All I can say today is I hurt!  I am not sure what is going on with it either.  I hate days like today that is all I can do to function because I am in so much pain.  I wish I knew why I have gone through so much and I am still suffering.  Why does one person have to go through so much and have so much in life to deal with?  Will it ever reach a point where I am not suffering like I am right now and like I have in life. I am really struggling with the “why me’s” right now.  I really wish someone out there knew why and that I could see that it all works out in the end.
I wish I had the confidence to go into what happened and what not but I am scared to let people in like that.  Maybe one day I will be confident enough to share and let people in.  I guess because of my past I am super guarded and I don’t want to have to deal with people that might be mean or rude in some way.  I am very aware of how people are and that I don’t want to  have people try and tell me how I am feeling is wrong.
Well that is enough of that pitty party.  Thank you all for reading and following my blog.  I also want to thank you all for all the comments.  I love reading them!