This week for the writers workshop I am going to write about number 2 : Hi, my name is ______ and I am a _______. There are so many ways that I could answer that question so I just put the first thing that came to my mind. I think this came to my mind the first because I have been really struggling with being a birth mom. I am sure the thing that triggered my feelings now has watched my nephew grow up over the past year. It has made me see first hand everything that I missed out on when it comes to my daughter. It has also made start to ask the what if type questions. I haven’t ever really asked myself those types of questions because I know it was the right choice and know that those questions never get you anywhere in the long run.
I feel like I always have to say that just because I am asking myself the what if’s that I don’t regret my choice. I know that I did the right thing for both of us but that doesn’t mean that it doesn’t still hurt from time to time. Just because I hurt doesn’t mean I regret my choice. I can’t help but wonder where I would be and what my life would be like had I made different choices.
I do now know without a doubt that I don’t want kids and I am 100% okay with that choice. People tell me I will change my mind when I meet the right person and I can honestly say that they are wrong. I know I don’t have the patience let alone the energy that it takes to raise kids. I am glad I know this before I had anymore kids because it isn’t fair to have kids and not be able to take care of them and be there for them.
I got a little bit off topic but that happens in my world. If you are new here and want to know about my story you can click here and check it out.
How would you answer this sentence?
Just a quick note: I was looking through my archives looking for another post and I saw that I had already done a post like this back in November of 2013 you can click here if you want to check out that post as well!