Susan – The World As I See It

Recently I have started talking to my best friend from high school again. I have been looking back and I don’t have a single memory from my senior year of high school that doesn’t have her in it. We always had a great time and my family loved her. We were more like sisters that friends. We were always together until we went away to college and then everything changed. I am not sure what happened or why it happened but we started to grow apart. Around the time I got pregnant we got in a fight about something and to be honest with everyone I am not sure what we were fighting about. I know that it was probably my fault though. I know how I am when I am not on medication and pretty much say that it was my fault and I feel bad because we haven’t spoken in like 6 years or so. It is crazy to think that it has been that long. I never thought we would drift apart like we did but I can’t take it back all I can do now is try and rebuild the relationship and don’t let it happen again. I look back and see where I went wrong with it all. I was so glad that she emailed me because I was to big a brat to email her first. Hell when she emailed me I didn’t even know why I was mad her I just knew I was. After I read her email I realized how dumb I was being.and realized that I did want her back in my life. I am hoping that we will rebuild our friendship and not drift apart again!

This week for the Writers Workshop I picked number 1.) Have you ever had a fight with a long time best friend and never made up? Do you think about her from time to time and think about contacting her? What would you say? What if it didn’t work out? What if it did? (inspired by Elizabeth from Mama Sick). I picked this one because I had a great friend all through high school and around the time I got pregnant we got in a fight and to be honest I have no idea what we were fighting about. I have several ideas but I not 100% sure what we fought about but I do know that ever since then we haven’t spoken until a month or so ago. She sent me a message on Facebook that said she was sorry she couldn’t be the friend I needed her to be. I was shocked and taken back by it because I am pretty sure I caused the fight. I sent her back a message telling her that I don’t really remember what we were fighting about and that I would love to talk to her again. We exchanged numbers and we talked a couple times for our birthdays. I have always wondered what she was up to and things like that but I have never had the guts to email her and see how she is doing. She is really the only person I have ever fought with that I have missed being in my life. I have the attitude that if you are in my past there is a reason for that and leave people there but with her I have always wondered. I hope her and I can get close again because I do miss having a friend that is my age!