I am finding that I am in funk lately. I just came seem to find things to write about and some days even if I have things to write I don’t feel like writing them. I hate when I have days or weeks like this. I can sit for hours and stare at a blank screen and have no idea how to get the thoughts in my head out of my head. I am just so tired of things in my life that I not sure what to do to make them go away or at least not bug me as much as they have been. I am just tired of a lot of things in my life anymore. I am so tired of being sick and not being able to do much because I get tired so quickly. Like Saturday my Grandma and I went shopping and we were only gone a few hours by the time we got home I could barely move because I was in so much pain. I am just tired always being sick and spending so much time and money at doctors offices. Hell I live at home because I can’t afford rent because of the doctor bills! I guess I am just tired of this disease and it taking my life away from me. I am only 26 is shouldn’t have to deal with this stupid disease. Hell no one should have to deal with this disease. It might be easier if I could plan on what was going to be wrong during a day but every morning when I get up and I am like “well what is going to work right today?”. I am always waiting for something to go wrong because you never know what this disease will do.
I also am having a rough time being single right now. It sucks when I have times like this. People around me are going to say see you aren’t okay being single. What they don’t get is that some days are tough and it tends to get lonely but more than not I am totally satisfied being alone. I hate when I feel like this because I know all too well that I am better off alone. In time this all will pass or at least I hope it will pass!!