IT IS TUESDAY AND I AM READY FOR IT TO BE FRIDAY. I HAVE HAD ENOUGH OF THIS WEEK. I AM READY FOR MY INFUSION. I AM READY TO START FOCUSING ON MY HEALTH AND FORGETTING ABOUT ALL THE OTHER DRAMA IN MY LIFE. MY MAIN FOCUS RIGHT NOW WILL BE MY HEALTH AND GETTING ME BETTER. MAYBE MY LIFE WILL BE BETTER IF I FOCUS ON ME FOR AWHILE AND ME WHERE I NEED TO BE. THEY ALWAYS SAY THAT YOU WILL FIND SOMEONE IF YOU AREN’T LOOKING. SO I AM NO LONGER GOING TO LOOK. I WILL LEAVE IT UP TO FATE. MAYBE I AM MEANT TO BE ALONE AND IF THAT IS THE CASE THEN BRING IT ON LOL. I AM NOT GOING TO WORRY ABOUT MEN OR THINGS LIKE THAT. I AM GOING TO BE ME AND FOCUS ON MY HEALTH AND DO WHATEVER I CAN DO TO GET ME BETTER. I THINK IT IS TIME FOR ME TO FIGURE OUT HOW TO BE HAPPY AND IF A GUY IS MEANT TO BE IN MY LIFE THEN HE WILL COME ALONG.
ANYWAY, JOSH HAS TO DO A SLEEP STUDY TONIGHT. HE HAS TO DO IT BEFORE HE CAN DRIVE AGAIN. HE HAS BEEN OFF SINCE LAST WEEK SOMETIME. I GUESS THAT HIS MEDICAL CARD WAS ONLY GOOD FOR 3 MONTHS OR SOMETHING LIKE THAT. ANYWAYS HE HAS TO DO THE STUDY TO SEE IF HE HAS SLEEP APNEA OR NOT. I AM SURE HE HAS IT BUT I AM NOT SURE. I GUESS HE IS DATING SOMEONE. HE TOLD ME THAT HE DOESN’T THINK THINGS WILL WORK OUT WITH HER BUT HE WON’T TELL ME WHY. ALL I KNOW ABOUT HER IS THAT SHE LIVES IN SPRINGFIELD AND THAT SHE IS A “BIGGER” GIRL. NOT SURE WHAT THAT MEANS BUT THAT IS WHAT HE SAID.