ANYWAYS THIS A LONG RAMBLING POST! I BETTER STOP TYPING OR THIS WILL GO ON FOREVER!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY BRITA
July 6, 2009
MONDAY AFTER A LONG WEEKEND
WELL IT IS MONDAY AND I HAD A LONG 3 DAY WEEKEND. IT ALWAYS MAKES IT EASIER TO COME BACK TO WORK AFTER A LONG THREE DAY WEEKEND. I FIND THAT COME SUNDAY NIGHT WHEN I HAVE HAD A LONG WEEKEND I AM READY TO GO BACK TO WORK. IT SEEMS LIKE I RUN OUT OF THINGS TO DO WHEN I HAVE THAT MANY DAYS. BUT IT ALWAYS NICE TO HAVE THEM SOMETIMES. THERE ARE SOME WEEKENDS AND WEEKS WHERE YOU JUST NEED 3 DAYS TO GET OVER A WEEK FROM HELL!
WELL IT LOOKS LIKE JOSH AND I ARE REALLY GOING TO GIVE THIS A GO. I KNOW PEOPLE ARE THINKING GOOD HELL WILL THEY FIGURE THIS OUT ALREADY. WELL I AM HOPING THAT THIS WILL BE IT AND THERE WON'T BE ANYMORE CHANGES. I HAVE TO GIVE IT ONE LAST GO AND IF THIS TIME DOESN'T WORK THEN WE ARE DONE AND WE WILL FILE , BUT I AM THINKING THAT THIS TIME IT WILL WORK. WE HAVE BOTH GROWN UP IN THE MONTHS WE HAVE HAD APART. IT HAS GIVE US TIME TO THINK AND REALIZE WHAT WE WANT OUT OF LIFE AND WHAT NOT. LIKE THEY SAY "ABSENCE MAKES THE HEART GROW FONDER". I AM REALLY STARTING TO BELIEVE THIS! I THINK HIM AND I JUST NEED TO SEE A COUNSELOR AND WORK ON COMMUNICATION AND IN THE END WE WILL BE OK. OUR MAJOR PROBLEM IS THE FACT THAT HE IS GONE ALL THE TIME BUT WE CAN WORK ON THAT AS WELL. WHEN HE IS READY I KNOW HE WILL COME OFF THE ROAD AND THEN WE WILL SEE IF WE ARE GOING TO STAY HERE OR IF WE ARE GOING TO MOVE SOMEWHERE ELSE. RIGHT NOW I KNOW I WILL STAY HERE UNTIL THINGS ARE GOOD AND I KNOW HE ISN'T GOING TO LEAVE AGAIN. ONCE WE HAVE IT FIGURED OUT AND WORKING WELL FOR AWHILE WE WILL DECIDED IF AND WHEN WE ARE GOING TO MOVE.
TOMORROW IS BRITA'S BIRTHDAY! I CAN'T BELIEVE THAT SHE IS ALREADY 4! IT SEEMS LIKE JUST YESTERDAY THAT I WENT THROUGH ALL OF THE EMOTIONS THAT COMES ALONG WITH PLACING YOUR CHILD FOR ADOPTION. I AM SAD AT TIMES ABOUT IT BUT I KNOW SHE IS WHERE SHE NEEDED TO BE AND SHE IS WITH HER FAMILY.
THE GIRLS HATE FIREWORKS! SYLVIA WAS RUNNING AROUND THE HOUSE ALL NIGHT SATURDAY NIGHT WHILE THE FIREWORKS WERE GOING. SHE WANTED TO HIDE FROM THE NOISE BUT EVERYWHERE SHE WENT SHE COULD HEAR IT. IT WAS TOO FUNNY WATCHING HER TRY AND HIDE FROM THEM. IT MAKES ME REALIZE THAT AS BRAVE AS THEY TRY AND ACT THEY ARE BOTH SCARED OF EVERYTHING. THEY ARE MY GIRLS! I COULDN'T IMAGINE LIFE WITHOUT THEM! THEY WILL ALWAYS BE MY "CUBS"! THEY CAN ALWAYS MAKE ME SMILE AND SUCK UP TO ME WHEN I AM HAVING A BAD DAY.
WELL IT LOOKS LIKE JOSH AND I ARE REALLY GOING TO GIVE THIS A GO. I KNOW PEOPLE ARE THINKING GOOD HELL WILL THEY FIGURE THIS OUT ALREADY. WELL I AM HOPING THAT THIS WILL BE IT AND THERE WON'T BE ANYMORE CHANGES. I HAVE TO GIVE IT ONE LAST GO AND IF THIS TIME DOESN'T WORK THEN WE ARE DONE AND WE WILL FILE , BUT I AM THINKING THAT THIS TIME IT WILL WORK. WE HAVE BOTH GROWN UP IN THE MONTHS WE HAVE HAD APART. IT HAS GIVE US TIME TO THINK AND REALIZE WHAT WE WANT OUT OF LIFE AND WHAT NOT. LIKE THEY SAY "ABSENCE MAKES THE HEART GROW FONDER". I AM REALLY STARTING TO BELIEVE THIS! I THINK HIM AND I JUST NEED TO SEE A COUNSELOR AND WORK ON COMMUNICATION AND IN THE END WE WILL BE OK. OUR MAJOR PROBLEM IS THE FACT THAT HE IS GONE ALL THE TIME BUT WE CAN WORK ON THAT AS WELL. WHEN HE IS READY I KNOW HE WILL COME OFF THE ROAD AND THEN WE WILL SEE IF WE ARE GOING TO STAY HERE OR IF WE ARE GOING TO MOVE SOMEWHERE ELSE. RIGHT NOW I KNOW I WILL STAY HERE UNTIL THINGS ARE GOOD AND I KNOW HE ISN'T GOING TO LEAVE AGAIN. ONCE WE HAVE IT FIGURED OUT AND WORKING WELL FOR AWHILE WE WILL DECIDED IF AND WHEN WE ARE GOING TO MOVE.
TOMORROW IS BRITA'S BIRTHDAY! I CAN'T BELIEVE THAT SHE IS ALREADY 4! IT SEEMS LIKE JUST YESTERDAY THAT I WENT THROUGH ALL OF THE EMOTIONS THAT COMES ALONG WITH PLACING YOUR CHILD FOR ADOPTION. I AM SAD AT TIMES ABOUT IT BUT I KNOW SHE IS WHERE SHE NEEDED TO BE AND SHE IS WITH HER FAMILY.
THE GIRLS HATE FIREWORKS! SYLVIA WAS RUNNING AROUND THE HOUSE ALL NIGHT SATURDAY NIGHT WHILE THE FIREWORKS WERE GOING. SHE WANTED TO HIDE FROM THE NOISE BUT EVERYWHERE SHE WENT SHE COULD HEAR IT. IT WAS TOO FUNNY WATCHING HER TRY AND HIDE FROM THEM. IT MAKES ME REALIZE THAT AS BRAVE AS THEY TRY AND ACT THEY ARE BOTH SCARED OF EVERYTHING. THEY ARE MY GIRLS! I COULDN'T IMAGINE LIFE WITHOUT THEM! THEY WILL ALWAYS BE MY "CUBS"! THEY CAN ALWAYS MAKE ME SMILE AND SUCK UP TO ME WHEN I AM HAVING A BAD DAY.
PICTURE OF THE DAY
July 5, 2009
July 4, 2009
JULY 4TH
TODAY WAS A REALLY HARD DAY FOR ME. THIS IS THE FIRST TIME SINCE I HAVE BEEN ALIVE THAT I HAVEN'T GONE AND SEEN THE FIREWORKS. I REALLY HAVE NO MOTIVATION TO GO AND SEE THEM. I DIDN'T DO ANYTHING AT ALL TODAY. I AM REALLY STRUGGLING WITH THE THOUGHT OF BRITA BEING FOUR ON TUESDAY. I DON'T KNOW IF I WILL MAKE IT THROUGH TUESDAY! I KNOW THAT I WILL GET THROUGH IT BUT I AM SURE IT WILL BE ONE OF THE HARDEST THINGS. I HAVE DONE SO WELL UP UNTIL NOW BUT I KNOW THAT EVERYDAY IS DIFFERENT WHEN I THINK ABOUT IT. I KNOW THAT IN TIME I WON'T STRUGGLE AS MUCH AND I ALSO KNOW THAT SOME YEARS WILL BE HARDER THAN OTHERS ARE. IT IS WEIRD TO ME THAT I CAN REMEMBER THINGS LIKE THEY WHERE YESTERDAY. I STILL REMEMBER CLIMBING A FENCE WHEN I AM PREGNANT SO THAT I COULD WATCH THE FIREWORKS.
JOSH AND I HAVE BEEN TALKING A LOT THIS WEEKEND AND I GUESS WE ARE GOING TO TRY AND WORK IT OUT. SO WE WILL SEE WHAT HAPPENS WITH THAT. I KNOW THAT MOST PEOPLE WON'T AGREE WITH ME AND WHAT I AM DOING, BUT I HAVE COME TO THE CONCLUSION THAT IT DOESN'T MATTER WHAT THEY THINK. I AM GOING TO DO WITH IT AND IF PEOPLE DON'T AGREE WITH ME THEN THEY CAN JUST GO AWAY. I KNOW THAT IF I DIDN'T TRY THIS ONE LAST TIME THAT I WOULD ALWAYS WONDER WHAT COULD HAVE HAPPENED AND IF IT WOULD HAVE WORKED. I THINK IF HIM AND I GO AND GET COUNSELING WE CAN GET IT TO WORK.
THE GIRLS ARE LOVING THIS WARM WEATHER. THEY ARE ALWAYS OUTSIDE NOW. I AM SURE IF THEY COULD THEY WOULD STAY OUT THERE ALL THE TIME! I AM SURE GETTING TIRED OF CLEANING UP THROW UP EVERY DAY. IT IS JUST PART OF LIFE I GUESS. SINCE I HAVE LONG HAIR CATS I HAVE TO DEAL WITH THE HAIRBALLS AND THE THROW UP.
JOSH AND I HAVE BEEN TALKING A LOT THIS WEEKEND AND I GUESS WE ARE GOING TO TRY AND WORK IT OUT. SO WE WILL SEE WHAT HAPPENS WITH THAT. I KNOW THAT MOST PEOPLE WON'T AGREE WITH ME AND WHAT I AM DOING, BUT I HAVE COME TO THE CONCLUSION THAT IT DOESN'T MATTER WHAT THEY THINK. I AM GOING TO DO WITH IT AND IF PEOPLE DON'T AGREE WITH ME THEN THEY CAN JUST GO AWAY. I KNOW THAT IF I DIDN'T TRY THIS ONE LAST TIME THAT I WOULD ALWAYS WONDER WHAT COULD HAVE HAPPENED AND IF IT WOULD HAVE WORKED. I THINK IF HIM AND I GO AND GET COUNSELING WE CAN GET IT TO WORK.
THE GIRLS ARE LOVING THIS WARM WEATHER. THEY ARE ALWAYS OUTSIDE NOW. I AM SURE IF THEY COULD THEY WOULD STAY OUT THERE ALL THE TIME! I AM SURE GETTING TIRED OF CLEANING UP THROW UP EVERY DAY. IT IS JUST PART OF LIFE I GUESS. SINCE I HAVE LONG HAIR CATS I HAVE TO DEAL WITH THE HAIRBALLS AND THE THROW UP.
July 3, 2009
REALLY COOL STORY...WE SHOULD ALL DONATE!
Utah group seeks sponsors to honor fallen soldiers
July 3rd, 2009 @ 5:30pm
By Alex Cabrero
CLEARFIELD -- A Utah group trying to honor fallen soldiers is feeling the effects of a slow economy. They want to set up 5,000 U.S. flags at the Weber County Fairgrounds later this month, but getting sponsors has not been easy.
The 5,000 flags are meant to represent each soldier who died in Iraq or Afghanistan. Organizers of Weber County's "Weekend to Remember" event say they've only received 400 sponsors so far.
Friday, those involved with the event launched a mission to find sponsors for all 5,000 flags.
Gary Yocum is the Captain for Utah's Patriot Guard Riders. The Riders are always present when soldiers leave for war, come home from war or died because of the war.
"The whole reason for all of this is for our fallen heroes and making sure they're not forgotten," he said. "That's what this is all about, is helping veterans and their families."
Two of those helping put flags together know about sacrifice more than most. Tim Dolan's son Daniel died in Afghanistan in 2006. Robert Lehmiller's son Michael died in Iraq in 2005.
"I think of my boy every day, and some days are easier than others. Mike had one request: Just don't forget me," Lehmiller said.
Each flag will have a soldiers name attached to it so they're not forgotten. Dolan said, "That is our mission, to make sure my son and all the other soldiers are never forgotten. Never."
Organizers were hoping each flag, which will be placed in the shape of the United States in a five-acre field at the Weber County Fairgrounds, would have a $25 sponsor.
"I know this is a difficult year in the economy. We understand that, but at the same time, the whole idea is to bring awareness," Yocum said.
Through this awareness, organizers feel those soldiers who made the ultimate sacrifice won't be forgotten.
"You know what? If we keep that spirit alive in the country, then we've accomplished something," Dolan said.
Even if organizers don't get each flag sponsored, they still promise there will be 5,000 flags at the event.
E-mail: [email protected]
July 3rd, 2009 @ 5:30pm
By Alex Cabrero
CLEARFIELD -- A Utah group trying to honor fallen soldiers is feeling the effects of a slow economy. They want to set up 5,000 U.S. flags at the Weber County Fairgrounds later this month, but getting sponsors has not been easy.
The 5,000 flags are meant to represent each soldier who died in Iraq or Afghanistan. Organizers of Weber County's "Weekend to Remember" event say they've only received 400 sponsors so far.
Friday, those involved with the event launched a mission to find sponsors for all 5,000 flags.
Gary Yocum is the Captain for Utah's Patriot Guard Riders. The Riders are always present when soldiers leave for war, come home from war or died because of the war.
"The whole reason for all of this is for our fallen heroes and making sure they're not forgotten," he said. "That's what this is all about, is helping veterans and their families."
Two of those helping put flags together know about sacrifice more than most. Tim Dolan's son Daniel died in Afghanistan in 2006. Robert Lehmiller's son Michael died in Iraq in 2005.
"I think of my boy every day, and some days are easier than others. Mike had one request: Just don't forget me," Lehmiller said.
Each flag will have a soldiers name attached to it so they're not forgotten. Dolan said, "That is our mission, to make sure my son and all the other soldiers are never forgotten. Never."
Organizers were hoping each flag, which will be placed in the shape of the United States in a five-acre field at the Weber County Fairgrounds, would have a $25 sponsor.
"I know this is a difficult year in the economy. We understand that, but at the same time, the whole idea is to bring awareness," Yocum said.
Through this awareness, organizers feel those soldiers who made the ultimate sacrifice won't be forgotten.
"You know what? If we keep that spirit alive in the country, then we've accomplished something," Dolan said.
Even if organizers don't get each flag sponsored, they still promise there will be 5,000 flags at the event.
E-mail: [email protected]
July 1, 2009
Utah’s bars no longer for club members only
New law eliminates need to fill out application, pay fee to set foot in pubs
SALT LAKE CITY - Bartenders in Utah threw open their doors Wednesday as the state ditched a 40-year-old requirement that customers fill out an application, pay a fee and become a member of a private club before setting foot in a bar.
“It’s 40 years of oppression come to an end,” said Dave Morris, owner of the bar Piper Down in Salt Lake City. “There’s this national perception that we don’t have bars here, so hopefully this gets out there that we’re open for business.”
The new rules are an effort to boost the state’s $7 billion-a-year tourism industry and make the state appear a little less quirky to outsiders. In Salt Lake City, Morris has organized two days of 16-bar pub crawls to celebrate the novelty of being allowed into a bar without having to pay first. One crawl is set for Wednesday, another for Friday.
About 35 miles north, in Ogden, bartender Rich Miros at Brewskis happily scraped off lettering on the door that said the bar was a private club. The bar gets plenty of tourists from a nearby downtown hotel and skiers coming back from a day at the slopes at nearby Snowbasin.
“It’s a great opportunity,” he said of the change to becoming a public bar. “It needed to be changed a long time ago.”
Utah has long had a host of liquor laws that befuddled newcomers, but none was as maddening as the state’s private club system, created primarily to shield Mormons from alcohol while allowing drinkers to imbibe heavily taxed booze.
About 60 percent of the state’s population and more than 80 percent of state lawmakers belong to the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints, which tells its members to abstain from alcohol.
While technically private, anyone willing to pay a membership fee costing at least $12 a year could come into a bar. Each bar required a separate membership.
Temporary memberships lasting up to three weeks were available for no less than $4, but limited the number of guests members could bring to seven. No memberships were needed to go into a bar that only served beer.
Anything that normalizes liquor laws for out-of-state visitors is good for Utah, said Steve Lindburg, general manager of a downtown hotel and a member of the state tourism board.
“People didn’t understand. People felt isolated or even turned away,” he said. “Now, that kind of becomes moot.”
But not everyone’s enamored of the new changes.
Just down the street from Brewskis at the Kokomo Club, which caters to locals, a handful of early-morning patrons sipped on pitchers of beers and played games of pool, while also expressing caution about what the changes might bring.
“It helped keep strange people out of here, and now that it’s open to the public, there might be more fights,” said Curtis Cain, a 46-year old local mechanic.
New law eliminates need to fill out application, pay fee to set foot in pubs
SALT LAKE CITY - Bartenders in Utah threw open their doors Wednesday as the state ditched a 40-year-old requirement that customers fill out an application, pay a fee and become a member of a private club before setting foot in a bar.
“It’s 40 years of oppression come to an end,” said Dave Morris, owner of the bar Piper Down in Salt Lake City. “There’s this national perception that we don’t have bars here, so hopefully this gets out there that we’re open for business.”
The new rules are an effort to boost the state’s $7 billion-a-year tourism industry and make the state appear a little less quirky to outsiders. In Salt Lake City, Morris has organized two days of 16-bar pub crawls to celebrate the novelty of being allowed into a bar without having to pay first. One crawl is set for Wednesday, another for Friday.
About 35 miles north, in Ogden, bartender Rich Miros at Brewskis happily scraped off lettering on the door that said the bar was a private club. The bar gets plenty of tourists from a nearby downtown hotel and skiers coming back from a day at the slopes at nearby Snowbasin.
“It’s a great opportunity,” he said of the change to becoming a public bar. “It needed to be changed a long time ago.”
Utah has long had a host of liquor laws that befuddled newcomers, but none was as maddening as the state’s private club system, created primarily to shield Mormons from alcohol while allowing drinkers to imbibe heavily taxed booze.
About 60 percent of the state’s population and more than 80 percent of state lawmakers belong to the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints, which tells its members to abstain from alcohol.
While technically private, anyone willing to pay a membership fee costing at least $12 a year could come into a bar. Each bar required a separate membership.
Temporary memberships lasting up to three weeks were available for no less than $4, but limited the number of guests members could bring to seven. No memberships were needed to go into a bar that only served beer.
Anything that normalizes liquor laws for out-of-state visitors is good for Utah, said Steve Lindburg, general manager of a downtown hotel and a member of the state tourism board.
“People didn’t understand. People felt isolated or even turned away,” he said. “Now, that kind of becomes moot.”
But not everyone’s enamored of the new changes.
Just down the street from Brewskis at the Kokomo Club, which caters to locals, a handful of early-morning patrons sipped on pitchers of beers and played games of pool, while also expressing caution about what the changes might bring.
“It helped keep strange people out of here, and now that it’s open to the public, there might be more fights,” said Curtis Cain, a 46-year old local mechanic.
FACEBOOK QUIZ
I TOOK THIS QUIZ TONIGHT AND READ THE RESULTS AND IT MATCHS MY PERFECTLY!!! I WAS AMAZED AT HOW WELL IT WAS TRUE
Margaret completed the quiz "Which color best suits your personality?" with the result You are Black!.
You are black! You are probably an introverted, indifferent sort of person. You aren't necessarily emo or really hateful, though you can be. You just aren't bubbly and happy all the time like yellows, oranges, and pinks. In fact, you probably have a hard time putting up with people who ARE happy all of the time. You are probably intelligent and artistic, and maybe a little bit of a loner. You do have friends, you just don't mind being alone. Gives you time to think. You are a little blunt, and you usually tell it like it is. You are classy, and simplicity goes a long way with you. You can be a little off-beat, your interests may not go with "the norm". As for your friends, you love them deeply. You may not have many close friends, but you choose them carefully. You are incredibly loyal to your friends, and they know they can count on you. You'd do just about anything for them, and they know it. You probably don't show your feelings so much, but you do have feelings. Deep ones, too. You feel things deeply, and you can be passionate - you just don't show it. Your sense of humor is probably a little dark, but you do love to laugh. You can be totally crazy when you open up, but you rarely do. You, in a nutshell: Classy, introverted, loyal, a bit of a loner, unique, edgy, deep, artistic, crazy (rarely), intelligent. BLACK! .
Margaret completed the quiz "Which color best suits your personality?" with the result You are Black!.
You are black! You are probably an introverted, indifferent sort of person. You aren't necessarily emo or really hateful, though you can be. You just aren't bubbly and happy all the time like yellows, oranges, and pinks. In fact, you probably have a hard time putting up with people who ARE happy all of the time. You are probably intelligent and artistic, and maybe a little bit of a loner. You do have friends, you just don't mind being alone. Gives you time to think. You are a little blunt, and you usually tell it like it is. You are classy, and simplicity goes a long way with you. You can be a little off-beat, your interests may not go with "the norm". As for your friends, you love them deeply. You may not have many close friends, but you choose them carefully. You are incredibly loyal to your friends, and they know they can count on you. You'd do just about anything for them, and they know it. You probably don't show your feelings so much, but you do have feelings. Deep ones, too. You feel things deeply, and you can be passionate - you just don't show it. Your sense of humor is probably a little dark, but you do love to laugh. You can be totally crazy when you open up, but you rarely do. You, in a nutshell: Classy, introverted, loyal, a bit of a loner, unique, edgy, deep, artistic, crazy (rarely), intelligent. BLACK! .
PAIN PILLS
FDA Panel Urges Ban on Vicodin, Percocet
Also recommends dosing limits for OTC painkillers that contain acetaminophen, like Tylenol or Excedrin, because of link to liver damage.
By Steve Reinberg, HealthDay Reporter
TUESDAY, June 30 (HealthDay News) -- The popular prescription painkillers Vicodin and Percocet, which combine acetaminophen with an opiate narcotic, should be banned, and the maximum dose of over-the-counter painkillers with acetaminophen, like Tylenol or Excedrin, should be lowered, a U.S. Food and Drug Administration advisory panel urged Tuesday.
The panel's recommendations followed the release of an FDA report last month that found severe liver damage, and even death, can result from a lack of consumer awareness that acetaminophen -- which is easier on the stomach than such painkillers as aspirin and ibuprofen -- can cause such injury.
The dangers from use or abuse of Vicodin and Percocet may be even more concerning, one key panelist said.
"It seems to me that problems with opiate combinations are clearly more prevalent," Dr. Lewis S. Nelson, chairman of the FDA's Drug Safety and Risk Management Advisory Committee, said during a Tuesday press conference held after the two-day meeting.
Explaining the panel's 20-17 vote to ban prescription acetaminophen/opiate drugs, Nelson said, "There are many deaths that relate to problems with prescription opiate combination acetaminophen products, whereas the number of deaths clearly related to the over-the-counter products are much more limited."
But the FDA advisers also took aim at over-the-counter (OTC) acetaminophen products. The agency's report found that many people may consume more than the recommended dose of these pain relievers in the mistaken belief that taking more will prove more effective against pain without posing health risks. Consumers may also not know that acetaminophen is present in many over-the-counter products, including remedies for colds, headaches and fevers, making it possible to exceed the recommended acetaminophen dose, the report said.
Based on that, the FDA advisory panel voted 21-16 to lower the maximum daily dose of nonprescription acetaminophen, which is currently 4 grams -- equal to eight pills of a drug such as Extra Strength Tylenol. The panel was not asked to recommend another maximum daily dose.
The panel also voted 24-13 to limit the maximum single dose of acetaminophen to 650 milligrams. The current single dose of Extra Strength Tylenol, for instance, is 1,000 milligrams.
The panel also voted 26-11 to make the 1,000-milligram dose of acetaminophen available only by prescription.
The advisers voted against other safety restrictions for other over-the-counter drugs such as NyQuil or Theraflu, which contain acetaminophen and other ingredients that treat cough and runny nose. Patients often mix the cold medications with pure acetaminophen drugs, like Tylenol, leaving them vulnerable to dangerously high levels of acetaminophen.
The FDA is not obligated to follow the recommendations of its advisory panels, but it typically does so.
Dr. Sandra L. Kweder, deputy director of the FDA's Office of New Drugs at the Center for Drug Evaluation and Research, gave a strong hint of what the agency might do with the advisory panel's recommendations.
"I think the top recommendation of this committee was that the agency needs to do something to address and decrease the usual dose of acetaminophen, both for over-the-counter products and also prescription combination products," Kweder said during the press conference.
She added, "There was a clear message that there is a high likelihood of overdose from prescription narcotic/acetaminophen combination products. If we don't eliminate these combination products, we should certainly at least lower the usual acetaminophen dose patients receive in those prescription combination products."
At the very least the agency should require new warning labels on these prescription combinations that alert patients to the potential of liver damage if they take too much acetaminophen, she said.
Speaking for the OTC drug industry, Lynda A. Suydam, of the Consumer Healthcare Products Association (CHPA), said her group was "pleased the committee did not recommend eliminating these important nonprescription products."
However, in a statement, she added that CHPA was "disappointed in [the panel's] divided vote to lower the maximum daily dose and the single dose of 1000 mg acetaminophen. There was a notable lack of data referenced by the committee to support these recommendations and overwhelmingly strong data affirming the efficacy and safety of acetaminophen in its current dosage forms."
Another expert took a different view. Dr. John H. Klippel, chief executive officer of the Arthritis Foundation, said Tuesday's votes were very important to "people with arthritis because acetaminophen is a very commonly used medication to control pain."
"Lowering the maximum dose, providing that kind of guidance to patients, if it increases safety, would be something the arthritis community would support," he said. "Every person who takes this drug sees it as valuable, but they want clear guidance so they won't be harmed by the drug."
Dr. Lewis W. Teperman, director of transplant surgery and vice chairman of surgery at New York University School of Medicine, said he also supported the panel's decision to recommend lowering doses of acetaminophen.
"It's not that the doses can get you in trouble, but the very young and the very old can get into trouble easily," he said. Also if you are sick, there is the danger of taking cold remedies that contain acetaminophen plus taking pure acetaminophen drugs as well, he noted.
But Klippel added that the vote to make the 1,000-milligram dose of acetaminophen available by prescription only would overburden the health-care system. "Given the massive number of people who rely on this drug for pain control, making the maximum dose requiring a prescription, I think, is going to place undo burden on the health-care system," he said.
Teperman disagreed.
"The 1,000 milligram pill should never be at the patient's discretion. It should only be prescribed by a physician," Teperman said. "If you took an entire bottle of Tylenol Extra Strength, three days later you would be in a coma and needing a liver transplant."
Also recommends dosing limits for OTC painkillers that contain acetaminophen, like Tylenol or Excedrin, because of link to liver damage.
By Steve Reinberg, HealthDay Reporter
TUESDAY, June 30 (HealthDay News) -- The popular prescription painkillers Vicodin and Percocet, which combine acetaminophen with an opiate narcotic, should be banned, and the maximum dose of over-the-counter painkillers with acetaminophen, like Tylenol or Excedrin, should be lowered, a U.S. Food and Drug Administration advisory panel urged Tuesday.
The panel's recommendations followed the release of an FDA report last month that found severe liver damage, and even death, can result from a lack of consumer awareness that acetaminophen -- which is easier on the stomach than such painkillers as aspirin and ibuprofen -- can cause such injury.
The dangers from use or abuse of Vicodin and Percocet may be even more concerning, one key panelist said.
"It seems to me that problems with opiate combinations are clearly more prevalent," Dr. Lewis S. Nelson, chairman of the FDA's Drug Safety and Risk Management Advisory Committee, said during a Tuesday press conference held after the two-day meeting.
Explaining the panel's 20-17 vote to ban prescription acetaminophen/opiate drugs, Nelson said, "There are many deaths that relate to problems with prescription opiate combination acetaminophen products, whereas the number of deaths clearly related to the over-the-counter products are much more limited."
But the FDA advisers also took aim at over-the-counter (OTC) acetaminophen products. The agency's report found that many people may consume more than the recommended dose of these pain relievers in the mistaken belief that taking more will prove more effective against pain without posing health risks. Consumers may also not know that acetaminophen is present in many over-the-counter products, including remedies for colds, headaches and fevers, making it possible to exceed the recommended acetaminophen dose, the report said.
Based on that, the FDA advisory panel voted 21-16 to lower the maximum daily dose of nonprescription acetaminophen, which is currently 4 grams -- equal to eight pills of a drug such as Extra Strength Tylenol. The panel was not asked to recommend another maximum daily dose.
The panel also voted 24-13 to limit the maximum single dose of acetaminophen to 650 milligrams. The current single dose of Extra Strength Tylenol, for instance, is 1,000 milligrams.
The panel also voted 26-11 to make the 1,000-milligram dose of acetaminophen available only by prescription.
The advisers voted against other safety restrictions for other over-the-counter drugs such as NyQuil or Theraflu, which contain acetaminophen and other ingredients that treat cough and runny nose. Patients often mix the cold medications with pure acetaminophen drugs, like Tylenol, leaving them vulnerable to dangerously high levels of acetaminophen.
The FDA is not obligated to follow the recommendations of its advisory panels, but it typically does so.
Dr. Sandra L. Kweder, deputy director of the FDA's Office of New Drugs at the Center for Drug Evaluation and Research, gave a strong hint of what the agency might do with the advisory panel's recommendations.
"I think the top recommendation of this committee was that the agency needs to do something to address and decrease the usual dose of acetaminophen, both for over-the-counter products and also prescription combination products," Kweder said during the press conference.
She added, "There was a clear message that there is a high likelihood of overdose from prescription narcotic/acetaminophen combination products. If we don't eliminate these combination products, we should certainly at least lower the usual acetaminophen dose patients receive in those prescription combination products."
At the very least the agency should require new warning labels on these prescription combinations that alert patients to the potential of liver damage if they take too much acetaminophen, she said.
Speaking for the OTC drug industry, Lynda A. Suydam, of the Consumer Healthcare Products Association (CHPA), said her group was "pleased the committee did not recommend eliminating these important nonprescription products."
However, in a statement, she added that CHPA was "disappointed in [the panel's] divided vote to lower the maximum daily dose and the single dose of 1000 mg acetaminophen. There was a notable lack of data referenced by the committee to support these recommendations and overwhelmingly strong data affirming the efficacy and safety of acetaminophen in its current dosage forms."
Another expert took a different view. Dr. John H. Klippel, chief executive officer of the Arthritis Foundation, said Tuesday's votes were very important to "people with arthritis because acetaminophen is a very commonly used medication to control pain."
"Lowering the maximum dose, providing that kind of guidance to patients, if it increases safety, would be something the arthritis community would support," he said. "Every person who takes this drug sees it as valuable, but they want clear guidance so they won't be harmed by the drug."
Dr. Lewis W. Teperman, director of transplant surgery and vice chairman of surgery at New York University School of Medicine, said he also supported the panel's decision to recommend lowering doses of acetaminophen.
"It's not that the doses can get you in trouble, but the very young and the very old can get into trouble easily," he said. Also if you are sick, there is the danger of taking cold remedies that contain acetaminophen plus taking pure acetaminophen drugs as well, he noted.
But Klippel added that the vote to make the 1,000-milligram dose of acetaminophen available by prescription only would overburden the health-care system. "Given the massive number of people who rely on this drug for pain control, making the maximum dose requiring a prescription, I think, is going to place undo burden on the health-care system," he said.
Teperman disagreed.
"The 1,000 milligram pill should never be at the patient's discretion. It should only be prescribed by a physician," Teperman said. "If you took an entire bottle of Tylenol Extra Strength, three days later you would be in a coma and needing a liver transplant."
Subscribe to:
Posts (Atom)
