THE BRICK


A young and successful executive was traveling down a neighborhood street, going a bit too fast in his new Jaguar.. He was watching for kids darting out from between parked cars and slowed down
when he thought he saw something. As his car passed, no children appeared. Instead, a brick smashed into the Jag’s side door! He slammed on the brakes and backed the Jag back to the spot where the brick had been thrown. The angry driver
then jumped out of the car, grabbed the nearest kid and pushed him up against
a parked car shouting, ‘What was that all about and who are you? Just what the heck are you doing? That’s a new car and that brick you threw is going to cost a lot of money. Why did you do it?’ The young boy was apologetic. ‘Please, mister…please, I’m sorry but I didn’t know what else to do,’ He pleaded. ‘I threw the brick because no one else would stop…’ With tears dripping down his face and off his chin, the youth pointed to a spot just around a parked car. ‘It’s my brother, ‘he said ‘He rolled off the curb and fell out of his wheelchair and I can’t lift him up.’
Now sobbing, the boy asked the stunned executive, ‘Would you please help me get him back into his wheelchair? He’s hurt and he’s too heavy for me.’
Moved beyond words, the driver tried to swallow the rapidly swelling lump in his throat. He hurriedly lifted the handicapped boy back into the wheelchair, then took out a linen handkerchief and dabbed at the fresh scrapes and cuts. A quick look told him everything was going to be okay. ‘Thank you and may God bless you,’ the grateful child told the stranger. Too shook up for words, the man simply watch ed the boy! push his wheelchair-bound brother down the sidewalk toward their home.
It was a long, slow walk back to the Jaguar. The damage was very noticeable, but the driver never bothered to repair the dented side door. He kept the dent there to remind him of this message: ‘Don’t go through life so fast that someone has to throw a brick at you to get your attention!’ God whispers in our souls and speaks to our hearts. Sometimes when we don’t have time to listen, He has to throw a brick at us. It’s our choice to listen or not.
Thought for the Day:
If God had a refrigerator, your picture would be on it.
If He had a wallet, your photo would be in it.
He sends you flowers every spring.
He sends you a sunrise every morning Face it, friend - He is crazy about you!
God didn’t promise days without pain, laughter without sorrow,sun without rain, but He did promise strength for the day, comfort for the tears, and light for the way.
Read this line very slowly and let it sink in…
If God brings you to it, He will bring you through it.

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HAIR

WELL I SURVIVED ANOTHER DAY. I WENT AND GOT MY HAIR COLORED YESTERDAY. SO NOW I HAVE ALOT MORE RED AND LESS BLACK. SO I AM HAPPY ABOUT THAT. ONE DAY I WILL GO ALL RED!!!!! I REALLY LIKE THE RED COLOR, AND SO FAR NO ONE HAS NOTICED THAT I RE-DYED IT. GUESS IT ISN’T A BIG CHANGE LOL.
I AM MORE AND MORE CONFUSED AS THE DAYS GO ON. I AM NOT SURE WHAT JOSH WANTS TO DO. HE JUST SEEMS DISTANT AND I CAN’T TELL IF HE REALLY WANTS TO WORK IT OUT OR NOT. I GUESS I WILL GO OFF OF WHAT HE SAYS AND IF HE DOESN’T MEAN IT THEN I WILL FIND OUT SOONER OR LATER. I CAN’T WORRY ANYMORE AND I CAN’T LET HIM HURT ME LIKE HE DOES WHEN HE SAYS THINGS LIKE HE DOESN’T CARE IF I CALL. I NEED TO PUT MY WALL BACK UP THAT I HAD TAKEN DOWN AND LET HIM IN. BUT I GUESS HE DOESN’T WANT IN TO MY WORLD. OR MAYBE HE DOES HE JUST DOESN’T REALIZE I LET HIM IN. I AM NOT SURE AND DON’T REALLY WANNA BRING IT UP TO HIM. GUESS WE WILL DISCUSSES THIS WHEN HE IS HOME AGAIN IF HE COMES HOME AGAIN THAT IS.

ANOTHER DAY

WELL ANOTHER DAY HAS COME AND GONE AND I STILL FEEL LIKE OLD HABITS ARE COMING BACK. IT WAS ALL I COULD DO THIS MORNING TO NOT LET IT HAPPEN. I KNOW I AM TRYING MY HARDEST BUT I FEEL I WILL SLIP UP. I TRY SO HARD BUT MAYBE THIS IS SOMETHING THAT WILL GET THE BEST OF ME. MAYBE I AM NOT STRONG ENOUGH TO FIGHT IT THIS TIME. I HAVE NEVER FELT THE URGE THIS BAD BEFORE. I HOPE I MAKE IT THROUGH THIS BUT I CAN’T SAY FOR SURE THAT I WILL.
I AM GETTING SICKER EVERYDAY AND SMALL THING ARE GETTING HARDER AND HARDER TO DO. I KEEP TRYING BUT DON’T KNOW THAT I WILL BE ABLE TO WORK FOREVER. THINGS ARE ALMOST GETTING TO HARD TO DO ANYMORE. TYPING IS ONE OF THE HARDEST THINGS FOR ME TO DO AND IT IS MUCH OF MY JOB THAT ALL I CAN DO IS MY BEST AND HOPE THAT I CAN KEEP IT UP FOR AWHILE. IF NOT THEN I GUESS I GET TO CLAIM DISABILITY OR TRY AND GET DISABILITY. BUT WHY WORRY ABOUT IT WHAT IS GOING TO HAPPEN WILL HAPPEN AND WORRYING WONT CHANGE THAT. SO ALL I CAN DO IS TRY EACH DAY AND HOPE IT IS GOOD ENOUGH TO GET BY. I KNOW ONE DAY WORKING WON’T HAPPEN ANYMORE BUT ALL I CAN DO IS TRY AND GET BY AND HOPE FOR THE BEST.
I HAVE NO IDEA WHAT IS GOING ON WITH JOSH AND I. IT IS DAY TO DAY ANYMORE. I WISH HE COULD SEE I AM CHANGING BUT I DON’T THINK HE DOES. HE HAS MADE ME NOT BE BITCHY AT ALL TOWARDS HIM CAUSE I KNOW HE WILL SAY SEE YOU AREN’T CHANGING. I ALSO AM TIRED OF ASKING FOR MONEY. IF HE DOESN’T OFFER ANY THEN I GUESS I AM JUST GOING TO GO WITH OUT. HE MAKES ME FEEL LIKE I AM IN HIGH SCHOOL ASKING A PARENT FOR MONEY. IT IS A JOKE. I THINK AT SOME POINT HE NEEDS TO STEP UP AND JUST GIVE IT TO ME WITH OUT ME HAVING TO ASK ALLTHE TIME. IT ISN’T LIKE I AM NOT WORKING. I AM WORKING AS HARD AS I CAN AND STILL NOT MAKING IT MONTH TO MONTH. HE THEN HAS TO PROCEED TO TELL ME HOW BIG HIS CHECKS ARE LIKE HE IS TRYING TO MAKE ME FEEL BAD. I DON’T THINK HE GETS THAT I REALLY AM TOTALLY BROKE. HE JUST ASSUMES I ALWAYS HAVE MONEY. OH WELL. . .

OLD HABITS DIE HARD

WELL IT IS A NEW WEEK AND I DON’T KNOW IF I AM READY FOR IT OR NOT. I AM TIRED OF THE WHOLE NOT KNOWING WHAT IS GOING ON FROM DAY TO DAY WITH JOSH. I FEEL SO UP IN THE AIR WITH HIM ALL THE TIME. I AM CHANGING AND PEOPLE SEE THAT BUT I DON’T KNOW THAT HE DOES. I DON’T KNOW THAT HE EVER WOULD NOTICE I AM CHANGING. I FEEL LIKE WHY DO IT, BUT THEN I HAVE TO REMEMBER IT IS FOR ME AND NOT HIM. SO WHETHER OR NOT HE SEES IT ISN’T IMPORTANT. ALL THAT MATTERS IS THAT I AM CHANGING. I WILL NEVER BE PERFECT BUT I SURE WILL BE BETTER AT IT. MAYBE HE WILL SEE IT MAYBE HE WON’T. I KNOW AT SOME POINT HE WILL SEE IT BUT WHO KNOWS WHEN THAT WILL BE. MY MS APPOINTMENT IS COMING UP QUICK AND I SHOULD BE ABLE TO GET ON STABILIZER PILLS THEN. I THINK THE PILLS WILL HELP ME NOT FREAK OUT AS MUCH, AND MAY EVEN HELP WITH THE ANXIETY THAT I HAVE ALL THE TIME. ALL I CAN DO IS HOPE THAT THE PILL OR PILLS WILL WORK. I KNOW THAT I CAN GET BETTER IF I PUT MY MIND TO IT. I WILL GET BETTER FOR ME AND IF JOSH WANTS TO STICK AROUND OK AND IF NOT THEN I WILL MOVE ON. DON’T GET ME WRONG I DON’T WANT TO MOVE ON BUT I WILL IF I HAVE TOO.
I KNOW JOSH HATES TO SEE ME SUFFER WITH THE MS SO I HAVE STARTED TO WONDER IF I JUST SHOULDN’T LET HIM GO SO THAT HE DOESN’T HAVE TO WORRY ABOUT ME. MAYBE I JUST SHOULDN’T TELL HIM CAUSE THERE IS NOTHING THAT HE CAN DO ABOUT IT. I WONDER IF I SHOULD JUST KEEP IT TO MYSELF SO THAT PEOPLE DON’T KNOW HOW I AM DOING. I HAVE FOUND MYSELF WANTING SO BAD TO FALL BACK INTO BAD HABITS THAT I THOUGHT I WAS OVER. FOR THOSE OF YOU WHO REALLY KNOW ME I KNOW YOU CAN FIGURE IT OUT, AND FOR THOSE OF YOU WHO DON’T I WON’T SAY HERE WHAT THEY ARE IF YOU CONFUSED SEND ME A MESSAGE AND I WILL LET YOU KNOW. ANYWAY I FOUND MYSELF THIS WEEKEND LOOKING AND LOOKING FOR THINGS. I THOUGHT I HAD BEATEN THIS PROBLEM YEARS AGO AND I GUESS UNDER THE AMOUNT OF STRESS I AM UNDER BAD OLD HABITS COME BACK. DON’T GET ME WRONG I AM FIGHTING IT BUT I DON’T KNOW IF I WILL GIVE IN OR IF I CAN BEAT IT AGAIN. I AM TRYING TO BEAT IT AGAIN SO WE WILL SEE WHAT HAPPENS. ALL I CAN SAY IS OLD HABITS DIE HARD.
I AM SO THANKFUL FOR THE PEOPLE I HAVE AROUND ME THAT CARE AND THAT I KNOW WILL BE THERE THROUGH ANYTHING. I MAY SEEM TO PUSH YOU AWAY BUT I AM NOT. YOU ARE JUST REACHING A PLACE THAT NOT MANY PEOPLE HAVE EVER GOTTEN TO. I AM LETTING IN FARTHER THAN THE PEOPLE THAT RAISED ME ARE. I HOPE YOU KNOW I AM TRYING AND ONE DAY I WON’T ACT LIKE I ACT NOW. I WILL GET BETTER AND NOT BE SO AFRAID IF LETTING YOU IN.
(YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE!!!!!)
THIS SAYS IT ALL:
Time passes.
Life happens.
Distance separates.
Children grow up.
Jobs come and go.
Love waxes and wanes.
Men don’t do what they’re supposed to do.
Hearts break.
Parents die.
Colleagues forget favors
Careers end.
BUT………
Sisters are there, no matter how much time and how many miles are between you.
A girl friend is never farther away than needing her can reach.
When you have to walk that lonesome valley and you have to walk it by yourself,
the women in your life will be on the valley’s rim, cheering you on,
praying for you, pulling for you, intervening on
your behalf, and waiting with open arms at the valley’s end.
Sometimes, they will even break the rules and walk
beside you…Or come in and carry you out.
Girlfriends, daughters, granddaughters,
daughters-in-law, sisters, sisters-in-law, Mothers,
Grandmothers, aunties, nieces, cousins, and extended
family, all bless our life!
The world wouldn’t be the same without women, and
neither would I. When we began this adventure called
womanhood, we had no idea of the incredible joys or
sorrows that lay ahead. Nor did we know how much we
would need each other.
Every day, we need each other still.

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WEEK FROM HELL!!!!!!!

THIS WEEK IS THE WEEK FROM HELL. NOTHING IS GOING RIGHT AT WORK. IT IS A JOKE ANYMORE. I AM READY TO THROW IN THE TOWEL AND FORGET ABOUT THIS PLACE. I DON’T KNOW HOW MUCH MORE OF THIS WEEK I CAN TAKE. IF IT ISN’T ONE THING IT IS ANOTHER! I HAVE NO PATIENCE ANYWAY BUT NOW THAT IT IS CRAZY I REALLY HAVE NO PATIENCE. I DON’T WANNA TALK TO JOSH CAUSE I DON’T WANNA YELL AT HIM WHEN IT ISN’T HIS FAULT SO I AM JUST FIGURING IT OUT ALL ALONE. WHICH IS OK BY ME, IT JUST MEANS NO MORE STRESS. I REALLY CAN’T DEAL WITH ANY MORE THIS WEEK.