WELL IT IS MONDAY AND I REALLY DON’T WANNA BE AT WORK ANYMORE! I HAVE A HEADACHE AGAIN THE MEN HERE ARE IDIOTS AND I AM LONELY. I AM IN A BUILDING FULL OF PEOPLE AND I FEEL ALL ALONE. I GUESS IT WILL ALL PASS WITH TIME AND I WILL HAVE MY UPS AND DOWNS THAT IS FOR SURE. I WISH MY HEAD WOULD STOP HURTING AND THAT WAY I COULD BE OUT OF PAIN FOR AWHILE. I REALIZED THIS WEEKEND HOW MUCH JOSH DOESN’T CARE. I FIGURED BUT IT SUCKS KNOWING FOR SURE THAT HE DOESN’T CARE. I AM SO OVER HIM AND HIS CRAP. THAT DOESN’T MEAN IT STILL DOESN’T HURT IT JUST MEANS THAT I WILL NO LONGER DEAL WITH HIM. HE HAS MY NUMBER HE WANTS TO CALL COOL IF NOT THEN OH WELL HIS LOSS. IN FACT I WOULD RATHER HIM NOT CALL ME ANYMORE. THAT WAY I CAN HAVE A CLEAN BREAK FROM HIM.
NOW THERE IS ALSO TIM IN MY LIFE WHO IS ALSO HURTING ME WITH HIS WAYS. I REALLY LIKE TIM BUT HE WON’T MAKE UP HIS MIND. I MET HIM THROUGH JOSH SO THAT IS KIND OF WEIRD BUT IT DOESN’T BOTHER ME. HE JUST DOESN’T KNOW WHAT HE WANTS. I THINK IS SCARED OF COMMITMENT BUT WHAT HE DOESN’T GET IS I DON’T WANT OR NEED COMMITMENT RIGHT NOW. ALL I WANT IS A FRIEND AND MAYBE TO DATE HIM. HE JUST KEEPS PUSHING ME AWAY AND THEN WANTING ME TO COME AROUND AGAIN. I WISH MEN COULD FIGURE IT ALL OUT.
MY GRANDPAS BROTHER RUSSEL IS DOING THAT WELL AND I FEEL SO BAD FOR MY GRANDPA AND HIS FAMILY. JEFF CAME IN YESTERDAY TO SEE HIS UNCLE AND HE CALLED AND DIDN’T WANT MY GRANDPA TO PICK HIM UP FROM THE AIRPORT. I WAS LIKE WTF?!?!?! WHO SAYS THAT TO THERE OWN DAD! I WOULD NEVER DO THAT. I KNOW HE DID IT BECAUSE HE HATES MY GRANDMA AND LAST TIME HE WAS HERE MY GRANDPA GOT MAD AT HIM FOR BEING MEAN TO MY GRANDMA. I JUST WANT TO SAY TO HIM GROW UP! IT IS SUCH A JOKE HOW MY FAMILY ACTS WITH EACH OTHER.
I THINK ELINORE IS SICK. I WILL PROBABLY HAVE TO TAKE HER TO THE VETS THIS WEEK OR NEXT. I AM NOT SURE WHAT IS WRONG WITH HER BUT SHE ISN’T ACTING LIKE HERSELF AND SEE KEEPS THROWING UP ALL DAY LONG. I AM NOT SURE WHAT I WILL END UP DOING BUT I HAVE TO DO SOMETHING. SO I AM HOPING IT IS NOTHING BIG BUT IF IT IS I WILL HAVE TO PUT HER DOWN AND THAT WILL BREAK MY HEART. SHE IS THE ONE CAT THAT I REALLY REALLY LOVE. SO LETS ALL PRAY SHE IS OK!
