The Truth. . .

 This post was super hard for me to write.  I am letting people in on a part of me and hoping that I can find a way to heal and  get past this.  If you have any advice please leave it to me in the comments!

Ever since my husband left me on Christmas in 2008 my eating habits have been of.  I have started to eat at night and not during the day.  I am eating most of my calories for the after about 7 PM.  The only reason I eat during the day is because of the pills I take I have to eat or I will get sick.  I really don’t get hungry till I get off work.  I knew that this isn’t normal but I didn’t know there was an actual eating disorder for it.  I was researching things for a dear friend of mine and I came across the disorder called Night Eating Syndrome.I was reading what they said about this disorder and I was shocked at how reading about the disorder that they were describing was 100% me. Here are some of the things that they say describe people who may have this disease.

  • People that have this disorder eat the majority of their calories for the day after 8 PM.
  • They say that is effects 1 to 2% of the population.  They also said that it can affect both sexes and all ages of people but it mostly affects young women.
  • People with this disorder and shown to have depression and low self esteem.  They also may have anxiety problems.  I know that if I don’t eat when I wake up it will cause me to have a panic attack.
  • They are often embarrassed by what is going on and don’t want let other people in on what is going on.  They also feel guilt instead of feeling relieved when they eat at night.
  • They generally have trouble sleeping.
  • They found that about 28% of people that were seeking gastric bypass surgery suffer from this disorder.
  • When they eat late at night they usually eat carbohydrates.  They say that the people “binge” eat at night but the eating is typically spread over several hours so it isn’t  the same as the typical binges that happen with the other eating disorders.

As I was typing that list it is like they were just writing about me.  I have so many of those symptoms that it is scary to me.  I now have a name for it but to know what it is almost makes is scary to me.  I would rather not know what is going on with me in this case.  I am really stuck on how to beat this.   I know I can but I am not sure how to beat it.  I am hoping that someone out there has some advice for me on this subject and knows how I can beat it.  I am truly looking to get past this and get back to being happy and health again.


Margaret Tidwell

I am a 33-year-old blogger. I write about my life and my struggles with Multiple Sclerosis. I also am a huge bookworm, and I have been doing book reviews for years now. I even blog about adoption, Multiple Sclerosis, and things that go on in my life.

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  1. You are very brave to share this on your blog. I don't know if you see a counselor but I really think you should fine someone you try for counseling. This is something you will need professional help to get through! Good luck!

  2. Hey Lady,
    First of all, good for you for sharing this!!! I was having this issue when I was on higher doses of prednisone. I would go to bed and wake up starving! So I would eat something. Then I would wake up a few hours later, starving again…

    It began to be a habit…and it didn't help that I couldn't fall asleep until 1 or 2 AM. Then, I would wake up every hour or so.

    My solution? Got a new medication from my psychiatrist that helps with anxiety but also makes you veeery sleepy. And I stay sleepy all night. I would definitely talk to someone, and maybe get a sleeping pill.

    Keep us posted!

  3. I do this A LOT. So busy during the day, I don't get a chance to eat. And then it's night…and I pig out.

    I try to make myself drink water before I have a snack and that sometimes helps.

  4. Yes you are very brave and I have to say I lived most of my adult life that way. I only had tea and cigarettes during the day. Once I gave up smoking I started to eat a bit better. My husband has the same issue..we are working on it!
    I will say some prayers for you:)
    I am visiting and following from I Love My Online Friends and I really do:)

  5. The fact that you're willing to admit you have a problem is a good step in the right direction.

    You mentioned that you eat because of meds? Could you take those meds during the daytime? This may "force" you to change your habit.

    Just a thought. Good luck =)

    Sandie lee

  6. I understand your situation, I have fought my whole life with weight and have tried many programs. Finally found one. For your health I encourage you to seek possibly a group to join, for support and understanding.

    I am now your newest follower, I cam from the One Fine Day Blog Hop This morning. Hope you can come follow as well,
    Thanks Karren
    PS I share your blog to Twitter @myllls

  7. I think, personally, that you should be very proud of yourself for recognising that you have an eating disorder. You are obviously wanting to do something about it otherwise you wouldn't have written this very thoughtful post. I am so sorry that your husband left, that must have been terrible, and now you are suffering because of it. Perhaps some time away on your own, thinking and reflecting time. I know that could be difficult but it might help to heal the wounds which are so obviously left open.

    Take great care. Glad I found you through Thursday blog hopping.

    CJ xx

  8. Thanks for sharing this, I know it was difficult to bare your soul like that. Now that you have a name for your eating disorder and know what you are facing, it might be easier to get help for it. As one who has been through years of counseling, hospitalizations, etc, etc, for major depression and come out the other end content and happy, I'd really encourage you to find help – it's difficult to go through it, but in the end, you'll wonder why you didn't do it sooner.

  9. Good for you for talking about this. It sounds like quite a challenge, but being aware of it is at least the first step.


  10. Can I just give a big huge "ME TOO!!!"? Because that list pretty much describes me.

    I started eating dinner late after my daughter was in bed so that I could relax and eat (instead of hopping up every two minutes to do something) but it has escalated. Breakfast was never something I did, and the last six months or so I have been cutting out lunch….so after 8pm every night, I am starving and eat. Then a few hours later I am hungry again and eat more.

    I end up in bed later and later (usually 3-4am) and then start the whole cycle over again.