Saturday Nine & Day 6- Something I Hope I Never Have To Do


Saturday 9: Friends

1. How many of your friendships have lasted more than ten years? Which of your current friends do you feel will still be important to you ten years from now?
None of them.  I don’t like to put the work into them that needs to be done so I tend to not keep friends forever.  I would hope that Misti is still around.
2. When you look at yourself in the mirror, what’s the first thing you look at?
My hair
3. Who was the most recent person on your missed call list on your cell phone? What’s your relationship with the person?
Josh (not the husband)-Just friends
4. What did your last text message you received on your cell phone say?
Okay cool thanks no sense in having them in the storage room to have to go and get them you know.  It was from Misti when I told her we got in the plates and forks at work and that I put them under the sink in the conference room.
5. How would you “label” yourself?
Shy, Fat, Scared Of People
6. What was your favorite age that you’ve been?
I don’t know. . .Probably 25 because I am finally becoming me!
7. What is your current desk top picture? What’s it significant?
A background from Leelou-Blogs.  I love the ones they make.  They change it every month and until I start making my own I will use theirs.
8. What was the last thing you said to someone that you‘d like to take back?
Nothing-I usually don’t take back things I say.  If I say it then I meant it when I said it.
9. If you had to choose between a million bucks or to be able to go back in time and fix all your mistakes which would you choose?
A million dollars.  All my mistakes have made me who I am today so I wouldn’t change it.
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I hope that I never have to bury a child.  I couldn’t handle it and I don’t know how parents have to go through it manage it.  I also hope that I never have to be in a wheel chair.  The fear of a wheel chair is the only thing that is keeping on my current medication.  I would be so depressed if I ever have to be in a wheel chair.  I will lose everything that I enjoy about life if I have to be in a wheel chair not to mention my independence.

Day 5- Something I Hope To Do In My Life & Five Question Friday


1. Are you a neat sleeper or a messy sleeper?
I am a neat sleeper!
2. Fill in the blank. I wish I was more ________________.
Outgoing-I am super shy and I wish that I was more outgoing when I was in social settings.
3. What is something that you wish you had been warned about?
That all men are total idiots and a waste of time.
4. What was the best thing you ever found at a garage sale/flea market?
I only went to garage sales when I was younger so I can’t remember.  I have always wanted to go to a flea market but there aren’t any around here.
5. If you could have any meal brought to you right now, what would it be?
Pizza!!!!  I would eat pizza all the time if I could.
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Today’s topic isn’t that hard for me.  I would hope that I would get the weight off and keep it off.  I know some of you are thinking that it isn’t that hard but because of the MS and some of the medications I am on it is super hard for me to do.  I am not trying as hard as I could be but maybe one day when I am not as tired and sick all the time I will get the weight off and keep it off. 


I hope everyone has a great Friday!

Day 4- Something I Need To Forgive Someone For & Writers Work Shop

Today’s topic is easy for me.  I need to forgive my parents for leaving me at my parents when I was 8 years old.  I know I was better off where I was at but there at still days that it hurts and sucks.  I feel like I missed out on a lot of moments that children usually have with their parents.  I think what makes it harder for me to forgive my mom is that fact that she doesn’t even seem to care.  Hell I took the time to find and contact her and now she acts like she could careless.  At least my dad is trying.  I am not totally comfortable with it yet but I am working on it and he understands that and is willing to let things go at my pace.  So I am working on forgiving him but I truly think I am just going to write my mom off and try to forget about her because she doesn’t seem to care at all about me so why should I let it hurt me anymore. 

Now for the writers workshop.  This week I chose # 1 which is : If I could do it over again…  If I could do anything over again I wouldn’t get married.  It has been nothing but a waste of time and huge waste of my money.  I can honestly say that it is the worst mistake I have made thus far in my life.  I would be so much father with my goals if I had just stayed single and not wasted time on him.  He has done nothing but make my life hell the entire 4 years we have been together.  So that would have to be the thing I would do over again.

Here is a twitter party that I am going to take part in on Friday.  It for those of us that aren’t attending BlogHer.  It is being thrown by One Cluttered Brain!  Everyone should come and join us!  It should be a great time and there will even be giveaways!

Day 3-Something I Have To Forgive Myself For

There are a lot of things that I need to forgive myself for.  I am super hard on myself and get mad when I mess up and/or let someone else down.  I have the hardest time saying no to people because I feel like that is letting them down. I really just need to realize that I am human people that really care about me will still be around even if I tell them no I can’t do something because I am too sick or whatever the reason maybe.  I also need to forgive myself because I am not perfect and I do mess up.  Like for example when I got pregnant.  Everyone makes mistakes and I know that but I still beat myself up because of everyone I let down and how it totally changed where I was going in life.  I still haven’t forgiven myself for that. Now don’t get me wrong I don’t regret that she is here and with her family but I regret letting everyone down because of it all.

That is all I can think of to write!  I hope everyone is having a great day!

Day 1- Something I Hate About Myself

Image from Google.

Today is the first day of the 30 days of truth and lets just say I am not excited about today’s topic.  I could go on for days and days about things I hate about myself.  I guess the main things that I hate about myself are my weight and being sick all the time.  I know I can change the whole weight issue but I am trying and it doesn’t seem to get any better.  I know I am not the most dedicated person when it comes to trying to lose the weight but the MS also plays a huge role in me not losing it.  Which is why I hate being sick.  I wish I could make the MS go away and be a normal 25 year old that isn’t worried about what tomorrow is going to be like.