30 Days Of Truth

Day 5- Something I Hope To Do In My Life & Five Question Friday


1. Are you a neat sleeper or a messy sleeper?
I am a neat sleeper!
2. Fill in the blank. I wish I was more ________________.
Outgoing-I am super shy and I wish that I was more outgoing when I was in social settings.
3. What is something that you wish you had been warned about?
That all men are total idiots and a waste of time.
4. What was the best thing you ever found at a garage sale/flea market?
I only went to garage sales when I was younger so I can’t remember.  I have always wanted to go to a flea market but there aren’t any around here.
5. If you could have any meal brought to you right now, what would it be?
Pizza!!!!  I would eat pizza all the time if I could.
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Today’s topic isn’t that hard for me.  I would hope that I would get the weight off and keep it off.  I know some of you are thinking that it isn’t that hard but because of the MS and some of the medications I am on it is super hard for me to do.  I am not trying as hard as I could be but maybe one day when I am not as tired and sick all the time I will get the weight off and keep it off. 


I hope everyone has a great Friday!

Day 4- Something I Need To Forgive Someone For & Writers Work Shop

Today’s topic is easy for me.  I need to forgive my parents for leaving me at my parents when I was 8 years old.  I know I was better off where I was at but there at still days that it hurts and sucks.  I feel like I missed out on a lot of moments that children usually have with their parents.  I think what makes it harder for me to forgive my mom is that fact that she doesn’t even seem to care.  Hell I took the time to find and contact her and now she acts like she could careless.  At least my dad is trying.  I am not totally comfortable with it yet but I am working on it and he understands that and is willing to let things go at my pace.  So I am working on forgiving him but I truly think I am just going to write my mom off and try to forget about her because she doesn’t seem to care at all about me so why should I let it hurt me anymore. 

Now for the writers workshop.  This week I chose # 1 which is : If I could do it over again…  If I could do anything over again I wouldn’t get married.  It has been nothing but a waste of time and huge waste of my money.  I can honestly say that it is the worst mistake I have made thus far in my life.  I would be so much father with my goals if I had just stayed single and not wasted time on him.  He has done nothing but make my life hell the entire 4 years we have been together.  So that would have to be the thing I would do over again.

Here is a twitter party that I am going to take part in on Friday.  It for those of us that aren’t attending BlogHer.  It is being thrown by One Cluttered Brain!  Everyone should come and join us!  It should be a great time and there will even be giveaways!

Day 3-Something I Have To Forgive Myself For

There are a lot of things that I need to forgive myself for.  I am super hard on myself and get mad when I mess up and/or let someone else down.  I have the hardest time saying no to people because I feel like that is letting them down. I really just need to realize that I am human people that really care about me will still be around even if I tell them no I can’t do something because I am too sick or whatever the reason maybe.  I also need to forgive myself because I am not perfect and I do mess up.  Like for example when I got pregnant.  Everyone makes mistakes and I know that but I still beat myself up because of everyone I let down and how it totally changed where I was going in life.  I still haven’t forgiven myself for that. Now don’t get me wrong I don’t regret that she is here and with her family but I regret letting everyone down because of it all.

That is all I can think of to write!  I hope everyone is having a great day!

Day 1- Something I Hate About Myself

Image from Google.

Today is the first day of the 30 days of truth and lets just say I am not excited about today’s topic.  I could go on for days and days about things I hate about myself.  I guess the main things that I hate about myself are my weight and being sick all the time.  I know I can change the whole weight issue but I am trying and it doesn’t seem to get any better.  I know I am not the most dedicated person when it comes to trying to lose the weight but the MS also plays a huge role in me not losing it.  Which is why I hate being sick.  I wish I could make the MS go away and be a normal 25 year old that isn’t worried about what tomorrow is going to be like.

30 Days Of Truth

So I was reading Angel Believes and she is doing 30 days of truth.  I thought it would be something good for me to follow along with so I am going to start and see how far I make it!  Here are the questions we have to answer.  I am going to start with day one tomorrow!

Day 01 → Something you hate about yourself.
Day 02 → Something you love about yourself.
Day 03 → Something you have to forgive yourself for.
Day 04 → Something you have to forgive someone for.
Day 05 → Something you hope to do in your life.
Day 06 → Something you hope you never have to do.
Day 07 → Someone who has made your life worth living for.
Day 08 → Someone who made your life hell, or treated you like shit.
Day 09 → Someone you didn’t want to let go, but just drifted.
Day 10 → Someone you need to let go, or wish you didn’t know.
Day 11 → Something people seem to compliment you the most on.
Day 12 → Something you never get compliments on.
Day 13 → A band or artist that has gotten you through some tough ass days. (write a letter.)
Day 14 → A hero that has let you down. (letter)
Day 15 → Something or someone you couldn’t live without, because you’ve tried living without it.
Day 16 → Someone or something you definitely could live without.
Day 17 → A book you’ve read that changed your views on something.
Day 18 → Your views on gay marriage.
Day 19 → What do you think of religion? Or what do you think of politics?
Day 20 → Your views on drugs and alcohol.
Day 21 → (scenario) Your best friend is in a car accident and you two got into a fight an hour before. What do you do?
Day 22 → Something you wish you hadn’t done in your life.
Day 23 → Something you wish you had done in your life.
Day 24 → Make a playlist to someone, and explain why you chose all the songs. (Just post the titles and artists and letter)
Day 25 → The reason you believe you’re still alive today.
Day 26 → Have you ever thought about giving up on life? If so, when and why?
Day 27 → What’s the best thing going for you right now?
Day 28 → What if you were pregnant or got someone pregnant, what would you do?
Day 29 → Something you hope to change about yourself. And why.
Day 30 → A letter to yourself, tell yourself EVERYTHING you love about yourself