I HAVE DECIDED THAT MY NEW GOAL IS TO BE MORE POSITIVE AND NOT TO STRESS AS MUCH. SO THAT IS WHAT I AM GOING TO TRY AND DO UNTIL I GET IT DOWN. MAYBE IF I AM POSITIVE ONE DAY MY LIFE WON’T BE AS DIFFICULT AS IT TENDS TO BE AT TIMES. I THINK EVERYONE NEEDS TO HEAR GOOD THINGS SOMETIMES AND I WANT TO BE THE ONE TO MAKE PEOPLES LIVES BETTER, BUT I NEED TO START WITH ME. SO MY GOAL IS TO GET ME WHERE I NEED TO BE AND THEN GO TO SCHOOL FOR SOCIAL WORK AND GO INTO ADOPTIONS. I WOULD LOVE TO HELP OTHER PEOPLE WITH ADOPTIONS BECAUSE I KNOW HOW HARD IT IS FOR THE BIRTH PARENTS AND I HAVE SEEN THE JOY THE ADOPTIVE COUPLE HAS. SO I WANT TO BE ABLE TO HELP GIRLS WITH IT. I THINK IT WOULD BE A VERY REWARDING PROFESSION. HOW REWARDING IT WOULD BE MAKES UP FOR THE LACK OF PAY THAT COMES WITH THE JOB.
JOSH AND I ARE DOING OK RIGHT NOW. SO I HOPE IT STAYS THAT WAY BECAUSE I DON’T KNOW I CAN DEAL WITH IT AGAIN. IF IT DOESN’T WORK THIS TIME WE ARE OUT OF OPTIONS. THIS IS THE LAST TIME WILL TRY AND MAKE IT WORK. IF IT DOESN’T THEN WE HAVE DONE ALL WE CAN DO AND WILL HAVE TO CUT OUR LOSSES. BUT I WILL HOLD OUT HOPE THAT IT WILL WORK AND THAT WE WILL BEAT THE ODDS. WE JUST HAVE TO WORK HARDER BECAUSE WE ARE APART ALLTHE TIME. I KNOW THAT IF WE TRY HARD ENOUGH WE CAN MAKE IT.
