TIRED OF IT ALL

EVER HAD ONE OF THOSE DAYS WHEN YOU ARE TOTALLY DONE AND CAN’T TAKE ANYMORE DRAMA AND PROBLEMS? WELL TODAY IS ONE OF THOSE DAYS FOR ME. I AM READY TO GO HOME CRAWL IN BED AND PULL THE COVERS OVER MY HEAD AND TRY AGAIN TOMORROW! FROM THE MINUTE I GOT UP TO NOW THE DAY HAS JUST GOTTEN WORSE FOR ME. THE MS IS REALLY BAD TODAY AND I AM SUPER SORE FROM THE GYM YESTERDAY. IF IT ISN’T ONE THING ITS TEN THINGS. I CAN’T WAIT FOR MY INFUSION ON FRIDAY BECAUSE I HOPE IT WILL STOP ANYMORE DAMAGE FROM HAPPENING AND HOPEFULLY WE CAN SAVE MY LEGS. THE WORST PART OF IT ALL IS NO ONE HAS TIME OR WANTS TO TAKE THE TIME TO LISTEN AND BE THERE FOR ME. MY GRANDPARENTS ARE TOO WRAPPED UP IN THERE LIVES AND MY LITTLE BROTHERS LIVE TO CARE ABOUT ME. JOSH IS IN SPRINGFIELD AND I DON’T BOTHER HIM WHILE HE IS THERE. SO YA LOOKS LIKE IT IS JUST ME LEFT TO FIGURE THIS OUT AND HOPE FOR THE BEST. THERE ARE VERY FEW DAYS THAT I REALLY WANNA DISAPPEAR BUT TODAY IS A BIG ONE OF THOSE. I FIND MYSELF SITTING AT MY DESK FIGHTING BACK TEARS AND I AM NOT EVER SURE WHAT THE TEARS ARE FOR THIS TIME. IT JUST SUCKS TO FEEL ALL ALONE IN THIS BIG SCARY WORLD! MORE THAN EVER NOW I NEED TO GO HOME AND BE WITH MY GIRLS! THEY ARE THE ONLY THING THAT MAY MAKE ME SMILE BUT I AM EVEN DOUBTING THAT RIGHT NOW. I AM AMAZED AT TIMES HOW GREATLY MY EMOTIONS SWING FROM SIDE TO SIDE LATELY. I HAVE STARTED TO WONDER IF THE MEDICATION IS WORKING OR IF I AM JUST HAVING A REALLY ROUGH PATCH RIGHT NOW.?.?.? I GUESS ONLY TIME WILL TELL WHAT IS GOING ON.