THE OTHER BLOG IS GONE. I KNOW I SAID THE 15TH BUT IT MADE ME SICK TO LOOK AT IT. SO I DELETED IT EARLIER! SO THIS IS THE ONLY ONE I HAVE NOW. NO MORE JOSH NO MORE DRAMA!
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8 Jan
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8 Jan
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WELL IT IS ALMOST FRIDAY! I AM SO READY FOR THE WEEKEND THIS WEEK. IT HAS BEEN THE WEEK FROM HELL AT WORK THIS WEEK. IT WAS LIKE ANYTHING THAT COULD GO WRONG WENT WRONG. I ALSO DECIDED THAT I AM NOT GOING TO DO MY INFUSION TOMORROW BECAUSE I CAN’T AFFORD IT AND I CAN’T GET AN ANSWER OUT OF THE DRUG COMPANY. SO I AM AT THE POINT THAT I AM SAYING SCREW IT I DON’T HAVE TO TAKE THERE DRUG. I AM SURE I WILL START AGAIN BUT RIGHT NOW I CAN’T AFFORD IT. I ALSO DON’T KNOW IF THE RISK IS WORTH IT ANYMORE.
I AM STARTING TO THINK THAT I MIGHT WANT TO MEET WITH MY FATHER. THE CURIOSITY OF IT ALL IS GETTING THE BEST OF ME. I AM LIKE A CAT. I ALWAYS HAVE TO SEE FOR MYSELF AND DO IT MYSELF. BUT WE WILL SEE IF AND WHEN I DO. WHO KNOWS I AM JUST TAKING IT DAY BY DAY AND HOPING THAT ONE DAY IT WILL ALL BE OK.
JOSH WAS MEAN TO ME LAST NIGHT AND IT RUINED HOW I HAVE BEEN FEELING. I WAS DOING REALLY WELL AND FEELING GOOD ABOUT THINGS UNTIL HE HAD TO TELL ME THAT I AM HATEFUL AND MEAN. I KNOW I SHOULDN’T LET HIM GET TO ME BUT IT REALLY DID HURT ME. I WISH HE COULD SEE THE GOOD IN ME. I KNOW I CAN BE BITCHY BUT I KNOW IF HAD TAKEN THE TIME TO GET TO KNOW ME HE COULD HAVE SEEN THE GOOD IN ME. I GUESS HE HAS NEVER BEEN HAPPY WITH ME, BUT HE ALSO HAS NEVER HAD THE BALLS TO SAY ANYTHING TO ME ABOUT IT. HE HAS JUST SAID EVERYTHING WAS OK WHEN IT REALLY WASN’T OK. I FEEL VERY BETRAYED BY HIM AND WISH HE COULD JUST BE HONEST WITH ME. OH WELL GUESS THAT WILL NEVER HAPPEN WITH HIM. I DON’T KNOW THAT HE KNOWS HOW TO BE HONEST WITH ANYONE. ALL I HAVE KNOW HIM TO DO IS LIE TO GET WHAT HE WANTS. SO I KNOW I AM BETTER OFF WITHOUT HIM BUT IT STILL HURTS ME THAT HE TREATS ME THE WAY HE DOES.
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MY DAD AND HIS FAMILY
8 Jan
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