Well this week has been one of the longest weeks I have had in a very long time. It has seemed like nothing has been going right for me. First the car accident and then the ticket and insurance problems. Just when things were going good and I was going to be able to afford a lap top for me and I had to go and wreck my car. I am really having a hard time staying positive right now with everything going on. I am trying but I can’t seem to do it.
I called today and got the amount of my ticket it is $120. That isn’t as bad as I thought it would be but I am still wondering where the money is going to come from. Guess I am just going to mail the U of U there 75 dollars and not pay any extra for awhile because of the ticket and the money to get my car out of the shop when it is done being fixed. I know I will figure it out because I always do. It is just getting hard to know it will be ok when every thing seems to be going wrong right now.
Chris starts his new job as a security officer tomorrow night. He will be working from 10 to 8. There are having him work 10 hours so that he will have someone to train him for 2 hours before they leave when there shift is done. He is excited to start. I hope that it all works out for him and that he keeps this job longer than he kept some of his other jobs.
Lachelle wrote me, Grandma, and Chris letters. I was shocked that she wrote me. I figured she would write Chris and maybe Grandma but I didn’t think that I would ever hear from her. We didn’t really stop talking on the best of terms. She was really nice in the letter and thanked me for yelling at her when she was doing something dumb. I think I was one of the few people that called her on her bullshit. I didn’t care what she did I was going to called her on it if it wasn’t right. She knew it too. She spent a lot of time being mad at me but I knew one day she would realize that I was helping her in the long run and that what I had to say was right. I wrote her back and told her I would be her friend but I was still going to call her on her shit when she was doing something wrong. So we will see if she will write me back or not. I think she probably will. I realized last night when I was reading her letter that I really did miss her and I miss all the good times we had. I know we can have more if she wants to that is!
A Very Long Week
TRUNDLE TRUNDLE
THIS WEEKEND WENT BY WAY TO FAST! I NEVER DID UPDATE THE BLOG ON SUNDAY. SO THIS WILL BE A LONGER POST DUE TO THE FACT THAT I HAVE TO WRITE ABOUT.
FRIDAY NIGHT I WENT WITH GRANDMA OUT TO CAMP WILLIAMS TO BRING CHRIS SOME PIZZA. ON THE WAY OUT THERE WE GOT STUCK BEHIND A LADY THAT WAS GOING 40 MPH. THIS OF COURSE PISSED GRANDMA OFF. SHE SPENT THE WHOLE DRIVE YELLING AND GETTING MORE AND MORE PISSED OFF THE LONGER IT WAS TAKING. I OF COURSE WAS LAUGHING AT HER THE WHOLE TIME. SHE HAD A HIGH PREST DINNER TO GO TO THAT NIGHT AND WANTED TO PROVE TO GRANDPA THAT YOU COULD GET OUT THERE AND BACK IN 30 MIN’S. WHEN GRANDMA WANTS TO PROVE A POINT YOU DON’T GET IN HER WAY. ANYWAY WHEN WE FINALLY GOT TO CAMP WILLIAMS THE OLD LADY WAS GOING ON BASE. THIS REALLY MADE ME LAUGH AS GRANDMA GOT EVEN MORE MAD BECAUSE THE LADY WAS STILL IN FRONT OF US. WELL WHEN WE FINALLY GOT AROUND HER WE GOT TO CHRIS AND GAVE HIM THE PIZZA. WHEN GRANDMA TURNS AROUND HERE IS THE LADY ASKING US HOW TO GET TO THE OFFICERS CLUB. THE LADY PROCEEDED TO TELL GRANDMA THAT SHE COULD GET LOST GOING AROUND THE BLOCK. GRANDMA WAS LIKE I COULD SEE THAT. NEEDLESS TO SAY GRANDMA WAS ABLE TO PROVE HER POINT. ON THE WAY HOME SHE TOLD ME TO MAKE SURE THAT I BLOGGED ABOUT THE LADY! SO THIS PART OF THE BLOG IS FOR GRANDMA!!!!!
ON SATURDAY GRANDMA AND I WENT AND DID OUR USUAL SATURDAY SHOPPING BUT THIS TIME GRANDMA WAS PISSED AT GRANDPA SO SHE WANTED TO STAY AWAY AS LONG AS SHE POSSIBLY COULD. I SWEAR THOSE TWO ARE ALWAYS FIGHTING LOL. ANYWAYS SO WE STARTED AT HER SISTERS WHERE WE DROP OFF APRICOTS AND TOMATOES THEN WE WENT TO THE MALL SO THAT I COULD GET A CHARGER FOR MY PHONE. MY PHONE CHARGER TOOK A CRAP AND I NEEDED TO GET IS REPLACED. SO GRANDMA WENT INTO JC PENNEY’ AND I WENT TO THE T-MOBILE STORE. WHILE I WAS WAITING FOR ONE OF THE REPS TO GET DONE WITH THERE CURRENT CUSTOMERS I FOUND 2 COVERS THAT I WANTED AND I ALSO FOUND A CLEAR CASE THAT GOES OVER THE COVERS SO THAT IF I DROP IT LIKE I ALWAYS DO IT WILL PROTECT THE COVER! I WAS SUPER EXCITED BECAUSE I TEND TO DROP MY PHONE BECAUSE MY HANDS ARE NUMB. NEXT WE WENT TO SAM’S CLUB TO RENEW MY MEMBERSHIP. SINCE I DID IT BEFORE SEPTEMBER 4TH I GOT A $10 GIFT CARD. SO I TALKED GRANDMA INTO BUYING ME TWO NEW PILLOWS. I LOVE TO SHOP WITH HER CAUSE IF I PLAY THE RIGHT CARDS I NEVER HAVE TO BUY ANYTHING! AFTER WE GOT DONE THERE WE WENT TO HARMON’S TO FINISH THIS LEG OF OUR SHOPPING ADVENTURES FOR THE DAY. A FEW HOURS LATER MY BROTHER TEXT ME AND HE NEEDED DEODORANT SO WE WENT TO WAL-MART AND BACK OUT TO CAMP. THIS TIME THERE WASN’T ANY SLOW DRIVERS. WE ALSO HAD TO PICK UP HIS LAUNDRY SO THAT GRANDMA COULD DO IT AND TAKE IT BACK TO HIM THAT NIGHT! WELL I GUESS HE SAW LACHELLE BECAUSE SHE WAS OUT THERE FOR HER LAST DRILL BEFORE SHE SHIPS TO BASIC TRAINING. MY GRANDMA SAID THAT SHE WAS CRYING AND WHAT NOT. SHE WAS TELLING MY LITTLE BROTHER THAT SHE WAS JUST USING THE GUY SHE IS SEEING. BUT KNOW ONE REALLY KNOWS WHAT IS GOING ON WITH HER ANYMORE. SHE STILL HASN’T GOTTEN HER STUFF OUT OF MY STORAGE UNIT SO IT LOOKS LIKE I AM GOING TO BE STORING IT WHILE SHE IS GONE AS WELL BUT I DO KNOW WHEN SHE GETS BACK SHE IS GOING TO HAVE TO PAY ME TO GET IT. I AM SURE THAT WILL TURN INTO A HUGE FIGHT BUT IT ISN’T MY PROBLEM IT IS HERS!
THE GIRLS ARE CRAZY LIKE ALWAYS. ON FRIDAY NIGHT SYLVIA WAS OUT UNTIL 4 AM. THE NEXT DAY SHE WANTED TO SLEEP ALL DAY BUT I WOULDN’T LET HER. EVERY TIME I FOUND HER I WOULD GET HER UP AND TRY AND KEEP HER AWAKE SO SHE WOULD SLEEP ON SATURDAY NIGHT. SHE WAS SO TIRED COME SATURDAY NIGHT THAT SHE FELL RIGHT ASLEEP. I FIND IT FUNNY HOW I AM TALKING ABOUT HER LIKE SHE IS MY BABY BUT I GUESS IN A WAY THEY ARE JUST LIKE MY KIDS. GRANDPA HAS STARTED CHASING SYLVIA WHEN SHE HISS’S OR GROWLS AT HIM. I TOLD HIM THAT IF HE KEEPS DOING IT EVERY TIME SHE DOES IT SHE WILL STOP DOING IT. WE WILL SEE IF HE KEEPS IT UP OR NOT. ELINORE IS ACTING REALLY WEIRD AROUND ME LATELY. SHE HAS STARTED TO BE REALLY SCARED ALL THE TIME AGAIN. I WISH I COULD GET IN HER HEAD AND FIGURE OUT WHAT SETS HER OFF. THAT WILL NEVER HAPPEN THOUGH SO I WILL JUST KEEP TRYING TO FIGURE IT OUT AND IF I DO MAKE SURE I DON’T DO IT ANYMORE.
JOSH WILL BE HERE TONIGHT. SO I AM GOING TO MEET UP WITH HIM AFTER THEY GYM SO THAT WE CAN GO TO DINNER. I ALSO MADE HIM BROWNIES BECAUSE HE WANTED THEM. WE WILL SEE HOW THAT ALL GOES. WITH HIM AND I YOU NEVER KNOW HOW THINGS WILL GO. IT SHOULD BE OK THOUGH I AM NOT EXPECTING ANYTHING MAJOR TO GO WRONG. IT SHOULD BE A NICE VISIT WITH HIM.
I HAVE BEEN PLAYING THE SIMS 3 ALL WEEKEND LONG. I HAVE STARTED TWO MORE GROUPS OF PEOPLE. I USUALLY JUST START ONE PERSON AT A TIME BUT THIS TIME I STARTED TWO GROUPS OF PEOPLE THAT ARE MARRIED. SO IT IS FUN. ONE OF THE COUPLES JUST HAD A BABY AND I AM HOPING THAT THE OTHER COUPLE WILL HAVE ONE SOON. I AM FINDING IT IS HARDER AND MORE FUN TO PLAY COUPLES AND NOT JUST ONE PERSON AT A TIME. I LIKE TO LIVE OTHER PEOPLES LIVES FOR THEM. SINCE I DON’T MUCH IN MY OWN LIFE IT IS FUN FOR ME TO MESS WITH OTHER PEOPLES LIVES EVEN IF IT JUST IS A COMPUTER GAME!
WELL I THINK THIS POST IS LONG ENOUGH! HOPE EVERYONE HAD A GREAT WEEKEND!
WORK WORK WORK
IT SEEMS LIKE ALL I DO IS WORK, GO TO THE GYM AND GO HOME AND DEAL WITH DRAMA THERE. OH WELL THAT IS LIFE FOR ME ANYMORE. IT IS VERY RARE THAT THERE ISN’T SOME KIND OF DRAMA AT HOME OR AT WORK. OH WELL THAT IS HOW LIFE IS AT TIMES. I GUESS IT IS PART OF BEING A GROWN UP. I HAVE DECIDED THAT IF THIS IS BEING AN ADULT I DON’T WANNA DO IT ANYMORE. I AM TIRED OF IT ALL. I WISH IT WAS JUST THAT EASY TO NOT HAVE TO WORK AND DEAL WITH THE DAILY STRESSES OF LIFE. I KNOW THAT I AM TRYING TO DEAL WITH THIS DIFFERENTLY NOW AND THAT IS HELPING ME STAY MORE POSITIVE MOST OF THE TIME. SO TIMES I HAVE SLIP UPS BUT MORE THAN NOT I AM DOING REALLY WELL AT STAYING POSITIVE. I HAVE ALSO COME TO THE CONCLUSION THAT I AM NO LONGER GOING TO MAKE OTHER PEOPLES PROBLEMS MY OWN. I DON’T THE TIME ANYMORE TO WORRY ABOUT EVERYONE ELSE’S PROBLEMS. I AM GOING TO FOCUS ON MY FOR ONCE IN MY LIFE AND FIX MY LIFE AND MAKE MYSELF HAPPY THIS MAY SEEM SELFISH BUT AT TIMES IT IS WHAT HAS TO BE DONE IN ORDER TO SURVIVE AND NOT BE SO STRESSED ALL THE TIME.
JOSH IS ON HIS WAY TO FLORIDA SO THAT SHOULD BE INTERESTING TO SEE HOW HE IS WITH ME WHILE HE IS DOWN THERE. YOU NEVER KNOW WITH HIM ANYMORE. SO FAR HE IS DOING REALLY WELL BUT I AM ALWAYS HESITATE OF FLORIDA BECAUSE THAT IS WHERE MOST OF THE STUFF THAT WENT WRONG STARTED. I CAN STILL REMEMBER THAT NIGHT LIKE IT WAS YESTERDAY AND NOW LOW HE MADE ME FEEL ABOUT IT ALL. ALL OF OUR PROBLEMS HAVE BEEN CAUSED BY HIM DRINKING AND HIM BEING A MEAN DRUNK TO ME. IF HE CAN’T CONTROL HIS DRINKING AND HOW HE ACTS THEN HE HAS NO REASON TO BE DRINKING. HE HAS BEEN DRINKING LONG ENOUGH TO KNOW HIS LIMIT AND YET AT TIMES HE STILL DRINKS TO THE POINT WHERE HE DOESN’T REMEMBER THINGS AND THAT IS WHEN WE ALWAYS FIGHT AND HIT A ROUGH PATCH BECAUSE HE LIES ABOUT IT. WHAT HE DOESN’T GET IT IS I ALWAYS FIND OUT AND I MOST OF THE TIME ALREADY KNOW BECAUSE I TELL THE CHANGE IN HIM. I HOPE HE HAS LEARNED TO CONTROL IT OR DON’T DRINK CAUSE I WON’T DEAL WITH IT ANYMORE. HE ALREADY KNOWS ALL THIS I JUST HOPE THAT HE IS TAKING ME SERIOUS THIS TIME! LIKE I TOLD HIM THE LAST TIME HE WAS HOME HE JUST NEEDS TO BE HONEST WITH EVERYTHING AND IF HE CAN’T DO THAT THEN HE IS WASTING MY TIME AND HIS OWN TIME! HONEST IS ALL I ASK FOR ANYMORE.
THE GIRLS ARE BEING THERE USUAL MONSTER SELVES. THEY ARE LOVING THE OUT DOORS AND NOW I AM STUCK WITH THE PROBLEM THAT THEY WON’T EVER WANT TO BE INSIDE CATS AGAIN. IF I EVER MOVE OUT I DON’T KNOW WHAT I WOULD DO WITH THEM. I WILL BE SAD IF I LEAVE THEM BUT THEY WILL BE SAD IF I TAKE THEM WITH ME. I KNOW ELINORE WILL BE SAD EITHER WAY BUT I AM SURE SYLVIA WILL ADJUST TO ME NOT BEING AROUND. WHO KNEW TWO CATS WHO WERE SCARED TO DEALTH OF BEING OUTSIDE WOULD START TO LOVE IT SO MUCH! THEY WOULD RATHER BE OUT THERE THEN IN THE HOUSE. THEY NEVER STRAY VERY FAR FROM HOME AND THEY WILL COME WHEN I CALL THEM. I CAN REMEMBER HOW I WAS WITH THEM WHEN THEY FIRST STARTED GOING OUT ALL WORRIED AND COULDN’T SLEEP BUT NOW I COULD REALLY CARE LESS. HALF THE TIME I DON’T EVEN KNOW IF THEY ARE IN OR OUT. THEY ALWAYS COME TO MY WINDOW WHEN THEY ARE READY TO COME IN.
GOD ONLY KNOWS WHAT IS GOING ON WITH CHRIS AND LACHELLE ANYMORE. CHRIS GONE TO SUMMER CAMP WITH THE GUARD AND LACHELLE SHIPS TO BASIC TRAINING ON TUESDAY OF NEXT WEEK. SHE STILL HAS TO COME AND GET HER STUFF FROM THE HOUSE AND MY STORAGE UNIT BUT WE WILL SEE IF SHE EVEN COMES AND GETS IT. GOD ONLY KNOWS WHAT IS GOING THROUGH HER HEAD AT TIMES. I HAVE NO IDEA IF THEY ARE ON OR OFF. I AM JUST HOPING WHILE SHE IS GONE THAT I CAN GET CHRIS TO SEE THAT THERE ARE “NORMAL” GIRLS OUT THERE. I WANT TO MAKE HIM SEE THAT HE DOESN’T NEED TO DEAL WITH HER CRAP ANYMORE. I KNOW IF HE LOOKS HE CAN FIND SOMEONE BETTER THAN HER. I WOULD EVEN TAKE JAIL BAIT BACK AGAIN. SHE WAS TEN TIMES BETTER THAN LACHELLE WAS THAT IS FOR SURE!!!!!
I HATE TUESDAY’S
I HAVE DECIDED THAT I HATE TUESDAY’S. IT SEEMS LIKE THEY ALWAYS DRAG AND I NEVER HAVE ANY WORK TO DO. IT SURE GETS OLD JUST SITTING AROUND AND DOING NOTHING ALL DAY LONG. I GUESS IT IS JUST PART OF HAVING A JOB AND WHAT NOT. I AM SURE IT SEEMS WORSE BECAUSE I AM SUPER BUSY ON MONDAYS AND WHAT NOT.
SYLVIA IS STILL ON THE HUNGER STRIKE OR SHE WON’T EAT DRY FOOD AND SHE IS ONLY EATING WET FOOD WHICH ISN’T GOOD FOR HER. OH WELL SHE WILL EAT DRY FOOD IF MY GRANDMA WILL STOP FEEDING HER WET FOOD ALL DAY LONG. I KNOW THAT THIS WON’T HAPPEN THOUGH. GRANDMA GIVES INTO THE CATS TOO EASY. OH WELL THAT IS WHAT GRANDMA’S DO SPOIL THEIR GRAND KIDS. SINCE THE GIRLS MAY BE THE ONLY GRAND KIDS SHE WILL EVER HAVE I GUESS SHE CAN SPOIL THEM ALL SHE WANTS.
CHRIS AND LACHELLE ARE UP TO THERE SAME OLD SHIT. THEY ARE ALWAYS FIGHTING AND THEN MAKING UP THEN FIGHTING AGAIN. I AM CONVINCED THAT IT WILL NEVER CHANGE WITH THEM. I ALSO DON’T SEE THEM EVER BREAKING UP. I THINK THIS IS THE CYCLE THAT THEY WILL BE DOING FOREVER AND A DAY. I DO THINK THAT AT SOME POINT ONE OF THEM WILL END UP IN JAIL FOR DOMESTIC VIOLENCE BUT THAT ISN’T MY PROBLEM OR MY WORRY ANYMORE. THEY BOTH CAN DO WHATEVER THEY WANT TO DO. I AM DONE WORRYING ABOUT THEM AND THEIR DRAMA ALL THE TIME. I DON’T HAVE ENOUGH TIME IN THE DAY TO WORRY ABOUT THAT AND THEN MY OWN STUFF. ALL I DO KNOW IS THAT SHE NEEDS TO GET HER STUFF OUT OF STORAGE OR IT WILL BE GONE WHEN SHE GETS BACK FROM BASIC TRAINING.
I AM GOING TO GO TO THE GYM TONIGHT BECAUSE I CAN’T GO TOMORROW AND I DIDN’T GO ALL WEEKEND LONG. I HAVE REALLY BEEN STRUGGLING WITH MIGRAINES LATELY SO I HAVEN’T BEEN GOING. I HAVE LOST THREE POUNDS SO I AM GOING TO KEEP GOING AND LOSE THE REST OF IT! I KNOW I CAN LOSE IT I JUST HAVE TO KEEP MOTIVATED AND WHAT NOT. I THINK THE BEST MOTIVATION FOR ME IS THAT I AM PAYING FOR A GYM PASS SO I HAVE TO USE IT. IF I WASN’T PAYING FOR ONE I DON’T KNOW THAT I WOULD EVER GO.
VERY LONG WEEKEND
THIS LAST WEEKEND WAS ONE OF THE LONGEST ONES THAT I HAVE HAD IN AWHILE. IT WAS ONE THING AFTER ANOTHER AND A LOT OF IT WAS BROUGHT ON BY SOMEONE WHO SAYS THE “LOVE” MY BROTHER AND YET SHE STEALS FROM HIM?!?!?! I GUESS IT ISN’T ANY OF MY BUSINESS THOUGH. I DO KNOW THAT I WILL NEVER TRUST A WORD THAT COMES OUT OF HER MOUTH AGAIN. I ALSO HOLD ALL THE CARDS AND SHE WON’T GET A DAMN THING OUT OF ME UNTIL SHE EITHER PAYS US OR GIVES IT BACK TO US! I AM THE ONE PERSON IN THE FAMILY THAT WON’T CAVE INTO MY BROTHER OR HER. SO UNTIL I SEE EITHER OF THOSE THINGS THEY MIGHT AS WELL GIVE UP TRYING TO GET THE INFORMATION OUT OF ME. IT IS FUNNY HOW PEOPLE CAN DO DUMB ASS THINGS AND EXPECT OTHERS TO JUST DEAL WITH IT AND LET THEM DO IT. WELL I WON’T LET PEOPLE GET AWAY WITH THINGS WHEN THEY TREATED MY GRANDMA LIKE SHIT WHEN THEY WERE GETTING THERE THINGS. SHE BETTER BE GLAD I HAVEN’T THROWN HER SHIT AWAY CAUSE WELL THAT IS WHAT I THINK SHE DESERVES FOR ACTING LIKE SHE HAS BEEN ACTING.
ANYWAYS ENOUGH ABOUT THAT. JOSH WAS HERE THIS WEEKEND AND IT WAS NICE TO HAVE HIM AROUND. I AM JUST NOT USED TO HAVING HIM AROUND ANYMORE. IT WILL TAKE TIME FOR ME TO GET USED TO IT AGAIN AND I ALSO KNOW THAT I WILL BE BETTER WHEN I GET ON MEDICATION AGAIN. HE HAD A STUDENT WITH HIM AND THAT ALWAYS MAKES THINGS DIFFERENT AS WELL. HIS STUDENT IS A COOL GUY THOUGH SO IT WASN’T TOO BAD WITH HIM AROUND ALL THE TIME.
THE GIRLS DON’T LIKE JOSH. THEY HARDLY CAME OUT WHEN HE WAS AROUND THIS WEEKEND. THEY BOTH JUST STAYED UNDER MY BED AND HID ALL THE TIME. I HAD TO DRAG THEM OUT AND PUT THEM OUTSIDE SO THAT THEY DIDN’T HAVE AN ACCIDENT IN THE HOUSE. I TRIED TO BRUSH SYLVIA YESTERDAY AND LETS JUST SAY THAT DIDN’T GO WELL AT ALL. SHE HATES IT AND JOSH IS SCARED TO DEATH THAT HE MAY GET CLAWED OR BITE. SO I WAS BASICALLY DOING IT BY MYSELF AND THAT ALWAYS SUCKS. I CAN’T BELIEVE THAT HE IS THAT SCARED OF GETTING SCRATCHED OR BIT. WE HAD TO TAKE THE DOG TO GET GROOMED ON SATURDAY AND THAT IS ALWAYS FUN. I AM SO TIRED OF TAKING CARE OF THE DOG AND WHAT NOT WHEN JOSH IS HERE. I DON’T EXPECT HIM TO TAKE CARE OF THE CATS SO WHY DO I HAVE TO TAKE CARE OF HIS DOG? OH WELL GUESS IT WILL ALWAYS BE MY JOB TO TAKE CARE OF THE ANIMALS.
FEELING BAD
I FEEL BAD TODAY. I FEEL LIKE I RUINED JOSH’S WEEKEND AND I FEEL BAD FOR MY BROTHER AND LACHELLE. SO MUCH HAS GONE ON THE PAST TWO DAYS THAT I DON’T EVEN KNOW WHERE TO BEGIN. IT SEEMS LIKE JUST WHEN I WAS HOPING THAT JOSH AND I WOULD HAVE A GREAT WEEKEND THINGS GOT MESSED UP. I FEEL BAD THAT I RUINED HIS WEEKEND WITH ME BECAUSE I LET THINGS GET IN THE WAY THAT SHOULDN’T HAVE GOTTEN IN THE WAY. I KNOW BETTER BUT I ALSO KNOW THAT SINCE I AM NOT ON ANY PILLS THINGS GET TO ME EASIER AND GET ME WORKED UP MORE THAT WHEN I AM ON SOMETHING. I AM HOPING THAT I WILL GET BACK ON SOMETHING ON TUESDAY WHEN I GO AND SEE THE DOCTOR. I KNOW ME BEING ON SOMETHING WILL HELP CALM MY NERVES AND HELP ME NOT GET WORKED UP OVER LITTLE THINGS. I KNOW THAT I CAN GET BALANCED OUT AND I CAN’T WAIT FOR THAT DAY TO COME.
CHRIS AND LACHELLE ARE OVER AND THAT HAS BEEN A LOT OF THE DRAMA THIS WEEKEND. I FEEL SO BAD FOR BOTH OF THEM. I WANTED THINGS TO WORK WITH THEM. I HATE TO SEE PEOPLE SAD AND HURTING. I KNOW THEY HAVE BOTH SAID AND DONE THINGS THEY SHOULDN’T HAVE BUT I KNOW THEY BOTH LOVE EACH OTHER. THEY JUST DON’T KNOW HOW TO SHOW IT. I KNOW THEY BOTH HAVE ISSUES THAT NEED TO BE ADDRESSED BUT I ALSO KNOW THAT THEY MAY NEVER ADDRESS THEM AND THEN AGAIN MAYBE IN TIME THINGS WILL CHANGE AND IT WILL WORK FOR THEM. HOW THINGS HAVE BEEN THE LAST FEW MONTHS HASN’T BEEN HEALTHY FOR EITHER OF THEM. I KNOW THEY ARE YOUNG AND THEY WILL LEARN FROM THIS EXPERIENCE AND MAKES CHANGES THAT THEY NEED TO MAKE.
I AM A STRONG BELIEVE IN FATE AND KARMA. I KNOW THAT IF YOU ARE MEANT TO BE TOGETHER FOR EVER IT WILL WORK AND IF NOT IT WON’T WORK OUT. I ALSO KNOW THAT KARMA WORKS AND PEOPLE WILL ALWAYS GET WHAT IS COMING TO THEM. IT MAY TAKE YEARS FOR IT HAPPEN BUT THEY ALWAYS GET WHAT THE DESERVE IN TIME. I ALSO THINK TIME SUCKS MORE AND MORE EACH DAY. IT ALWAYS DRAGS DURING THE WEEK AND FLIES BY ON THE WEEKENDS!
PICTURE AND POST FOR THE DAY
TODAY’S PICTURE IS WHAT MY BRUISE LOOKS LIKE. EVERYDAY IT GETS DARKER AND WHAT NOT. IT IS SURE TURNING OUT TO BE REALLY UGLY.
SO IT IS TUESDAY AND I AM SUPER EXCITED FOR IT TO BE THURSDAY SO THAT I CAN BE OFF AND NOT HAVE TO WORRY ABOUT WORK. I AM GETTING SO TIRED OF WORK AND IT BEING SO SLOW. DON’T GET ME WRONG I AM GLAD I HAVE A JOB BUT I AM TIRED OF HOW SLOW IT IS AND ME ALWAYS JUST SITTING AROUND DOING NOTHING. THERE IS ONLY SO MUCH OF DOING NOTHING THAT I CAN STAND AND I HAVE REACHED MY LIMIT. OH WELL I GUESS IT COULD ALWAYS BE WORSE AND I COULD HAVE NO JOB. SO I WILL STOP COMPLAINING ABOUT IT OR I WILL TRY AND STOP COMPLAINING ABOUT IT.
JOSH SHOULD BE HOME SOMETIME THIS WEEK GOD ONLY KNOWS WHEN THOUGH WITH HIS JOB. YOU NEVER KNOW WITH HIM AND YOU NEVER CAN PLAN BECAUSE YOU JUST NEVER KNOW WHEN AND IF HE WILL BE HERE. I AM SURE HE WILL MAKE IT SOMETIME THIS WEEKEND BUT GOD ONLY KNOWS WHEN HE WILL SHOW UP. HE IS EITHER EARLY OR LATE NEVER ON THE DAY HE IS SUPPOSED TO BE HERE. OH WELL AT LEAST HE TRIES TO GET WHERE HE NEEDS TO BE. I AM USED TO IT THOUGH SO I NEVER REALLY MAKE PLANS THAT CAN’T BE CHANGED.
CHRIS AND LACHELLE ARE FIGHTING AGAIN AND I AM GETTING TIRED OF HEARING IT. I MEAN COME ON BOTH OF THEM NEED TO GROW UP AND IF THEY AREN’T HAPPY THEY NEED TO LEAVE. THIS FIGHTING IS DRIVING ALL OF US IN THE HOUSE CRAZY. THE FIRST THING I HEARD WHEN I GOT UP WAS FIGHTING THIS MORNING. I MEAN GOOD HELL IF YOU WANNA YELL AND SCREAM GO OUTSIDE IN THE CAR. I CAN ONLY SPEAK FOR ME BUT I AM TIRED OF HEARING IT. I EITHER HAVE TO LEAVE OR THEY HAVE TO STOP FIGHTING. I MEAN IF THEY CAN’T GET ALONG THEN WHY DRAG IT OUT. I GUESS IT ISN’T UP TO ME. I JUST SEE THEM DOING A LOT OF THINGS THAT I DID IN THE BEGINNING BUT THEY WON’T LISTEN TO ME. SO I HAVE STOPPED TRYING TO HELP. THEY WILL FIGURE IT OUT ON THEIR OWN I GUESS AND IN THE PROCESS I AM SURE ME AND GRANDPA WILL GO CRAZY!
THE GIRLS ARE BEING THEIR USUAL MONSTER SELVES. THEY LOVE GOING OUT SIDE AND GETTING INTO TROUBLE. I LOVE MESSING WITH THEM THOUGH SO PART OF IT I AM SURE IS MY FAULT. THIS WEEKEND THOUGH I WAS READY TO KILL THEM. THEY ARE JUST GETTING REALLY OUT OF CONTROL AT TIMES.
SO I HAVE FIGURED OUT WHAT IS SCRATCHING MY CAR UP. IT IS THE NEIGHBOR KIDS RUNNING INTO IT WITH THEIR BIKES. GRANDPA TOLD ME THAT AND I WAS LIKE WTF???? IF I SEE THEM DO IT THERE ARE GOING TO SERIOUS PROBLEMS. JUST CAUSE THEY DON’T HAVE NICE THINGS DOESN’T MEAN THEY HAVE TO COME AND WRECK MY THINGS. I WORK HARD FOR MY CAR AND I HATE TO SEE IT GET RUINED BECAUSE KIDS TODAY JUST DON’T CARE ABOUT OTHER PEOPLES THINGS. WHEN I WAS A KID I WOULD HAVE NEVER DREAMED ABOUT HITTING INTO SOMEONES CAR WHEN I WAS RIDING MY BIKE. GUESS THAT IS THE DIFFERENT BETWEEN MY GENERATION AND THEIR GENERATION.
UPDATE
SO I REALIZED TODAY THAT I HAVEN’T POSTED IN OVER A WEEK. I GUESS I BETTER POST SOMETHING TO MAKE UP FOR IT. LETS SEE NOT MUCH HAS REALLY GONE ON SINCE I LAST POSTED. MY BROTHER IS IN WASHINGTON FOR THE REST OF HIS TRAINING AND HIM AND HIS GIRLFRIEND ARE FIGHTING LIKE ALWAYS. GOD ONLY KNOWS WHAT THEY ARE FIGHTING ABOUT ALL THE TIME ANYMORE. I GUESS SHE HAS STREP AND THAT HAS ME WORRIED BECAUSE MY NEXT INFUSION IS ON FRIDAY. I AM BEING EXTRA CAREFUL AND WHAT NOT AROUND HER. SO I THINK IT WILL BE OK AND NOT GET IT AGAIN. THERE REALLY ISN’T MUCH TO SAY SO I THINK THIS ABOUT IT FOR THIS POST. I WILL TRY AND POST MORE OFTEN!
BORED BORED BORED…
SO I AM AT WORK AND TOTALLY BORED! I HAVE NOTHING TO DO. . .LET ME REPHRASE THAT I HAVE TONS TO DO BUT CAN’T WORK BECAUSE WE ARE WAITING FOR THE SERVER TO BE FIXED. SO WE ARE ALL JUST SITTING AROUND DOING A WHOLE LOT OF NOTHING. AT LEAST I HAVE THE PHONES I FEEL BAD FOR MISTI AND MICKEY CAUSE THEY REALLY HAVE NOTHING THEY CAN DO. OH WELL HOPEFULLY WE WILL BE UP AND RUNNING SOON ENOUGH. WE ALREADY HAVE TO RE-DO ALL THE WORK WE DID MONDAY TUESDAY AND WEDNESDAY. SO ONCE WE ARE UP AND RUNNING WE WILL ALL BE SLAMMED WITH WORK. THIS TOTALLY SUCKS!!!!!!
THE GIRLS ARE LOVING THE WARM WEATHER. THEY ARE BOTH GETTING INTO TONS OF TROUBLE LATELY TOO. THEY ARE JUST MORE PLAYFUL AND HAVING FUN. THE LAST COUPLE OF NIGHT SYLVIA HAS SLEPT WITH ME. IT IS REALLY WEIRD TO HAVE HER ON THE BED BECAUSE SHE NEVER USED TO SLEEP WITH ME. DON’T GET ME WRONG I LIKE HAVING HER THERE IT IS JUST WEIRD IS ALL.
LACHELLE IS STILL BEING A BRAT. EVERYDAY ALL SHE DOES IS BITCH AND MOAN ABOUT EVERYTHING. I HAVE STARTED TO AVOID HER AS MUCH AS POSSIBLE I AM EVEN IN BED BEFORE THE GET HOME FOR THE DAY. I JUST HAVE NO PATIENCE FOR HER ANYMORE. IF SHE SAYS THE WRONG THING TO ME I WILL PUT HER IN HER PLACE. EVERYONE IN MY FAMILY I AM SURE IS JUST WAITING FOR IT HAPPEN.
DRAMA FILLED NIGHT
WELL LAST NIGHT WAS DRAMA FILLED THAT IS FOR SURE. I KNOW CAN SEE WHAT OTHERS SAW WHEN JOSH AND I FOUGHT ALL THE TIME. IT WAS A JOKE THAT IS FOR SURE. I TRIED NOT TO ARGUE AND HOME SO THAT OTHERS WOULDN’T HAVE TO HEAR US. WELL MY BROTHER AND LACHELLE DON’T HAVE THE SAME CONSIDERATION. THEY STARTED FIGHTING AT LIKE 10:30 LAST NIGHT AND DIDN’T STOP UNTIL ABOUT 1 AND THEN IT STARTED ALL OVER AGAIN AT 5:30 THIS MORNING. I AM NOT SURE WHAT THE ARGUMENT WAS ABOUT BUT I FINALLY SAID SOMETHING AND OF COURSE THAT CAUSED MY LITTLE BROTHER TO GET MAD AT ME, BUT WHAT I SAID WAS SOON FORGOTTEN BECAUSE MY GRANDMA CALLED HER A BRAT. LOL MY GRANDMA SAID SHE WOULD HAVE KILLED MY LITTLE BROTHER AND I IF WE ACTED LIKE SHE WAS ACTING. MY BROTHER THEN GOT MAD AT GRANDMA FOR CALLING HER A BRAT. HELL SHE WAS ACTING LIKE A BRAT. SO WHEN IT IS ALL SAID AND DONE I GOT ABOUT 3 HOURS OF SLEEP LAST NIGHT. LIVING THERE IS SUCH A JOKE THAT IS FOR SURE. LACHELLE WAS ON A BITCH ALL WEEKEND LONG THOUGH. I AM NOT SURE WHY SHE ALWAYS PISSY BUT GRANDPA HAS HAD ABOUT ENOUGH OF IT I THINK. HE SAID THAT HER AND HIM ARE GOING TO SIT DOWN AND TALK SO WE WILL SEE IF THAT EVER HAPPENS.
I WAS SO SAD THAT THE WEATHER SUCKED ALL WEEKEND LONG. I WAS WANTING TO WALK TO TRY AND LOSE SOME WEIGHT BUT IT WAS ALWAYS RAINING SO I COULDN’T WALK OUTSIDE. I WILL TRY AGAIN TONIGHT. I HAVE TO LOSE THE WEIGHT THAT I HAVE GAINED LATELY. I AM BACK IN MY FAT CLOTHES AGAIN AND THAT ALWAYS MAKES FOR A BAD BAD DAY.
THE GIRLS ARE ALWAYS OUTSIDE NOW. THEY ARE LOVING THE WARM WEATHER. THEY WERE SAD ALL WEEKEND CAUSE THEY COULDN’T GO OUTSIDE AND PLAY. I HOPE IT STAYS NICE FROM NOW ON. I AM TIRED OF COLD FOR RIGHT NOW AND SO ARE THE GIRLS!
THIS SWINE FLU IS REALLY SCARING ME IT MAKES ME WANNA BE A HERMIT AND NOT EVEN WORK. I AM SCARED THAT I WILL CATCH IT. ALL I CAN SAY IS I AM BEING CAREFUL AND I PRAY TO GOD THAT I DON’T CATCH IT.
