I AM SO CONFUSED ANYMORE. I HAVE ISOLATED MYSELF AND THE CONFUSION IS JUST GETTING WORSE. IT SEEMS THAT NO MATTER WHAT I DO OR SAY I END UP HURTING SOMEONE. I HAVE DECIDED THAT MAYBE I SHOULD BE SINGLE AND NOT BRING PEOPLE INTO MY LIFE. I AM THINKING BEING SINGLE IS GOING TO BE THE ONLY WAY THAT I WON’T GET HURT ANYMORE. I HAVE DECIDED THAT JOSH AND I WILL NEVER WORK OUT EVEN THOUGH I CAN’T STOP LOVING HIM. HE NEEDS TO MOVE ON AND FIND SOMEONE WHO ISN’T CRAZY LIKE I AM. MAYBE IN TIME THE RIGHT GUY WILL COME ALONG BUT I AM NOT GOING TO COUNT ON IT. I AM DONE TRYING TO FIND THE GUY FOR ME. PEOPLE SAY THAT HE WILL COME ALONG WHEN I AM NOT LOOKING FOR HIM. SO I AM NO LONGER LOOKING FOR HIM.
I HAVE REALIZED THAT I CAN’T TRUST MANY PEOPLE. I HAVE BEEN TRYING TO TRUST PEOPLE MORE BUT IT WAS CONFIRMED TO ME THIS WEEKEND THAT I SHOULDN’T TRUST PEOPLE. I WAS ONCE AGAIN SOLD OUT BY SOMEONE I THOUGHT WAS MY FRIEND AND IN THE END HE TOLD THE ONE PERSON IN MY LIFE THINGS THAT I DIDN’T WANT THEM TO KNOW. BUT WHAT ELSE SHOULD I HAVE EXPECTED. I KNOW WHY HE DID WHAT HE DID BUT IT DOESN’T MAKE IT ANY EASIER FOR ME.
THIS POST WAS JUST ME RAMBLING ABOUT THINGS THAT I NEEDED TO GET OFF MY CHEST.
