The prompts that i am choosing to do this this week are:

(all prompts inspired by this months copy of Oprah Magazine.)
1.) “I’m mad at myself. I’m embarassed. I can’t believe after all these years, I’m still talking about my weight.” Poor Ope. What are you mad at yourself about?
I am mad that I let others get to me and I am so hot headed most of the time.  If I would just take the time to think before I speak and take the time to calm down I wouldn’t have half the problems that I have now.  I have tried and tried to stop speaking before I speak and to stop flying off the handle but no matter how hard I try I just can’t seem to get the hang of it.  I have decided that maybe it is just how I will be forever.  If anyone has any ideas on how I can change this about myself let me know.
I wish that I had a thicker skin as well.  Every time someone says something mean to me I get super depressed and feel like  my life is crap.  I guess it has to do with the fact that I have super low self esteem and I hate people to be mad at me or dislike me.  People that know me know that I put up a strong front but it really does hurt me inside.  I also need to know how I can maybe change this about myself as well!

2.) Divorce Dreams…a tempting alternative? A disaster to be avoided? Ever an option? Advice? What’s your take?
I am currently going through a divorce and I wish I could say it was a disaster that I was avoiding.  There is nothing fun about having to deal with what I deal with on a daily basis.  At times it is a huge joke and I wish that it could just be nice and we could be civil.  I guess I will never understand how someone can say that they love you but still act and treat me like he is treating me right now.  I know I could never treat him like he is treating me that is for sure.  I guess the only advice I could give to people is if you are having doubts before the wedding then don’t marry that person because things will only get worse and divorces are not fun at all.  They also bring out the worst in people.

Margaret Tidwell

I am a 32-year-old blogger. I write about my life and my struggles with Multiple Sclerosis. I also am a huge book worm and I have been doing book reviews for years now. I also blog about adoption, Multiple Sclerosis, and things that go on in my life.

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Comments

  1. Aunt Juicebox says:

    You can't control other people, only yourself. The way you react is entirely up to you.

  2. blueviolet says:

    I have hit my 60 day waiting period now and I am getting SO anxious for it to be final! How long has yours been dragging on?

  3. I am sorry you are going through divorce hell. I can't imagine. ((hugs)) Good advice though – any thoughts of "cold feet" maybe you should SERIOUSLY reconsider!

  4. sometimes i really dream of divorcing after almost 19 yrs of marriage. my partner changed and in many ways not for the better….breaks my heart

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