WELL I HAVE TO START OFF SAYING CONGRATULATIONS TO THE FLORIDA GATORS. EVEN THOUGH WE KNOW WHO THE REAL NATIONAL CHAMPIONS ARE THIS YEAR! THEY WILL NEVER COME OUT AND SAY THAT THOUGH SO WE WILL SEE. MY GRANDPA’S BROTHER RUSSEL HAS CANCER THROUGH OUT HIS WHOLE BODY SO HE WON’T LIVE VERY LONG. I GUESS IT IS 42 YEARS TODAY THAT HIS FATHER DIED OF CANCER. SO IT IS EVEN HARDER ON MY GRANDPA. I THINK THIS MAKES HIM SEE THAT HE WON’T BE AROUND FOREVER. I WISH RUSSEL AND HIS FAMILY THE BEST BUT IT ISN’T LOOKING GOOD FOR HIM. MY UNCLE JEFF IS COMING IN ON SUNDAY AND I AM NOT LOOKING FORWARD TO THAT BUT I WILL SURVIVE IT. I THINK HE NEEDS TO COME AND SEE HIS DAD AND SPEND TIME WITH HIM BECAUSE HE WON’T BE AROUND FOR EVER.
MY GRANDPARENTS AREN’T HAPPY I AM TALKING TO MY DAD AGAIN. THEY WON’T COME OUT AND SAY IT BUT I CAN TELL BY HOW THEY ACT THAT THEY AREN’T HAPPY ABOUT IT. BUT THIS IS MY LIFE AND IF I AM OK WITH IT THEN THEY JUST HAVE TO ACCEPT IT AND STAY OUT OF IT. I WAS TOLD YESTERDAY THAT THEY ARE GLAD HE STAYED AWAY AS LONG AS HE DID. THEY DON’T GET HOW IT MADE ME FEEL THAT HE NEVER TRIED TO CONTACT ME WHEN I WAS YOUNGER. I DON’T KNOW THEY GET THE ABANDONMENT THAT I FEEL NOW. I DON’T KNOW THAT THEY WILL EVER GET THE LOSE I FEEL AND HOW THEM WALKING AWAY MADE ME FEEL. ALL I CAN DO IS TRY AND HEAL AND HOPE THE PAIN WILL EASE WITH TIME.
