WILD WEEK

WELL IT HAS BEEN A WILD WEEK TO SAY THE LEAST. I AM SO GLAD THAT THE WEEK IS OVER AND I AM HOPING THIS WEEK WON’T BE AS EVENTFUL AS LAST WEEK WAS. IT JUST SEEMED LIKE IT WAS THINGS AFTER ANOTHER. I HATE WHEN I HAVE WEEKS LIKE THAT. IT SEEMS LIKE IT TAKES ALL YEAR TO GET THROUGH 5 DAYS. I ALSO AM REALLY STRUGGLING WITH BEING HAPPY. I KNOW I AM DEPRESSED BECAUSE I DON’T CARE ABOUT ANYTHING RIGHT NOW. IT IS SO HARD TO FEEL LIKE THIS AND STILL TRY AND FUNCTION AND TO HIDE IT FROM EVERYONE. I KNOW MISTI NEEDS ME RIGHT NOW AND I AM TRYING TO BE THERE FOR HER. I JUST HOPE THAT I AM DOING A GOOD JOB AT RIGHT NOW. I AM SURE TRYING HARD BUT I DON’T KNOW IF I AM DOING ALL THAT I CAN DO FOR HER. I KNOW THAT I NEED TO GET OUT OF THIS FUNK THAT IS FOR SURE.
I FEEL SO BAD FOR MISTI. I WISH I KNEW WHAT TO DO TO HELP HER OUT. I AM NOT GOING TO BLOG ABOUT WHAT IS GOING ON RIGHT NOW BECAUSE IT ISN’T MY PLACE AND IT ALSO IS MY NEWS TO TELL. I JUST HOPE THAT SHE REALIZES THAT SHE DESERVES BETTER THAN WHAT SHE IS GETTING. I KNOW THAT SHE KNOWS THIS BUT I ALSO KNOW HOW MUCH SHE LOVES HIM. I KILLS ME TO SEE HER STRUGGLE LIKE SHE HAS BEEN STRUGGLING THIS LAST WEEK. I KNOW IF SHE JUST GIVES IT TIME THE PAIN WILL PASS. I JUST HOPE SHE CAN STICK IT OUT UNTIL THE TIME DOES HEAL IT.
I HAVE BEEN WORKING OUT AT LEAST 3 TIMES A WEEK AND I STILL AM NOT GETTING ANYWHERE! I AM SURE GETTING TIRED OF IT THAT IS FOR SURE. I HAVE FINALLY CUT OUT SODAS AND CHIPS. I KNOW DON’T HAVE MUCH THAT I LIKE TO EAT BUT IT IS TIME TO BECOME HEALTH AGAIN AND WORK ON MY WEIGHT. I AM HOPING THAT BY CUTTING OUT THE SODAS I WILL BE ABLE TO START TO LOSE WEIGHT. WE WILL SEE BUT I AM HOLDING OUT HOPE THAT I AM ON THE RIGHT TRACK AND IT WILL START TO COME OFF SOON. I AM GOING TO THE GYM IN THE MORNING AND I AM GOING TO TRY AND GO TO THE GYM 4 TO 5 TIMES A WEEK FROM NOW ON. I HAVE FALLEN IN LOVE WITH THE CARDIO CINAMA THOUGH. IT IS SO MUCH COOLER AND LESS STRESSFUL FOR ME. I KNOW THAT THE PEOPLE IN THERE ARE WATCHING THE MOVIE AND NOT STARING AT ME. SO IT IS SO MUCH NICER FOR ME. I AM GOING TO TRY AND TALKING MISTI INTO GETTING A GYM PASS WITH ME SO THAT I DON’T HAVE TO GO ALONE ANYMORE.
I PLAYED THE SIMS 3 ALMOST ALL DAY LONG. BEFORE I COULD SAVE ALL THE PROGRESS THAT I MADE THE LAP TOP SHUT OFF! I WAS SO PISSED OFF. WHEN I TURNED IT BACK ON I HAD TO RESTART AND RE-DUE ALL THE STUFF THAT I HAD WORKED ON ALL DAY LONG! IT IS SURE ALOT OF TIME TO RE-DUE IT ALL BUT I DID IT AGAIN AND THIS TIME I SAVED IT EVERY HALF HOUR SO THAT IF IT DID THAT AGAIN I WOULDN’T LOSE AS MUCH. THE FAMILY THAT I AM PLAYING NOW JUST HAD TWIN BOYS SO NOW THE HAVE 4 KIDS! I CAN’T FIGURE OUT WHY IT IS SO ADDICTING FOR ME. I WISH I KNEW CAUSE I AM SURE THAT I WILL PLAY IT MOST OF THE DAY TOMORROW AS WELL/
JOSH AND I ARE GETTING ALONG WILL WELL. I THINK HE REALLY HAS CHANGED AND IF HE HAS I KNOW WITH OUT A DOUBT THAT THIS MARRIAGE WILL WORK OUT. I KNOW THAT BEING MARRIED ISN’T EASY AND THAT WE HAVE IT HARDER BECAUSE OF HIS JOB. I AM WILLING TO PUT IN THE WORK THAT NEEDS TO BE DONE AND I GET THE FEELING THAT HE IS AS WELL. IT IS NICE TO NOT FIGHT ALL THE TIME LIKE WE USED TO. I FEEL LIKE THE JOSH THAT I MET AND FELL IN LOVE IS BACK AND THAT IS A REALLY GOOD THING. I HOPE HE STAYS THE WAY HE IS NOW AND NEVER GOES BACK TO HOW HE WAS TOWARDS THE END OF THINGS.
THE GIRLS ARE LOVING LIFE. IT IS ALWAYS NICE TO SEE THEM HAPPY AND CONTENT IN WHATEVER THEY DO. THEY ARE LOVING THE WEATHER AND THEY LOVE TO BE OUTSIDE AS MUCH AS POSSIBLE. I THINK THIS WINTER IS GOING TO BE QUITE A SHOCK TO THEM. THEY ARE GOING TO MISS GOING OUT AT NIGHT AND DURING THEY DAY. THEY ALSO ARE GOING TO HAVE TO USE THE LITTER BOXES AGAIN AND I AM SURE THAT IT WILL PISS THEM OFF. THEY HATE USING THEM NOW THAT THEY REALIZE THAT THEY CAN GO OUTSIDE IN THE DIRT. OH WELL THEY WILL GET USED TO IT THAT IS FOR SURE.
SORRY THAT THIS POST IS SO LONG BUT IT IS HARD FOR ME UPDATE IT DURING THE WEEK SO I TRY AND DO IT ON THE WEEKENDS AS MUCH AS POSSIBLE. I HOPE EVERYONE HAD A GREAT WEEK AND HAS A GREAT SUNDAY!