WELL THE GUYS AT WORK WON! I AM SICK AND I HOPE THEY ARE PROUD OF THEMSELVES. SO WE WILL SEE HOW LONG IT TAKES ME TO GET BETTER. WE ALL NEED TO PRAY THAT I AM BETTER BEFORE THE 26TH OF DECEMBER SO THAT I CAN GET MY NEXT INFUSION. I HATE BEING SICK. I GETS SO OLD SO QUICK AND I TEND TO NOT BE A NICE PERSON WHEN I AM SICK. I TRY AND BE NICE BUT IT NEVER SEEMS TO WORK FOR ME. IT SEEMS LIKE I ALWAYS END UP BEING A BITCH TO PEOPLE THAT ARE TRYING TO TAKE CARE AND HELP ME. I KNOW IT ISN’T RIGHT BUT I CAN’T SEEM TO CHANGE IT. I TRY EVERYTIME BUT IT NEVER SEEMS TO WORK. I GUESS THE ONLY THING I CAN DO IS KEEP TRYING AND ONE DAY I WILL SUCCEED AT IT I HOPE. ALL I CAN HOPE IS THIS PASSES QUICKLY!
I STILL HAVEN’T TALKED TO JOSH MUCH. I GUESS HE IS WAITING FOR ME TO FREAK OUT AND YELL AT HIM BUT I WON’T LET HIM GET TO ME LIKE THAT ANYMORE. I WILL AND I AM CHANGING HOW I REACT TO HIM. I WON’T LET ME GET THE BEST OF ME ANYMORE. I WILL BE IN CONTROL OF MYSELF. I WON’T LET HIM KNOW HE PISSES ME OFF AT TIMES. I KNOW I WILL SLIP UP AT TIMES BUT I KNOW IF I DO IT AS LITTLE AS POSSIBLE I WILL FEEL BETTER ABOUT MYSELF AND HOW I REACTED TO THE SITUATION. I HOPE ONE DAY HE WILL GET HOW HE IS AND GET HOW HE TREATS ME BUT I KNOW THAT MAY NEVER HAPPEN WITH HIM. I WILL ALWAYS HOPE IT DOES BUT I HAVE TO KNOW THAT IT MAY NEVER HAPPEN. I DON’T KNOW OF ANYWAY TO MAKE ME SEE IT. I KNOW YOU CAN’T FORCE ANYONE TO DO ANYTHING. I ALSO KNOW I CAN’T MAKE HIM SEE OR UNDERSTAND HOW HE MAKES ME FEEL WHEN HE ACTS LIKE HE IS ACTING NOW. I DON’T THAT ANYONE CAN MAKE HIM WAKE UP AND SEE HOW HE IS BEING. I GUESS IT IS SOMETHING THAT HE WILL HAVE TO SEE ON HIS OWN.
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