WELL I GOT THE BRIGHT IDEA TO CUT OUT CAFFEINE ON FRIDAY. SO STARTING SATURDAY I HAD NO CAFFEINE. WELL NEXT TIME…OH WAIT THERE WON’T BE A NEXT TIME…I WON’T START ON THE WEEKEND. I WILL WAIT AND START ON WEDNESDAY THAT WAY I WILL HAVE A WEEK TO GET OVER THE HEADACHES BE CAUSE HAVING A HEADACHE ON MONDAY MORNING ALWAYS SUCKS ASS. TODAY HAS BEEN SO SLOW BECAUSE OF MY HEADACHE AND THE PHONES HAVE BEEN GRATING ON MY NERVES THE SOUND OF THE RINGER ON THE PHONE IS ENOUGH TO MAKE ME GO ALL WWF ON IT. OK NOT REALLY BUT I REALLY WANNA TURN IT OFF.
THIS WEEKEND WAS AN OK WEEKEND. I DIDN’T REALLY DO ANYTHING BUT THAT IS OK BECAUSE I DIDN’T REALLY WANNA DO ANYTHING. I AM FINDING THAT I AM REALLY STRUGGLING WITH LIFE ANYMORE. I AM NOT SURE WHAT BUT I AM FINDING THAT NOTHING REALLY MAKES ME HAPPY ANYMORE. I HATE IT WHEN I FEEL LIKE THIS BUT I KNOW IN TIME IT WILL ALL PASS. I KNOW CAN SEE WHAT PEOPLE IN MY FAMILY GO THROUGH AT TIMES. IT DOESN’T MAKE IT ANY EASIER BUT IT SURE MAKE ME FEEL NOT SO ALONE.
JOSH AND I ARE GETTING ALONG REALLY WELL AND I HOPE BY SAYING THAT THAT I AM NOT JINXING US. GUESS IF IT DOES OH WELL NOTHING I CAN DO ABOUT IT. I CAN SEE THAT HE REALLY IS TRYING TO CHANGE AND THAT IS ALL I CAN ASK OF HIM. I AM TRYING AS WELL AND I HOPE HE CAN SEE THAT WITH ME AS WELL.
WELL I HAVE DECIDED THAT I AM GOING TO GO TO THE GYM MONDAY THROUGH FRIDAY AND TAKE SATURDAY AND SUNDAY OFF. THE WEEKENDS ARE TOO HARD FOR ME TO GET MY BUTT MOVING AND DRIVE THERE. SO I AM GOING TO TRY AND GO MONDAY THROUGH FRIDAY AND REST ON THE WEEKENDS. WE WILL SEE HOW LONG THAT LAST THOUGH. I AM REALLY TRYING TO LOSE WEIGHT THIS TIME SO I HOPE IN TIME THAT I WILL BE ABLE TO SEE SOME PROGRESS. I HOPE THAT TIME COMES SOON! I AM GOING TO KEEP TRYING BECAUSE EVERYONE SAYS THAT I WILL SEE THE RESULTS IT WILL JUST TAKE AWHILE.
THE GIRLS ARE BEING THEMSELVES LIKE ALWAYS. I DON’T KNOW THAT I HAVE EVER OWNED CATS LIKE I HAVE NOW. THEY ARE TOTALLY CRAZY. YOU CAN NEVER PREDICT WHAT THEY ARE GOING TO DO FROM MINUTE TO MINUTE ANYMORE. THEY WILL DO SOMETHING SO DUMB AND TOTALLY CATCH YOU OFF GUARD ALMOST ALL THE TIME BUT THEY ALWAYS MAKE ME SMILE THAT IS FOR SURE.