NES & Weight Check In

I haven’t done an update post on my eating disorder in a few weeks and I figured that I would post an update.  I haven’t been doing to well with the whole not eating at night.  I try but I haven’t been working on it to much.  Right now I know I will be beat it but I am just not dealing with it.  This time of year is hard for me because of my daughters birthday and mothers day.  I know once I get past her birthday that I will get back on the band wagon and beat it once and for all.

As for my weight loss lets just say I am pretty much the same weight I was before.  I really need to start walking again after work.  I have gotten lazy but I will get back on the wagon with this as well.  I hate that the MS makes me so tired and sick all the time.  If I didn’t have MS I would be active and out living my life instead sitting in the house because I am sick.  Oh well that isn’t important.  I am going to get my ass in gear and start walking again! Registered & Protected

Friday I had my infusion and lets just say that for the first time since I have been doing them I had to get poked twice.  She kept digging with the first needle until I told her I couldn’t deal with the pain any longer.  There is nothing that hurts more than a nurse fishing around in your arm trying to get a vein that she has missed but doesn’t want to re-due it and get it right.  After about 3 or 4 minutes digging around I finally said that’s enough.  I can’t take the pain anymore.  She then poked me again a little higher up on the vein and got it in the first time.  Now where I was poked at hurts and I got a battle wound (bruise).

I also got an email from my daughters adoptive family.  It totally made my Friday.  They told me about her and also enclosed two pictures for me.  I am not going to post them but if you would like to see them let me know and I will email them to you.  I can’t believe how big she has gotten and how much she looks like my little brother.  She is short like I am but has the coloring of my little brother.  They said that she is all girl and is really good in school.  I was so glad to hear from them and happy that she is doing good.  It will be six years in July since I had her and placed her for adoption.  I know I made the right choice when I look at her pictures and see how happy she is.

I didn’t do that well this week when it comes to not eating.  I tried my best but lets just say that this week wasn’t the best.  I also haven’t done well on my diet but I am going to try and go walking tomorrow even though I will have to go by myself.  I really just need to charge my Ipod and go for a walk every night.  I need to lose the weight and I also need to get in shape for our trip to Yellowstone this summer.

That is all I have for today.  I still have a few spots left for designs so let me know if you are interested in getting a free design!