I haven’t written anything for the writers workshop in awhile and one of the topics this week jumped out at me and just had to write about it. I picked #3-A Phone Call You Won’t Forget. Funny enough the one phone call I will never forget was from my mom after she received a letter from me. After I had my daughter I decided that I wanted to find her and see if she wanted to be in my life. I took months of me searching and paying websites to try and find her. I got an address and decided that I would write to it and if it wasn’t her then oh well and if it was then I would see what happened.
I was on my way to work and my started ringing. I usually don’t answer out of state numbers but since my husband is a truck driver I wasn’t sure if it was him or not. After I said hello she literally said “Hi, this is your mom”. I literally just sat there because I didn’t know what to say. We talked for about 20 mins or so. She told me that she was so glad that I found her because she was leaving it up to me if I wanted her in my life. She didn’t want to just show up and upset my life.
I wonder why has changed from that first conversation and now.
I wonder what would have happened if I just ignored her phone call and let it go to voicemail.
I wonder what would have happened if she had gotten the letter that I wrote to her and just thrown it away.
I wonder where I would be if I had just left well enough alone and left her in my past which is where I think she wants to be anyway.
🙁 this made my heart sad…
((hugs))
So sad…no mother belongs in the past. I wish you didn't feel that way!