WELL IT IS MONDAY MORNING AND I WISH THAT IT WAS THE WEEKEND AGAIN. SO I RENTED THE MOVIE THE “KNOWING” AND I AM STILL NOT SURE HOW I FEEL ABOUT IT. IT WAS DEFINITELY A VERY WEIRD MOVIE. ANYWAYS OTHER THAN THAT MY WEEKEND SUCKED. AS YOU CAN SEE FROM THE PICTURES MY INFUSION THAT I HAD ON FRIDAY LEFT ME WITH A BIG BRUISE. I USUALLY LOVE BRUISE’S THAT I GET BUT THIS ONE IS SO BIG AND NOTICEABLE THAT IT IS STARTING TO SUCK, BUT IT COMES WITH THE TERRITORY I GUESS. THIS ONE MAKES IT LOOK LIKE I SHOOT UP DRUGS AND WHAT NOT. GUESS IF PEOPLE ASK I SHOULD TELL THEM IT IS BECAUSE OF DRUGS LOL. THEIR REACTIONS WOULD BE PRICELESS. ANYWAYS OTHER THAN MISTI AND I FIGHTING NOTHING ELSE HAS REALLY HAPPENED. IT HAS BEEN A PRETTY LAID BACK WEEKEND.
MISTI AND I FOUGHT BUT I AM SURE IN TIME THINGS WILL GET BETTER FOR US. WE JUST SEEM TO HAVE A CYCLE . WE DO GOOD FOR A WHILE AND THEN SOMETHING HAPPENS AND ONE OF US BLOWS IT OUT OUT OF PROPORTION AND WE SAY THINGS WE WILL REGRET AND THEN A FEW DAYS LATER WE TALK IT OUT AND ARE OK AGAIN. WELL I HOPE THAT IS HOW IT WORKS THIS TIME. I AM GOING TO DINNER WITH HER TONIGHT AND WE ARE GOING TO TALK ABOUT THINGS. I KNOW THAT SHE KNOWS I WILL ALWAYS CARE ABOUT HER AND BE THERE IF SHE NEEDS ME.
MY LITTLE BROTHER AND LACHELLE ARE UP AND DOWN LIKE USUAL. THEY DO WELL FOR A FEW DAYS AND THEN SHIT HITS THE FAN AGAIN. OH WELL MAYBE ONE DAY WILL GET IT FIGURED OUT AND MAYBE NOT BUT I CAN’T WORRY ABOUT IT. I HAVE TO FIGURE OUT MY LIFE AND MY RELASIONSHIP WITH JOSH.
JOSH WILL BE HOME THIS WEEKEND AND THAT IS ALWAYS EXCITING. HE WILL BE HERE FOR THE FAMILY REUNION SO THAT SHOULD BE INTERESTING. I AM SURE HE WILL BE ALL SORTS OF CONFUSED AT IT. HELL I DON’T EVEN KNOW WHO PEOPLE ARE IN MY FAMILY. I HAVE NO WAY OF TELLING HIM WHO THEY ARE. OH WELL I WILL JUST WING IT OR ASK GRANDMA WHO THEY ARE.
MANIC MONDAY
INFUSION FRIDAY
WELL I HAD MY INFUSION ON FRIDAY AND IT SUCKED TO SAY THE LEAST. THIS WAS A BAD ONE AND IT TOOK FOR FOREVER AND A DAY FOR IT TO BE OVER WITH. I AM GETTING TIRED OF SPENDING ALL DAY AT THE HOSPITAL AND I FEEL BAD THAT MY GRANDMA HAS TO SPEND ALL DAY THERE WITH ME AS WELL. YOU RUN OUT OF THINGS TO DO AND WHAT NOT WHEN YOU SPEND ALL DAY THERE. I GOT HOME ABOUT 2 AND THE INFUSION STARTED AT 8:30. IT IS SUPPOSED TO TAKE ABOUT 2 HOURS NOT THE WHOLE DAY. I AM GOING TO TALK TO MY DOCTOR ABOUT IT AND SEE IF WE CAN’T GO BACK TO THE REGULAR PACE. THE BRUISE IS GETTING COOLER EVERYDAY!
THE LATEST INFUSION
MY LAST INFUSION WAS ON FRIDAY AND IT DIDN’T GO WELL AT ALL. IT WAS LIKE THE FIRST ONE AND THAT SUCKED ROYALLY. I WAS SUPPOSED TO GO INTO WORK AFTER I GOT DONE WITH IT BUT IT WAS ALL I COULD DO TO DRIVE HOME WITH OUT PASSING OUT. I HAVE SINCE SPENT THE ENTIRE WEEKEND IN BED AND I AM STILL FEELING LIKE CRAP. I HOPE I AM FEELING BETTER BY MONDAY!
UPDATE
SO I REALIZED TODAY THAT I HAVEN’T POSTED IN OVER A WEEK. I GUESS I BETTER POST SOMETHING TO MAKE UP FOR IT. LETS SEE NOT MUCH HAS REALLY GONE ON SINCE I LAST POSTED. MY BROTHER IS IN WASHINGTON FOR THE REST OF HIS TRAINING AND HIM AND HIS GIRLFRIEND ARE FIGHTING LIKE ALWAYS. GOD ONLY KNOWS WHAT THEY ARE FIGHTING ABOUT ALL THE TIME ANYMORE. I GUESS SHE HAS STREP AND THAT HAS ME WORRIED BECAUSE MY NEXT INFUSION IS ON FRIDAY. I AM BEING EXTRA CAREFUL AND WHAT NOT AROUND HER. SO I THINK IT WILL BE OK AND NOT GET IT AGAIN. THERE REALLY ISN’T MUCH TO SAY SO I THINK THIS ABOUT IT FOR THIS POST. I WILL TRY AND POST MORE OFTEN!
INFUSION
WELL MY INFUSION WAS TODAY AND IT WENT GREAT!!!!!! I HAD NO REACTION AT ALL THIS TIME. SO IT IS A RELIEF TO KNOW THAT I CAN TAKE THE DRUG AND NOT HAVE TO WORRY ABOUT A REACTION. SO IT LOOKS LIKE THE DRUG IS GOOD TO GO. IT IS SUCH A RELIEF TO BE ABLE TO TAKE IT AND COME HOME AND FEEL GREAT. I HAVE A LITTLE HEADACHE BUT I CAN LIVE WITH THAT. NOT SURE WHAT I AM GOING TO DO WITH REST OF MY DAY OFF BUT I KNOW I WILL FIGURE SOMETHING OUT. HELL A DAY TO RELAX WILL BE NICE AS WELL!!!
ELINORE
WELL IT HAS BEEN AWHILE SINCE I HAVE POSTED AND NOT MUCH HAS HAPPENED. ELINORE HAS A COLD NOW. I AM NOT SURE WHAT TO DO FOR HER. I FEEL SO BAD FOR HER. SHE KEEPS SNEEZING AND RUBBING HER NOSE WITH HER PAW. I TALKED TO GRANDMA ABOUT IT AND SHE SAID ALL I CAN DO IS WAIT IT OUT BECAUSE I DON’T HAVE THE MONEY TO TAKE HER BACK TO THE VET. IT COST ME 200 LAST WEEKEND TO TAKE THEM FOR THERE SHOTS AND YEARLY CHECK-UP. THEY COST ME SO MUCH IT IS A JOKE. OH WELL GUESS THAT COMES WITH HAVING CATS THAT ARE LIKE MY KIDS. THE NEXT EXPENSE WILL BE WHEN I HAVE SYLVIA SHAVED. I AM GOING TO HAVE THE DONE THE END OF MAY SO THAT SHE WILL HAVE SHORT HAIR FOR THE SUMMER TIME. I AM SURE SHE WILL HATE ME WHEN I DO IT BUT OH WELL SHE WILL BE CUTE. I WILL BE SURE TO POST PICTURES OF HER WHEN I GET IT DONE. SHE WILL BE SO CUTE!!!!
I AM STILL SICK WITH THIS DAMN COLD I HAVE HAD SINCE LAST MONTH. IT IS SURE GETTING OLD THAT IS FOR SURE. I JUST WANT TO BE NOT SICK. MY NEXT INFUSION IS IN A WEEK AND FOR THE FIRST TIME I AM NOT NERVOUS ABOUT IT. I AM ACTUALLY READY FOR IT. IT ISN’T SCARY ANYMORE. I ALSO HAVE A DOCTORS APPOINTMENT ON TUESDAY AND THAT WILL BE NICE BECAUSE I DON’T KNOW IF SHE EVEN KNOWS THAT I AM HAVING THE INFUSIONS AGAIN. I ALSO HAVE TO GET PILLS FOR THE HEADACHES I GET AFTER THE INFUSIONS. I WISH THAT I COULD BE LIKE EVERYONE ELSE. I AM SO TIRED OF BEING SICK AND WHAT NOT. MY ANXIETY HAS BEEN REALLY REALLY BAD LATELY. I AM NOT SURE WHY BUT I HAVE REALLY BEEN STRUGGLING. IT IS GETTING HARD TO PUT A SMILE ON MY FACE EVERYDAY AND ACT LIKE NOTHING IS WRONG BUT IT IS SOMETHING I HAVE TO DO I GUESS. I HAVE TO ACT LIKE EVERYTHING IS ALRIGHT. I AM HOPING THAT ONE DAY THE SMILE I PUT ON WON’T BE FAKE AND I WILL TRUELY BE HAPPY WITH MY LIFE AND WHO I AM.
I AM BACK TO EATING EVERYTHING THAT SUCKS LOL. I AM BACK ON THE DIET. I SHOULDN’T SAY A DIET BECAUSE I HAVE TO EAT LIKE I AM NOW ALL THE TIME. IT SUCKS CAUSE THERE ISN’T MUCH I CAN REALLY EAT BUT IT HAS TO BE DONE SO THAT I WON’T BE THE FAT KID ANYMORE. I HAVE ALWAYS BEEN THE FAT KID AND I AM TIRED OF IT. SO I AM GOING TO LOSE THE WEIGHT AND KEEP IT OFF THIS TIME.
INFUSION
WELL I HAD MY INFUSION TODAY AND IT WAS BETTER THAN THE LAST TIME. I HAD A LITTLE REACTION BUT I TOOK MORE BENADRYL AND IT WENT AWAY. SO I AM HOPING THAT IT WILL GET BETTER EACH TIME. THIS TIME THE SLOWED DOWN THE RATE SO IT TOOK TWO HOURS INSTEAD OF ONE HOUR FOR THE MEDICATION. IT WORKS SO I AM GLAD THAT I AM DOING IT. I TRIED TO TALK TO THE UNIVERSITY OF UTAH TO GET HELP WITH THE BILLS BUT THE WON’T HELP ME UNTIL I HAVE A LOT OF BILLS THAT ARE OVER DUE . SO I HAVE DECIDED THAT I WILL WAIT TO PAY THEM SO I CAN GET HELP FROM THEM. RIGHT NOW I HAVE A HEADACHE THAT WAS CAUSED BY THE INFUSION. I CAN DEAL WITH A HEADACHE AS LONG AS THE DRUG WORKS, AND SO FAR IT HAS HELPED. MY NEXT ONE IS SCHEDULED FOR THE 24TH OF APRIL. THEY MIGHT HAVE ME TAKE STERIODS BEFORE I GET THE INFUSION SO THAT I DON’T HAVE ANY REACTION.
