I wrote a few months ago or so about my divorce being final and how it made me feel. I said in that post that I am okay being single which is totally true but I also get lonely. Now just because I get lonely doesn’t in anyway mean that I am not okay with being single. In fact I would rather be lonely than be in a relationship.
I guess I need to explain what I mean when I say I am lonely. I look at everyone in my life and they all have a significant other in their lives and I wonder from time to time if I am missing out. These thoughts usually come at night when I should be sleeping. Even though I get these thoughts from time to time I in no way have the desire or energy to try and find someone to date.
I don’t think it matters how happy you are being single you will still have days where you wish you had someone else in your life. I also am lonely because I don’t have many friends in my life. Now most of that has to do with me and what I have decided I want in my life. I went through the people in my life last year and cut out the people who I knew needed to be out of my life. I didn’t write about it here because I wasn’t ready and I am still not ready to talk about it. I honestly don’t know if I will ever be ready to talk about it and I also won’t put other people’s business out there on my blog.
Anyway this post was more for me to get thoughts out of my head than for anyone else. I also have a post coming up this week about how I feel about dating and how I hard it is to meet people in this day and age.