Month: March 2011

Controlled By Fear

Melissa from Sugar Filled Emotions is a regular guest poster on my blog.  He dad died in is sleep on Saturday night.  Go to her blog and leave her some love because I am know she could really use it right now.  Melissa know I always am here for you and love you!

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“Whether you think you can or whether you think you can’t – you are right.” 
~ Henry Ford
For a long time I lived without taking any chances, rather than put myself in a position to fail. The thought of what others might say or think about me – when I failed – was enough to make my stomach hurt, and paralyze me. I have put aside many dreams out of fear of failure, and embarrassment. Fear controlled most – sometimes all – of my life. There is no joy in life when almost every aspect of it is controlled by fear.
Learning how to let go of fear has been difficult. As much as I hated being controlled by something that made me feel so bad, the thought of not having it around actually made me afraid. I had become comfortable with it and it was as if I was contemplating losing a part of myself. In a way I guess I was.
With the help of my counselor, I came up with a plan to help me let go of the thing – fear – that was having such a negative impact on my life. The beauty of it is how simple it is. All I do is ask myself “What is the worst thing that can happen?”
Identifying, measuring, and doing what I can to mitigate my risks allows me to put my fear aside and move forward. My plan boosts my confidence, and creates a handy reference tool when I start feeling overwhelmed.
I wish I could say I was always successful at working this plan, but I cannot. What I can say is I am getting better at it. There are fewer times when I feel overwhelmed by fear. I can also say that less of my life is controlled by fear, and I have hope that someday soon it will have no control over any aspect of my life.
I understand, and realize that there is always a chance that my dreams might come true. I know if they do not it is not the end of the world. In the end, the very fact that I pursued my dreams makes me a more interesting, and well rounded person.

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NES Check In

I have had a really rough week but I did really well up until Saturday night.  I only ate one other at night this week so for me that means it has been a great week!  the new antidepressant is working so that is a great thing and helps me know I can and will beat this disease.  I started the whole Slim Fast diet so I am hoping that it will help me lose the weight I put on while I was on my old antidepressant.  The new antidepressant has made me not want to eat so it is easier to be on a diet while I am taking it.  That’s all of it for this week!  I hope everyone has a great week!!! 
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The Japanese Tsunami: When The Past Dances With the Present

I am super excited to have a guest post today!!!!!  I met him on Twitter and asked him if he would guest post for me.  I have never had a male guest post for me before and I was excited to finally have one!  After reading his post here go and check out his blog!

As of this writing, 3/16/11, the Japanese death toll is over 4,000, with countless thousands missing, and an estimated $200 billion in damages has already occurred. This ongoing tragedy is really a tale of three horrific events, an earthquake, a tsunami, and the looming threat of a nuclear catastrophe. Because Japan is located in the Ring of Fire region, it has a long history of earthquakes and tsunamis. The shifting of geographic tectonic plates beneath the Pacific ocean causes the earthquakes. This in turn causes the tsunami in the Pacific’s vast waters. Wikipedia lists major earthquakes in Japan going back to November 684 A.D. This current earthquake, measured 8.9 on the Richter scale, is the strongest earthquake of those listed.
Like Karen Zacharias’ well written and moving play, Legacy of Light, these events model a dance between past and present. In Legacy of Light, the philosophy and physics of 17th century Voltaire and his former mistress Emilie du Chatelet are juxtaposed and intertwined with related individuals and events in our present time. On a much more horrific scale, the earthquakes and tsunamis of Japan’s tumultuous geographic past are becoming intertwined with the most powerful force unleashed by mankind in history, atomic power.
Japan has 55 nuclear power plants, with several more planned. The US has 104. The most significant nuclear meltdowns to date have occurred in the US, 3 Mile Island, and in Russia, Chernobyl. The Japanese power plant in its’ Fukushima plant is now confirmed to be in a meltdown situation. The damage was initially caused by the earthquake and tsunami, but has now taken on a life of its own. In the past, this third stage of the disaster would not have occurred. But now, it could ultimately be the most devastating part. Somehow in our modern, sheltered world of computer, smart phones, and SUVs, we forget where we come from. We forget the power of nature and we can barely conceive of the consequences when the past dances with the present.
By Steve Mallis
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Great Sale Going On!

I am so excited to announce that I am now designing blogs with Wacky Jacqui’s Designs!  The new layout I have I did all on my own!!!!  I am still learning but I want to let everyone in on this great sale that Jacqui and I are hosting.  You can get a blogger package for $55 that is usually $65 or you can get a WordPress package for $ 55 that usually is $85!  Those are both great deals!!!!!!!!!  Here are the details of what each package includes:

Blogger Package
• 2 , 3 or 4 column design
• Custom background
• Custom header
• Sidebar titles (unlimited)
• Custom signature
• Custom post divider
• Social network icons
• Custom blog button
• Navigation bar with text
• Favicon
• Installation

WordPress Package
• 2 , 3 column design
• Custom background
• Custom header
• Blog button
• Matching font color
• Custom Font for post and sidebar titles
• Custom signature
• Social network icons
• Menu Bar (drop down +8)
• Favicon
• Installation

These prices don’t include and kits or image fee’s and we add a 3.00 dollar Paypal fee to each package.  Click here to fill out the order from and please put my name in the referring box so that we know it is my order!!!!!  If you have any questions please leave a comment or email me!  I also have a giveaway coming up as well!

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Thank You Note Thursday


It is time for another Thank You Note Thursday.  All you have to do is grab the button, write your letters and come back and link up.  These letters can be serious or sarcastic.

Dear Pear,
I really wish you would make up your mind and figure out your shit so that I can figure out what I want to do!
Margaret

Dear Jacqui,
THANK YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Margaret

Dear Followers,
Thank you so much for reading the crap that I write and commenting on it!
Margaret

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Great Questions Part 1

Here is part one of the questions that I posted the other day.

1. How old would you be if you didn’t know how old you are?
I have always wanted to be 21 forever.  Once I turned 21 I said that I wasn’t going to get any older because I could do everything so why get any older.
2. Which is worse, failing or never trying?
Both suck.  I don’t know that I could really pick between the two.  They are both hard to live with or at least they are to me  but I would have to say not trying.  Because if you don’t try you will always wonder if it would have worked or not.
3. If life is so short, why do we do so many things we don’t like and like so many things we don’t do?
I think it is because people are scared just be themselves.  I have learned that I am going to do the things I love and the only thing I am going to do that I don’t like is work.  Life is to short to spend the time doing things you hate!
4. When it’s all said and done, will you have said more than you’ve done?
I try and do things for people.  People that know me know that I am pretty quiet but I always try and help people out.  I hate to see people hurt or in need.  I am always doing something to help others.  So I think I would have done more things that I would have talking.
5. What is the one thing you’d most like to change about the world?
I would like to get rid of bullying.  I am so sad when I see that more kids are killing themselves because of bullies.  I was bullied in high school but at least I could go home to get away from it.  The poor kids can’t get away from it ever.  I really am tired and pissed off that adults still bully people as well!  Everyone needs to treat others how they want to be treated!
6. If happiness was the national currency, what kind of work would make you rich?
Working as CNA in a nursing home taking care of the elderly.  
7. Are you doing what you believe in, or are you settling for what you are doing?
I am settling because I am tired of fighting for what I want.  I am just worn out and have lost the fight I had in me.
8. If the average human life span was 40 years, how would you live your life differently?
I wouldn’t do anything differently.  I am living life to it fullest now and there isn’t anything I would change about it.
9. To what degree have you actually controlled the course your life has taken?
For the most part I have controlled all of it.  I mean I didn’t plan on getting MS but other than that I have pretty much put myself in places that I should have been and brought on a lot of my own grief because of how I have acted or what I was doing at the time.
10. Are you more worried about doing things right, or doing the right things?
I want to do whatever I do right.  I might be doing the “wrong” thing but I am going to do it to the fullest of my ability.
11. You’re having lunch with three people you respect and admire. They all start criticizing a close friend of yours, not knowing she is your friend. The criticism is distasteful and unjustified. What do you do?
I stick up for them.  I can’t sit around and let people talk shit on a person that is my friend.  I hate to sit and listen to it even if I don’t know the person they are talking about.
12. If you could offer a newborn child only one piece of advice, what would it be?
Live life to the fullest and don’t ever look back only look forward.
13. Would you break the law to save a loved one?
I don’t know if I would or not but I am leaning towards no I don’t think I would break the law to save someone I loved.
14. Have you ever seen insanity where you later saw creativity?
Not that I an remember
15. What’s something you know you do differently than most people?
How I eat my food when I am eating a meal.  I have to eat all of one thing before I can move on to the next thing and I hate for the different foods to touch.
16. How come the things that make you happy don’t make everyone happy?
Because we are all different which is a great thing.  We would all get tired of each other if we all like the same things.
17. What one thing have you not done that you really want to do? What’s holding you back?
There really isn’t anything that I want to do that I haven’t done.  
18. Are you holding onto something you need to let go of?
Yes and I am working on letting it go but it takes time!
19. If you had to move to a state or country besides the one you currently live in, where would you move and why?
Hawaii for sure!  
20. Do you push the elevator button more than once? Do you really believe it makes the elevator faster?
No I only push it once because it doesn’t go faster no matter how many times yo push the button.
21. Would you rather be a worried genius or a joyful simpleton?
A joyful simpleton for sure.  Worrying is super tiring.
22. Why are you, you?
Because I can’t be anyone but me.
23. Have you been the kind of friend you want as a friend?
I have done things wrong but I try every day to be the kind of friend that I want.
24. Which is worse, when a good friend moves away, or losing touch with a good friend who lives right near you?
A friend moving away.  
25. What are you most grateful for?
My friends, family and my cubs.
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