What Would You Do?

I thought about skipping my guest post this week. My mind certainly is not as focused as I would like it to be. However, I decided to follow through with it. The main reason why is I need the distraction. My father’s death has been very hard on me.

Usually, I am the one presenting some ideas, and/or quotes – giving you my take on them – hoping you will like what I have to say. What I share is based on my own experiences, and how I have grown, and changed from them. Right now things are different. I am encountering something I never have experienced before. The feeling of loss, and grief from the death of my father.
I have absolutely no idea what I can do – if anything – to ease the pain in my heart. I am clueless about how I can help ease my mother’s heart wrenching pain. I honestly have no idea what to do.
I am turning to you, hoping you can give me some advice that might help me get through the difficult days ahead.
How do other people deal with feelings of grief, and loss?
How do you provide emotional support to someone who is hurting as much as you are?
Does the emotional pain go away?


Meet Me On Monday

1.  Crunchy or soft tacos?
Soft!!!  I should eat crunchy ones because I shouldn’t have gluten but I don’t like crunchy ones at all.
2.  Do you scrapbook?
I do.  I have even scrapbooked my cats.
3.  Do you take any daily medications?
Ya I take a few things daily.  I take: Baclofen, Zoloft, Loritab and then Lunsta most nights so I can sleep.
4.  What is your favorite sound?
I love any and all music!
5.  Where were you born?
At St. Marks Hospital in Salt Lake City Utah.

NES & Health Update

Another week down and I have actually done really well this week when it comes to eating at night.  Friday and Saturday nights where the only nights that I ate so that is a huge improvement from where it has been.  I am still on the Slim Fast diet and it isn’t going super well.  I haven’t weighed myself so I am not sure where I am at right now but I think I am going to weigh myself first thing in the morning and see where I am at and use that as my starting weight.  I hope that I can start losing the weight but I don’t really hold out much hope of it.  I know I need to start exercising again but with the MS as bad as it had gotten I am not sure how I will do working out.  I am going to try and do the 30 day shred again tomorrow and see how far I get before I feel like I am dying.

I am so tired of the MS and always being sick.  I am 26 and yet I am always at home because I am to tired or weak to do anything.  I am just tired of being tired and in pain all the time.  I know that it is just part of the disease but it is getting old quickly.  In June we are going to Yellowstone and I am not sure how much I am going to be able to do.  I am scared that I am not going to be able to do all the hikes with my family.  I will be so sad if I end up having to sit out some of it.  I love Yellowstone and all the hiking but if the MS stays like it is I am not going to be able to much of anything.  I am holding out hope that things will be okay and I will be able to do what I want to do.  My hands are super numb right now and I think I am getting carpel tunnel which sucks but just another issue I have to over come.

I hope everyone had a great weekend and will have a great week!

If You Don’t Like It . . .

I have decided that I am done playing the number game.  I am going back to blogging for me.  I am not going to worry about how many people read my blog or how many followers I have.  I would rather have people follow me that actually read what I write instead of tons of followers who don ‘t read what I write.  I am also not going to follow blogs unless they appeal to me.  I got so caught up in getting my number of followers higher that I forgot why I blog.  If I lose some followers then oh well such is life.  I am back to blogging for me!  Oh and if people I write about here read it then that is oh them!  I am not going to censor what I right because it may hurt peoples feelings!  If you don’t like it then don’t read it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I am also thinking about changing the name to My Life . . . My Stories.  My private blog was named that and since I have deleted it I am thinking that it is a perfect name for this blog.  What does everyone think about that????