Lots Of Thoughts

Lots Of Thoughts

I was going to write something for the writers workshop but instead of doing that I am just going to write some of the thoughts that I have had over the past little while so that I can get them out of my head.  I am sure they won’t make much sense but I will try to explain a bit about what and why I am thinking them.  Anyway I am just going to make a list of them so you can just skim them if you want to.

  • The main thing that has been on my mind for the past few months is how both of my parents can write off their own children & families.  I have seen that I can do the same thing but I don’t think I could do this to my daughter when she grows up and wants to meet me.  I will never truly understand how they can and how I can just turning feelings off for a person and never look back.  I do think of people again but not enough to make me seek them out.  I just keep on going on and while I kind of understand that with friends I have no idea how a parent can just stop caring about their child.
  • The next thing that has been on my mind is why people still lie because let me be honest like the quote I posted on Monday people can’t remember all lies they tell so they always get caught.   My dad told a few lies about me last year or the year before and since I found that out I have no need to have him in my life.  I am sure he will end up alone and sad because he just can’t seem to tell the truth and he hasn’t figured out that he always get caught when he lies.  There have been more lies told by him than I could ever list so now I just assume everything he says is a lie.
  • I have wondered if two people can be so connected that without having talk to each other for 3 plus years that you still know when they are struggling and when they need you or someone to lean on.

Those are the three things that I have been on my mind for that past few months and I hope now that I have written them down that maybe I can stop thinking about them as much.

What has been on your mind?

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Letting Go Of Hate

You cannot hate other people without hating your self.
Oprah Winfrey

This has been a super hard post to write.  I think this has been the hardest post I have had to write so far.  I have been working on it on and off for months now and I keep erasing it.  I just can’t seem to find the right words to write what I want to say.  I know how I feel about the subject and what I am trying to say I just can’t get it written down right.  This subject got brought up because I have such strong feeling towards child molesters and people don’t understand why I am trying to let go of the hate for the person that hurt me.  Some people think that I am a hypocrite because I hate people that hurt children but I am still trying to let go of the hate I have been holding for the person that hurt me.  I have come to realize that hating people does nothing to the person you hate.  All it does is poison your soul and make you an angry hateful person.  Now that being said it doesn’t mean letting go of hate is an easy thing to do.  I have a few people that I “hate” and I am not sure if I will ever be able to forgive them for what they have done.  I hope one day I will be able to but I can’t be sure if I will or not. 

One of those people is Josh my husband.  I know I need to let go of the hate I have for him but it is so much easier said than done.  I know me being angry and hurt over the fact that he had to pick Christmas day to leave me isn’t doing anything to him.  He gets to go on with his life and it doesn’t affect him.  He probably doesn’t even think about it.  It is so hard for me though because every year the pain comes back.  I wish there were some way to erase the pain so that I could get past it.  I am hoping in time I will be able to forgive him but I am not going to make any promises.

I hope that this post makes sense to everyone.  I am sure that I will post about this topic again!

No one is born hating another person because of the colour of his skin, or his background, or his religion. People must learn to hate, and if they can learn to hate, they can be taught to love, for love comes more naturally to the human heart than its opposite.
NELSON MANDELA, Autobiography