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To My Son, I was only 15 when you where born. I can remember like it was yesterday; the emotions running threw me. I wrote down the words that I was feeling as I carried you in my stomach. I love you so very much. I hope the choices I made for you gave you a life full of rewards. I am sorry for any sorrow I have given you. I am now 32 and since have had 3 Children: Ashley 10, Cody 6, and little Anna 3 months old. NOT A DAY GOES BY THAT I DON ‘T CARING YOU IN MY HEART: When I look into the eyes of my 3 children (your siblings), I can see the glimmer of your soul, the day I left you at the hospital almost 17 years ago.
Baby Boy Arterburn/Bianco, I hope you don’t mind. I am sharing my thoughts with strangers before I share them with you. I want everyone to know. As the years go by and I have had more children, there is still a space deep in my soul that is only made complete by the baby boy I left so long ago and a longing to know the young man he has become today. I want you to know that: whether you were happy or sad, healthy or sick, rich or poor, or you have been a good boy or bad boy, I will always love you unconditionally.
When I think of you, I also think about your father. He was so handsome and alot like Garfield always getting into something and trying to dig his way out. To this day even though I have married, I have never loved again the way I loved your father. He was so hurt when we let you go and I don’t think he could ever forgive me. He passed away a year after you were born, he was 17 years old and I am not really sure what really happened. The two most important people in my life were gone and my life has never been complete since. I just want you to know that I love and miss you and your father every day of my life.
You are a piece of me and my blood runs through your veins. I gave you life and your mom and dad have to be such wonderful people, to have wanted you to share your life with them for the rest of theirs. To your Mom and Dad, thank you for wanting him with all your hearts, you are both truly ANGELS in mine. I am always here and my home is always open for you and your family. WITH LOVE, PAM your (Birth Mother)
These are my words and this was written at the age of 15 for my SON, that I have never known. I gave you up for adoption 17 years ago and I caring these words with me 24 hours a day. I decided to share them with others, only after I began to register in birth registries. This is the first time I have shared my thoughts with anyone but GOD in 17 years! I hope they comfort someone else as they did me. With Love I pass them on! Pam
“THE LIFE INSIDE”
It’s been five months now! I wake up to a slight flutter in my tummy! It suddenly becomes real and I glow with excitement! I think to myself, What a wonderful day! With each new flutter I can feel it grow! I know now that I will soon hold a little one in my arms! The flutters I once felt are now becoming strong jolts! As I press my belly I feel a limb! It jumps and moves acknowledging my touch! Then it comes to me, that we have begun BONDING! This life inside me all ready has a soul, It can feel just as I do feel. I am in AWE! That GOD has entrusted to me the life of another, As I lay at night and wonder, Will everything turn out all right? Will I make the right chooses; So that this child I caring inside me; will not suffer? I do not know, But with all the love I have for this little life, I will surely be his for the rest of mine! Fly Away Home, I hope you return with you WINGS one day! I LOVE YOU Baby Boy Arterburn/Bianco
Dedicated to Baby Boy Arterburn/Bianco: Pam Bianco/1982 author
This week for Musical Monday’s I am going to post a song by Matthew West. He is by far my favorite singer out there right now. He is a christian singer and I can’t get enough of his songs. The first song I called “Surviors” and Melissa from Sugar Filled Emotions what the person who told me about this song.
This next one is called “Story Of Your Life”.
These are only two of his songs but there are more that I like of his. I hope everyone enjoyed these songs!
I haven’t done an update post on my eating disorder in a few weeks and I figured that I would post an update. I haven’t been doing to well with the whole not eating at night. I try but I haven’t been working on it to much. Right now I know I will be beat it but I am just not dealing with it. This time of year is hard for me because of my daughters birthday and mothers day. I know once I get past her birthday that I will get back on the band wagon and beat it once and for all.
As for my weight loss lets just say I am pretty much the same weight I was before. I really need to start walking again after work. I have gotten lazy but I will get back on the wagon with this as well. I hate that the MS makes me so tired and sick all the time. If I didn’t have MS I would be active and out living my life instead sitting in the house because I am sick. Oh well that isn’t important. I am going to get my ass in gear and start walking again!
This is Melissa Rainey Pierson story. It was the first time out from under my parents roof. I was sharing an apartment with my brother and stopped going to church and met a guy my brother didn’t like him but to pay less rent he let me have him move in ( I ended up paying 2/3 of the rent). when I found out I was PG I kicked him out of the apartment and my life. walking through the doors of the church was one of the scariest things I have ever done luckily they were loving and supportive. when I realized I wouldn’t be able to take care of him on my own (and I didn’t want to put the burden on my parents) I decided I needed to give him to someone that could. I went to the phone book and there were 2 Christian Adoption Agency’s – I made the Initial phone calls and One turned me off and the other on. I knew who I was going with. They have each family make a scrap book to show who they are so when I got those in I Sat and pondered and prayed and finally came to a decision.and then did it all over because I picked the wrong family. I finally landed upon Lynn and Mike. I had my When I found out around Christmas that they had the same first and middle name picked out I knew it was right. He stayed in my room while I was in the hospital. his mom and dad came to tally the day after he was born – very nice people – the right people. God has a plan for him and I was part of it. He will always have a place in my ehart and I hope that one day he will come find me. It won’t be hard, the adoption agency will always know where I am.
Since I have decided to start up support group pages and this blog I have found so many people that have placed for adoption. For the longest time I have struggled because I haven’t had anyone in my life who placed their child for adoption. It is so nice now to be able to say something and have other women know how I am feeling and completely understand the ups and downs that come along with placing your child. They understand that you can me sad and miss your child but that doesn’t mean that you regret your choice. I know I get sad but I would never change the choice I made to place her with the family who is raising her. I truly believe that she was meant to for them and that God wants them to be her family!
For a few months after I had my daughter I did go to a support group that the agency I used had but I got tired of all the drama that some of the girls brought and after I had my daughter it was hard to look at girls who were pregnant and not be jealous of them. I missed being pregnant because while I was pregnant that means she was still with me and after I had her I went home empty handed. It is a weird feeling to go to the hospital pregnant and then come home not pregnant and with out a baby. It is such a weird feeling to say the least. When they say that you ache for your child they are right. It is just something inside of you that knows something is missing. If you haven’t been through it I don’t know that you can completely understand it. I also hope that most people never have to learn what it feels like.
