March 31, 2009

MAJOR PANIC ATTACK

TODAY I HAD A MAJOR PANIC ATTACK AND I AM NOT SURE WHY OR WHAT CAUSED IT. IT JUST CAME ON AND NOW I AM REALLY REALLY PISSED OFF. IT SEEMS LIKE EVERYTHING IS JUST GOING WRONG. I GUESS THE THINGS THAT ARE GOING WRONG ARE DUMB THINGS THAT I USUALLY DON'T LET GET TO ME BUT TODAY THEY DID. OH WELL ALL I CAN DO IS TRY AND CALM DOWN AND NOT LET THINGS GET TO ME. THIS IS THE FIRST PANIC ATTACK THAT I HAVE HAD SINCE I STARTED ON THIS NEW MEDICATION. SO THE MEDICATION IS WORKING BUT I STILL NEED SOMETHING FOR DAYS LIKE TODAY THAT I HAVE THEM. I HAVE NEVER BEEN THE PERSON THAT HAS PANIC ATTACKS. SO ALL OF THIS IS NEW TO ME. I THINK I AM GOING TO START DOING YOGA AND WALKING AFTER WORK. MAYBE IF I WORK OUT I WON'T HAVE THEM AS MUCH. IT IS AT LEAST WORTH A TRY THAT IS FOR SURE.
LAST NIGHT WAS AN INTERESTING NIGHT TO SAY THE LEAST. I WOKE UP AND I HAD SYLVIA ON THE BED AND ELINORE ON MY HEAD. I WAS LIKE WTF??? I JUST ROLLED OVER AND WENT BACK TO SLEEP. I DIDN'T EVEN CARE THAT THEY WERE BOTH THERE. SYLVIA USUALLY DOESN'T SLEEP WITH ME SO LAST NIGHT WAS WEIRD TO WAKE UP AND HAVE HER ON THE BED. MY BED ISN'T BIG ENOUGH FOR TWO CATS AND A PERSON THAT IS FOR SURE.
I AM NOT SURE WHAT IS GOING ON WITH JOSH. I KNOW I LOVE HIM BUT I DON'T THINK HE IS SERIOUS ABOUT TRYING TO WORK THINGS OUT. I MEAN HE STILL HAS HIS GIRLFRIEND. SO I TOLD HIM YESTERDAY WHEN HE GETS RID OF HER WE WILL TALK. UNTIL THEN I AM NOT WASTING TIME WAITING FOR HIM. IF HE COMES BACK AND I AM SEEING SOMEONE THAT IS HIS LOSS NOT MINE. I CAN'T WAIT AROUND FOREVER. I REFUSE TO WASTE ANYMORE TIME ON HIM IF HE ISN'T SERIOUS ABOUT THIS.
I AM SO READY TO MOVE OUT OF MY HOUSE. I AM SO TIRED OF ALL THE DRAMA AND MY FAMILY. IT SEEMS LIKE THE WHOLE HOUSE IS ALWAYS FIGHTING AND I AM ALWAYS HIDING HOPING THAT THEY DON'T YELL AT ME OR MY KIDS. IT IS GETTING TO BE A JOKE THAT IS FOR SURE. I KEEP HOPING THAT MY LITTLE BROTHER WILL MOVE OUT BUT I DON'T EVER SEE THAT HAPPENING. HE COULD NEVER TAKE CARE OF HIMSELF HE IS TOO IRRESPONSIBLE. HE WOULD NEVER BE ABLE TO PAY HIS BILLS AND LACHELLE IS NO GOOD EITHER. THEY WENT OUT AND SPENT LIKE $200 ON STUFF THAT SHE DIDN'T NEED. IT BUGS ME AND THEN THEY BOTH STINK ALL THE TIME BECAUSE THEY DON'T SHOWER VERY OFTEN, AND WHEN LACHELLE DOES SHOWER SHE TAKES LIKE 30 MIN SHOWERS AND THAT PISSES OFF GRANDPA.

March 28, 2009

JOSH

WELL JOSH WANTS TO SEE IF THIS MARRIAGE CAN WORK NOW. HE KEEPS ME SO CONFUSED. I REALLY WOULD LIKE IT TO WORK BUT I DON'T KNOW IF IT CAN. I AM STRUGGLING WITH THE WHOLE CAN I TRUST HIM AGAIN. I THINK I CAN BUT HE CAN'T KNOW WHAT I KNOW. I HAVE TOO KEEP MY MOUTH SHUT AND SEE IF I CAN'T GET THINGS OUT OF HIM WITH OUT LETTING HIM KNOW I KNOW. I KNOW I LOVE HIM BUT I DON'T KNOW IF HE FEELS THE SAME THE WAY. IT WILL TAKE TIME AND ENERGY TO FIGURE IT ALL OUT. I HAVE LOTS OF TIME THAT IS FOR SURE. I AM NOT SURE WHAT WILL HAPPEN BUT I KNOW IN TIME THINGS WILL WORK OUT HOW THEY ARE SUPPOSED TO WORK OUT. EVEN IF EVERYONE DOESN'T AGREE WITH ME. I AM SO USED TO PEOPLE NOT AGREEING WITH ME THAT I ALWAYS DO WHAT I WANT TO DO AND NOT WORRY ABOUT OTHER PEOPLE.
I AM FEELING OK TODAY. I AM DEFINITELY BETTER THAN I WAS THE FIRST TIME. I AM SO GLAD THAT THE REACTION I HAD WASN'T AS BAD AS IT WAS THE FIRST TIME. I AM HOPING THAT THE DOCTOR WILL ALLOW ME TO KEEP DOING IT. I KNOW IT WORKS AND FOR THE FIRST TIME IN A LONG TIME I AM NOT TIRED AND WARN OUT. I KNOW THE MEDICATION IS WORKING AND I ALSO KNOW THAT I NEED TO FIGURE OUT HOW TO PAY FOR IT.
THE GIRLS ARE BIGGER MONSTERS THAN THEY EVER HAVE BEEN BEFORE. THEY ARE BOTH GETTING SO ACTIVE AND PLAYING SO MUCH. THEY ARE LOVING THE WARMER WEATHER THAT IS FOR SURE. I HAVE NEVER SEEN THEM SO HAPPY AND PLAYFUL. THEY ARE ALWAYS RUNNING AND JUMPING AND SYLVIA HAS A NEW PLACE TO SLEEP.

March 27, 2009

INFUSION

WELL I HAD MY INFUSION TODAY AND IT WAS BETTER THAN THE LAST TIME. I HAD A LITTLE REACTION BUT I TOOK MORE BENADRYL AND IT WENT AWAY. SO I AM HOPING THAT IT WILL GET BETTER EACH TIME. THIS TIME THE SLOWED DOWN THE RATE SO IT TOOK TWO HOURS INSTEAD OF ONE HOUR FOR THE MEDICATION. IT WORKS SO I AM GLAD THAT I AM DOING IT. I TRIED TO TALK TO THE UNIVERSITY OF UTAH TO GET HELP WITH THE BILLS BUT THE WON'T HELP ME UNTIL I HAVE A LOT OF BILLS THAT ARE OVER DUE . SO I HAVE DECIDED THAT I WILL WAIT TO PAY THEM SO I CAN GET HELP FROM THEM. RIGHT NOW I HAVE A HEADACHE THAT WAS CAUSED BY THE INFUSION. I CAN DEAL WITH A HEADACHE AS LONG AS THE DRUG WORKS, AND SO FAR IT HAS HELPED. MY NEXT ONE IS SCHEDULED FOR THE 24TH OF APRIL. THEY MIGHT HAVE ME TAKE STERIODS BEFORE I GET THE INFUSION SO THAT I DON'T HAVE ANY REACTION.

March 25, 2009

EXPOSING

THIS WAS A FUNNY PICTURE THAT GOT E-MAIL TO ME. I FIGURED IT WOULD PUT A SMILE ON PEOPLES FACES WHEN THEY SAW IT.

JOSH

THIS IS JOSH GETTING READY FOR HIS SLEEP TEST! I THOUGHT IT WAS FUNNY SO I HAD TO POST IT! I AM SURE THAT HE DOESN'T WANT PEOPLE TO SEE IT BUT IT WAS TOO FUNNY TO TO POST.

THE NEW MOTTO FOR 2009

A Poem About Our Girlfriends
Someone will always be prettier.
Someone will always be smarter.
Some of their houses will be bigger.
Some will drive a better car.
Their children will do better in school.
And their husband will fix more things around the house.
So let it go, and love you and your circumstances
Think about it!
The prettiest woman in the world can have hell in her heart.
The most highly favored woman on your job may be unable to have children.
The richest woman you know, she's got the car, the house, the clothes~might be lonely.
And the word says, 'If I have not Love, I am nothing.' So, again, love you.
Love who you are.
Look in the mirror in the morning and smile and say, 'I am too Blessedto be Stressed and too Anointed, to be Disappointed!
''Winners make things happen~~ Losers let things happen.'
Be 'Blessed' Ladies and pass this on to encourage another woman.
'To the world you might be one person, to me you are special!

DAVID LETTERMAN REVEALS TOP TEN REASONS HE GOT MARRIED

March 24, 2009, 10:13 PM ESTEntertainment Tonight.
"Late Show" host David Letterman on Tuesday revealed his Top Ten "Reasons I Got Married."
On his TV show airing Tuesday night, the 61-year-old funnyman and talk-show icon jokingly gave reasons behind his headline-grabbing nuptials to Regina Lasko, saying:
10. Poconos offers newlyweds free room with champagne-glass Jacuzzi.
9. If I'm gonna catch Larry King, I'd better get going.
8. Still drunk from St. Patty's, dude!
7. She needed a green card.
6. When you're my age and look like I do, if someone says they'll marry you, you do it.
5. Don't have to listen to any more crap from that quack Dr. Phil.
4. I finally fit into my dream dress!
3. Free cake
2. Got tired of waiting for Paris Hilton.
1. Figured at the least we'd get a mediocre Top Ten out of it.

JOSH

WELL I GUESS THEY HAVE DECIDED THAT JOSH HAS SLEEP APNEA. I GUESS HE COULDN'T SLEEP SO THEY SAID THAT HE HAD IT. SO NOW BEFORE HE CAN GO BACK TO WORK HE HAS TO GET A C-PAP MACHINE. HOPEFULLY THAT WILL HAPPEN SOON SO THAT HE CAN GET BACK TO WORK. I JUST WANT HIM TO BE HAPPY AND I HOPE ONE DAY THAT HE WILL BE HAPPY. I KNOW IN TIME HE WILL FIND THE PERSON THAT IS MEANT FOR HIM.
ELINORE IS BACK TO THROWING UP ALL THE TIME AGAIN. I AM NOT SURE WHAT HER PROBLEM IS BUT IT IS GETTING OLD THAT IS FOR SURE. WE ARE GETTING TIRED OF CLEANING UP THROW UP THAT IS FOR SURE. MAYBE IT IS JUST SOMETHING THAT I AM GOING TO HAVE TO GET USED TO AND DEAL WITH. I WON'T GET RID OF HER SO I GUESS I SHOULD JUST STOP BITCHING ABOUT IT AND DEAL WITH IT.
I AM DEPRESSED AND TIRED OF ME NOT HAVING ANYONE BUT LIKE I SAID YESTERDAY I AM GOING TO FOCUS ON ME AND IF I GUY COMES ALONG COOL AND IF NOT I WILL ALWAYS HAVE MISTI. I AM HOPING THAT MISTI WILL FIND THE PERSON THAT WILL TREAT HER LIKE SHE DESERVES. IN TIME I KNOW SHE WILL AND SHE CAN HAVE KIDS AND A FAMILY LIKE SHE SO BADLY WANTS. I AM OK NOT HAVING KIDS BECAUSE I HAVE THE GIRLS BUT I WOULD MAYBE LIKE A GUY TO BE IN MY LIFE. WHO KNOWS THOUGH I HAVE STARTED TO THINK THAT I AM NOT MEANT TO BE WITH ANYONE. I AM TOO INDEPENDENT FOR MOST GUYS BUT IF I AM MEANT TO BE ALONE I AM OK WITH THAT AS WELL. ALL I CAN DO IS LEAVE IT UP TO FATE I GUESS. I AM A FIRM BELIEVER THAT EVERYTHING THAT HAPPENS WAS DESTINED TO HAPPEN SO I AM GOING TO TRY AND NOT STRESS ABOUT THINGS.

March 24, 2009

HEALTH

IT IS TUESDAY AND I AM READY FOR IT TO BE FRIDAY. I HAVE HAD ENOUGH OF THIS WEEK. I AM READY FOR MY INFUSION. I AM READY TO START FOCUSING ON MY HEALTH AND FORGETTING ABOUT ALL THE OTHER DRAMA IN MY LIFE. MY MAIN FOCUS RIGHT NOW WILL BE MY HEALTH AND GETTING ME BETTER. MAYBE MY LIFE WILL BE BETTER IF I FOCUS ON ME FOR AWHILE AND ME WHERE I NEED TO BE. THEY ALWAYS SAY THAT YOU WILL FIND SOMEONE IF YOU AREN'T LOOKING. SO I AM NO LONGER GOING TO LOOK. I WILL LEAVE IT UP TO FATE. MAYBE I AM MEANT TO BE ALONE AND IF THAT IS THE CASE THEN BRING IT ON LOL. I AM NOT GOING TO WORRY ABOUT MEN OR THINGS LIKE THAT. I AM GOING TO BE ME AND FOCUS ON MY HEALTH AND DO WHATEVER I CAN DO TO GET ME BETTER. I THINK IT IS TIME FOR ME TO FIGURE OUT HOW TO BE HAPPY AND IF A GUY IS MEANT TO BE IN MY LIFE THEN HE WILL COME ALONG.
ANYWAY, JOSH HAS TO DO A SLEEP STUDY TONIGHT. HE HAS TO DO IT BEFORE HE CAN DRIVE AGAIN. HE HAS BEEN OFF SINCE LAST WEEK SOMETIME. I GUESS THAT HIS MEDICAL CARD WAS ONLY GOOD FOR 3 MONTHS OR SOMETHING LIKE THAT. ANYWAYS HE HAS TO DO THE STUDY TO SEE IF HE HAS SLEEP APNEA OR NOT. I AM SURE HE HAS IT BUT I AM NOT SURE. I GUESS HE IS DATING SOMEONE. HE TOLD ME THAT HE DOESN'T THINK THINGS WILL WORK OUT WITH HER BUT HE WON'T TELL ME WHY. ALL I KNOW ABOUT HER IS THAT SHE LIVES IN SPRINGFIELD AND THAT SHE IS A "BIGGER" GIRL. NOT SURE WHAT THAT MEANS BUT THAT IS WHAT HE SAID.

March 22, 2009

I MET A GREAT GUY BUT. . .

JOEY IS A GREAT GUY THAT MET ABOUT A WEEK AGO. I AM FINDING THAT I REALLY LIKE HIM MORE AND MORE, BUT I KNOW THAT IT WILL COME TO END WHEN HE HAS TO LEAVE TO GO TO BASIC TRAINING FOR THE ARMY. THIS IS THE FIRST TIME I HAVE EVER FELT LIKE I FEEL NOW. WHEN I AM AROUND HIM I FORGET ABOUT EVERYTHING AND EVERYONE. IT IS LIKE TIME STOPS AND ALL MY WORRIES GO AWAY. SINCE HE IS LEAVING ALL I CAN DO IS SPEND TIME WITH HIM WHEN HE IS HERE AND KEEP IN TOUCH WITH HIM WHEN HE IS GONE. MAYBE IN TIME SOMETHING WILL COME OF IT AND IF NOT THEN I WILL HAVE A GREAT FRIEND THAT IS FUN TO HANG OUT WITH.

March 19, 2009

CHARLES MANSON

HE STILL LOOKS LIKE A CREEEPY PERSON! THIS IS THE NEWEST PICTURE OF HIM TO ONE WHEN HE WAS ARRESTED!

STREP

WELL I WENT TO THE DOCTORS YESTERDAY AND HE TOLD ME THAT I HAVE STREP! IT IS NICE TO KNOW WHAT IS WRONG BUT STREP HURTS ALOT! I KNEW SOMETHING WAS WRONG BUT I WAS HOPING IT WAS JUST A SORE THROAT. OH WELL THEY HAVE ME ON ANTIBIOTICS FOR TEN DAYS AND I HOPE THAT THIS WILL GO AWAY IF NOT THEN I HAVE TO GO BACK AND SEE THE DOCTOR AGAIN. SO LETS ALL HOPE THAT THIS ANTIBIOTIC WORKS AND GETS RID OF IT. I AM IN SO MUCH PAIN IT IS A JOKE.

March 18, 2009

INFUSIONS

WELL I GOT GOOD NEWS YESTERDAY! I FOUND OUT THAT I AM STARTING MY INFUSIONS AGAIN ON THE 27TH OF MARCH! I AM SO HAPPY FOR THAT. I AM ALSO SCARED BECAUSE I DON'T KNOW WHAT WILL HAPPEN AND I HOPE THAT I DON'T HAVE AN ALLERGIC REACTION TO THE MEDICATION. ALL I CAN DO IS WAIT AND SEE WHAT HAPPENS I KNOW THAT I AM GOING TO GO IN WITH A LOT OF BENDRYL IN MY SYSTEM TO TRY AND STOP THE REACTION IF IT IS GOING TO HAPPEN. NOW I HAVE TO FIGURE OUT TO PAY FOR THE COST OF THE INFUSION. I AM SURE I WILL BE ABLE TO FIGURE OUT HOW TO PAY FOR IT.
I AM GETTING SO SICK AND I WISH THAT I COULD GO HOME BUT BECAUSE MISTI IS GONE I CAN'T LEAVE. I WOULD FEEL BAD LEAVING MICKEY HERE ALL ALONE. SO I WILL STICK IT OUT AND GO TO INSTA-CARE AFTER WORK. MY GLANDS ARE SO SWOLLEN THAT IT IS GETTING HARD TO SWALLOW. I AM TAKING IBUPROFEN LIKE THEY ARE CANDY. WHICH ISN'T GOOD FOR MY LIVER BUT IT IS THE ONLY WAY I CAN KEEP WORKING. I ALSO HAVE TO GET OVER THIS BY THE 27TH OR I CAN'T HAVE MY INFUSION. SO I AM DOING EVERYTHING IN MY POWER TO GET BETTER AND OVER THIS BY THE 27TH. I KNOW I CAN SO I AM TRYING TO TAKE AS MANY VITAMINS AS I CAN SO THAT I CAN GET OVER THIS COLD QUICKLY.
THE GIRLS ARE LOVING THIS WARMER WEATHER. THEY ARE OUTSIDE ALL THE TIME AND DON'T WANT TO COME IN AT NIGHT ANYMORE. I DON'T CARE WHAT THEY DO AS LONG AS I DON'T EVER FIND THEM OUT OF THE YARD. THEY CAN STAY OUT TIL ALL HOURS OF THE NIGHT FOR ALL I CARE. THEY ARE GROWN UP NOW. THEY ARE BOTH GOING POTTY OUTSIDE NOW. WHICH IS REALLY GOOD BECAUSE THAT MEANS I DON'T HAVE TO CLEAN THE LITTER BOXES AS MUCH.

20 THINGS YOU DIDN'T KNOW ABOUT...SLEEP

The official world record for staying awake, possible killers lurking in our mattresses, a continent's war against naps and more .
By Jason Stahl
Provided by Discover Magazine

1. Chronic snoring can be treated by uvulopalatopharyngoplasty, a surgical procedure that tightens the tissues of the soft palate and throat. Possible side effects include changes in voice frequency.
2. Another option involves injecting the palate with a chemical to harden the soft tissue. This is called a snoroplasty, derived from the Greek word "plastos," meaning "molded," and somewhat lamely from the English word snore, meaning "snore."
3. Baaaad idea: A 2002 study by Oxford University researchers concluded, brilliantly, that the traditional practice of counting sheep is an ineffective cure for insomnia. The mental activity is so boring that other problems and concerns inevitably surface.
4. Mattresses have an average life span of eight to 10 years. They grow some nasty stuff in that time; one study links mattress bacteria to sudden infant death syndrome.
5. An adult bed bug can survive up to one year without feeding.
6. In 2004, Americans filled more than 35 million prescriptions for sleeping pills. The number of adults aged 20 to 44 taking pills to help them fall asleep has doubled in the last four years.
7. More than 100,000 car crashes in the United States each year result from drowsiness. Drivers talking on cell phones increase the rate by 6 percent, so don't call someone if you get tired.
8. Your alarm is set for 6 a.m. -- why do you wake up at 5:59 a.m.? The body's internal alarm clock, which enables some people to wake up naturally at the time they desire, is triggered by the stress hormone adrenocorticotropin. The levels of this hormone begin to rise an hour or two before an expected wake-up call, to prepare the body gradually for the stress of waking up.
9. A six-year study of a million adults showed that people who get only six to seven hours of sleep a night have a lower death rate than those who get eight hours. Maybe it's those late nights watching QVC.
10. In 1964, 17-year-old Randy Gardner stayed awake for 264 hours and 12 minutes, the officially recognized world record. He then slept for 15 hours -- not a record, but not bad.
Never Stop Learning
11. Let's sleep on it first: In a gesture of integration with the European Union, Spain has launched a campaign to eliminate the tradition of siestas, or afternoon naps.
12. Thanks in part to their afternoon naps, Spaniards sleep an average of 40 minutes less per night than other Europeans. Spain also has the highest rate of workplace accidents in the EU and the third lowest productivity rate.
13. Who knew it was that easy? A Muslim couple in India is being forced to split up after the husband uttered the word "talaq," the Arabic word for divorce, three times in his sleep. According to Muslim law, the "triple talaq" is an actual divorce.
14. The idea that it is dangerous to wake a sleepwalker is a myth. Given the things sleepwalkers get up to do, like climb roofs and fix insanely large sandwiches, it is probably more risky not to wake them.
15. Whales and dolphins can literally fall half asleep. Their brain hemispheres alternate sleeping, so the animals can continue to surface and breathe.
16. Dreaming is related to bursts of electrical activity that blow through the brain stem every 90 minutes during REM sleep. Over a lifetime, an average person spends more than six years dreaming, clocking more than 136,000 dreams in all.
17. But nobody knows why we dream.
18. Hey, be glad she doesn't have a telethon: More than 5 million American children suffer from nocturnal enuresis, better known as bed wetting. Actress Suzanne Somers used to be one of them, according to her autobiography.
19. Somniphobia is the fear of sleep.
20. So far, there are no known celebrity somniphobes.

March 16, 2009

RAMDLINGS OF THE DAY

WELL IT IS MONDAY AND I AM SO EXCITE FOR THAT. I AM HOPING THAT THIS WEEK DOESN'T HAVE AS MUCH DRAMA IN IT AS LAST WEEK DID BUT I AM GUESSING THAT IT DOES. MISTI IS GOING TO LAS VEGAS WITH RON AND I KNOW IT IS A BAD CHOICE. I KNOW THAT THINGS WILL GET BAD WITH HER AND RON AND HE COULD HURT HER. BUT LIKE I ALWAYS TELL HER SHE IS AN ADULT AND CAN DO WHAT EVER SHE WANTS TO DO. I WILL BE AROUND TO PICK UP THE PIECES LIKE I ALWAYS DO. I WISH SHE WOULD LEARN THAT SHE DESERVES BETTER BUT SHE HASN'T LEARNED IT YET. ALL I CAN IS PICK UP THE PIECES AND HOPE ONE DAY SHE LEARNS THAT SHE DESERVES BETTER.
LAST NIGHT I LEFT ELINORE OUTSIDE TIL LIKE 4 IN THE MORNING. I FELT SO BAD WHEN I REMEMBER THAT SHE WAS OUTSIDE. SHE WAS STILL MAD AT ME THIS MORNING WHEN I GOT UP. OH WELL IT TENDS TO HAPPEN MORE THAN NOT LATELY. I AM FINDING THAT I AM GETTING MORE PREOCCUPIED NOW. I CAN'T SEEM TO FOCUS ON ANYTHING I FIND THAT I AM GOING IN TEN DIFFERENT DIRECTIONS ALL THE TIME. ANYWAY I GUESS SYLVIA WAS OUT UNTIL MIDNIGHT. THEY ARE BOTH GOING OUTSIDE AGAIN WHICH IS OK WITH ME BECAUSE THEY GO POTTY OUTSIDE AND I DON'T HAVE TO CLEAN LITTER BOXES. THAT IS THE ONLY THING I HATE ABOUT HAVING INSIDE CATS. OH WELL I DO IT BECAUSE IT HAS TO GET IT DONE. I WILL DO IT BECAUSE I LOVE MY CATS THEY ARE THE ONLY THING THAT MAKES ME SMILE ANYMORE.
I AM STILL STRUGGLING WITH LIFE RIGHT NOW. I FEEL LIKE I AM ALL ALONE AND NOW THAT MISTI WILL BE GONE I REALLY AM ALL ALONE. OH WELL I GUESS THAT IS LIFE AND I GUESS THIS IS WHAT I HAVE TO DO. I SHOULD BE USED TO GOING THROUGH LIFE ALONE BUT I GUESS I AM LEANING ON PEOPLE TO MUCH ANYMORE. I NEED TO GET BACK TO ONLY DEPENDING ON MYSELF. I GUESS THAT IS LIFE THOUGH. PEOPLE WILL COME AND GO. I HOPE THAT ONE DAY I WILL BE OK AND THAT THE PAIN I AM FEELING WILL GO AWAY.
I GOT AN EMAIL FROM MY MOTHER YESTERDAY. AFTER I GOT DONE READING I REALIZED THAT I AM NOT GOING TO HAVE A RELATIONSHIP WITH HER. SHE DOESN'T GET IT AND THE WHOLE E-MAIL WAS FILLED WITH EXCUSES AND REASON WHY SHE IGNORES ME. I AM SO OVER EXCUSES. SHE NEEDS TO JUST BE HONEST AND SAY SHE DOESN'T WANT ANYTHING TO DO WITH US. SHE NEVER WILL SAY IT THOUGH SO I WILL SAY IT FOR HER. I AM DONE TRYING WITH HER. NOW AS FOR MY DAD I DON'T KNOW WHAT I AM GOING TO DO WITH HIM. I HAVEN'T DECIDED YET WHAT THE RIGHT MOVE FOR ME IS YET. I THINK I NEED TO TAKE TIME AWAY AND FIGURE OUT WHAT I WANT TO DO.
MY LITTLE BROTHER COMES HOME TODAY. I AM NOT EXCITED FOR THAT. HE WILL BE FULL OF DRAMA AND MAKE LIFE A LIVING HELL FOR ME. HE CAN'T EVER SEEM TO BE NICE TO ANYONE. HE ALSO HASN'T BEEN TAKING HIS HAPPY PILLS SO THAT MEANS HE WILL BE EVEN WORSE. OH WELL HE DOES LIVE THERE SO I GUESS I HAVE TO RESPECT THAT AND JUST NOT GIVE HIM A REACTION WHEN HE IS ACTING LIKE A JACKASS.

March 15, 2009

A LONG HARD WEEKEND

THIS WEEKEND HAS BEEN REALLY REALLY LONG. I WAS HOPING FOR A STRESS FREE WEEKEND BUT IT DIDN'T END UP THAT WAY. IT SEEMED LIKE THE STRESS OF THE WEEK JUST KEPT UP THIS WEEKEND. I AM SO CONFUSED AS WHAT I WANT WITH MY PARENTS AND WHERE I THINK THINGS SHOULD GO. I AM CONFUSED AND SCARED I GUESS. I KNOW I HAVE TO OVER THE HURT AND ANGER THAT I HAVE FOR THEM BUT THAT AT TIMES IS EASIER SAID THAN DONE. I AM NOT SURE THAT HAVING THEM IN MY LIFE IS THE BEST THING FOR ME. I HAVE FOUND THAT LATELY I AM GETTING ANGRY AND UPSET OVER THEM. I GUESS I AM SAD THAT MY MOTHER WANTS NOTHING TO DO WITH ME AND THAT MY DAD IS TRYING BUT I HAVE ISSUES WITH FEAR WHEN IT COMES TO MY DAD. I AM TRYING TO LET THE FEAR THAT I HAVE GO BUT AT TIMES IT CONSUMES ME. I AM NOT SURE WHAT WILL HAPPEN WITH THEM BUT FOR NOW I HAVE STEPPED BACK TO TRY AND FIGURE OUT WHAT IS GOING ON IN MY HEAD.
I AM ALSO FEELING LIKE I DON'T BELONG ANYWHERE IN THIS WORLD. I FEEL VERY UNLOVED AND UNCARED ABOUT. MY MARRIAGE FAILED AND MY PARENTS DON'T WANT ME AND MY GRANDPARENTS NEVER WANTED ME AROUND. I FEEL LIKE NO ONE HAS WANTED ME AROUND. I KNOW THAT PEOPLE LIKE MISTI WANT ME AROUND BUT I REALLY WOULD LOVE MY OWN FAMILY TO WANT ME AROUND. MAYBE THEY NEVER WILL MAYBE I AM MEANT TO FIGURE IT OUT ON MY OWN AND FIND MY OWN FAMILY. I AM GETTING THE FEELING THAT I NEED TO GET OUT OF UTAH AND GO SOMEWHERE WHERE I CAN FIGURE THINGS OUT ON MY OWN. I SO BADLY WISH THAT I COULD JUST START OVER AND THAT PEOPLE WOULDN'T JUDGE ME BECAUSE OF MY PAST AND THE MISTAKES THAT I HAVE MADE. EVERYONE MAKES THEM BUT I HAVE ALWAYS FELT THAT I AM JUDGE DIFFERENTLY THEN OTHERS HAVE BEEN JUDGE.

March 12, 2009

ACCORDING TO WEBSTER

ADULT: A person who has stopped growing at both ends and is now growing in the middle.
BEAUTY PARLOR: A place where women curl up and dye.
CANNIBAL: Someone who is fed up with people.
CHICKENS: The only animals you eat before they are born and also after they're dead.
COMMITTEE: A body that keeps minutes and wastes hours.
DUST: Mud with the juice squeezed out.
EGOTIST: Someone who is usually me-deep in conversation.
HANDKERCHIEF: Cold storage.
INFLATION: Cutting money in half without damaging the paper.
MOSQUITO: An insect that makes you appreciate flies.
RAISIN: A grape with a sunburn.
SECRET: Something you tell one person at a time.
SKELETON: A bunch of bones with the person scraped off.
TOOTHACHE: The pain that drives you to extraction.
TOMORROW: One of the greatest labor saving devices of today.
YAWN: An honest opinion openly expressed.
WRINKLES: Something other people have, **similar to my character lines.

RJ & JOSH

IT IS THURSDAY! ONE DAY CLOSER TO THE MUCH NEEDED WEEKEND. AFTER SEEING JOSH TODAY FOR A FEW MINUTES I REALLY REALLY NEED A WEEKEND. IT WAS OK WHEN I SAW HIM BUT IT SUCKED WHEN HE LEFT. I GUESS IT WILL STILL HURT WHEN I SEE HIM AT LEAST FOR A LITTLE WHILE OR MAYBE IT WILL ALWAYS SUCK SEEING HIM. I JUST WISH THAT I WAS OFF WORK TODAY SO THAT I COULD JUST BE ME! I ALSO KNOW THAT I HAVE TO WORK SO I WILL JUST HAVE TO DEAL WITH IT AT WORK. I THINK I NEED TO TAKE A DAY OFF OF WORK ASAP. I AM GOING CRAZY BEING HERE. IT AMAZES ME HOW JOSH CAN TOTALLY RUIN MY DAY. I WAS DOING OK TODAY AND NOW I FEEL LIKE I JUST WANNA GO HOME AND HIDE IN BED. I GUESS THIS IS WHAT GOING THROUGH THE DIVORCE IS LIKE. I GUESS I HAVE IT EASIER BECAUSE JOSH IS HARDLY EVER HERE SO I DON'T HAVE TO SEE HIM VERY OFTEN. IN FACT THIS WAS THE FIRST TIME SINCE HE CAME TO GET ALL OF HIS STUFF. SO I LUCK OUT IN THAT DEPARTMENT BUT THEN AGAIN IF I SAW HIM MORE MAYBE IT WOULDN'T BE SO HARD WHEN I SEE HIM AT THIS POINT. I GOT TO SEE RJ THOUGH AND HE WAS SO LITTLE AND SO CUTE. HE REMINDED ME SO MUCH OF REX. IT IS WEIRD TO THINK THAT THERE IS ANOTHER DOG THAT LOOKS SO MUCH LIKE REX. JOSH HAS GAINED ALOT OF WEIGHT. I WAS SHOCKED WHEN I SAW HIM. GUESS HE DOESN'T CARE THAT HE IS GOING TO DIE YOUNG. I GUESS THAT IS HIS CHOICE NOT MINE. HE HAS ALSO STARTED SMOKING AGAIN. OH WAIT HE NEVER DID STOP SMOKING. ANYWAYS THAT IS ALL I HAVE TO SAY FOR NOW!

MOTHER

Real Mothers don't eat quiche;they don't have time to make it.
Real Mothers know that their kitchen utensilsare probably in the sandbox.
Real Mothers often have sticky floors,filthy ovens and happy kids.
Real Mothers know that dried play doughdoesn't come out of carpets.
Real Mothers don't want to know whatthe vacuum just sucked up.
Real Mothers sometimes ask 'Why me?'and get their answer when a little voice says, 'Because I love you best.'
Real Mothers know that a child's growth is not measured by height or years or grade...It is marked by the progression of Mommy to Mom to Mother...
The Images of Mother
4 YEARS OF AGE - My Mommy can do anything!
8 YEARS OF AGE - My Mom knows a lot! A whole lot!
12 YEARS OF AGE - My Mother doesn't really know quite everything.
14 YEARS OF AGE - Naturally, Mother doesn't know that, either.
16 YEARS OF AGE - Mother? She's hopelessly old-fashioned.
18 YEARS OF AGE - That old woman? She's way out of date!
25 YEARS OF AGE - Well, she might know a little bit about it!
35 YEARS OF AGE - Before we decide, let's get Mom's opinion.
45 YEARS OF AGE - Wonder what Mom would have thought about it?
65 YEARS OF AGE - Wish I could talk it over with Mom.
The beauty of a woman is not in the clothes she wears, the figure that she carries, or the way she combs her hair.The beauty of a woman must be seen from in her eyes, because that is the doorway to her heart, the place where love resides. The beauty of a woman is not in a facial mole, but true beauty in a woman is reflected in her soul. It is the caring that she lovingly gives, the passion that she shows, and the beauty of a woman with passing years only grows!

March 11, 2009

HALF WAY THROUGH THE WEEK

IT IS FINALLY WEDNESDAY! I AM SO EXCITED THAT THE WEEK IS HALF OVER. IT HAS BEEN A REALLY REALLY LONG WEEK. IT CAN'T COME TO AN END SOON ENOUGH. THIS IS JUST ONE OF THOSE WEEKS THAT SEEMS TO LAST FOREVER. I HATE WEEKS LIKE THIS. I HATE HOW THE DRAG AND HOW NOTHING SEEMS TO GO RIGHT. IT DEFINITELY SEEMS LIKE IT SHOULD BE FRIDAY. I AM FINDING THAT AS WE SLOW DOWN THE DAYS SEEM TO DRAG. OH WELL AT LEAST I HAVE A JOB AND I AM MAKING SOME MONEY. IT COULD ALWAYS BE WORSE THAT IS FOR SURE. I COULD NOT HAVE A JOB AND NO WAY TO PAY MY BILLS.
I AM SO READY FOR IT TO BE SPRING. I CAN'T TAKE ANYMORE SNOW THIS YEAR. I AM TIRED OF THE COLD AND OF THE WET WEATHER. IT IS TIME FOR IT TO BE SPRING. I DON'T WANT SUMMER TO COME BECAUSE IT GETS TO HOT BUT SPRING IS GREAT. I LOVE SPRING AND FALL. THE OTHER TWO SEASONS CAN JUST BE DONE AWAY WITH. I NEED TO FIND A STATE THAT IS ALWAYS LIKE SPRING AND FALL. IF ANYONE HAS ANY IDEAS LET ME KNOW.
THE GIRLS ARE LOVING THE WARMER WEATHER. THE LAST TIME IT SNOWED SYLVIA WAS OUT THERE TRYING TO EAT ALL OF THE SNOW. IT WAS SO FUNNY I GUESS SHE FIGURED THAT SHE COULD EAT ALL OF IT, AND MAKE IT GO AWAY. ELINORE IS ACTING LIKE PEOPLE ARE HITTING HER ALL OF THE TIME AGAIN. I AM NOT SURE WHAT IS GOING ON WITH HER. I WISH SHE COULD JUST BE A NORMAL CAT BUT I KNOW THAT SHE NEVER WILL BE NORMAL.

SHOOTTING IN GERMANY

I WONDER WHAT MAKES KIDS DECIDED THEY NEED TO GO ON A SHOOTING SPREE AND KILL PEOPLE. I GUESS IT IS SOMETHING THAT I WILL NEVER UNDERSTAND.
WINNENDEN, Germany - Police say a girl seriously injured in a school shooting near Stuttgart has died of her wounds in the hospital, bringing the death toll to 17, including the gunman.
Police say 17-year-old Tim K., a former student who graduated from the Albertville high school last year, opened fire in two classrooms early Wednesday morning before fleeing.
He hijacked a car, triggering a manhunt, and was found in a nearby town where he was confronted by police and killed in the ensuing shootout.
The death toll brings the killing on par with Germany's worst school shooting ever, when a 19-year-old killed 12 teachers, a secretary, two students and a police officer and himself in Erfurt in 2002.
THIS IS A BREAKING NEWS UPDATE. Check back soon for further information. AP's earlier story is below.
WINNENDEN, Germany (AP) — A 17-year-old gunman dressed in black opened fire at his former high school in southwestern Germany on Wednesday then fled in a hijacked car, killing at least 15 people before police shot him to death, state officials said.
The gunman entered the school in Winnenden and opened fire, shooting at random, police said. He killed nine students, three teachers and a passer-by outside the building, officials said.
"He went into the school with a weapon and carried out a bloodbath," said regional police chief Erwin Hetger. "I've never seen anything like this in my life."
Triggering a land and air manhunt, he hijacked a car, freed the passengers and drove about 25 miles (40 kilometers) before police found him. When confronted, he killed two bystanders in a shootout with police before he was slain, Baden Wuerttemburg governor Guenther Oettinger said. Two officers were seriously injured, but there was no immediate information on other casualties.
Four hours after the shootings began, police announced the teenager's death.
It was the nation's worst shooting since another teenage gunman killed 16 people and himself in another high school in 2002.
Concerned parents quickly swarmed the school, which was evacuated.
Police have have identified the gunman only as Tim K, who graduated last year from the school of about 1,000 students.
The German government was "deeply shocked and incensed about the appalling killing spree," Ulrich Wilhelm, a spokesman for Chancellor Angela Merkel, said in Berlin.
In 2002, 19-year-old Robert Steinhaeuser shot and killed 12 teachers, a secretary, two students and a police officer before turning his gun on himself in the Gutenberg high school in Erfurt, in eastern Germany.
Steinhaeuser, who had been expelled for forging a doctor's note, was a gun club member licensed to own weapons. The attack led Germany to raise the age for owning recreational firearms from 18 to 21.

March 10, 2009

THE WHY'S OF MEN

1. WHY DO MEN BECOME SMARTER DURING SEX?

(because they are plugged into a genius)

2. WHY DON'T WOMEN BLINK DURING SEX?

(they don't have enough time)

3. WHY DOES IT TAKE 1 MILLION SPERM TO FERTILIZE ONE EGG?

(they don't stop to ask directions)

4. WHY DO MEN SNORE WHEN THEY LIE ON THEIR BACKS?

(because their balls fall over their butt-hole and they vapor lock)

(You're laughing, aren't you?!?!)

5. WHY WERE MEN GIVEN LARGER BRAINS THAN DOGS?

(so they won't hump women's legs at cocktails parties)

6. WHY DID GOD MAKE MEN BEFORE WOMEN?

(you need a rough draft before you make a final copy)

7. HOW MANY MEN DOES IT TAKE TO PUT A TOILET SEAT DOWN?

(don't know.....it never happened)
( C'mon guys, we laugh at your blonde jokes!)

And the personal favorite:

8. WHY DID GOD PUT MEN ON EARTH?

(because a vibrator can't mow the lawn)

Remember, if you haven't got a smile on your face and laughter in your heart...Then you are just an old sour fart!
One day my housework-challenged husband decided to wash his Sweat-shirt Seconds after he stepped into the laundry room, he shouted to me, 'What setting do I use on the washing machine?' 'It depends,' I replied. 'What does it say on your shirt?' He yelled back, ' University of Oklahoma .'And they say blondes are dumb...
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A couple is lying in bed. The man says, 'I am going to make you the happiest woman in the world.' The woman replies, 'I'll miss you...'
---------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- 'It's just too hot to wear clothes today,' Jack says as he stepped out of the shower, 'honey, what do you think the neighbors would think if I mowed the lawn like this?' 'Probably that I married you for your money,' she replied.
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Q: What do you call an intelligent, good looking, sensitive man?
A: A rumor
---------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Dear Lord,I pray for Wisdom to understand my man; Love to forgive him; And Patience for his moods. Because, Lord, if I pray for Strength, I'll beat him to death. AMEN
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Q: Why do little boys whine?
A: They are practicing to be men.
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Q: What does it mean when a man is in your bed gasping for breath and calling your name?
A: You did not hold the pillow down long enough.
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Q: How do you keep your husband from reading your e-mail?
A: Rename the mail folder 'Instruction Manual.'
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GUN CONTROL

This may interest you. My old grandpa said to me son,' there comes a time in every man's life when he stops bustin' knuckles and starts bustin' caps and usually it's when he becomes too old to take a whoopin'.
I don't carry a gun to kill people.
I carry a gun to keep from being killed.
I don't carry a gun to scare people.
I carry a gun because sometimes this world can be a scary place.
I don't carry a gun because I'm paranoid.
I carry a gun because there are real threats in the world.
I don't carry a gun because I'm evil.
I carry a gun because I have lived long enough to see the evil in the world.
I don't carry a gun because I hate the government.
I carry a gun because I understand the limitations of government.
I don't carry a gun because I'm angry.
I carry a gun so that I don't have to spend the rest of my life hating myself for failing to be prepared.
I don't carry a gun because I want to shoot someone.
I carry a gun because I want to die at a ripe old age in my bed, and not on a sidewalk somewhere tomorrow afternoon.
I don't carry a gun because I'm a cowboy.
I carry a gun because, when I die and go to heaven, I want to be a cowboy.
I don't carry a gun to make me feel like a man.
I carry a gun because men know how to take care of themselves and the ones they love.
I don't carry a gun because I feel inadequate.
I carry a gun because unarmed and facing three armed thugs, I am inadequate.
I don't carry a gun because I love it.
I carry a gun because I love life and the people who make it meaningful to me.
Police Protection is an oxymoron. Free citizens must protect themselves. Police do not protect you from crime, they usually just investigate the crime after it happens and then call someone in to clean up the mess. Personally, I carry a gun because I'm too young to die and too old to take a whoopin

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A LITTLE GUN HISTORY

In 1929, the Soviet Union established gun control. From 1929 to 1953, about 20 million dissidents, unable to defend themselves, were rounded up and exterminated.

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In 1911, Turkey established gun control. From 1915 to 1917, 1.5 million Armenians, unable to defend themselves, were rounded up and exterminated.

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Germany established gun control in 1938 and from 1939 to 1945, a total of 13 million Jews and others who were unable to defend themselves were rounded up and exterminated.

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China established gun control in 1935. From 1948 to 1952, 20 million political dissidents, unable to defend themselves, were rounded up and exterminated

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Guatemala established gun control in 1964. From 1964 to 1981, 100,000 Mayan Indians, unable to defend themselves, were rounded up and exterminated.

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Uganda established gun control in 1970. From 1971 to 1979, 300,000> Christians, unable to defend themselves, were rounded up and exterminated.

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Cambodia established gun control in 1956. From 1975 to 1977, one million educated people, unable to defend themselves, were rounded up and exterminated.

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Defenseless people rounded up and exterminated in the 20th Century because of gun control: 56 million.

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It has now been 12 months since gun owners in Australia were forced by> new law to surrender 640,381 personal firearms to be destroyed by their own Government, a program costing Australia taxpayers more than $500 million dollars.

The first year results are now in:

List of 7 items:

Australia-wide, homicides are up 3.2 percent.

Australia-wide, assaults are up 8.6 percent.

Australia-wide, armed robberies are up 44 percent (yes, 44 percent)!

In the state of Victoria alone, homicides with firearms are now up 300> percent. Note that while the law-abiding citizens turned them in, the criminals did not, and criminals still possess their guns!

While figures over the previous 25 years showed a steady decrease in armed robbery with firearms, this has changed drastically upward in the past 12 months, since criminals now are guaranteed that their prey is unarmed.

There has also been a dramatic increase in break-ins and assaults of the ELDERLY. Australian politicians are at a loss to explain how public safety has decreased, after such monumental effort, and expense was expended in successfully ridding Australian society of guns. The Australian experience and the other historical facts above prove it.

You won't see this data on the US evening news, or hear politicians disseminating this information.

Guns in the hands of honest citizens save lives and property and, yes, gun-control laws adversely affect only the law-abiding citizens.

Take note my fellow Americans, before it's too late!

The next time someone talks in favor of gun control, please remind them of this history lesson.

With guns, we are 'citizens'. Without them, we are 'subjects'.

During WWII the Japanese decided not to invade America because they knew most Americans were ARMED! If you value your freedom, please spread this anti-gun control message to all of your friends.

The purpose of fighting is to win. There is no possible victory in defense. The sword is more important than the shield, and skill is more important than either. The final weapon is the brain.. All else is supplemental.

SWITZERLAND ISSUES EVERY HOUSEHOLD A GUN! SWITZERLAND 'S GOVERNMENT TRAINS EVERY ADULT THEY ISSUE A RIFLE. SWITZERLAND HAS THE LOWEST GUN RELATED CRIME RATE OF ANY CIVILIZED COUNTRY IN THE WORLD!!!

IT'S A NO BRAINER! DON'T LET OUR GOVERNMENT WASTE MILLIONS OF OUR TAX DOLLARS IN AN EFFORT TO MAKE ALL LAW ABIDING CITIZENS AN EASY TARGET.

TUESDAY

WELL IT IS TUESDAY AND I AM STILL TIRED. OH WELL I WILL SURVIVE I WEIGHED MYSELF TODAY AND WANTED TO DIE. I HAVE GAINED A LOT OF WEIGHT. I HAVE GAINED SO MUCH THAT I AM NOT EVEN GOING TO POST A NUMBER. ALL I KNOW IS I AM BACK TO EATING RIGHT AND I AM GOING TO START WALKING AGAIN. I REFUSE TO WEIGH AS MUCH AS I DO. I AM GOING TO JUST EAT CELERY BECAUSE IT TAKES MORE CALORIES TO EAT IT THEN YOU GET FROM IT. I HATE IT WHEN I FEEL FAT LIKE I DO. IT TOTALLY RUINS MY WEEK. I THINK I AM NOT GOING TO WEIGH MYSELF FOR AWHILE SO THAT I DON'T KNOW WHERE I AM AT THAT WAY IT WON'T RUIN MY WEEK. MAYBE I SHOULD NEVER WEIGH MYSELF. I TEND TO GET STUCK ON NUMBERS AND I GET UPSET IF THE NUMBER IS TO HIGH. I THINK IT MIGHT BE BETTER IF I DON'T WEIGH MYSELF AND JUST GO OFF OF HOW I LOOK. I AM JUST TIRED OF MY CLOTHES NOT FITTING RIGHT. I FEEL LIKE WHEN I LOOK AROUND THAT I AM HUGE. I WISH THAT I COULD BE SKINNY BUT I DON'T KNOW THAT I WOULD EVER BE ABLE TO BE SKINNY. I GUESS IT IS THE TIDWELL CURSE!
ONE OF THE GIRLS THREW UP LAST NIGHT. WE AREN'T SURE WHICH ONE IT WAS BUT I AM THINKING IT WAS SYLVIA. YOU NEVER KNOW WHO IT WAS WHEN YOU HAVE 3 CATS. THE GIRLS ARE BEING OK I GUESS. SYLVIA HAS A BAD HABIT OF GETTING ON THE COUNTER AND TRYING TO EAT HUMAN FOOD. WHICH MAKES HER THROW UP. I WISH THAT MY GRANDPARENTS WOULDN'T LET THEM ON THE COUNTER, BUT THEY DON'T EVER LISTEN TO ME. THEY WONDER WHY THE GIRLS ONLY LISTEN TO ME ANYMORE. IT IS A JOKE THAT IS FOR SURE. THEY NEED TO DISCIPLINE THEM AND NOT LET THEM DO WHATEVER THEY WANT.
YESTERDAY WAS MY UNCLE RUSSELL'S FUNERAL. I DIDN'T GO BECAUSE I DON'T LIKE FUNERALS. MY GRANDMA SAYS THAT MY GRANDPA WAS SAD AT FIRST BUT BETTER BY THE TIME IT WAS OVER. LAST NIGHT WHEN I GOT HOME HE SEEMED OK. HE WAS A LITTLE SAD BUT OTHER THAN THAT HE WAS OK. I HAS TO BE HARD WHEN YOUR LITTLE BROTHER DIES. I COULDN'T IMAGINE WHAT IT WILL FEEL LIKE WHEN MY BROTHER DIES, BUT DEATH IS A NATURAL PART OF LIFE. I GUESS I HAVE A DIFFERENT VIEW ON DEATH BECAUSE I WORKED IN THE NURSING HOME AND WAS AROUND IT SO MUCH.

March 9, 2009

CRACKED POT FRIENDS

I love this - I hope you do to.
An elderly Chinese woman had two large pots, each hung on the ends of a pole which she carried across her neck. One of the pots had a crack in it while the other pot was perfect and always delivered a full portion of water. At the end of the long walks from the stream to the house, the cracked pot arrived only half full.
For a full two years this went on daily, with the woman bringing home only one and a half pots of water. Of course, the perfect pot was proud of its accomplishments. But the poor cracked pot was ashamed of its own imperfection, and miserable that it could only do half of what it had been made to do. After two years of what it perceived to be bitter failure, it spoke to the woman one day by the stream. 'I am ashamed of myself, because this crack in my side causes water to leak out all the way back to your house.' The old wom an smiled, 'Did you notice that there are flowers on your side of the path, but not on the other pot's side?' 'That's because I have always known about your flaw, so I planted flower seeds on your side of the path, and every day while we walk back, you water them.' 'For two years I have been able to pick these beautiful flowers to decorate the table. Without you being just the way you are, there would not be this beauty to grace the house.' Each of us has our own unique flaw. But it's the cracks and flaws we each have that make our lives together so very interesting and rewarding. You've just got to take each person for what they are and look for the good in them. SO, to all of my cracked pot friends, have a great day and remember to smell the flowers on your side of the path!

RANDOM THOUGHTS OF THE DAY

I FEEL HUNG OVER TODAY. IT IS FROM MY MEDICATION THAT I TAKE AT NIGHTS. I HADN'T TAKEN IT FOR 2 DAYS SO THE AFFECT IS STRONGER THAN USUAL. I ALSO AM NO LONGER DRINKING CAFFINE SO THAT ISN'T HELPING. THE PAST COUPLE OF WEEKS I HAVE HAD ONE IN THE MORNING TO WAKE ME UP BUT I HAVE GAINED WEIGHT SO I AM NO LONGER GOING TO DRINK SODAS. SO I WILL JUST HAVE TO BE TIRED ALL DAY LONG. AT SOME POINT I WILL WAKE UP. I AM ALSO BACK ON MY DIET. NO MORE FAST FOOD AND NO SODAS. I AM ALSO GOING TO CUT OUT THE CHIPS WHEN I FINISH THE ONES THAT I HAVE. SO I AM HOPING THAT ONE DAY I WILL LOSE ALL THE WEIGHT THAT I WANT TO AND KEEP IT OFF. I KNOW I CAN I JUST HAVE TO WORK AT IT.
THE GIRLS ARE BEING CRAZY AGAIN. THEY ARE DOING THINGS JUST TO GET ATTENTION I THINK. THEY ARE DOING THE DUMBEST THINGS. FOR EXAPMLE ELINORE ON SATURDAY JUMPED INTO THE SLIDING GLASS DOOR ON PURPOSE. I DIED LAUGHING. SYLVIA IS BEING MEAN TO THE OTHER CATS. I AM ABOUT READY TO GET RID OF HER BECAUSE SHE CAN'T SEEM TO BE NICE TO ANYONE OR ANYTHING.
MY LITTLE BROTHER IS STILL IN RENO. I AM SO GLAD THAT HE IS GONE. IT IS A MUCH NEEDED BREAK FROM HIM. I COULDN'T STAND BEING MARRIED TO HIM. HE DOES THE DUMBEST THINGS ALL THE TIME. I GET SO TIRED OF HIM AND HIS STUPID ASS. HE REALLY NEEDS TO GROW UP AND REALIZE THAT THE WORLD DOESN'T REVOLVE AROUND HIM.
JOSH WILL BE HERE ON THURSDAY I GUESS. HE IS COMING IN TO JUST HANG OUT. I AM LIKE WTF. HE NEVER WANTED TO COME BEFORE AND NOW HE DOES. GO FIGURE I GUESS HE WANTS TO BE FRIENDS NOW. OH WELL I CAN BE FRIENDS WITH HIM. HE IS LETTING ME STAY ON HIS INSURANCE UNTIL MINE KICKS IN AND WILL COVER THE MS. SO HE ISN'T REALLY A BAD GUY. HE JUST TENDS TO GET ON MY NERVES EASILY.

A LOOK BACK




JOSH'S TRUCK AFTER THE ACCIDENT

THESE ARE PICTURES OF WHAT JOSH DID TO HIS TRUCK WHEN HE ROLLED IT. THOUGHT EVERYONE WOULD LIKE TO SEE WHAT HAPPENED. I KNOW CAN SEE WHY REX DIDN'T SURVIVE THE CRASH.







March 8, 2009

Russell Lewis Tidwell
1941 -2009
Russell Lewis Tidwell, loving husband, father and grandpa passed away March 5, 2009 in his wife's arms after a courageous battle with cancer.
He was born on May 11, 1941 to Gloyd H. and Iva Deane Tidwell. He graduated from American Fork High School. He honorably served in the United States Navy. He was a Journeyman in the Sheet Metal Union Local 312 for over 30 years.
He leaves behind his wife and loving companion, Lila Ann; children: Virginia (Travis), Linda (Tom), Paul (Alexis), and Debbie. His greatest pride and joy were his 14 grandchildren and 6 great grandchildren. He also leaves behind his siblings Carolyn, Bruce, Phil, John and Linda. He was preceded in death by his parents. He will be greatly missed by all those who knew him.
Graveside services for Russell will be held on Monday, March 9, 2009 at 12:00 noon in the American Fork City Cemetery. Family and friends may call on Monday morning from 10:00 to 11:30 a.m. prior at Warenski Funeral Home, 1776 North 900 East, American Fork, Utah.

March 5, 2009

UNCLE RUSSELL

MY UNCLE RUSSELL PASSED AWAY LAST NIGHT. WE ALL THOUGHT THAT HE HAD ANOTHER WEEK OR SO BUT I GUESS IT WAS HIS TIME TO GO. MY GRANDPA IS REALLY SAD ABOUT IT ALL BUT I WOULD BE WORRIED IF HE WASN'T SAD ABOUT IT. I DON'T THINK THEY ARE DOING A FUNERAL. MY GRANDMA SAID THAT THEY ARE JUST DOING A SMALL FAMILY VIEWING. THE FAMILY REUNIONS WILL BE WEIRD WITHOUT RUSSELL THERE. IT WILL ALWAYS FEEL LIKE SOMETHING IS MISSING. IT WAS SO MUCH FUN TO LISTEN TO THEM ALL TALK ABOUT GROWING UP. THEY ALWAYS HAD THE FUNNIEST STORY'S TO TELL. WE SURE DID A LOT OF LAUGHING EVERY YEAR. I CAN REMEMBER ONE YEAR WHEN THEY PUT CAROLYN IN A HIGH CHAIR. CAROLYN IS THE OLDEST CHILD AND SHE IS THE LITTLEST. SO THE BOYS DECIDED THAT IT WOULD BE FUNNY TO PUT HER IN A HIGH CHAIR. THE FUNNIEST THING ABOUT IT IS THAT SHE FIT! WE STILL TALK ABOUT IT EVERY YEAR. IT IS HARD TO BELIEVE THAT LIFE CHANGES SO QUICKLY. BUT EVERYONE HAS TO DIE.
ELINORE THREW UP LAST NIGHT AND SO DID SYLVIA. EVERY TIME I TURNED AROUND YESTERDAY IT SEEMED LIKE A CAT WAS THROWING UP. IT WAS A JOKE THAT IS FOR SURE. TONIGHT IT IS HAIRBALL MEDICATION NIGHT. THAT SHOULD MAKE THE NIGHT JUST GREAT! THEY HATE THE STUFF AND THEY FIGHT ME EVERY STEP OF THE WAY. I HAVE TO SNEAK UP ON THEM TO GET THEM TO TAKE IT, AND IF I DON'T WATCH SYLVIA SHE WILL SPIT IT OUT. OUR HOUSE IS ALWAYS A ZOO WHEN IT COMES TO DOING ANYTHING WITH THE GIRLS.
I AM SO MAD AT JOSH RIGHT NOW. I ASKED HIM ON MONDAY WHEN I GO PAID IF HE HAD MONEY TO PAY THE PHONE BILL AND HE TOLD ME YES. SO I MAIL MY TAXES AND FIGURED IT WOULD BE TIGHT TIL I GOT PAID AGAIN BUT OK BECAUSE JOSH HAD THE PHONE BILLS COVERED. WELL YESTERDAY NIGHT I GOT A CALL FROM HIM AND HE NEEDED ME TO PAY THE PHONE BILLS. SO NOW I AM TOTALLY BROKE UNTIL I GET PAID ON THE 16TH. THIS JUST REMINDED ME OF WHY I AM GETTING A DIVORCE! HE IS SO RUDE AND DUMB AT TIMES. I WONDER IF HE EVEN THINKS ABOUT THINGS WHEN I ASK HIM QUESTIONS. I AM SO GLAD THAT I WILL BE DONE WITH HIM SOON. I CAN'T TAKE MUCH MORE OF HIS SHIT. HE NOW OWES ME OVER $200. IT IS A JOKE. I AM SO TIRED OF HIM DOING STUPID THINGS AND NOT TELLING ME THE TRUTH. I COULD KILL HIM! HE NEVER CARES THOUGH HOW BROKE I AM. HE HAS NEVER CARED ABOUT HOW MUCH MONEY I HAVE. IN THE END IT COMES DOWN TO THE FACT THAT HE HAS NEVER CARED ABOUT ME AT ALL!
I AM GOING TO DINNER WITH MY DAD , HEATHER HIS WIFE, AND HER DAUGHTER APRIL. SO THAT SHOULD MAKE FOR AN INTERESTING DINNER. I AM BRINGING MISTI BECAUSE IS MY SUPPORT SYSTEM AND I DON'T KNOW THAT I COULD GO ALONE. IT IS GOING TO BE WEIRD FOR ME TO MET APRIL. I REALLY HAVE NO IDEA WHAT TO SAY TO HER. I KNOW SHE IS EXCITED TO MEET ME BUT I STILL DON'T KNOW WHAT TO SAY TO HER. I AM NERVOUS ABOUT GOING BUT I KNOW IT WILL BE GOOD FOR ME AND I ALSO KNOW THAT I HAVE TO AT LEAST TRY AND SEE WHERE ALL OF THIS LEADS. AT LEAST I AM TRYING UNLIKE MY BROTHER. I GUESS IN TIME HE WILL TRY OR HE MAY NEVER CARE. I DON'T THINK HE REMEMBERS MUCH ABOUT MY PARENTS SO IT DOESN'T REALLY MATTER TO HIM EITHER WAY IF HE SEES THEM. I WISH THAT MY MOM WOULD TAKE SOME INTEREST IN MY LIFE, BUT I GUESS THAT SHE DOESN'T NEED OR WANT US AROUND. I WILL NEVER UNDERSTAND HOW A MOTHER CAN JUST WALK AWAY FROM HER CHILDREN AND NOT MISS AND WORRY ABOUT THEM. I KNOW THAT I COULD NEVER DO WHAT MY MOM IS DOING TO ME TO BRITA. IT MAKES HER SEEM HEARTLESS!

March 4, 2009

SYLVIA

SO THIS IS A FEW DAYS LATE BUT I HAVE TO POST WHAT WE DID TO SYLVIA ON SUNDAY AFTERNOON. SO ON SUNDAY I WAS LOOKING AT SYLVIA AND I COULD TELL SHE REALLY REALLY NEEDED TO BE GROOMED, BUT BECAUSE I AM BROKE I CAN'T TAKE HER. SO I WENT AND GOT HER BRUSH AND WE DECIDED THAT WE WOULD TRY AND BRUSH HER. WELL IF YOU KNOW ANYTHING ABOUT SYLVIA THIS IDEA DIDN'T GO OVER TO WELL. SO MY GRANDMA GOT THE BRIGHT IDEA TO DUCK TAPE HER FRONT PAWS SO SHE COULDN'T SCRATCH US. THIS IDEA WORKED WONDERFULLY UNTIL WE GOT TO THE PART OF TAKING THE DUCK TAPE OFF. IT WAS OK UNTIL WE GOT TO THE TOES ON HER PAW AND THEN I REALIZED THAT THE TAPE WAS STUCK TO THE HAIR IN BETWEEN HER TOES. SO NEEDLESS SO SAY THIS GREAT IDEA TOOK MORE TIME TO UNDUE AND GET HER OUT OF THE DUCT TAPE THEN THE ACTUAL BRUSHING DID. SO NEVER AGAIN WILL WE USE DUCT TAPE ON HER PAWS WITH OUT WRAPPING HER PAWS WITH SOMETHING BEFORE HAND.

BURNING CAR

I SAW THE COOLEST THING YESTERDAY NIGHT ON MY WAY HOME. THERE WAS A CAR TOTALLY ENGULFED IN FLAMES. I COULDN'T TAKE A PICTURE BECAUSE THE FIRE TRUCK HAD JUST SHOWN UP. SO TRAFFIC WASN'T TOTALLY STOPPED YET AND I DIDN'T WANT TO GET IN AN ACCIDENT. BUT IT WAS AWESOME. I LOVE STUFF LIKE THAT. I WANTED TO BE A PARAMEDIC OR A FIREFIGHTER SO BAD BUT I CAN'T DO IT BECAUSE OF THE MS AND MY BACK. I LOVE TO HELP PEOPLE AND I AM THINKING THAT I MAY GO BACK TO SCHOOL AND FINISH MY NURSING DEGREE JUST SO I CAN SAY THAT I FINISHED.
SO LAST NIGHT I SAW TIM FOR A LITTLE BIT AND THAT MADE ME HAPPY. I LOVE BEING AROUND HIM. HE ALWAYS MAKES ME SMILE. I FEEL LIKE THE WORLD STOPS WHEN I AM AROUND HIM. I DON'T HAVE A CARE IN THE WORLD. BUT I ALSO KNOW THAT RIGHT NOW I WANT TO JUST BE 24 AND LIVE MY LIFE. I WANT TO DATE ALOT OF PEOPLE AND I AM NOT READY TO SETTLE DOWN YET. SO I TOLD HIM THAT AND HE IS OK WITH THAT. SO THERE IS NO PRESSURE WITH HIM AND I. SO WE WILL SEE WHAT HAPPENS IN THE FUTURE.

March 3, 2009

LETTER TO THE EDITOR

A good letter to begin your busy week ahead! You have to give the guy credit for your laugh today!
LETTER TO THE EDITOR
Make a copy of this in case we need to respond to any future tax bills we may be hit with!
Actual 'Letter to the Editor' from the February 5th edition of the Wichita Falls, Texas Times Record News...
Dear IRS,
I am sorry to inform you that I will not be able to pay taxes owed April 15,but all is not lost. I have paid these taxes: accounts receivable tax, building permit tax, CDL tax,cigarette tax, corporate income tax, dog license tax, federal income tax,unemployment tax, gasoline tax,> hunting license tax, fishing license tax,waterfowl stamp tax, inheritance tax, inventory tax, liquor tax, luxury tax,Medicare tax, city, school and county property tax (up 33 percent last 4 years), real estate tax, social security tax, road usage tax, toll road tax,state and city sales tax, recreational vehicle tax, state franchise tax, state unemployment tax, telephone federal excise tax, telephone federal state and local surcharge tax, telephone minimum usage surcharge tax, telephone state and local tax, utility tax, vehicle license registration tax,> capitol gains tax, lease severance tax, oil and gas assessment tax, Colorado property tax,Texas, Colorado, Wyoming, Oklahoma and New Mexico sales tax, and many more that I can't recall but I have run out of space and money. When you do not receive my check April 15, just know that it is an honest mistake. Please treat me the same way you treated Congressmen Charles Rangle, Chris Dodd, Barney Frank and ex- Congressman Tom Dashelle and, of course, your boss Timothy Geithner. No penalties and no interest.
Sincerely,
Ed Barnett
Wichita Falls
P.S. I will make at least a partial payment as soon as I get my stimulus check.

FINALLY GONE FOR A FEW DAYS

MY LITTLE BROTHER IS LEAVING FOR TRAINING TODAY AND I AM SO EXCITED! HE WILL BE GONE FOR 15 DAYS. I AM SURE THE HOUSE WILL BE EXTRA QUIET AND I MIGHT BE ABLE TO SLEEP. I AM SURE HIS GIRLFRIEND WILL BE ALL SAD AND WHAT NOT BUT I AM EXCITED THAT HE WILL BE GONE. MY GRANDMA WAS SAYING THAT HER AND MY GRANDPA MIGHT GO OUT TO WENDOVER THRUSDAY AND COME BACK FRIDAY. IF THEY DO THEN THAT WILL MAKE THE HOUSE REALLY REALLY QUIET. BUT YOU NEVER KNOW WITH THEM. I HOPE THEY GO. I WOULD LOVE TO HAVE THE HOUSE BASICALLY TO MYSELF. I AM NEVER HOME ALONE VERY MUCH ANYMORE. IT IS A RARE DAY THAT I AM HOME ALONE. I LOVE HAVING THE HOUSE TO MYSELF AND BEING ABLE TO DO WHAT I WANT TO DO WHEN I WANT TO DO IT. I REALLY WISH I HAD THE MONEY TO MOVE OUT BUT I DON'T SO I AM STUCK.
THE GIRLS ARE OK I GUESS. I THINK ELINORE THREW UP YESTERDAY. I AM NOT SURE THOUGH I KNOW ONE OF THE GIRLS DID BUT BECAUSE I DIDN'T SEE IT HAPPEN IT IS HARD TO SAY. THEY ARE GETTING SO EXCITED THAT THE WEATHER IS WARMING UP. THEY ARE GOING OUT SO MUCH MORE NOW. THEY LOVE TO BE OUTSIDE IN THE SUMMER. SO AS IT WARMS UP THEY ARE GOING OUT SIDE ALOT. THEY ARE BOTH SO GROWN UP NOW IT MAKES ME SAD BUT HAPPY.

March 2, 2009

SHORT SHORT SHORT

WELL IT IS MONDAY AGAIN AND IT IS A MUCH NEEDED RELIEF. I AM SO GLAD TO BE BACK AT WORK TODAY. IT SEEMS LIKE THE WORLD IS CRAZY AND THE ONLY RELIEF I GET IS WHEN I AM AT WORK AND CAN FOCUS ON OTHER THINGS. I NEVER THOUGHT BEING AT WORK WOULD BE A RELIEF BUT IT IS NOW. IT KEEPS ME BUSY AND MY MIND BUSY. THERE ISN'T MUCH GOING ON SO THIS POST WILL BE SHORT AND TO THE POINT!

March 1, 2009

FUNNY LETTER I FOUND

Dear Alcohol,
First & foremost, let me tell you that I'm a huge fan of yours. As my friend, you always seem to be there when needed. The perfect post-work cocktail, a beer at the game, and you're even around in the holidays, hidden inside chocolates as you warm us when we're stuck in the midst of endless family gatherings. However, lately I've been wondering about your intentions. While I want to believe that you have my best interests at heart, I feel that your influence has led to some unwise consequences:
1. Phone calls: While I agree with you that communication isimportant, I question the suggestion that any conversation of substance or necessity takes place after 2 a.m. Why would you make me call those ex's when I know for a fact they do not want to hear from me during the day, let alone all hours of the night?
2. Eating: Now, you know I love a good meal, but why do you suggest that I eat a taco with chili sauce, along with a big Italian meatball and some stale chips (washed down with WINE & topped off with a Kit Kat after a few cheese curls & chili cheese fries)? I'm an eclectic eater, but I think you went too far this time.
3. Clumsiness: Unless you're subtly trying to tell me that I need to do more yoga to improve my balance, I see NO need to hammer the issue home by causing me to fall down. It's completely unnecessary, and the black & blue marks that appear on my body mysteriously the next day are beyond me. Similarly, it should never take me more than 45 seconds to get the frontdoor key into the lock.
4. Furthermore: The hangovers have GOT to stop. This is gettingridiculous. I know a little penance for our previous evening's debauchery may be in order, but the 3pm hangover immobility is completely unacceptable. My entire day is shot. I ask that, if the proper precautions are taken (water, vitamin B, bread products, aspirin) prior to going to sleep/passing out face down on the kitchen floor with a bag of popcorn, the hangover should be minimal & in no way interfere with my daily activities.
Alcohol, I have enjoyed our friendship for some years now & would like to ensure that we remain on good terms. You've been the invoker of great stories, the provocation for much laughter, and the needed companion when I just don't know what to do with the extra money in my pockets. In order to continue this friendship, I ask that you carefully review my grievances above & address them immediately. I will look for an answer no later than Thursday 3pm (pre-happy hour) on your possible solutions &hopefully we can continue this fruitful partnership.
Thank you,
Your biggest fan
P.S.THINGS THAT ARE DIFFICULT TO SAY WHEN DRUNK:
1. Innovative
2. Preliminary
3. Proliferation
4. Cinnamon
THINGS THAT ARE VERY DIFFICULT TO SAY WHEN DRUNK:
1. Specificity
2. British Constitution
3. Passive-aggressive disorder
THINGS THAT ARE DOWNRIGHT IMPOSSIBLE TO SAY WHEN DRUNK:
1. Thanks, but I don't want to have sex.
2. Nope, no more beer for me.3. Sorry, but you're not really my type.
4. Good evening, officer. Isn't it lovely out tonight?
5. Oh, I couldn't. No one wants to hear me sing

SUNDAY RAMBLINGS

WELL IT IS SUNDAY AND MY WEEKEND IS ALMOST OVER. I AM SHOCKED AT HOW FAST IT SEEMED TO GO AND AT THE SAME TIME HOW IT SEEMED TO DRAG. I GUESS THAT IS HOW TIME PASSES AT TIMES IT FLIES BY AND OTHER TIMES IT SEEMS TO STAND STILL. ALL I CAN DO IS TRY AND STAY BUSY AND LET HOPE THAT IT FLIES BY. I AM SO TIRED OF BEING THE ODD ONE OUT AT HOME. I FEEL LIKE EVERYONE IS AGAINEST ME ALL THE TIME. I AM THE ONLY ONE THAT DOES ANYTHING WRONG. MY LITTLE BROTHER NEVER DOES ANYTHING WRONG. OH WAIT HE DOES BUT I GET BLAMED FOR IT ALL. I WISH I HAD THE MONEY TO MOVE OUT AND GET AWAY FROM ALL OF THE DRAMA THAT THERE IS HERE. IT IS A RARE WEEKEND THAT I DON'T SPEND THE WHOLE WEEKEND IN MY ROOM ALONE. I TRY AND GET OUT BUT I DON'T WANT TO BOTHER PEOPLE SO I END UP JUST STAYING IN MY ROOM WATCHING THE WORLD PASS ME BY. OH WELL GUESS IF I WANT TO GET OUT I NEED TO JUST GO OUT ALONE. HELL MAYBE I WILL GO OUT TO CLUB OR SOMETHING NEXT WEEKEND. THERE IS NO LAW THAT SAYS I CAN'T GO OUT ALONE. WITH ALL MY FRIENDS MARRIED OR IN RELATIONSHIPS I GUESS IT IS WHAT I AM GOING TO HAVE TO DO IN ORDER TO MEET PEOPLE. SO THAT IS THE PLAN FOR NEXT WEEK I AM GOING TO GET OUT EACH DAY AND SEE WHAT I CAN DO. I AM NOT SURE WHAT I WILL DO BUT I WILL FIGURE IT OUT DURING THE WEEK AND I WILL GET OUT NEXT WEEKEND SO THAT I AM NOT STUCK AT HOME WITH CRAZY PEOPLE ANY MORE THAN WHAT I NEED TO BE.
THE GIRLS ARE ACTING LIKE THEY ALWAYS DO. THEY ARE TRYING TO CAUSE AS MANY PROBLEMS AS THE POSSIBLE CAN. I WOULD BE SCARED IF THEY STARTED TO ACT GOOD AND DO NOTHING WRONG. THEY HAVE ALWAYS BEEN MONSTERS AND THAT IS HOW THEY ALWAYS WILL BE. ELINORE IS FEELING BETTER I THINK. SHE HASN'T THROWN UP IN A WHIILE SO THAT IS A REALLY REALLY GOOD SIGN. SYLVIA IS GETTING BIGGER AND MEANER AS THE DAYS GO BY. I HOPE SHE IS DONE GROWING SOON SO THAT I DON'T HAVE A HUGE CAT FOR THE REST OF MY LIFE. OH WELL GUESS I HAVE TO TAKE WHAT I AM GIVEN. I CHOSE HER NOW I GET TO HAVE A HUGE CAT.
MY LITTLE BROTHER IS GOING TO TRAINING FOR THE NATIONAL GUARD ON THE 3RD OF MARCH. I AM WONDERING WHAT HIS GIRLFRIEND WILL DO WHILE HE IS GONE. IT SHOULD BE INTERESTING TO SAY THE LEAST. I AM SURE SHE WILL FEEL TOTALLY OUT OF PLACE HERE. I KNOW THAT I AM NOT GOING TO GO OUT OF MY WAY TO ENTERTAIN HER. AFTER SHE LIED ABOUT ME I AM DONE WITH HER. I AM NICE TO HER BECAUSE I HAVE TO LIVE WITH HER BUT I WON'T GO OUT OF MY WAY WITH HER EITHER. SHE ISN'T MY PROBLEM AND I WON'T DO THINGS FOR HER. SHE WILL HAVE TO FIGURE IT OUT ON HER OWN. I HAVE NO RESPECT FOR HER ANYMORE AND I FEEL THAT SHE IS JUST LIKE HER MOTHER! SHE IS ALL DRAMA!

THE DUMB GOVERNMENT

Soldier mom, kids plan to report for duty
N.C. woman settles on alternative to leaving family behind, refusing orders
The Associated Press

DAVIDSON, N.C. - When Lisa Pagan reports for duty Sunday, four long years after she was honorably discharged from the Army, she will arrive with more than her old uniform. She is bringing her kids, too.
"I have to bring them with me," she said. "I don't have a choice."
Pagan is among thousands of former service members who have left active duty since the Sept. 11, 2001, attacks, only to later receive orders to return to service. They are not in training, they are not getting a Defense Department salary, but as long as they have time left on their original enlistment contracts, they are on "individual ready reserve" status — eligible to be recalled at any time.
Soldiers can appeal, and some have won permission to remain in civilian life. Pagan filed several appeals, arguing that because her husband travels for business, no one else can take care of her kids. All were rejected, leaving Pagan with what she says is a choice between deploying to Iraq and abandoning her family, or refusing her orders and potentially facing charges.
Then she hit on the idea of showing up Sunday at Fort Benning, Georgia, with her children in tow.
"I guess they'll have to contact the highest person at the base, and they'll have to decide from there what to do," Pagan said. "I either report and bring the children with me or don't report and face dishonorable discharge and possibly being arrested. I guess I'll just have to make my case while I'm there."
'Obligations and commitments'Master Sgt. Keith O'Donnell, an Army spokesman in St. Louis, said the commander at Fort Benning will decide how to handle the situation.
"The Army tries to look at the whole picture and they definitely don't want to do anything that jeopardizes the family or jeopardizes the children," O'Donnell said. "At the same time, these are individuals who made obligations and commitments to the country."
Of the 25,000 individual ready reserve troops recalled since September 2001, more than 7,500 have been granted deferments or exemptions, O'Donnell said. About 1,000 have failed to report. O'Donnell said most of those cases are still under investigation, while 360 soldiers have been separated from the Army either through "other than honorable" discharges or general discharges.
He said Pagan is not likely to face charges, since none of the individual ready reserve soldiers who have failed to report faced a court-martial.
Pagan, who grew up near Camden, N.J., was working in a department store when she made her commitment in September 2002. She learned how to drive a truck, and met Travis while stationed in Hawaii. She had her first child while in uniform, and they left the service in 2005 when their enlistments were up.
She always knew there was a chance she could be recalled, so she buried the thought in the back of her mind.
"When I enlisted, they said almost nobody gets called back when you're in the IRR," she said.
The young family settled outside of Charlotte in the college town of Davidson, where Travis landed a job as a salesman. It required lots of travel, but that was OK — Pagan enjoyed her life as a stay-at-home mom to their son Eric and second child, a daughter named Elizabeth.
She opened a child-care center in her home, and started taking classes at nearby Fayetteville State.
Mom makes her pleaThe orders to return to active duty arrived in December 2007. She told the Army there was no one to take care of her children: Her husband spent most of his time on the road, and they believe quitting his job is a sure path to bankruptcy and foreclosure. Her parents live in New Jersey and her husband's parents live in Texas. Neither are able to help out. The Army was not persuaded.
Pagan hired attorney Mark Waple, who filed another appeal, which included a letter from Travis Pagan's employer that said bluntly: "In order for Travis to remain an employee, he will be required to travel." In December 2008, her appeal was again rejected.
"It's the obligation of commanders to make certain that service members have a valid family care plan and that clearly has not happened in Lisa's case," Waple said.
Tom Tarantino, a policy associate with the Iraq and Afghanistan Veterans of America, a nonprofit group that helps veterans, said the Army has taken a hard line on many of these cases.
"Usually the only way that someone can get out of the deployment or get out of the military due to a family hardship is if they get into a situation where the kids will be put into foster care," Tarantino said.
"That's how serious it has to be, and I'm sure what the military is telling her — and I'm not saying that this is exactly the right answer — but the fact that it is inconvenient for her husband's job is not the military's problem. It's very harsh."
URL: http://www.msnbc.msn.com/id/29441874/?GT1=43001

WEIRD

Mich. woman with 2 wombs delivers twins
Mother has a condition known as uterus didelphys
The Associated Press
MARQUETTE, Mich. - A Michigan woman with two wombs has given birth to twin daughters — one from each uterus.
The Mining Journal and WLUC-TV report that Sarah Reinfelder's two healthy babies were delivered seven weeks premature Thursday by cesarean section at Marquette General Hospital in the Upper Peninsula.
The 21-year-old Sault Ste. Marie woman has a condition known as uterus didelphys, and doctors say such twin births are rare. The uteri are different sizes, with the larger twin born from the larger uterus.
Dr. Connie Hedmark and Dr. Breanna Pond first delivered Kaylin Joy, then Valerie Marie, the larger twin by one pound. Kaylin Joy weighed 3 pounds, 15 ounces.
Neonatologist Julie Frei says she expects that the twins, who don't have fully developed lung function, likely will be hospitalized for three or four weeks.
URL: http://www.msnbc.msn.com/id/29446416/?GT1=43001

I SAW THIS STORY AND THOUGHT IT WAS WEIRD. I HAVE NEVER HEARD OF THIS CONDITION BEFORE SO I FIGURED I WOULD POST IT. THOUGHT EVERYONE COULD READY ABOUT IT. I LOVE TO LEARN NEW THINGS ABOUT THE MEDICAL FIELD, SO WHEN I FIND NEW THINGS I LOVE TO POST THEM.
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