WELL IT IS FRIDAY AGAIN AND I HAVE MADE A HUGE STEP THIS WEEK. I HAVE DECIDED THAT I AM GOING TO MEET WITH MY DAD ON SUNDAY. NOT SURE HOW THAT WILL GO BUT I WILL GO AND GIVE HIM A CHANCE. EVERYONE DESERVES CHANCES. I WILL TRY IT ONCE AND SEE WHAT HAPPENS BUT THAT DOESN’T MEAN THAT I WILL KEEP ON SEEING HIM. RIGHT NOW I AM NOT SURE I WILL GIVE IT A CHANCE AND SEE WHAT HAPPENS BUT I AM NOT GOING TO COUNT ON ANYTHING.
I ALSO GOT REALLY GOOD NEWS YESTERDAY. I GET TO TRY THE TYSABRI AGAIN BECAUSE IT IS FREE AND ALL I HAVE TO COME UP WITH IS THE COST OF THE INFUSION CENTER. I AM SO HAPPY AND EXCITED FOR THAT. IT WILL BE NICE TO GET BACK ON THE ONE THING THAT REALLY HELPED ME. SO WITH HELP FROM FRIENDS AND FAMILY I WILL BE ABLE TO PAY FOR THE DRUG AND HOPEFULLY GET BETTER OR AT LEAST NOT GET ANY WORSE. I AM ALSO STARTING THE NEW MEDICATION SHE GAVE ME TONIGHT SO THAT SHOULD BE INTERESTING. I AM HOPING IT WORKS BUT WHO KNOWS WHAT IT WILL DO FOR ME.
ELINORE IS BACK TO BEING SICK AGAIN. IT IS REALLY JUST A CYCLE WITH HER I AM FINDING OUT. OH WELL NOTHING I CAN DO ABOUT IT BUT WAIT AND HOPE SHE GETS BETTER. I KNOW SHE WILL SO I AM NOT TO WORRIED ABOUT ANY OF IT. SYLVIA IS STILL A MONSTER LIKE SHE HAS ALWAYS BEEN. SHE IS JUST HER USUAL MEAN SELF. SHE HAS NEVER BEEN VERY NICE. SHE IS GREAT WHEN SHE GETS HER OWN WAY BUT WHEN I DON’T LET HER HAVE HER WAY THAT IS WHEN SHE GETS MEAN.
I GUESS IT IS TIME TO TELL THE WORLD ABOUT TIM. TIM IS A GUY I MET THROUGH JOSH AND I AM REALLY STARTING TO LIKE HIM. FOR THE FIRST TIME I FEEL LIKE SOMEONE REALLY UNDERSTANDS ME AND GETS HOW I AM. I DON’T EVER HAVE TO EXPLAIN MYSELF TO HIM. I HAVE NEVER FELT THAT WAY WITH ANYONE. HE UNDERSTANDS AND CAN READ ME WITH OUT ME HAVING TO SAY ANYTHING. IT IS REALLY WEIRD BUT I AM ALSO SCARED TO MESS UP THE FRIENDSHIP THAT WE HAVE OVER GETTING INTO A RELATIONSHIP. SO WE ARE JUST GOING TO TAKE IS SLOW AND SINCE I AM MARRIED STILL AND ALL THAT IS THE BEST THING TO DO. MAYBE IN THE END ALL WE WILL EVER BE IS FRIENDS AND I AM OK WITH THAT. I DON’T WANT TO RISK WHAT WE HAVE OVER SOMETHING STUPID. NOW THAT DOESN’T MEAN THAT IF IT GOES THAT WAY I AM GOING TO STOP IT. FOR ONCE IN MY LIFE I AM JUST GOING WITH THE FLOW OF THINGS. I AM FINALLY TAKING IT ONE DAY AT A TIME AND NOT WORRYING ABOUT THINGS LIKE I ALWAYS HAVE.

THIS IS SO SAD AND I HOPE SHE SPEAKS OUT AGAINEST VIOLENCE. I FEEL SO BAD FOR HER AND I WISH HER THE BEST.

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