LET ME JUST START BY SAYING I HATE WINTER TIME. I HATE HOW COLD IT IS AND I ALSO HATE THE SNOW. I STILL DON’T KNOW HOW MY CAR WILL HANDLE IN THE SNOW AND I DON’T REALLY WANNA KNOW HOW MY CAR WILL HANDLE IN THE SNOW. MAYBE I WILL MOVE SOMEWHERE WHERE IT DOESN’T GET THIS DAMN COLD AND IT DOESN’T SNOW. I AM SO TIRED OF THE SNOW!
I FILLED MY CAR UP WITH GAS YESTERDAY NIGHT AND I WAS SHOCKED THAT I COULD FILL IT UP FOR $16. I AM SO GLAD THAT THE PRICES CAME DOWN. NOW I CAN AFFORD TO FILL MY CAR UP AND HOPEFULLY GET CAUGHT UP ON MY BILLS AND START SAVING MONEY AGAIN. WHO KNOWS THOUGH WITH MY DOCTOR BILLS LIKE THEY ARE I DON’T KNOW THAT I WILL BE ABLE TO SAVE ANY MONEY. I HAVE THE FEELING I WILL BE PLAYING CATCH UP FROM NOW ON. I DON’T THINK I WILL EVER BREAK EVEN. OH WELL I GUESS THAT IS ALL I CAN DO ANYMORE LOL IS TRY AND BREAK EVEN AND HOPE THAT I CAN AT LEAST STAY CAUGHT UP WITH EVERYTHING.
SO I AM STARTING TO FEEL A LITTLE BETTER NOT MUCH BUT A LITTLE SO THAT IS GOOD. HOPEFULLY I AM GETTING OVER THIS SO THAT I CAN HAVE MY NEXT INFUSION. NOT THAT I REALLY WANT MY NEXT INFUSION BUT I HAVE TO TRY AND HOPE THAT I GET BETTER. I AM NOT SURE IF TYSABRI IS RIGHT FOR ME BUT I HAVE TO TRY AND SEE WHAT HAPPENS. IF I JUST GIVE UP NOW I WILL ALWAYS HATE MYSELF FOR NOT GIVING A TRY. SO HERE WE GO TRYING IT ONE MORE TIME. IF I HAVE A REACTION THIS NEXT TIME I AM DONE FOR GOOD WITH IT AND WE WILL HAVE TO FIGURE OUT WHAT WE ARE GOING TO DO NEXT. THERE IS NOTHING OUT THERE THAT I KNOW OF TO DO IF THIS DOESN’T WORK. I WILL BE OUT OF OPTIONS SO LETS ALL PRAY IT GOES SMOOTHLY THIS TIME AND NOTHING GOES WRONG.
I AM TRYING THIS WHOLE STAY POSITIVE THING AND I THINK I AM DOING PRETTY WELL WITH IT MOST DAYS. I FIND MYSELF NOT THINKING ABOUT ALL THE BAD THINGS IN MY LIFE BUT TRYING TO FOCUS ON THE GOOD. EVEN THOUGH THERE ISN’T MUCH GOOD GOING ON LATELY. ALL I CAN DO ANYMORE IS TRY AND SEE ONLY THE GOOD AND HOPE THAT I CAN STAY POSITIVE AND GET THROUGH ALL THE TRIALS I AM HAVING. MAYBE ONE DAY IT WON’T BE AS HARD AS IT IS NOW. THAT IS ALL ANYONE CAN HOPE FOR THAT ONE DAY LIFE WON’T BE AS HARD AS IT HAS BEEN THE LAST FEW YEARS.
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