IT IS ALREADY WEDNESDAY AND I FEEL WARN OUT. IT HAS BEEN A REALLY LONG COUPLE OF DAYS TO SAY THE LEAST. IT SEEMS LIKE THEY WENT ON FOR FOREVER AND A DAY. IF IT HASN’T BEEN ONE THING IT HAS BEEN ANOTHER. IT COULD BE ME JUST TRYING TO GET CAUGHT UP FROM LAST WEEK WHICH IS A JOKE. I NEVER SEEM TO GET CAUGHT UP TO SAY THE LEAST. I JUST SEEM TO GET FARTHER AND FARTHER BEHIND. OH WELL GUESS ONE DAY I WILL GET IT ALL FIGURED OUT. MAYBE IF I TRIED WORKING ALL DAY I WOULD GET CAUGHT UP, BUT SOME DAYS I JUST CAN’T WORK ALL DAY. I SURE TRY BUT I JUST CAN’T DO IT SOME DAYS. I GUESS THE PHONES ALWAYS SEEM TO THROW ME OFF. THEY NEVER STOP SOME DAYS AND IT MAKES ME LOSS PATIENCE AND LOSE MY TRAIN OF THOUGHT. I MEAN TRYING TO WRITE THIS HAS TAKEN TWICE AS LONG AS IT SHOULD CAUSE OF THE PHONES. OH WELL IT IS MY JOB TO ANSWER THEM SO I HAVE TO DEAL WITH IT. I THINK THOUGH SOME DAYS I HAVE TAKEN ON MORE THAN I CAN HANDLE WITH ALL THE OTHER THINGS THAT I DO AT WORK. I JUST KEEP DOING MORE AND MORE BECAUSE I FEEL BAD IF I SAY I DON’T HAVE THE TIME TO DO IT. SO I JUST KEEP DOING WHATEVER THEY ASK OF ME. OH WELL THAT IS JUST ME ALWAYS HATING TO SAY NO TO ANYONE. I GET THAT FROM MY GRANDMA I THINK BECAUSE SHE NEVER SAYS NO TO ANYONE. IF YOU ASK HER TO DO SOMETHING THE ANSWER IS ALWAYS YES. SO MAYBE IT IS SOMETHING THAT I NEED TO WORK ON BUT I HATE SEEING PEOPLE DISAPPOINTED SO I JUST SAY YES. THAT WAY I DON’T LET THEM DOWN AND I DON’T HAVE TO FEEL BAD ABOUT IT ALL.
JOSH AND I ARE DOING OK. WE ARE BOTH TRYING SO WE WILL SEE WHAT HAPPENS. WITH US YOU JUST NEVER KNOW FROM DAY TO DAY WHAT IS GOING ON. ONE DAY IT IS GOOD AND THEY NEXT DAY IT SUCKS. I GUESS IF IT IS MEANT TO BE IT WILL HAPPEN AND IF NOT THEN IT WON’T. WHO KNOWS ANYMORE. I HAVE TAKEN THE VIEW OF “IF IT IS GOING TO HAPPEN IT WILL AND IF NOT THEN I AM GOING TO TRY AND NOT WORRY ABOUT IT”. I DON’T HAVE THE PATIENCE TO DEAL WITH THINGS THAT JUST WON’T WORK. I DEAL WITH SO MUCH ANYWAY THAT I DON’T HAVE THE PATIENCE TO DEAL WITH THINGS I CAN’T CHANGE.
I BOUGHT TICKETS YESTERDAY TO GO SEE JEFF DUNHAM IN JANUARY. I AM SO EXCITED TO SEE HIM IT SHOULD BE A GREAT SHOW. I AM GOING TO GO WITH MY BROTHER AND HIS GIRLFRIEND AND HOPEFULLY JOSH IF HE MAKES IT HERE ON TIME. IF HE DOESN’T I WILL TAKE MISTI WITH ME SO THAT THE TICKET DOESN’T GO TO WASTE. I CAN’T WAIT TO SEE HIM IN CONCERT IT SHOULD BE A GREAT SHOW. IT GIVES ME SOMETHING TO LOOK FORWARD TO THAT IS FOR SURE. IT WILL ALSO BE NICE TO SPEND TIME WITH MY BROTHER BECAUSE WE NEVER SEEM TO SEE EACH OTHER ANYMORE. SO HOPEFULLY IT WILL ALL HAPPEN AND NOTHING WILL GO WRONG. BUT WITH MY LIFE YOU NEVER KNOW WHAT IS GOING TO HAPPEN FROM HOUR TO HOUR.
