MY UNCLE RUSSELL PASSED AWAY LAST NIGHT. WE ALL THOUGHT THAT HE HAD ANOTHER WEEK OR SO BUT I GUESS IT WAS HIS TIME TO GO. MY GRANDPA IS REALLY SAD ABOUT IT ALL BUT I WOULD BE WORRIED IF HE WASN’T SAD ABOUT IT. I DON’T THINK THEY ARE DOING A FUNERAL. MY GRANDMA SAID THAT THEY ARE JUST DOING A SMALL FAMILY VIEWING. THE FAMILY REUNIONS WILL BE WEIRD WITHOUT RUSSELL THERE. IT WILL ALWAYS FEEL LIKE SOMETHING IS MISSING. IT WAS SO MUCH FUN TO LISTEN TO THEM ALL TALK ABOUT GROWING UP. THEY ALWAYS HAD THE FUNNIEST STORY’S TO TELL. WE SURE DID A LOT OF LAUGHING EVERY YEAR. I CAN REMEMBER ONE YEAR WHEN THEY PUT CAROLYN IN A HIGH CHAIR. CAROLYN IS THE OLDEST CHILD AND SHE IS THE LITTLEST. SO THE BOYS DECIDED THAT IT WOULD BE FUNNY TO PUT HER IN A HIGH CHAIR. THE FUNNIEST THING ABOUT IT IS THAT SHE FIT! WE STILL TALK ABOUT IT EVERY YEAR. IT IS HARD TO BELIEVE THAT LIFE CHANGES SO QUICKLY. BUT EVERYONE HAS TO DIE.
ELINORE THREW UP LAST NIGHT AND SO DID SYLVIA. EVERY TIME I TURNED AROUND YESTERDAY IT SEEMED LIKE A CAT WAS THROWING UP. IT WAS A JOKE THAT IS FOR SURE. TONIGHT IT IS HAIRBALL MEDICATION NIGHT. THAT SHOULD MAKE THE NIGHT JUST GREAT! THEY HATE THE STUFF AND THEY FIGHT ME EVERY STEP OF THE WAY. I HAVE TO SNEAK UP ON THEM TO GET THEM TO TAKE IT, AND IF I DON’T WATCH SYLVIA SHE WILL SPIT IT OUT. OUR HOUSE IS ALWAYS A ZOO WHEN IT COMES TO DOING ANYTHING WITH THE GIRLS.
I AM SO MAD AT JOSH RIGHT NOW. I ASKED HIM ON MONDAY WHEN I GO PAID IF HE HAD MONEY TO PAY THE PHONE BILL AND HE TOLD ME YES. SO I MAIL MY TAXES AND FIGURED IT WOULD BE TIGHT TIL I GOT PAID AGAIN BUT OK BECAUSE JOSH HAD THE PHONE BILLS COVERED. WELL YESTERDAY NIGHT I GOT A CALL FROM HIM AND HE NEEDED ME TO PAY THE PHONE BILLS. SO NOW I AM TOTALLY BROKE UNTIL I GET PAID ON THE 16TH. THIS JUST REMINDED ME OF WHY I AM GETTING A DIVORCE! HE IS SO RUDE AND DUMB AT TIMES. I WONDER IF HE EVEN THINKS ABOUT THINGS WHEN I ASK HIM QUESTIONS. I AM SO GLAD THAT I WILL BE DONE WITH HIM SOON. I CAN’T TAKE MUCH MORE OF HIS SHIT. HE NOW OWES ME OVER $200. IT IS A JOKE. I AM SO TIRED OF HIM DOING STUPID THINGS AND NOT TELLING ME THE TRUTH. I COULD KILL HIM! HE NEVER CARES THOUGH HOW BROKE I AM. HE HAS NEVER CARED ABOUT HOW MUCH MONEY I HAVE. IN THE END IT COMES DOWN TO THE FACT THAT HE HAS NEVER CARED ABOUT ME AT ALL!
I AM GOING TO DINNER WITH MY DAD , HEATHER HIS WIFE, AND HER DAUGHTER APRIL. SO THAT SHOULD MAKE FOR AN INTERESTING DINNER. I AM BRINGING MISTI BECAUSE IS MY SUPPORT SYSTEM AND I DON’T KNOW THAT I COULD GO ALONE. IT IS GOING TO BE WEIRD FOR ME TO MET APRIL. I REALLY HAVE NO IDEA WHAT TO SAY TO HER. I KNOW SHE IS EXCITED TO MEET ME BUT I STILL DON’T KNOW WHAT TO SAY TO HER. I AM NERVOUS ABOUT GOING BUT I KNOW IT WILL BE GOOD FOR ME AND I ALSO KNOW THAT I HAVE TO AT LEAST TRY AND SEE WHERE ALL OF THIS LEADS. AT LEAST I AM TRYING UNLIKE MY BROTHER. I GUESS IN TIME HE WILL TRY OR HE MAY NEVER CARE. I DON’T THINK HE REMEMBERS MUCH ABOUT MY PARENTS SO IT DOESN’T REALLY MATTER TO HIM EITHER WAY IF HE SEES THEM. I WISH THAT MY MOM WOULD TAKE SOME INTEREST IN MY LIFE, BUT I GUESS THAT SHE DOESN’T NEED OR WANT US AROUND. I WILL NEVER UNDERSTAND HOW A MOTHER CAN JUST WALK AWAY FROM HER CHILDREN AND NOT MISS AND WORRY ABOUT THEM. I KNOW THAT I COULD NEVER DO WHAT MY MOM IS DOING TO ME TO BRITA. IT MAKES HER SEEM HEARTLESS!